Title: Not Really Gone

Author: Ashley

Fandom: Criminal Minds

Rating: T

Spoilers: None

Pairings: Reid/Morgan, JJ/Rossi, Emily/Hotch.

Children: Tala Diana Morgan and Elijah Matthew Morgan are Derek and Spencer Morgan's twins. Kayla Abigail Rossi is the daughter of Jennifer and David Rossi. Cassandra Haley Hotchner is the four year old daughter of Emily Prentiss and Aaron Hotchner. Caitlin Lynn Garcia is the five year old daughter of Penelope Garcia and an unknown father, he is never mentioned in the story.

Warnings: Mentions of Mpreg, possible future Mpreg. Some sadness and confusion, ad SLASH. Seriously people, if you don't like it then don't read it.

Summary: Seven months ago, a deadly car crash took Reid away from his team, husband and their two infant children. When Reid turns up alive, and in a very bad way, will Morgan have it in his shattered heart to be there when Reid needs him the most?

Authors notes: This is AU. This will be a short-ish story. The idea stuck, and even if it turns epic, the chapters will be short. So please bear with me! Please don't flame me, my wonderful friends, She's My Morphine, and Lonlygrl91 will laugh at your expense! I love reviews! They make my chapters come faster! Constructive criticism is always appreciated too! This chapter is considerably shorter than the first, and I apologize for that. Please enjoy it, none the less.

Spencer Morgan watched from behind a two way window as his family mourned. A few of them hadn't come to grips with it yet, and that was understandable. Morgan seemed the worst off, he sat there, just staring at the wall. Not even flinching when their children cried. Suddenly, JJ scoop Tala Diana Morgan out of her god mothers arms, and crouched down in front of Derek.

Spencer couldn't hear what she was saying, but he could read lips. 'He's gone Derek, and your children need you.' Derek's eyes finally moved and he shot up into a standing position.

"HE'S NOT GONE JJ!! I WOULD KNOW IF HE WAS GONE OKAY?! HE"S NOT DEAD!" Spencer flinched, and wondered - not for the first time - if he was making the right choice. Tearing his eyes away from his two children and their father, his husband, for quite possibly the last time, Spencer buried his face in the chest of the man next to him.

Jason Gideon rubbed his 'sons' back soothingly, knowing exactly how hard it hurt to leave your loved ones behind. Also taking one last glance at the people he had once, and still, considered family, Jason led Spencer out of the hospital, and into a waiting car.

The car ride was brief, and Spencer couldn't stop shaking as they pulled up in front of the unmarked plain looking building that he knew was the CIA. After a threat had been made on his life, Spencer didn't know who to turn to, so he hunted down his former mentor and father figure. Jason Gideon: ex-FBI agent, turned undercover CIA op leader.

They had decided that if Spencer's stalker thought him dead, then it would be in everyone's best interests, just until the suspect had been apprehended.

So, faking a car crash, and ensuring that everyone truly believed him dead, Jason Gideon and his subordinate, Elle Greenaway, had pulled Spencer away from his life, and his family.