Thanks for the reviews you guys!!! I hope more people will review more. Gah, this chapter is nothing but drama; well, toward the end anyway. I'm sorry it's so short but I haven't updated in a while and I wanted to give you guys something so yea. It's all a little confusing and rushed and crazy but if I were in this kind of situation I would probably be doing the same thing as Bella--in the decision making part. Take note that she is hormonal and doesn't think before she says anything and so does Edward. Jacob on the other hand thinks he has it all figured out. This chapter is setting Jake and Bella up for their future but that doesn't mean it's all going to be all perfect and roses; this chapter also makes Edward and Bella's decisions even more complicated with their hidden feelings. I hope you all realize that Bella is not officially with anyone and no relationship in here is set in stone. So, sorry to disappoint you Team Jacob readers but this isn't a Jacob and Bella story--not yet anyway; this also isn't an Edward and Bella story--not yet anyway. (Hehe.) I hope I'm confusing you and I hope you have no idea what's going to happen for Bella and her baby and Jacob and Edward and Tanya. That's a lot of fates to figure out. Why doesn't everyone leave me a comment and tell me who they think she will end up with? I would love to know where my readers are in the direction of the story.
I walked into school on Monday, bright and early, with Jacob attached to my hip. We were confidently holding hands as we walked down the hallway to our first period class. I hadn't felt so complete in a long time—if ever. He kept looking down at me and with a smile warming his handsome features. I don't think I've ever seen him so happy before. Knowing that I'm the one to make him smile like that just makes my heart swell with love and honor. But unfortunately, blissful moments like this can't last forever.
Edward was standing by the door to the classroom with his arms crossed over his chest. He wore an angry scowl on his face and he looked very impatient. He used to be so carefree and calm but ever since I got pregnant, everything has been a little or a lot strained. Only now, I and he have decided to not talk unless it's absolutely needed or if he's curious about the baby. I chose for things to be this way because he couldn't come to terms with mine and Jake's physical relationship—which we have taken to the next level—he's even more pissed about that.
He looked up when he saw Jake and I approaching; he noticed our interlaced hands and scowled even deeper. He was beginning to look like he sucked on a lemon. "Bella."
"Edward." I replied just as cold heartedly as he had. Jake didn't say a word to him.
I walked right past him into the classroom; he obviously wasn't waiting for me so there was no reason to stand there and stare at him. I have to admit—only to myself—that deep down it hurts a lot when we're like this. I can't stand having my supposed-to-be best friend and father of my child angry with me. I can't stand being angry with him but this is for the best. Things just aren't meant to go any further than taking care of this child together with Edward and me.
That was when I saw who, I believe, the ex-Tanya is. She was beautiful with her strawberry blonde hair and exotic physique. I couldn't help but feel a little jealous as I watched her greedily kiss my baby's daddy. I know it shouldn't feel that way but he is sort of mine. But I shouldn't care at all! I have Jacob on my side; I can do just fine as long as I have him with me. Edward can just go and have fun with his exotic girlfriend. I don't need him.
I felt down and depressed as I sat through my classes. I didn't have Jacob with me in my second period so I felt a little empty. I had to keep reassuring myself that I would see him right after class and then he would make everything better. That thought helped me get through until lunch.
Jacob was waiting for me outside of my classroom impatiently. His entire face lit up as soon as he spotted me so I took that as my cue to lay one on him. I smiled brightly up at him before pressing my eager lips to his. We walked off to the lunchroom feeling extremely light and buoyant.
That was when it hit me; where are we supposed to sit? Are we still welcome at the Cullen's table? I really don't want to lose my friendships with them just because I refuse to talk to Edward. I was quickly answered when I spotted Alice waving me over to the table. I smiled instantly and pulled Jake toward them. Edward wasn't seated yet so I could find my seat without incident.
Jake was a little hesitant, even though he enjoyed their company just as much as I did. "Bella, shouldn't we try to find somewhere else to sit? I mean, he's going to sit there."
I shrugged. "I don't care. Just because he and I aren't speaking doesn't mean I can't speak to Alice and the rest of them."
"Okay…" He sighed as we took our seats.
"Hey, Bella, Jacob!" Alice greeted up, bouncing in her seat with a huge grin on plastered to her little pixie face.
I giggled at her childish behavior. "Hey, Alice. How's it hangin'?" I asked lamely.
She smirked at my stupid question and started to answer; she stopped right before she started and looked over my shoulder, narrowing her eyes. I looked over and saw Edward and his girlfriend heading toward the lunch table. I rolled my eyes and turned back around.
"I hate that bitch." Rosalie said in a cool tone, staring at her food. Emmet nodded in agreement with her, right along with everyone else at the table minus Jake and me. I didn't even know her but I already didn't like her—I just wasn't going to say anything.
"We need to do something about her. I do not want her with my brother." Alice demanded in a harsh tone. She looked pretty viscous and dangerous as she spoke. Edward and Tanya took their seats then; they were giggling and playing around about something. I almost barfed.
Edward stopped laughing as soon as he spotted Jacob and me sitting at the table. I almost laughed at his appalled expression. What, did he expect me to just drop everyone because of him? I don't think so. I decided to mess with him in a not-so-obvious way.
"What's the matter, Edward, cat got your tongue? Where have your manners gone? Why don't you introduce me to your new friend?" I demanded in an innocent tone; he saw right through it but Tanya didn't. I smiled menacingly when I heard Jacob and Alice snicker.
"I'm sorry, Bella, how rude of me. Bella, this is Tanya; Tanya, this is Bella." He motioned his hand between us.
"How nice to meet you, Tanya." I sneered around her name but she didn't notice.
"It's nice to meet you too. So are you and Edward good friends? He's never mentioned you before." Tanya asked. Well, no shit, why would he tell his girlfriend about his baby mama?
"Something like that. Edward, I'm offended, you didn't tell her about me?" I exclaimed with mock sadness. Alice pitched in.
"Yea, Edward, don't you think you should've told her about Bella before you two got back together?" Alice said in a serious tone. Her eyes were lit with humor—we were ganging up on him and he knew it.
"Back together? That's funny, he never mentioned you either, Tanya." I stated, pretending confusion. Edward didn't have a chance to answer before Jake spoke up.
"Yea, Bella and Edward were really good friends but they have too many differences and he doesn't approve of her getting pregnant—not that it was on purpose or anything." Jacob told Tanya.
I looked at him incredulously. What the hell was he saying?
"Pregnant huh? Congratulations, who is the father?" Tanya asked, sending me a smile—evil bitch.
"I am." Everyone froze and gasped, including Edward. Tanya looked around to see what the big deal was.
The big shock was that Jacob was the one who spoke up. "Jacob, what the hell are you doing?" I whispered to him.
"Be pissed but I'm saving Edward's ass while you chicks are trying to sabotage him. Quit being a bitch and leave them alone." Jacob explained while watching Edward.
Edward was staring at him, speechless. He didn't speak for the rest of the lunch. Alice, however, did try to speak but Jacob quickly kicked her under the table and told her to be quiet. I was pretty pissed that Jacob had done that and that Edward said nothing about it. He should have claimed his child before he even started dating her again. This really shows me how much he truly cares. I'm starting to think Jake is going to be coming with me to the next appointment I have. Edward might be too busy with his play thing.
4 Months Later:
These past months have been miserable and amazing all at the same time. I'm now about five and a half months pregnant. I'm huge. I'm already ready to have this darn baby.
Everything has been nothing but drama and lust and fighting and drama. I was living in a much too stressful environment. I couldn't really help it though; I had nowhere else to go. The drama was mainly between Edward and me—behind closed doors. Tanya still had no idea about Edward being the father, which continuously pissed me off. Oh well, the only time I ever seen him, besides at school, was when Alice insisted on a girl's day or when I had to see Carlisle. I refused to let Edward in the room while I was getting examined; instead I let Jacob in with me. Apparently he's going to be the 'father figure' to my child more than Edward so he might as well go to the doctor with me. He was more than willing.
But all of the nonsense that has been going on in my life is completely insignificant today because I'm going to get my ultra sound to find out the sex of my baby. I told Jake the big news and he was almost jumping up and down in his seat. He couldn't wait to find out the sex to the baby. Carlisle offered to inform Edward of our meeting and promised me that he would be there. I didn't care either way—it's not like he's going to be around for the baby much anyway. Hell, his girlfriend doesn't even know that he's expecting yet. I'm getting real tempted to burst his perfect little bubble but every time I almost say it, I imagine Jake's face when he claimed my little kid. I couldn't hurt him like that until it was completely necessary that the crazy girl knows.
Edward was already waiting at the doctor's office for us—well for me. He wasn't very thrilled that Jake was tagging along. I bluntly told him to get the hell over it. He didn't say another word about it.
"Hey, Bella. How are you feeling?" Edward asked as I approached.
"I'm fine. How are you?" I asked, not really caring.
"I've been better." He whispered so quietly I thought I wasn't supposed to hear it.
"So, you ready to find out what the sex is, Eddie?" Jake asked playfully.
"Yea, I am. I can't wait to start thinking of a name." Edward's face started glowing so I thought twice before I broke his little heart and told him that he wouldn't have a say in the names. I already had my names picked out.
Carlisle approached us then and led us into the room with the big monitor that was going to show me my little baby. I lie down on the uncomfortable bed thing and let Carlisle squirt the freezing jelly substance onto my expanding belly. He started working the wand around my belly and watched the monitor intently and then my baby popped up on the screen.
I gasped. "Oh wow, look at it. It's so cute." I cooed. Edward walked over to me and held my hand; I was too lost in the moment to really care. Jacob kept his distance and just stared into the monitor in awe just like the rest of us.
"Look at our baby. I can't believe we made that." Edward sighed. "Can you show us the sex now?" He asked his father.
"Yes, look right there." Carlisle pointed to a spot on the screen and his entire face lit up with a huge smile that mirrored Edward's and mine and Jacob's.
"Oh my, it's a girl. We're going to have a little girl. I'm going to have a daughter." Edward said in a hushed tone.
I started to cry silent tears. "Renesme." I cooed.
"Huh?" Edward asked, wiping a tear from his cheek. I smiled up at him. Jacob and Carlisle looked to me with confused expressions.
I started to explain. "Renesme will be her name. It's Rene and Esme put together. My mother and your mother." I said to Edward.
I half expected him to argue with me but instead he just smiled down at me. "That's beautiful, Bella. I love it. Renesme Cullen, it's perfect."
"Just like our little girl." I added on. I couldn't be mad at Edward right now. I couldn't think about Jacob right now. All I could think about was Edward, I, and Renesme. I could see our little family clearer now than ever. I couldn't think about the fact that my perfect vision wouldn't come true—all that was there was what I wanted. I would gladly let my imagination take me away.
"What's going to be here middle name, Bella?" Jake asked me from behind.
"Carly, Renesme Carly Cullen." Edward answered for me. I looked up at him and furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. He laughed. "Carlisle and Charlie put together—my father and yours." He clarified, using my words against me.
I was in awe. I loved it. It fit our little angel perfectly. "I love it, Edward."
"I thought you would." He answered.
Carlisle looked truly touched. "Would you two like pictures?"
We both nodded eagerly. He excused himself to go and print them off. I figured now would be the best time to say what I have to say. "Edward, I hate to ruin the beautiful moment but there's something you need to do."
He nodded and started cleaning the goo off of my large belly. "I'm going to tell her. I'm sorry I haven't said anything yet; it was wrong of me to not own up to my child. But I'm going to tell her tonight and show her the pictures. But Jacob, even though you didn't have to, thank you for doing what you did."
"Don't worry; it wasn't a problem to me. But uh, Bella, I think you should tell him now." Jacob insisted. I've been putting this conversation off since Jake and I came to a decision; but now I have to tell Edward.
"Tell me what?" Edward asked looking in between us anxiously.
"I found a three bedroom apartment and I'm moving into it right after graduation. It's nice and not that expensive but Charlie is helping pay rent anyway so you don't need to worry about it. But I do want you to help me decorate Renesme's room and shop for her. You don't have to but I would like to involve you in that. I thought that maybe you would want to help. We still have some time so don't worry now but I just wanted you to know." I looked down at my belly and caressed it.
Edward was absentmindedly rubbing my tummy while he spoke. "Bella, why didn't you come talk to me first—never mind, I know that answer. I've really pushed you away haven't I? Well, I'm going to start helping out more and being around more; I don't care what Tanya says. But Bella, I was going to help with the baby room either way so there's no need to make it sound like such a crucial decision. And I'm helping with some of the expenses other than just Renesme. No arguments."
I nodded. "Fair enough. And that's fine with me, I want you around more. But yea, we're going to start decorating next month since graduation is coming soon."
"Oh, Bella, why do you have three bedrooms?" Edward asked, looking at my belly.
"Well, you know, for guest. Just in case Alice or Rose ever wants to come over and stay. It can also be for you if you ever stay with the baby too late and need to crash but that's about it."
"Actually, if everything stays as is, I just might be moving in—to help with the baby and that way we don't have to be apart." Jacob pitched in with confidence. I loved and hated that about him sometimes.
Edward didn't seem too happy about this part of the plan; he seemed a little angry. "You guys haven't even been together that long and you're already planning on moving in together?" He crossed his arms in exasperation.
I got up off of the bed. "Edward, Jake and I already had a plan to move in together after high school—it's not all about us being together. This was a previous agreement between best friends; it's not like you're going to be there that much anyway."
He jerked his head in my direction. "I thought you wanted me around more."
I sighed. "I do but that doesn't mean that you have to live with me. Jake and I are together now so we can't spend a lot of time together, Edward. You can start coming to the appointments again and after the she's born, you can visit her with Jake and I or you can take her to your house. It will all work out in the end just don't worry about it now. I don't want to think about it until it's that time."
"Fine, we'll discuss this later but I want to raise this baby with you." He started to pout. I didn't really understand the meaning of his words.
"What the hell does that mean?" Jake asked in a confrontational manner; I gave him a disapproving look. He shrugged at me.
Edward looked at him as if he were stupid. "It means that I don't want any of that joint custody shit. I'm not saying for us to be together but I want to do things with her together; you and me," he motioned between himself and me, "I don't want him tagging along all the time; she's not his child." He looked to Jake on that last part.
"Maybe you should've thought about that before you let me claim her." Jake was right. "She may be your biological child and you may be in her life but I'm still going to be her father too. I'm going to be there with her and raise her with Bella."
"He's right, Edward. No one made him take responsibility but he did. You didn't; you had the chance to go on with your life without having her. Jake already told you that he wanted to raise her anyway. Honestly Edward, I don't see why you don't just stay with Tanya and move on without me. I'm happy with Jacob and Renesme will be too. As much as I do want you around, I also don't want you around."
His mouth gaped open a bit but I could see it in his eyes that he was considering it; my heart wrenched at this site. Can he not tell that I'm just trying to help him? I don't want anything I just said, except for Jacob. But I want him to take care of our child, with me. I'm such a masochist; I'm burning myself with my words and he's burning me with his reactions. But I do know that this would be for the best. It took him a moment to recover. "Okay, this is what's going to happen: I'm going to talk to Tanya tonight and tell her everything. Then, tomorrow, we are all going to sit down and discuss it, like adults. It will be just me, Jacob, Tanya, and you. We'll figure out how this is going to work from there."
Carlisle walked in right on time. "Hey, I've got the pictures; they came out beautifully. I made a copy for myself and Esme as well." He looked between all of us and his face fell. "Oh no, what did I miss? It seems as if the happy mood has vanished."
"It's nothing, dad. Bella and I were just discussing some things." Edward told his father without taking his eyes off of me.
"Alright, well, here are the photos." Carlisle handed me a photo and held one out for Edward but he made no move to take it. I suddenly felt nauseous. "Son, are you going to take the picture?"
Edward kept his eyes on me. "No. Give it to Jacob; he needs one." His eyes watered up as he spoke but he held them open long enough to dry them once more.
"What do you mean, Edward? If Jacob wants one, then I'll go make him one but this is yours." Carlisle handed the photo to him once more and Edward took it.
He didn't look at it as he took it in his hands. "Here you go. She's your daughter; you need a picture of her more than I do." He turned to Jacob and handed him the photo; Jacob's eyes widened and he hesitantly took the picture.
I could feel my stomach twist in all directions. I cradled my little Renesme in my hands and looked down at my belly. "I thought we were going to discuss this after you talked to Tanya."
"We still are but this seems to be what you want more than anything so I'm giving it to you. I'm doing it now so that I don't have to give her any 'I don't know' answers. Tanya deserves a real explanation and she deserves someone that will be with her and her only. She shouldn't have to share me with you or your child. You were right all along." Pain shot across his face before he ran out the door without another word.
We all stood in silence.
"What in the hell happened while I was gone?" Carlisle questioned me.
I kept my face down. "I just told him that Jake and I were moving in together and that he wasn't going to be around all the time. I'm not sure exactly how things got here but somehow we started, well, I started suggesting that he just forget about Renesme."
"Bella, have we not been through this? I thought we all agreed that Edward was going to be a part of this baby's life. I want to be in her life and so does Esme. Why do you keep trying to push us out?" Carlisle asked in a sad tone.
"I'm sorry. I think it's just my rollercoaster hormones. One minute I want him there and the next, I don't want anything to do with him. I'm not trying to hurt anyone. Hell, I didn't have any doubt in my mind that he would shoot that suggestion down just like he always has." I was crying by this point.
Jake came over to comfort me. "It's okay, Bells. Carlisle, just because Edward has nothing to do with her doesn't mean you can't. I'm going to be the father now and I want you guys to be in her life. If Edward changes his mind then so be it." He always had an answer for everything.
This idea seems a little farfetched but I like it. Carlisle seemed to agree. "Honestly, I'm sure he will change his mind. You teenagers have gone backwards and forwards with this baby so there is no doubt in my mind that this is not the end of this discussion. But if for some unfathomable reason he sticks to this ludicrous decision, then I will gladly accept that answer."
"Thank you, Carlisle. That means a lot to us." Jacob told him.
"Of course. Well, I have to get back to work so you kids go home and talk to Charlie. I'll see you later." Carlisle turned for the door and left.
The ride home was very quiet. I had nothing to say and neither did Jacob. I didn't want to say anything anyway. I was still heartbroken that Edward would give in to my nonsense that easily—that goes to show that he would much rather not be a father. Tomorrow's conversation will be interesting.
I didn't get any sleep. I was far too anxious to sleep. I'm far too anxious to do anything, especially sit still.
Jake and I are almost to Edward's house. There's no one there but Edward and Tanya and I'm assuming she knows everything now.
We pulled into the driveway five minutes later and walked very slowly to the front door. Okay, so now I'm not so anxious to have this discussion. I'm not quite ready to lose Edward just yet—even though it's my entire damn fault.
Jacob knocked on the front door and Edward answered it immediately. He looked exhausted and his eyes were red as if he had just finished crying. I couldn't look at him any longer; I could feel the tears prickle in my eyes at the sight of him.
Edward motioned for us to enter and we did. Jake and I took a seat on the couch across from Tanya. She looked livid when I first saw her but her expression quickly changed to one of concern and sympathy. She was faking; god I hate that bitch.
Edward sat down next to her. "Tanya knows everything."
"Well, that's good; it's about time." I said in an annoyed tone. I couldn't help it, I hated her being so close to him. "So, what's going to happen next?"
"Bella, you made that very clear yesterday, as did I. I will still help out with expenses as I said at the appointment and I'm not arguing about it but Tanya and I want to continue staying together so I'm not going to be a part of Renesme's life. She can still have my name unless you want to give her Jacob's name; that's entirely up to you two." Edward said in a lifeless and formal voice. Apparently this was all business.
"Jesus Edward, I'm sorry for what I said yesterday! I'm hormonal and I'm having mixed feelings about everything. Could you not tell that I didn't mean any of what I said? I meant the part about Jacob but I don't want you to not be the father! Since when do you give in that easily to me anyway?" I demanded. I couldn't hold that in. I couldn't let him give our family up that easily.
Jacob looked at me in shock. "Bella, I thought you wanted us to raise her together." He looked heartbroken.
"Jake, you know I want you there and you will be but Edward is still the father." I looked at Edward's also shocked face expectantly.
"Bella, the decision has been made. Edward made it clear to me that this was nothing but a mistake and that he didn't want to be in you or your child's life. Just leave it alone. Your words only helped him take his chance to finally get out; before, he was only being noble. He wants to be with me and have a family with the woman he loves, not some drunken fling and I don't mean to insult you either but the truth can hurt." If I didn't know any better, I'd actually respect Tanya's words and believe her sincerity; but, I do know better.
I scoffed and shot her a look that clearly stated, go the fuck to hell. "A mistake huh? That's what the fuck Renesme is to you? Our daughter is a mistake?! Well fuck you then, Edward! I don't need you! You can have your fucking whore of a girlfriend and forget about this child! UGH! I could seriously just fucking stab you right in your dead fucking heart! You lifeless piece of shit! You're nothing! You never will be anything! You wouldn't make a good father anyway. You never will. You will always be a fucking coward and a liar and you will never be happy knowing that you have a beautiful baby girl with your name, running through your house! What are you going to tell her when she gets older, Edward? Because Carlisle and Esme and everyone else still want her! I'm not taking her away from them because of you. So are you going to flee the goddamn state? Are you going to hide from her? Or are you just going to stay here and watch her grow and not give a damn? What's it going to be, Edward?! How are you going to live with yourself?! But you know what? I think you should just run away with your little bitch because I can tell you now, life with me around is not going to be a pleasant thing! Make your decision you stupid fuck head! I want to know now! I want to know how torturous my life is going to be!" I was in tears and standing over him with my hands balled up into fists. I couldn't take it! He was breaking my heart!
Jacob was frozen on the couch gaping at me. Edward's lip was trembling and Tanya looked scared.
Jacob finally unfroze and came over to me; he put his hand on my shoulder but I shook it off. "Don't touch me!" I snapped at him. "I want an answer, Edward."
"Bella, what the hell do you expect me to say?" Edward looked into my eyes with water filling them.
"I want you to tell me that she was lying; that you didn't say any of those things and that you still want me and our daughter." I whispered to him, the tears still flowing down my cheeks.
He stared at me for what felt like forever and then he stood. I pulled back a little when he placed his hands on either side of my face until I felt him wipe my tears away. I put my hands over his and closed my eyes. I never wanted him to let go of me. I felt complete when he touched me; I just wanted to hear him say those words.
Then, before I could ask again, he kissed me. I heard Tanya gasp and then Jacob but I'm not sure if anything was said because I was lost in that kiss. Our lips moved together beautifully like the notes in a song. He slowly pushed his tongue between my quivering lips and moved it, soothingly, against mine. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and tilted my head to the side to deepen the kiss.
For that moment, everything felt right; nothing else mattered but me, Edward, and Renesme.
I moaned into his mouth unwillingly. He pulled me closer when I did. I didn't fight, at all. I wanted this; I wanted him; I never wanted this kiss to end. The world could be ending right now and I wouldn't care, as long as it ended like this.
Reluctantly, he pulled away. He didn't take his hands off of me and he didn't move his face from mine; he simply detached our lips. I felt reality hit me once more and it felt as if the world really was ending. I'm starting to think that kiss was more along the lines of goodbye rather than, everything's going to be alright.
His forehead stayed pressed up against mine. "I love you, Bella. But everything happens for a reason. You and I can't do this. Things are better this way; we just need to go on without each other."
I shook my head back and forth. He did believe that she was a mistake. How can he? How can he be so cruel? "Why? Why did you even bother? Why did you tell me that you wanted her if you really didn't? I gave you the chance in the beginning and you didn't take it." I pulled away to look at him.
"I did want her. Bella, Tanya's words were dramatic and harsh. Renesme is not a mistake and neither are you. This wasn't meant to happen, that's all. We have made it clear that we can't do this." Edward didn't seem to believe his words any more than I did.
"Please don't tell me goodbye." I pleaded. I couldn't lose him.
"I'm not but maybe we should wait till the baby is born to make anymore decisions." Edward said with a sigh. He smiled at me. He seemed pleased with my reluctance to let him go.
"So, you're sticking around?" Jacob asked in a confused voice. Hell, I was confused as hell too.
Edward gave him an annoyed glare and then Tanya stood up. "Yea, Edward, I thought you made your decision and what the hell was that?"
"Tanya, I don't know what to do, okay? And don't worry about that. I'm not leaving you so just forget about it." Edward seemed annoyed with the two of them. I was as well.
"You're right. We should just wait until she's born to figure everything out." I agreed with him.
"Damn, Carlisle was right. You guys change your minds like you change underwear." Jake huffed and then went to sit down on the sofa. Tanya took her seat also.
"I think I should go." I told Edward. I was getting a headache and I didn't want to talk about this anymore. My head was also getting a little big with the knowledge that Edward did want our daughter and the fact that he said he loves me.
"Okay, I'll walk you out." He took my hand and led me to the door and we walked out to the car together with Jacob and Tanya following behind us.
What in the hell are we going to do?
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