Mimi POV
You might think I'm a horrible mother. I'm not though. I do love my child I just don't show it but I do. Roger and I are sleeping together again everything is getting back to normal. When Lena told me she wanted me to get better three years ago I started straitening up my act. I took her out to do girly stuff.
But she's been disappearing lately she's been disappearing for a while. Roger swears he's heard her get up in the middle of the night. She has been looking thinner, I tried talking to her but she say's she's alright. I hope I didn't start any thing.
Lena has been shaking and Roger and I are fearing that she might…. No she couldn't, she wouldn't. If only I knew where she was going? I think we're losing our minds. Our AZT has been getting lower. I just hope she's not doing anything stupid, especially after she's seen what's been going on with me.
To get my mind off things Maureen and Joanne to me to Santa Fe for the weekend. I hoped that the boys could keep and eye on Lena.
Lena POV
I can't stop. I want to because this is killing me the way it was killing them. I don't know how to tell them I have…,well they're starting to notice. The only one who knows is Uncle Mark. He is a white man to begin with, but when I told him I was like mom and dad he went as white as snow.
Uncle Mark was the one who found me. I made him promise not to tell anyone. I was in my room and I one night and I wanted to feel the thrill. I tried to be quiet but I hit a spot on the floor and it squeaked. I paused and then bolted to the window. My mom was out so it was only my dad and I that night.
I sat on the bath tub shaking, sweating, but I took the needle and felt the thrill. I started coughing and feeling dizzy. I was so cold I started feeling worse. I heard foot steps in the loft. Who would be in Mom's old loft? I was facing the wall so I couldn't see who it was. The foot steps stopped. "Mimi?" I heard my dad say.