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I woke up to Charlie banging on my door, trying to get in. Jake must have locked it last night.
"Bella Swan, open up this door now! You have a visitor and I told you two before-no locking the door!" Charlie wailed through my bedroom door.
"Hold on, Charlie, we're getting up!" Jacob shouted to him, his voice full of sleep.
I rolled over Jake and put my clothes on quickly and threw Jake's clothes at him. I yanked the door open and gave Charlie a dirty look.
"How late were you up? You have never slept in this late before and-"he gasped. "What in the hell happened to your face?!" He screamed, grabbing my chin to look closer. I forgot all about my bruises but now that he mentioned it-ow.
I yanked my face away. "It's nothing; I fell." I lied, horribly.
He scoffed, "Yea, Bells, some fall! Jacob Black, I know you did NOT do this to her!" Charlie yelled at Jacob, who finally made his way to the door.
"Uh, what?" Jake asked, still half asleep. I rolled my eyes.
"No, Charlie, I told you, I fell. It happened last night."
"Bella, people don't fall and look like they got the crap beat out of them. Stop lying to me." Charlie ordered.
"Dad, Jacob did not hurt me. You know he would never be able to. I would kick his butt if he even tried to." I assured my dad. Technically everything Jake did was wanted.
I pushed past my dad before he could argue any further and ran down stairs, only to find another big surprise waiting for me.
"Edward, what are you doing here?" Once again, I forgot about my messed up face until he noticed it. His face went from shocked to worried to sick and then to pure murderous. I was beginning to worry.
"Bella, what happened? Who did this to you?" Edward gasped. As if on cue, Jake comes walking down the stairs, arguing with Charlie, in nothing but his boxers. Sheesh, can't he have a little respect? Edward turned to glare at Jacob as if he already knew the answer to his question.
"What the fuck are you doing here?" Jake questioned Edward-shrinking in his malicious gaze.
"Uh, I forgot, Edward and I have plans today. I overslept." I explained to Edward and everyone else.
"Yea, I figured that much." Charlie said, looking back in forth between Edward and Jacob-who were staring each other down-Edward was winning.
"Edward, it's not what you think. Jacob didn't do thi-"I tried to explain.
"Bullshit!" Edward interrupted me.
"Hey, don't talk to her like that!" Jake snapped at him.
"Cool it, both of you." Charlie demanded, going to stand in between them.
"Oh I wasn't. That was directed toward you!" Edward said in a menacing voice, acid lacing his tone.
"Edward, he didn't. Just, calm down, please." I walked over to him and placed my hands on either side of his face. He took a deep breath and looked at me.
"Oh, Bella, you look terrible." He sighed in my face, his sweet breath washing over me. I smiled up at him.
"Well, thanks, I wouldn't know-I haven't looked in the mirror yet-but from everyone's reactions I believe you." I laughed. He bent down to kiss all of my cuts. I giggled.
"Alright, alright, enough of that. I'm going fishing with Harry. Have fun here and take care of that face." He grimaced while looking at me. That bad, huh?
"Sorry, Mr. Swan. It was a pleasure to meet you." Edward said to my father, holding out his hand for a shake. My dad took it and smiled warmly at him.
"No problem, good meeting you too, Edward." Charlie told him before walking out the door. He stopped with the door open and glanced back to Jacob.
"Oh, uh, Jake? Next time, keep the violence to a minimum with my daughter. I don't like seeing her all black and blue. Next time I won't be so forgiving about it." Then he was gone.
Why did he have to say that with Edward standing right here? I could see Edward growing angry again as he looked back to Jacob.
"So you did do this?" He asked with disgust in his tone.
"Yea, yea, she liked it. Bella is quit the freak you know. Why don't you tell him just how much you did like it?" Jacob suggested looking at me. I rolled my eyes at him.
"Jake, shut up. Edward, look at me. Calm down, we just got out of hand. We were rough housing and got a little too rough but it won't happen again so don't worry." I tried to soothe the seething Edward.
"You're damn right it won't happen again because if it does, your father will be the last person he is going to have to worry about." Edward threatened.
Jacob scoffed. "Yea, I'm real terrified of you. The only reason I'm even a little worried about Charlie is because he can keep me away from Bella. You can't. So why don't you just run along."
"Jake, don't you dare be rude to him. Ugh, I should've never gone along with your bullshit last night. Why don't you just go? I'm not going to listen to you insult Edward." I snapped at him.
"Are you kidding me, Bella? You're seriously going to choose him over me?" Jake asked, surprised out of his mind.
"I'm not choosing anyone over you. I'm just not going to let you talk to him that way. I wouldn't let him talk to you that way if he didn't have good reason. How would you feel if this situation was reversed and you two had switched places?" I asked him.
He looked stuck. He knew I was right but didn't want to admit it.
"Maybe you should leave. Because I'm going to wait for Bella to get ready for our afternoon and I don't think it's a good idea if she leaves us alone down here. You might just go home looking worse than she does." Edward threatened. This behavior surprised me; he didn't strike me as the violent type but I guess I was wrong.
"Oh yea? Is that a promise, Cullen?" Jacob took a step toward him. Crap.
"If you're smart, you will leave it as a threat and walk away now." Edward warned him. Jake didn't listen; instead, he took another step closer to him.
"Stop it, both of you. You are not about to fight, here in my house-or outside." I quickly said.
"Back the fuck up!" Edward snapped in his face.
"Fucking make me, bitch!" Jacob snapped right back.
This is not good. Oh no!
Edward pushed Jacob-with hardly any force-and knocked him into the wall by the stairs. Shit!
"There! I fucking made you, asshole." Edward screamed at him.
Jake lurched himself up and tackled Edward to the ground.
"STOP! I'm calling Charlie if you don't stop it, NOW! Please, Jacob, get off of him!" I shouted, starting to cry. They were rolling around on the floor, punching and slapping each other, hard.
"Motherfucker!" Jacob screamed as he landed a right hook into Edward's side. I was really beginning to panic.
"Fuck you, cocksucker!" Edward yelled as he punched Jacob right square in the jaw. I really hope I didn't just hear something break.
"Both of you stop it now! I'm not going to speak to either one of you if you don't stop!!!!" I was hoping that threat would scare them from fighting and make them stop but no, they only got worse. What the hell am I going to do? I really don't want to call Charlie because then they would both be banned from the house. I cringed and gasped as I seen them both take another swing at each other's face. This was only getting worse. I'm going to have to take extreme measures.
"Fine, you guys want to kill each other? Fine then, fuck you both! I don't need either of you! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE AND DON'T COME BACK OR EVER CALL ME AGAIN!!!" I screamed, running up the stairs to my room, crying. I was going to make them pay for this. And it's going to kill me right along with them. But I have to do it.
Once I got into my room I grabbed the rest of Jake's clothes and ran back down the stairs. They were finally breaking it up. Edward pushed Jake back onto the floor as he tried to get up. Jake, thankfully, didn't retaliate. Oh well, what's done is done and I'm not changing my mind. I threw Jake's clothes at him as he pulled himself up. They were both in obvious pain. Wow, they both did some serious damage.
Edward started walking toward me. "Bella, I'm so sorry. I lost it. I couldn't help it. I can't let anyone hurt you like that-I don't care if you liked it or not. It was wrong of him."
"Oh, shut up!" Jake snapped at Edward as he pulled his clothes on, wincing when he would move the wrong way. He was already bruising on his ribs and face-they both were.
"NO, both of you shut up and get out of my house!" I screamed at them. "Don't either of you come near me and get out NOW!!!"
"Bella, what is your problem? Calm down, it's over." Jacob said, looking really nervous. He should be nervous being since I'm about to kick both of them out of my life.
"You are my problem! Both of you! Neither of you could just leave it alone. You," I started, jabbing a finger at Jacob. "You had to be a badass; and you," I jabbed my finger at Edward this time. "You just couldn't accept my answer that nothing was wrong and had to step in and challenge him!"
"Bella-"Edward started.
I interrupted him. "No, I don't want to hear it. Both of you leave now. I don't want you to come here again or call me or talk to me during school. You can have each other for all I care. I'm done with both of you." I said in a quiet but menacing tone, not looking at either of them.
"Please don't do this." Jacob pleaded. I knew not to look at him because I would give in.
"Bella, please don't. This was a mistake, I'm so very sorry. Please can you forgive us? We didn't mean to hurt you." Edward begged for the both of them.
"Yea, Bells, we're sorry. We'll do anything; just don't kick us out for good." Jacob added.
"Anything?" I asked, this time looking at them.
"Yes." They both said at the same time.
"Okay, then, leave me alone. I want space. I don't want to talk to either of you or hear from either of you and I only want to have to see you when it's absolutely necessary. That is the only way you will have a chance." I stated coldly.
They both looked at me with the most heartbreaking faces. I could feel the traitor tears run down my face as they looked to one another, defeated.
"Please just go." I begged them silently.
"Alright. We'll leave. But we really are sorry." Edward said, walking toward me. He placed his hand on my cheek and kissed me on the forehead. He caught one of my running tears.
"I'm so sorry, Bella. I hope you forgive us soon." Jake pitched in, coming to stand on my other side, opposite Edward, and kissed me on the cheek.
"Goodbye." I said as I walked to the door and opened it for them. I didn't look at them again as they slowly walked past me. I slammed the door shut behind them and walked slowly into the living room.
I'm not going to be sad about this. They are the ones who made the mistake. I told them not to fight but they did anyway. I'm going to make them suffer but I shouldn't have to suffer with them. I wiped the last of my pointless and ridiculous tears away, roughly. Forget it. I'm going to use this as an advantage. I will live my life as if they never existed-well in their eyes anyway. I have plenty more friends other than them, so I can manage just fine. All the while, I'm going to dangle myself in front of them like a piece of fresh meat. I'm going to flirt with other guys when they're around; I'm going to find every way to be near them but not acknowledge them in any way. I think I might even dress a little sexier just to make them drool. Yea, I really like this evil plan. It keeps me from being miserable but makes them utterly insane. But I hope they don't think they are going to find some other girl. Oh no, I will sabotage any kind of relationship that I don't approve of. I know that's very horrible but they're my best friends and I'm not inclined to share and plus that, they're supposed to be miserable until I take them back. I'm not sure how long I plan to keep this up; I don't think that I can put a time limit on this. I do know, however, that I will be sexually deprived for a while being since I just broke up with my fuck buddy. Wait, no I won't. There's always Paul…
Paul, what a perfect person to use to make my boys jealous and angry. He's also a good fuck so that would solve that problem. I'm pretty sure I could openly share this idea with him and he would happily oblige. He seems to enjoy torturing Jacob quit thoroughly. Wow, I really am starting to sound like a whore but this evil plan of mine has sparked a new flame inside of me. One that says that I want to torture the boys and make them grovel at my feel. I do feel sort of bad for doing this to Edward being since he was only defending me. I really like him and that kiss we shared was absolutely amazing. I think after this is all over, I'm going to steal me another one of those babies. I'm going to miss the hell out of him. Jacob on the other hand, I don't mind doing this to him so much because he deserves it more than anyone. But they shouldn't have hurt one another. That hurt me more than anything. The two people I care about the most were brutally beating the shit out of each other over me. I'd rather see them make out than fight. That would actually be a pretty hot sight. That just might be another punishment for them. I mean, they did seem pretty dead set on working together to make me forgive them. It was quite funny-a complete 180. One minute they were fighting like dogs; the next minute, they were teaming up to calm me down. Maybe this little act of desperation will trigger a friendship in them with each other. I would love more than anything to see my two best friends become close friends. I don't like having to choose, which is exactly why I chose to throw them both out. They were both at fault so they both were being punished.
I decided to go ahead and put my plan into action; starting with a phone call…"Hey, Paul? So, I have a proposition for you…"
Later on that night, I felt so accomplished and bad. This feeling was exhilarating! I had already set out my outfit for Monday; something warm but provocative. I'm sure Jake and Edward won't be the only guys noticing but the other guys can forget about it. I'm on a mission.
I was finishing Charlie's dinner when he finally walked in, reeking of nasty lake water and fish. I guess he scored a good catch today.
I walked into school Monday morning with a confident aura about me. I had my shoulders back, my back straight, and a smile spread across my face. I couldn't wait to put this plan into action.
I noticed Jacob standing up against the wall by our first period; James was standing next to him. He looked at me, hopefully, as I approached him. His face fell automatically when I walked straight past him. I guess he thought I would've been over his and Edward's showdown Saturday-wrong. I'm very much not over it.
I took my seat in my usual spot-next to Jacob's chair. He came in shortly after and sat next to me. I didn't look up at all. I noticed Edward walk in the door, then, also. He was looking as handsome and rugged as usual but slightly depressed. I ogled at him a bit. I could tell that he didn't bother shaving this morning and probably was wearing clothes from his dirty hamper. Good, he's suffering.
Jake didn't look too hot himself. He obviously didn't put any effort into today's attire. I snickered. I, on the other hand, looked pretty sleazy. I was wearing a pair of very tight, low rise jeans and a very revealing shirt. I caught a peek of the both of them looking at my chest before turning away with a defeated sigh. I laughed again. Jacob looked at me this time; I merely looked in the opposite direction.
The next two classes went by similar to the first. Guys were constantly staring at my chest and I didn't acknowledge Jake at all. Lunch is going to be a different matter. It's a good thing I already informed Alice of my charade and she informed the other Cullen's without their brother's knowledge. They were-all too-willing to help me in my game. When are guys ever going to learn not to piss a girl off? Probably never.
I walked into the lunchroom, quickly. Alice and Jasper were already seated. I was going to sit with them today. Time to make Edward suffer-I'm going to try to go easy on him, though. I don't want to completely push him away.
"Hey, Alice, Jasper." I greeted them as I took my seat.
"Hey, Bella." Alice chirped. Jasper nodded in my direction with a warm smile.
"What's up, Belly?" I heard Emmet bellow out behind me coming to sit next to me. He put his arm around my shoulder and kissed me on the cheek. I laughed at him.
"Sheesh, Em, get a grip." Rosalie pinched him on the arm eliciting an 'OW!' from Emmet.
"Hey guys. Bella." Edward nodded his head at me as he took a seat next to me. I didn't look at him. Everyone at the table looked to me with a smirk. Emmet put his arm back around me.
"So, Bella, I was wondering if you would want to come over this weekend. Please????" Alice begged me. I noticed Edward look at Emmet's arm around me as if he was going to bite it off.
"Yea, sure." I told her with an eye roll.
"Yippee!" She screeched.
"So, Bella, are you doing anything until the weekend? Any plans?" Jasper asked casually.
I saw Edward perk up with interest. "Uh, yea actually, I'm going down to La Push tomorrow night. Me and my friend Paul are going to go for a walk; maybe a swim-depends on how cold it is." I said with a shrug.
"I thought he was just trying to get in your pants?" Edward snapped all of a sudden.
"Edward, it's none of your business what goes on between Bella and her other friends. Leave her alone." Rosalie pitched in so that I didn't have to say anything. Thank you Rose.
Edward huffed and looked away, mumbling something unintelligible. I ignored him while I started talking about unimportant things with everyone at the table-besides Edward.
I walked to class alone. I could feel him right behind me; he was close enough to touch and for me to hear him breathe but so far away at the same time. I decided to sit somewhere completely different than with either of them. This is actually going to be tougher than I ever thought.
About two weeks passed by very slowly. Paul and I would go for walks on the beach when we knew Jacob would be out and we would constantly flirt. Sometimes when Jacob wasn't anywhere to be found, we would find a spot on the beach and just make out-nothing better to do with the time. I'm still not exactly sure why I am choosing to make them jealous-maybe it's just so they can see that I don't need them. It's not like I couldn't have either of them; it's just that…well I don't really know.
Jacob once told me that he was in love with me. We haven't acknowledged those emotions since they were spoken. I could tell by the way he acted toward me and looked at me that he wasn't lying but that conversation has never been brought up again. That thought-for some reason-takes away the guilt I feel for doing what I'm doing.
Edward, however, seems to be a more complicated subject. There was never any intimacy between us except for that kiss so I don't put as much effort behind making him jealous but no one can possibly imagine the amount of effort I put behind ignoring him. It's really hard on for me those days that I go over to his house with Alice and Rose. He always seems so sad and heartbroken; and I notice him, in my peripheral, attempting to talk to me but thinking better of it.
I would always go home feeling as if I accomplished nothing. I found myself crawling up into a little ball and crying myself to sleep some nights. Usually those are the nights that I would call Paul over to help me 'take my mind off things.' Tonight happened to be one of those particular nights.
"Hey, Paul, are you busy? Charlie is working late and I really need someone." I pleaded with Paul into the receiver. He, of course, was always willing to help me out with any physical needs. But that's all it was between us, physical. We liked to have sex with each other and that's it. When we first met, I was considering really getting to know him and possibly even dating him one day but we just really aren't meant to be together in that way. Hell, we probably shouldn't be together this way but I have needs.
I heard a knock on my front door and ran to answer it.
As I slung the door open, Paul pushed forward out of the cold. "Hey, Bella. So uh, you sure Charlie won't come home any time soon?" He asked, slightly nervous.
"Don't worry about it. He said he might not make it home till morning." I assured him. I wouldn't just invite a guy over to have sex with me unless I knew the coast was clear.
"Okay, then, let's get started." He said with a sly smile. The way he said it reminded me of starting class at school.
We ran up the stairs into my bed room and he already had his shirt off and his pants halfway down his legs. I laughed at his urgency. It was seriously unnecessary.
"Calm down big boy. Don't rush yourself so much." I ordered in a teasing tone, removing my clothes.
I hopped on my bed and spread wide open for him. He quickly joined me and pushed his hardness into my center. I moaned out in ecstasy. He ground harder and harder in me until the bed was shaking beneath us. As I was watching him, moaning loudly, I couldn't help myself when I started to picture Jacob thrusting inside of me. That image filled my thoughts and soon I was hearing Jacob grunting over top of me and feeling his warm arms around me and feeling his thick, warm lips on mine. I felt my body convulse as I rode out my orgasm and I called out Jacob's name.
The last image I could recall was Edward's naked body on top of mine and then reality hit me and Paul was standing up to remove the filled condom. I looked up at him apologetically.
"Okay, so I don't mind that much when you scream out Jake's name, but Jake and Edward right after the other is a little creepy." Paul snickered at me while trashing the condom.
I blushed. "I said Edward's name?" I was shocked; I only remember saying it in my head.
"Uh, yea. It's a good thing I was already cumming when you did or else I would've completely lost it." He sighed, getting dressed.
"I'm sorry. I didn't realize…" I looked away, ashamed. I felt him sit next to me and tilt my chin up to look at him.
"Why don't you just forgive those two? I'm sure they have suffered enough. Besides, they are starting to get close-"
"What? What do you mean? Have you seen them together or something?" I interrupted him. I probably would've found out if I didn't cut him off.
"If you would let me finish…yes, I have seen them together, a lot. They hang out on the beach all the time now. I snuck up on them the other day to figure out what the deal was and overheard them talking about you." He said, absentmindedly, tying his shoes.
"Continue." I probed him.
"Well, I didn't get the entire exchange but they were just talking randomly about you. It was like since they can't have you then they need to talk about you or something, I don't know. They were enjoying themselves though, in a sad kind of way. It was as if they were two old people talking about their grandkids or something. So yea, you definitely need to forgive them before they end up making out with each other from lack of Bella time. I seriously think your absence is turning them gay." He laughed and grimaced at the idea of them making out on the beach.
I laughed loudly at this. "Wow, maybe you're right. I'm a pretty big mess without them too. But I was hoping to drag this out a little longer than a couple of weeks."
"Bella, if you drag it out any longer, then they are eventually going to move on without you. Other girls have noticed your lack of time with them and they are starting to get persistent." Paul informed me.
"Mmm, has Jake given in any?" I was truly curious. It would probably hurt to know but I wouldn't get angry.
"Nope. He's staying strong and hanging in there." He smiled at me as he stood to leave. "Well, I should get home before you're dad decides to come home early."
"Okay, so I'll call you later and let you know how everything goes?" I asked Paul.
"Definitely. I love you and all but you sure are giving me a work out with these booty calls of yours." He teased, poking me in the ribs.
"I'm so sorry, I won't bother you again." I joked, pushing him out the door.
I'm really glad I seen him tonight. He's right; I need to stop being childish and forgive Jake and Edward before I do lose them. I would probably find my own great depression if I do. Well I will start with Edward tomorrow. I'll call him and ask him to meet me somewhere and I will apologize and hope that I didn't completely lose him in these past three weeks. Jacob would be later on; I'll call him and have him come over for dinner or something and win him back with food. He's always a sucker for some good home cooking.
I lie down in my bed and let unconsciousness take over me. It's always easier for me to sleep after a good orgasm. That's the main reason why I call Paul over in the first place. A quick fix. I felt a ting of guilt take over me momentarily for using Paul. But he doesn't really mind. He has already explained to me, in more or less words, that he doesn't see me in an emotional light. He doesn't have feelings for me. Anyone would've thought differently if they seen us for the first time together. We were acting as if we had been together for months-especially since we had sex the first time we met. Come to think of it, that should've been a big sign right there. Any guy you sleep with on the first encounter is probably not going to be boyfriend material.
I fell asleep, lost in thought. Edward played a role in my dreams. They were quit peaceful; unlike my usual ones. He was just holding me in this dream and he was kissing me. Every little embrace made me smile and my heart swell. He whispered to me that he loves me and then the scene flashed to us in his car. I could almost feel his lips on mine again.
"Bella. Bella, wake up! Stop trying to kiss me!" Charlie yelled as he shook me awake.
I snapped my eyes open and realized I was trying to pull me father onto the bed with me and I was making kissy noises. You have got to be kidding me. I could feel the blush burn my cheeks.
"I'm sorry. I was dreaming… and you…and…oh, I didn't mean to." I was so embarrassed I thought I would cry but Charlie just laughed.
"Don't worry about it, kid. Happens all the time." He waved his words away with his hand. He can't be serious.
"Really?!" I screeched. He cringed and laughed again.
"No, Bella, I'm just kidding. Jeez, maybe you should go back to sleep." He rolled his eyes and walked out of my room.
Get a grip, Bella. I climbed out of bed and headed for the shower.
When I was finished, I walked down stairs to greet Charlie. He was getting ready to head into work. That was when it hit me that it's Saturday. I need to call Edward. My day suddenly got brighter. I can't wait to have him back in my arms again….I mean life.
Thankfully, he had his cell on him and wasn't busy. We agreed to meet at the diner and have lunch. He was so happy to have me talking to him again. I could tell that he was trying to contain some of it. I'm guessing that was to spare him some dignity. Either way, I saw through it.
I pulled up to the diner and noticed him standing up against the Volvo looking so, very handsome. I wanted so badly to just run up to him and grab him into a hug and kiss him with everything I've got. But this isn't the time or place. I need to play it cool and get my best friend back.
His whole face lit up when he seen me coming forward but he didn't move. I noticed him jump forward a little bit but caught his self before he moved too much. I had to stifle a laugh.
"Hey, Edward." I said casually.
"Hi. I've missed you." He said so sweetly that my knees felt week. It was kind of how I felt in my dream when he told me that he loved me.
"I've missed you too. But, hey, let's get some grub and we can talk." I suggested.
He opened the door for me and followed behind me to a private booth. "I'm so glad that you called me. I've been going nuts without you. Jake has been telling me about you when you were younger. I wish I was there." He sighed.
"So that's what you guys have been doing together? Paul told me about seeing you two at the beach a lot."
I saw a flash of jealousy and anger in his eyes. His tone came out a bit sharper. "Yea, I'm sure he did. We noticed him watching us a couple of times."
"Oh, well he just told me last ni…yesterday. At least you guys are getting along. I'm really happy about that." I touched his hand and he calmed instantly.
"Yea, Jake's a pretty cool guy. We both just really miss you and want you back." He smiled sadly.
"Well, Edward, I'm back. I realize that I've been acting childish. I shouldn't be flaunting myself in front of you guys. I'm sorry for that. Can you forgive me?" I asked Edward.
"Bella, love, you don't need to apologize but if you want me to forgive you then I will-even though it's not needed-I just want you back in my life."
"Like I said, I'm back." I smiled widely at him and he returned it.
The whole time we were at the diner all we ordered was drinks. We were both too happy to have each other back to eat anything. He held my hand on top of the table the whole time. I felt so complete now that he was with me again.
We left together and went over to his house to tell the rest of the Cullen's that the game is over. Things are going to go back to the way they were before. I hope.
I called Jacob the next day and apologized to him. He took me back with open arms and insisted that we 'catch up' sometime soon. He seemed very urgent on that matter. I promised him next Friday night that he will have me all to himself. He was super excited about that. Jeez, you would think the boy didn't know about masturbation.
School started in a different way, though. Instead of me rotating my seating arrangements, we all sat together. Edward came to join me and Jake in the back of the room in the classes we shared together and Jake joined Edward and I at the lunch table with the other Cullen's. They all welcomed Jacob with open arms. We now had our own little-well big-group or family.
Everything became routine again only it was all pieced together. I have never felt so complete in my life. Edward and Jacob were worse than two girls sometimes. They would always place themselves on either side of me and talk over me. Sometimes I felt left out.
I usually didn't drive myself to school anymore. Edward was my permanent ride to and from school-he insisted. I didn't protest because I enjoyed the short alone time I had with him. Today, however, I would be riding home with Jake. I promised him some 'quality time' with me about three weeks ago but we never got around to it because something always came up. So, I told him that today would be the day. I sort of felt sad knowing that I wouldn't be getting my afternoon hand-holding session this afternoon.
Every morning and afternoon when Edward and I would get into his car, we would automatically hold hands. We didn't even talk or think about it; we just did it. Well, the first time, we talked about it a little.
Flashback:
We were riding in the Volvo on the Monday morning after we made up. We were listening to some soothing piano music with hardly any conversation. Suddenly, Edward intertwined his fingers with mine. He didn't look at me though. I looked down at our hands and then up to his face.
"Sorry, Bella, I just couldn't help myself. I had to touch you. I know that sounds weird but I was severely resisting the urge to reach over and caress your cheek and I could quit possibly get into a wreck if I did, so yea." He blushed. It was the cutest thing I had ever seen him do.
I smiled brightly. "No, it's perfectly fine. I like it."
He looked to me for a moment with a warm smile on his lips. I wanted so desperately to kiss him in that moment. But I couldn't because he would probably wreck. That would be just like me; causing a wreck by trying to kiss my best friend.
I shouldn't want to kiss him in the first place; he is my best friend. Kissing is not a smart thing to do. But who am I kidding? I and Jake have sex like wild animals and we're best friends. Although, Jake and I do have strong feelings for each other which we choose to ignore for the sake of our friendship. And honestly, every since I have gotten close to Edward, those feelings for Jake have faded away slightly. Maybe I wasn't as in love with him as I thought. Maybe he isn't as in love with me as he thought. That would explain why we can control it so much. Maybe I'm just reading too much into things.
That was when I remember Edward's hand around mine and decided to revel in the moment because it probably won't happen again. He obviously just missed me, a lot.
End Flashback.
Jacob was speeding all the way to my house until he slammed on the brakes in my driveway, lurching me forward, almost into the dashboard.
"Thanks for the whip lash, Jake." I teased. "My neck hurts so bad I don't think I'm up for afternoon sex now." I said in mock sadness.
He looked over to me, then. There was this crazy look in his eye that made me stop laughing. "Bella, we can do this the easy way or the hard way. I'm not opposed to rape."
The scary thing is that his face was dead serious. I chose to laugh off his lapse of sanity and roll my eyes. Now I was the one running into the house as a very hungry Jacob chased after me. I could tell this was going to be another freaky episode just like the last time. I better warn him about the violence thing. Charlie won't be so easy going about it next time.
I stood by the stairway and turned to face him. He was slowly approaching me like I was his prey. All I could see on his face was lust and a hint of 'I'm going nuts!' I put my hands up in a show of surrender and backed up slowly as I spoke.
"Jake, now calm down, you need to go easy. Remember what Charlie said. You can't get all ape shit on me again." I warned him in a shaky tone. I wasn't actually scared of him but I could tell what was about to happen wouldn't be far from violence and abuse. I was becoming more aroused as he came closer.
"Don't worry, Bella, I'm not going to hurt you…as long as you do as I say." He purred to me seductively. I decided to have some real fun with this.
"Oh yea, and what happens if I disobey?" I asked, standing up straight and putting my hands on my hips.
"You will be punished." He said matter-of-factly. "Now, take off your shirt first and do it slowly." He ordered.
I smiled, wickedly. "No." I said as I turned my nose up and crossed my arms.
"Excuse me?" He asked his tone full of disbelief.
"I said, no."
Now I was a little scared. He pounced at me and dragged me to the floor. "I said, take off your shirt or you will be punished." He growled at me.
He slung me over his shoulder and carried me into the living room. He dropped me down on the sofa before grabbing my hair to pull me over the coffee table. So we're going to play this game again. Now I'm horny as fuck.
He yanked my jeans down around my ankles. "Why can't you ever listen? You always have to do things the hard way." He slapped me hard across the ass. I gasped.
"No! I only do what I want when I want!" I panted.
SLAP! I moaned. SLAP! He stopped long enough to pull out his swollen cock and slide a condom on. SLAP! I moaned again.
He bent over me and forced his dick into my pussy. He thrust into me a few times before taking it out. I groaned in disappointment. He grunted as he slapped my ass again. "You're such a naughty bitch, Bella!"
"Fuck you, Jacob. Fuck me now! I want your hard cock in my wet pussy. Make me cum and all suck the cum out of your dick." I yelled at him as he continued spanking me. My ass was stinging in a pleasurable way. I'm such a masochist.
"Is that what you want? You want…this? Uh. Fuck, Bella. Mmm, uh, that feels so…fucking…good!" He grunted in me. He was moving so fast and I could feel his labored breathing in my ear as he tried so desperately to get his release.
Wow, I forgot what amazing sex was like. Paul was always good but it was never anything compared to sex with Jacob. He is such a beast when he's naked-double meaning. I could feel my release building. Then, as if he knew that I was about to cum, he grabbed a handful of my hair and yanked it back before biting down into my neck. I screamed out in pleasure and pain as I came all over his hardness and the coffee table. He followed right after me, pounding himself faster and deeper into me as his hot fluids filled the condom.
He rolled onto the floor, gasping for air as I did the same. That was intense. Short, sweet, and to the point. That's what you call a quick fix. A damn good fix too. That was more like permanent repair.
"Damn. That was amazing." Jacob breathed out.
"You got that right. You know, you get pretty damn psychotic when you're really horny. It's kind of scary." I told him with a laugh.
"Yea, sorry about that…again. You just looked so damn edible I thought I might actually take a bite out of you."
"Please don't." We laughed again.
We watched movies for the rest of the night until Charlie came home and decided to play 20 questions with us about what's going on now. Even though Jake and I made up, he still hadn't been over until today. Charlie seemed pretty happy to see everything back to normal. I was too.
I spent the whole weekend with Jacob. I called Paul to inform him of the good news and called Edward to make plans with only him next weekend. I thought that was fair enough. Jake got me this weekend, they both got me at school, and Edward has me next weekend. Good enough for me.
Edward pulled into my driveway Monday morning and honked the horn for me. I was so excited to see him. All that time with Jake and no Edward made me miss him like crazy. I jumped in his car, a little over excited, and he laughed at me.
"Happy to see me?" He asked with a large grin.
"Yep." I smiled brightly at him before leaning over to peck him on the cheek.
"You're starting to remind me of Alice." He snickered.
"Oh yea? Maybe I should do something different then." I kissed him swiftly on the lips and pulled away quickly, leaving him hanging. I laughed at him.
"Hey, you can't just do that without warning and then pull away without me having a chance to respond." He said with mock anger. I laughed harder and he drove off to school.
Edward and I talked about our planned weekend and what we wanted to do. Alice tried squeezing her way into our plans but Edward quickly booted her out. He told her that this was our time together…alone. She finally caved and gave up.
Friday evening, while we were all three chilling at my house, Jake even tried getting involved but I quickly told him no, and that we had our weekend last week so he can forget about it and share.
"Yea, Jakey, you can't have our Bella all to yourself now." Edward teased, punching Jake in the shoulder.
Jake sighed. "I know I just can't help it sometimes. I'm not use to sharing the weekends with anyone."
"Well, get use to it 'cuz I'm not going anywhere." Edward laughed at him.
"Fine, but Eddie, we need to spend some quality time together too, honey. We never hang out anymore." Jake cooed, putting his arm around Edward. Wow. See what I mean about them being worse than two girls?
"I know sweetie; and we will. I promise." Edward kissed Jake on the cheek. Okay…that was a little much.
Jake laughed and returned the gesture. Then they looked at me, looked back at each other, and winked. Then, I swear my jaw became unhinged and fell to the ground because my two best friends started passionately-there's no other word to describe it-making out. WHAT THE FUCK! Why are they making out? Oh my god, what have I done? They're gay! Oh no!
After about thirty seconds of lip locking, they finally stopped and looked at me.
"What the fuck was that?!" I screamed at them, slightly turned on but not enough to distract me from the fact that my two best friends are now lovers.
They both burst out laughing. "Well, we decided that we were going to get you back for ignoring us for so long so we thought that we could scare the shit out of you by making out with each other." Jake spoke up. Well, their plan worked. I thought that they had turned gay on me.
"That was so not cool. God, I thought you guys were confessing to me or something. I was about to piss myself." I said, releasing a breath I had been holding. "You guys seemed to be enjoying yourselves quite a bit though."
"It was all an act. We've been trying to get comfortable with each other so that we could pull it off but honestly, it was very, very, very uncomfortable. I never want to do anything like that again." Edward said with a grimace. I could tell that he meant it.
"Here, here." Jacob chimed in, wiping his mouth.
"Well, if you two lovers are finished with the pranks-that obviously caused you more pain than I-then I'm going to go get ready for my weekend with Edward." With that, I got up and ran to my room. I heard them laughing from downstairs. I rolled my eyes.
Edward and I left for his house shortly after I gathered my things. I told Charlie that I was going to spend the night with Alice and would be home tomorrow for dinner. He bought it.
Luckily, we scored the house all to ourselves. His parents went out of town for some sort of business meeting, Alice and Jasper went to some party Tyler was throwing, and Emmet and Rosalie went on their own date of some sort that involved a hotel room. I'm guessing Edward suggested that plan so that we could have the night all alone. I wasn't opposed.
When we walked in the big white mansion, I made myself comfy on their big white sofa. Edward disappeared into the kitchen.
"I thought we could be a little rebellious tonight." Edward said, walking into the living room with two shot glasses and a bottle of Tequila.
"I've never gotten drunk before." I told him honestly. He laughed at me.
"Then it's a good thing I'm with you. It's always safe to have someone with you that you trust." He said trying to contain his smirk.
"Yea, yea, blah, blah, blah. Just fill her up." I ordered with an innocent smile.
He rolled his eyes at me before handing me a shot glass filled with brown liquor. I gulped it down, as did he. It tasted horrible. Ugh!
"That's disgusting!" I complained.
He laughed at me. "No shit. Here, drink another one; you'll start to not care about the taste in a minute." He handed me another shot and I took it down once more.
We had about five shots each before I could sit in my seat without falling over. I was laughing profusely at everything and anything. If Edward moved his eyebrows a certain way or scrunched his nose or even blinked, I would almost pee myself from laughing so much.
"Edwaardd…yooouu know wha?" I asked him in a drunken slur.
"What?" He countered with a stupid grin on his face. I dove into a fit of giggles before I could answer him somewhat coherently.
"Chicken butttt!!" I laughed out loud again. He started laughing harder too before he rolled off the couch onto the floor and dragged me with him.
"AHHH!!" He screamed out of nowhere. I looked at him with alarm and he started laughing again.
One second we were lying on the floor laughing at the stupidest shit and the next second, Edward's on top of me pushing his tongue down my throat. I didn't resist. I kissed him back. We started rolling over each other on the floor until we hit the coffee table and started laughing again. We eventually shut up because we started kissing again. I was only vaguely aware of what was going on around me because everything would come at me in a blur and then I would almost forget what it was that happened only second ago.
I did register my shirt lying on the floor on the other side of the room, along with Edward's. Then my pants made it opposite of our shirts and not soon after, Edward's pants were with mine. I looked down to my body and then to his and he was already naked. The next thing I saw was my undergarments flying through the air. It seems as if it took them a really long time to hit the ground. Then I remembered Edward on top of me, naked. I was instantly only away of him and the way he felt against me. I could feel every part of him against me and it felt so right.
I gasped out in pleasure as he pushed himself into me and then everything else came in another big blur. I felt him kiss me, I felt him thrust into me, I heard him moan, and I heard myself moaning. I felt his hair in my hands and then the skin of his back as I dragged my fingernails around his sides.
Then I felt something warm run deep inside of me as my body convulsed and I came right along with him. It's a good thing I'm on birth control. Then all I could register was darkness. Unconsciousness took over me as soon as Edward took his place at my side.
The next morning I woke up to the smell of bacon and eggs coming from the kitchen. I opened my eyes and found myself clothed and on the sofa instead of the floor. What in the hell happened last night? I thought I went to sleep naked. Oh no, what if Carlisle and Esme came home early?
"Good morning, sleepy head. I made some breakfast and I have some Excedrin for your headache." I heard Edward call from the kitchen. He must have heard me. Ow, my head really does hurt. I got up and walked to the kitchen and found Edward standing there flipping some eggs.
"Hey, uh, what happened last night?" I asked, blushing. I already know but I wanted to see if he remembers.
"Uh, well, we had a little too much to drink and we got a little…rowdy." He laughed nervously.
"Oh." That was my genius answer.
"Yea, sit down, kay?" He suggested. I did. "Look, I don't want anything to change between us, Bella. I don't want anything to get in the way of our friendship, especially not what happened last night. It was amazing and I don't regret it but can we just keep it to ourselves? I care about you too much to let this jeopardize us." He said in a kind tone. I completely understood what he meant. I felt the exact same way.
"Of course, Edward. I completely agree with you; I don't think we should change anything or let this get in the way. I'm so glad you see it that way too." I let out a sigh of relief. He hugged me and then made our breakfast.
The next month went by in a flash. Nothing changed between Edward and I and we never told anyone of our crazy night. Everything had been going great until one day I remembered something that shocked the hell out of me. Alice had triggered this shocking epiphany.
"I'm sorry I'm being so moody it's just that time of the month and I can't help it!" Alice snapped at Edward. I'm not sure what they were arguing about; I wasn't paying attention. I haven't been feeling too hot lately. Right now, I was tired as hell. I slept like a rock last night but I feel like I hadn't slept in a week.
"Jeez, Bella isn't ever as moody as you are when it's that time. Why can't you take some lessons from Bella?" Edward teased her.
That was when it hit me. Where was my period? I started counting backward in my head. I haven't had my period this month. I'm never late though. Maybe it's because I stopped taking my birth control all of a sudden. It was making me sick. Every time I would take it, I would end up puking it right back up so I just stopped. I stopped sleeping with Jake for a while because of that. I wanted to wait till I got back on the pill before I had sex again. But where the hell is my period?
Oh my god. I haven't slept with anyone but Edward in the past month. But, no, I was on the pill then, so I couldn't get pregnant; could I?
I jumped up and bolted for the door, feeling very sick all of a sudden, not being able to look at my food anymore. I found the first bathroom I could and hurled in the sink. I couldn't make it to the toilet in time.
After I cleaned myself up, I looked in the mirror at my stomach. There wasn't anything there. I can't be pregnant. But I do need to find out just to be sure. With that, I ran out of the building as fast as I could and drove to a gas station.