Chapter 8:

Despite the fact that she was supposed to be on a break, Rose couldn't forget about the Doctor even for a few moments. It seemed so wrong to be in a different place without him. She kept expecting to turn around and see him there grinning away at her, but of course he never was. She had to keep reminding herself that he would never be there and she had to keep forcing back the tears. She wondered if she was ever going to get over him. She wanted to be able to do thing without expecting to see him all the time, but she never wanted to forget him, or to be with anyone else.

She felt bad about what had happened with Bella. She really hadn't meant to get to bitter or violent. The day after the fight happened, she ignored Jacob who told her to leave it a bit longer, and went to see Bella.

When Bella opened the door and saw Rose there, she automatically went to shut the door again.

'Wait' Rose said. 'I'm sorry'

Bella opened the door again.

Rose smiled slightly 'I'm sorry, I had a go at you, and ended up fighting you. I didn't mean to be so horrible. I judged you when I don't really know you and that was unfair. I know it's not really an excuse, but my mind has been on someone for a few months and you annoyed me a bit and you were an easy person to lash out on, but that was unfair and I'm sorry' Rose held up her hand to Bella 'No hard feelings?'

Bella smiled back and shook Rose's hand 'no hard feelings' she agreed. 'Come in' Bella stepped out the way so Rose could step in, she lef Rose into the lounge and offered her a drink. Rose declined and Bella sat down next to her on the couch.

'If you and Jacob are just friends' she started 'Why did you come all the way to America with him?'

'I needed a break and coming here was Jake gave me the perfect opportunity to get away but not be completely alone' replied Rose. 'I lost the man I love and everything in London is a constant reminder of him'

'Oh, I'm so sorry' Bella was genuine not patronising. 'Did he die?'

Rose didn't want to go into it all again with Bella so simply replied 'Sort of, yeah' she didn't want to give Bella the chance to asked what sort of meant so just continued 'I fell apart without him, I was a complete mess, I still am at times, so I had to get away'

Bella smiled sympatheticalled. 'Yeah. I can relate to that, Jacob probably told you about when Edward left' she said. Rose nodded and Bella continued 'My life really didn't seem worth living, everything seemed pointless without him there. I didn't do anything for months, and when I did it was emotionlessly'

Rose was almost glad she didn't have a chance to reply to that. She really had never been that bad when she lost the Doctor. She still saw the point of life and she still go on and did things. Rose still thought now what she had thought when Jacob told her about Bella and Edward; it was infatuation more than love. So she was glad when she didn't have to reply, however, she was not glad Edward had just appeared . She felt nervous around him now she knew he could read minds.

'Rose' he said, smiling friendlily. Rose was slighly unnerved by that. Edward's first impression of Rose wouldn't have been good, so why was he appearing friendly now. Unless he had heard in her mind that she had apologised, so decided to leave it. 'I was hoping to see you?'

'Why?' she asked. She couldn't help but automatically defend herself 'It it's about yesterday then I've...'

Edward held a hand up to stop Rose. 'It's nothing to do with your fight' he said 'It's about my sister, Alice. I don't know if Jacob told you but sh can see the future. Yesterday she had a vision of you'

'What did she see?' asked Rose, slightlu worried about the answer.

'She couldn't explain it very well, but she said your eyes were glowing yellow' answered Edward 'she also said somethin that didn't make sense to any of us, but I didn't know whethere it would to you. She said "there's something of a wolf about you". Also, Rose, I can read minds, but I can't read yours. I mean, I can't read Bella's either, but that's just sort of unexplained, somehow I think there's some sort of explanation to you. Alice also said that in her vision you said "I am the Bad Wolf", does this make any sense to you?'

Rose was glad Edward was unable to read her mind, and now felt more comfortable being around him. Right now she was also glad because he mind was a mess. Edward wouldn't have been able to make sense of it because even she couldn't. The last time she had met a werewolf it had told her the same thing, that there was soemthing of a wolf about her, of course at the time she had ignored it and been reassured in the knowledge that the Doctor would save her, like he always did. This time, though, she was onher own, the Doctor couldn't save her this time. He couldn't clear up her thoughts and make sense of it all, he couldn't do anything because he wasn't there. She had to figure this out on her own.

The glowing yellow eyes was what the Doctor told her had happened when she looked into the heart of the TARDIS, when she saw the whole of time and space and killed the Daleks. But there was no way that could happen again, the Doctor had taken the power out of her. That kiss! To this day, Rose remembered little of what happened when she looked into the TARDIS but she always remembered that kiss. The Doctor had sacrificed this life to save her, and she knew that had the situation called for it the Doctor would'v done the same thing again without even blinking. He would do anything for her, the same way she would do anything for him. Or at least he would've and she would've, now they couldn't do anything for each other.

Rose, stop it she told herself. this isn't helping.

But she couldn't help it. She was the Bad Wolf, but she was just a scared kid without the Doctor.

Her mind couldn't take anymore. She collapsed.