Sorry this one took so long to post...and sorry that its so much shorter than the others i kind of rushed it a bit. I still hope you all like it....comments mean a lot to me...i'll reply to all of them.

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The week passed by in a blur. I kept up with avoiding Jacob during school. I would only sit with him in our last class together-the one without Edward. I have grown very fond of Edward and the rest of the Cullen's; they have taken a liking to me as have I.

After Jake left my house Monday afternoon, I took some time while I was making dinner and after I was settled for the night, to think through this mess I have gotten myself into. I have become such an obscurity to myself when it comes to my emotions. I realized that I was being entirely unfair to Jacob. I overreacted, dramatically. I can't begin to describe how awful I feel for hurting him like I did and making him reveal something so personal to me.

I still find it hard to believe that he is, indeed, in love with me but he still claims to be. I wasn't quite sure of how to react or what to do after he told me this. I'm still going backward and forward. One minute I want to call him and tell him to take me and be with me forever but the next minute I imagine him with that girl.

He talks to her a lot now. They walk to classes' together, hug, text each other during class. It's all very repulsing to me. I can't stand being anywhere near them. Although, I don't have much room to talk. Edward and I have become nearly inseparable. If it weren't for him I would probably be wallowing in self pity or I would've already run to Jacob with open arms. For some reason, that idea doesn't seem too smart to me.

I want nothing more than for things to go back to the way they were-still including Edward-and be peaceful once more. I hate the distance between Jake and me. I will admit that it is my fault because I have been pushing him away. It just seems so awkward and competitive now that we know how each other feels. I feel like I'm constantly being sized up to his new toy and I constantly feel him comparing himself to Edward. I never shoot daggers at him and his Katie but he sure does at me and Edward.

I still have a lot of things to think about and not a lot of time to do it in. I can only hope I don't lose everything I've always had over one stupid emotional breakdown. It's amazing how much of an affect jealousy can have on one person.

I find myself, lost, thinking about my situation, continuously. The distraction has made time fly by quite thoroughly, however. I am so glad it is Friday because what I need is a real distraction. Edward is going to be just that for my fun filled weekend.

Now I have to try my hardest to make it through this horrid day. Just as I was walking into the building, someone caught my attention.

"Bella Swan?" A snotty female voice asked from behind me. I turned to see who it was with a bored look on my face which quickly turned to disgust. It was her. Katie. Ugh, so it's going to be one of those days, huh?

"Yea, that's me." I told her, trying to keep my tone light.

"Yea, I figured," she said while looking me up and down. "Listen, I was wondering, are you and Jacob Black dating? Every time I bring him up someone brings you up and says that you are his girlfriend. Besides that, he talks about you all the time." She muttered in a disgusted tone.

Take a deep breath, Bella. "Well, why didn't you just ask Jake that? And why does it matter?" My tone wasn't so kind anymore.

"I've tried in-not so obvious ways- but he won't budge. Every time we get on the topic of you without him bringing it up, he gets all sad and mad and eventually just stops talking."

"Same question. Why does it matter?" I asked her, growing impatient. I didn't like this girl in the first place and now she's going to come to me and ask me if I'm dating Jake? Why would she think that she can be all over him like she is if I was dating him? This girl obviously isn't the brightest kid in the bunch.

"Because if you aren't his girlfriend, then I was thinking about asking him out. I didn't want to get in the way, though." She said, bluntly. I could feel my anger starting to boil. Apparently she knew that I wasn't dating him or else she wouldn't have just said that. I could feel my hand curling into a fist.

I had to grit my teeth. "Well, I guess it's a good thing I'm not or else that would have really pissed me off." I said as kindly as possible. It came out sounding kind of menacing.

"Yea I guess it is. So I guess he isn't single anymore, then. Thanks." She smiled at me.

She fucking smiled at me. That was it. I snapped.

"Uh, I don't think so. Me and Jake are talking and we're best friends so there for you can't go and ask him out because he's not really on the market anymore so…no…thank you." I said with my own smile. "But hey, don't worry, I'll gladly tell him in first that you were interested. I doubt that he will care being since he does want me and all but hey, what will it hurt to tell him. Anyway, I have to get to class, as do you. See you around." I walked away not giving her a chance to retort. I was on the verge of punching her right in her pretty little mouth.

I walked right over to Jake when I entered the class. I had already sent Edward a text explaining to him about everything. He was already laughing at me when I walked through the door.

Little Miss Katie never came to class.

Jake looked up, surprised to see me sitting with him. I rolled my eyes at him. "Hey. Look, I'm sorry about my mood swings lately and I'm really sorry about Monday. I want us to talk it out completely but it can't be this weekend. But I have something more urgent to tell you," he looked relieved. "I just ran into your girl toy, Katie."

He rolled his eyes at me. "She's not my girl toy, Bella. We're just friends. I never did anything with her. I almost did but after you started avoiding me I lost all interest in anything besides figuring out what was wrong with you. I guess you can say she's been my back up until you decided to forgive me. And no, I don't mean that in a sexual way. She's just helping to pass the time." He ranted at me.

I was a little taken aback by this. I figured that they were fuck buddies by now. There I go again, assuming. Well, we all know what happens when you assume.

"I'm sorry, Jake, I didn't mean to jump to conclusions but you might change your mind about her in a minute." He waited. "Well, she knew that you and I aren't dating but she still came up to me to rub into my face the fact that she is going to ask you to be her boyfriend." His mouth fell open a little. I wasn't sure if it was because of her wanting him or her being a sly bitch to me. Either way, I continued. "So, I kind of snapped a little-not the way I wanted to-but I told her that she can't date you because we are talking about dating." I looked up to him and waited.

"You actually told her that?" He asked, surprise coloring his tone.

"Yes. I know it was out of place but it was better than me hurting her physically. She was really pushing her luck and I'm not saying that I would win or anything but she sure as hell would know not to taunt me." My anger was rising again.

He laughed. "Wow, no, that's fine. I would've turned her down anyway. Like I said, she is just occupying my time until my best friend comes around. Just like your Edward over there."

That put me off a little. I was not using Edward, anymore. I and he have become really close friends over this past week. So I was not about to let Jake compare Edward to that skank.

"Jacob, I'm not using Edward. If you haven't noticed, I really enjoy spending time with him. Sorry, bud, but he's stepped up a notch ahead of you. All of the Cullen's are great. Other than Edward, I'm closest to Alice, the pixie-like girl." I told him truthfully.

"Whatever-not for long-so, wait, you're still going through with this date you have with him?" He acted like it was such a surprise.

"Yes, I mean, it's not a date, date; just two friends going out and having a great time. Because I know I will. He's a lot goofier than he lets off to be. He's just very reserved and polite during school hours but once he's away from the crowd, his true colors come out." I laughed at the memory.

Edward offered to pick me up the other day so I let him. As soon as I got in the car, he and Alice started bickering and Alice even jumped over the seat and started wailing on him. I had to hug up to the door in order to stay out of the line of fire. They were cursing each other until Edward finally made her take a seat and stop hitting him. I still have no idea as to why they were fighting; it's not my business.

He then turned on some Aqua song called "Barbie Girl". As soon as the music started I had to stifle a laugh. I looked over to him and he was singing to every word. He even danced along to the girl parts. Alice's anger couldn't even contain her laughter. By the time we arrived at school, I and she were crying from laughing so hard and Edward was acting as if nothing happened.

That afternoon, when we all got in the car, Edward surprised me once again by playing Insane Clown Posse-Cotton Candy. I didn't recognize the song but the vulgarity of it was funny enough; not to mention Edward, who was pretending to rap right along with it. It was all too hilarious. Right after that song went off; a very familiar piece of music began playing. It was a composition from Debussy called "Reverie". Once more, I was amazed.

He held such a variety of taste in music; a very amusing one at that.

"So what? I could honestly care less about Edward Cullen and his true colors. Don't look at me like that. As if he has anything nice to say about me and besides, you have the only opinion that I care about." He informed me with a smile.

"Well then you better start being nice to my other friends or you aren't going to like my opinion very much." I warned him. He seemed to take me seriously.

"Okay, sorry. If you really enjoy hanging out with them that much, then I won't hate on them. Hey, maybe I should come along with you guys on your 'hang out' and try to make a good impression." He suggested with real enthusiasm. This made me smile. I love that he is trying so hard to make things up to me; it gives me a feeling of hope. Maybe our friendship isn't completely lost.

"I would love that, Jake, but tonight it's just going to be Edward and me. Tomorrow we're going for a walk-I'm not sure where, though-and Sunday, we are going to get together and do homework." I told him.

"Okay, um, why can't I join you on the walk to wherever and we all have the same classes, so why can't I study with you?" He asked a little glum.

"Jacob, not that I wouldn't love to have you there but we already made these plans earlier in the week and I'm not going to change them-all of a sudden-just because you and I make up-a little." He didn't like my words but they were honest.

"Fine; can we do something after your 'study date', then?" He begged.

"Maybe, it depends on when we get finished. I might have you come help me make dinner for Charlie." I smiled brightly at him. He seemed satisfied. He nodded and we both turned our attention back to our teacher.

Lunch, once again, was a confusing situation. Now that Jacob and I are getting along, I kind of want to sit with him but I don't want Edward to think I'm ditching him-because I'm not. If only they didn't all hate each other. Well, they don't really but Edward does not have any interest in Jacob after what he did. I couldn't blame him. If a girl did that to Edward, I would hate her all the same-that's just how friends are. It would be the same way if the situation were reversed with Jake. Why do I always find myself in this stupid situations-being torn by two people I care about?

Speaking of people-not that I really care for him but I still had relations with him-Paul is headed my way. Crap. I never told Edward about Paul. Well, I never told him the whole story. He knows about how I met Paul and that we kissed but that's it. I never lied to him; I just didn't tell him the whole story.

"Hey, Bella. Jake says you two are working things out." He commented.

"I thought you guys hated each other." It wasn't a question.

I was very aware of Edward standing directly behind me.

"So…you never call me anymore. What's with that? I thought we were going to hang; after all, we never did get to go on that date." He avoided my question but why did he have to bring this up around Edward?

"Um, yea, I've been pretty busy. You know, trying to make Jake's life a living hell. That sort of stuff." I told him truthfully.

"Oh. So are you busy this weekend?" He asked. But instead of me answering, Jake did. Great.

Just what I need, all three of them in the same place at the same time with me in the middle.

"Yes, Paul," Jacob sneered his name. "She is busy, with Edward, here," he motioned to Edward. What is he doing? "So, no, you can't take her out this weekend. So just back off."

"Um, yea, that's about right." Edward said behind me. I looked over at him and he looked highly amused.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't know. If you aren't involved in this rendezvous, then how the hell is it any of your business?!" He shouted, sarcastically.

"Guys, calm down. There's no need to fight about it." I tried to soothe them. Edward wasn't helping anything by laughing at us.

"Because, jackass, I told you many times before to leave her the hell alone!" Jacob shouted back at Paul.

"Boys, come on, there really is no need for-"Edward started before he was rudely interrupted.

"Shut up!" Paul and Jacob both shouted at him at the same time. Edward's arms flew up above his head, dramatically, and he ducked down at the same time in an act of surrender. He was trying to hold back a laugh the whole time. I had to burst out laughing at this.

Paul and Jacob finally looked to see what was so funny and saw Edward's goofy stance and rolled their eyes.

"I'm out of here. I'll talk to you later, Bella." Paul snapped as he walked away.

"Bye." I said, still laughing at Edward-who was still standing like that.

"You can stop now." Jacob told Edward in a-not so amused-tone. I laughed harder as Edward relaxed his position.

"Sorry, just thought I was going to get stabbed there for a second." He said looking at me, trying not to laugh.

"Ha ha. Don't get use to that, either." Jacob warned Edward.

"Oh, don't worry. I'm not sure why you did it in the first place. I can handle myself; not that there was any need to, of course." Edward said in a bored tone as he gathered his lunch and headed toward his family. "You coming, Bella? Or are you sitting with him today?" He yelled over his shoulder.

Jake looked at me and nodded toward his table and jutted out his bottom lip as a sign of begging. I rolled my eyes at him but then I noticed Katie sitting at his table. I thought I might have a little fun.

"I'll sit with Jake today but I'll meet up with you when the bell rings." I shouted to Edward.

"Okay, see you then."

"Come on." I ordered Jake as I picked up my lunch and walked over to the lunch group.

Perfect. She is sitting directly in front of us.

"Bella, hey!" Mike called out, enthusiastically. "Glad to see you return."

"Don't worry, it's not permanent. I think I'll switch it up from now on, though. How's that sound, Jakey?" I batted my eyelashes at Jacob. His breath hitched causing me to laugh.

I can't believe I caused that reaction. "Yea," he laughed, huskily. "Whatever works for you, Bells."

"Ugh, I know you two aren't about to get all love sick on me over here." James complained. I rolled my eyes.

"Don't tempt me; I may just have to get physical." Jake winked at me. I laughed.

I guess Katie couldn't stand for the attention to not be on her. She had to but in.

"So, Jake, this is your girlfriend?" She asked in a disgusted tone. Jealous bitch.

Jake laughed, looking at me. "Not exactly. I can honestly say, I wish. But of course, stubborn Bella has to play hard to get." He clicked his tongue in disappointment.

"Oh please, Jake. Didn't it ever occur to you that I might not be interested?" I teased.

"Well, yea, I actually thought that for a while until you told me otherwise when we were in your bedroom yesterday." He wiggled his eyebrows at me. Everyone at the table made their "Ooooo's" and "Oh yea's." I rolled my eyes. Sly jerk.

"Yea, maybe next weekend we can get my dad to let you spend the night with me again. Only this time, we shouldn't behave so well." My voice was full of implications. I was enjoying this all too much. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to have a little fun with Jake. It's been a whole week; I think both of us have been deprived long enough.

Maybe we don't have to wait until next weekend. We could always have some more fun Sunday night when Edward and I finish hanging out. Wow, my weekend just became even more amazing.

"What a great idea, Bells." Jake cooed, licking his lips at me.

Wait 'til I tell Edward about this. He is going to get a kick out of Jake and me torturing this girl. She hasn't said a word since our little display. She's kept her eyes everywhere but on us. Good, because if she knows what's good for her, her eyes will stay down away from my Jacob.

"I know it is." I looked at him smugly.

I decided to really piss her off so I leaned forward and licked my lips. I saw her head snap up in pure horror as Jake looked at me with lust filled eyes before roughly kissing me. I broke away, panting. Everyone around us made a disgusted sound.

"Jesus, get a room!" Tyler shouted. I laughed.

I spotted Edward looking at me with disapproval clear on his face. I sent him an apologetic smile. He rolled his eyes at me with angry amusement and turned away.

"If he has a problem with us, then you can always come and spend tonight with me." Jake told me. I looked at him and rolled my eyes.

"He has every right to have a problem. He doesn't like you so of course he is going to have a problem." I told him truthfully. He didn't seem to like this too much.

The bell rang then and I jumped up and ran over to Edward, leaving Jake with a chaste kiss on the cheek.

As soon as I made it to Edward I locked my arm with his and held close to him. He smiled down at me kissed the top of my head. Jake was watching from a distance and was not happy. He can just get over it because I'm not changing things with Edward and me just because of Jacob. Sorry.

We walked to class slowly, letting everyone pass us in the hallway.

"I can't wait for tonight, where do you want to go?" Edward asked softly.

"Uh, I don't really care. Just not somewhere too fancy. I don't really like to dress up." I told him honestly. He nodded and said that we can look around.

Edward showed up at my house around seven. He was wearing old blue jeans with some vans and a Rolling Stones t-shirt with an opened, plaid, button down shirt over it. He looked extremely casual and handsome. His hair was the same mess as always which I always found myself running my fingers through when I had the chance. He didn't mind. He would always hum at the touch.

Our relationship seemed so intimate at times but yet always friendly. No one was making a move on the other but it still felt like we were at times.

I quickly ran down to greet him at the front door. He looked me over a couple of times before saying, "Nice." I blushed. I was wearing a denim skirt that was mid-thigh and a v-cut, long sleeved shirt that was a pretty color of teal.

He laughed at my shyness. "No, Bella, really, you look beautiful. I feel like I should go home and change."

"No, you look perfect. I just wasn't sure if we would go somewhere fancy or not so I chose to wear something fancy and casual." I explained.

"Well, you did say that you didn't want to go anywhere fancy so…" He trailed off. I rolled my eyes at him before dragging him to his car.

We drove to Port Angeles and found a nice pizza parlor to eat at. Edward was being such a gentleman. He held doors open for me and helped me keep from falling everywhere I walked. It was all very comforting.

Once we were done with our dinner we decided to go talk in the car for a while. It was too cold to walk-in my attire, at least-so we chose the warm Volvo.

"I'm really enjoying myself, Edward. I can't think of a time when I never have fun around you." I told him in the darkness.

He snickered. "I know exactly how you feel." He took my hand in his and traced invisible designs on it.

"That feels nice." I whispered to him, closing my eyes.

"Bella?"

"Hmm?"

"Can I kiss you?" He asked very bluntly. My head shot up and my eyes opened. I looked at him with a shocked expression. He smiled that beautiful crooked smile.

"Uh, why?" I asked in a quiet but bewildered, shaky voice. Why would he want to kiss me? That doesn't seem like him.

"Because you're beautiful and I've wanted to kiss you for so long now." He breathed into my face, leaning closer. My breath caught.

"Um, okay then." I gulped loudly. Why was I so nervous?

He leaned into me, licking his lips; I did the same before our lips touched. His kiss was sweet, slow, and passionate. I never wanted it to stop. I parted my lips for him, granting him access. His tongue found mine without haste. Our tongues massaged each other until we had no choice but to bread away for oxygen.

He tried to kiss me again but I put my hand on his chest restraining him.
"Edward, we can't do this. I can't lose you over this." I panted, resting my forehead against his.

"I'm sorry, you're right. We have too much to lose. I'm sorry, I'll take you home."

He pulled away and drove back to Forks. I couldn't stop replaying that kiss in my head, over and over again. It was so full of emotion that if I were standing, it would have caused me to collapse.

We were back in my driveway in no time at all. After the silent car ride, I tried to think of a way to salvage the evening.

"Um, we are still hanging out tomorrow right?" I asked, hopeful.

He smiled warmly at me and took my hand. He placed kisses all over my fingers and said, "Of course, silly girl."

I smiled brightly at him in the dark cab. I was so relieved. I had thought that I might have ruined things earlier but I guess not. I opened the door to get out and told him that I would call him tomorrow.

After he pulled away, I looked around the yard and noticed a familiar car parked in my driveway. It was Jacob. What is he doing here?

I made my way inside and noticed that Jacob was the only one sitting in the living room. Charlie had already gone to bed. Jake looked like he didn't have any plans of leaving. He was wearing his pajama bottoms and a tight fitting tank top. He looked breath taking.

He looked up from the television and smiled happily at me. I returned the smile.

"Hey, Bells, come sit with me. Charlie told me I could crash here for tonight. It was way too lonely at my house. Billy was at Harry's house, fishing. He said that he was just going to stay there for the night." Jacob explained as I sat next to him.

I curled into his side and let my bent knees rest on his thigh. He used them as an armrest. I lay my head on his shoulder and said, "That's fine, I don't really feel like being alone right now anyway."

"Good, because I'm sleeping with you tonight." He said with a laugh. I shrugged. I was trying to forget about that kiss between me and Edward and Jake was helping a lot. I just can't believe that Edward actually did see me like that. Oh well, I think I'll take my mind off of it with Jacob tonight.

"Okay, that's fine."

It was silent in the room for a while. It was probably midnight by now. I'm not sure. Suddenly Jake spoke up. What he said was definitely not something I was expecting to hear. Pretty damn random if you ask me.

"Take off your skirt." He ordered softly. I looked at him like he had just grown an extra head. He turned to glare at me. I flinched away from his cold stare until I seen the underlying lust hidden behind the façade. So we were going to play that game tonight? Okay, I'm down. "Take off your skirt, now." He demanded through clenched teeth in an eerily calm, quiet voice that sent chills up and down my spine.

I obeyed him. I stood up and took my pants off, not touching my panties; he hadn't ordered me to do so.

"You call me, Mr. Black." He ordered. I could feel the wetness in my panties now. So this is what happens when a man goes a week without sex? Damn.

"Yes, Mr. Black." I said, seductively. I noticed the front of his pants began to strain. The sight made me smile.

"Take your shirt off." He demanded softly, still sitting on the couch, watching me. He had turned the T.V. off. I took my shirt off and tossed it on the floor.

"What about Charlie?" I whispered to him. He shook his head at me and put his finger to his mouth, motioning for me to be quiet. I obeyed.

"Now, take the rest off." I did. "Bend over the table." He ordered me. This was getting even better. I did what he said. "Now it's time for your punishment for ignoring me." I moaned as I felt his hand smack against my ass. It wasn't hard but it did get my attention.

Slap! This time it was harder. I moaned. Slap! He got even harder. Slap! Slap! Slap! I was crying out in pain and pleasure as he repeatedly smacked my ass getting harder every time.

"Oh, Mr. Black! It hurts so good." I panted, trying not to be loud but my spanking was echoing in the room.

He finally stopped, when my ass was red as a cherry I presume. He grabbed my hair and pulled me up to him. I gasped at the pain.

"You are such a bad little bitch, Isabella!" He told me while still pulling my hair. I was so beyond turned on right now. My pussy was practically screaming for him. I felt his hand fly across my cheek, wrenching my head to the side. He slapped me-he slapped me right across the face.

"I'm so bad, Mr. Black, I deserved to be hit again." I said to him. He did what I wanted. He let go of my hair and reared back and slapped me hard enough to knock me on the couch. It felt so good! I was going mad. I wanted him fuck me so hard right now.

I never thought that I would like something like this but I guess I was wrong. I loved the fuck out of being slapped in the face and spanked. It felt so fucking good.

"You fucking bitch!" He exclaimed while ripping his clothes off and yanking me up by my hair again. He started to drag me to the front door.

"Mr. Black, where are we going?" I asked. He threw the door open and threw me outside, following right behind me. Now, I had no idea what the hell was going on. It was freezing outside and we were both butt ass naked. He grabbed my hair again and dragged me over to the first tree in sight. He threw me up against it; I had to brace myself against it to keep from slamming face first into it. He grasped my hips and pulled my ass toward him. Finally.

I could taste the blood on my lips and feel my cheek start to swell, that was until I felt his hard ass cock force its self into my tight asshole!

"AHHHH!!! Ow, ow, ow, fuck! Fucking christ! WHAT THE FUCK?!" I wailed as he grunted and thrust himself further into me.

"OHHH shittt!!! Oh that's so…fucking….tight….oh…yea….uhh…uhh….uhhh!!!" Jacob panted behind me. When did we ever discuss anal sex? I don't ever recall telling him he could shove his-

"OHHH, oh yea. Don't….stop….right….there…." I panted against the tree. He had found some magical spot and pounded relentlessly into it shattering all of my previous complaints about anal sex. This shit was amazing.

"Yea, see, you like that shit don't you?" He demanded as he spanked me. I could feel myself convulsing underneath him. I was going to cum at any moment. "That's right baby, cum for me!"

"Oh, Jacob…" I cried as I tightened around him and moaned out in pleasure. I rode my orgasm out until Jake pulled out of me and threw me on the ground.

I was laying on my back-on the freezing cold, wet ground-while he leaned over my head and shoved his dick into my mouth. He lay down on top of my face-holding his own weight so that I could breath-and shamelessly fucked me in the mouth. I tried to help him and suck it but he was gagging me half the time because he kept pounding into my face like it was my pussy. Thankfully my face didn't get broken, even though I almost choked to death on penis. He started to cum uncontrollably. I could feel his hot semen running down the back of my throat. I swallowed it all down.

He finally moved off of me and helped me up. Hopefully his raging hormones were calmed now because I was drained.

He smiled a goofy grin at me and made me laugh.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to get so rough. Are you okay?" He asked, still smiling. I know the smile was because it all felt amazing, not because he had basically beaten the shit out of me. I only hope no one is watching us right now.

"Nah, I'm fine. I actually liked it. Except for the part where you try to choke me to death with your dick. That part was kind of fucked up." I said with a laugh.

"Yea, I just got carried away. But hey, let's get inside before we get caught." He said, grabbing my hand and pulling me inside.

"Grab our clothes and let's crash. I'm beat. Literally." I told him, heading upstairs.

I crawled into my warm, comfy bed, promising myself to wear make up tomorrow because it will surely be needed. I don't know how I'm going to explain these marks to Charlie or Edward. That's going to be interesting.

I suddenly felt two big warm arms wrap protectively around me under the blankets and I quickly drifted off to sleep.

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