Hello! *waves to everyone* this is my first CSI:NY fanfic in my new FF account so please bare with me. Comments are love. :) story is x-posted to my LJ. This story used to be a Pinoy Big Brother fic but I slowly got over that fandom and I could sorta picture this happening for SMacked.
Disclaimer: I do not own CSI or the characters used in the story. I just borrowed them for funsies. (:
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Happy. He's always felt happy when he is with her. Hell, just thinking about her made him happy and ever since Claire died, he didn't have a lot of happy moments. But for the last couple of days, he's been feeling something different. A kind of something he couldn't explain. It's the first time he's ever felt this way and it scared him. He made a mental list of all the feelings he's ever had but still, no words can explain how he was feeling now. Love, maybe? It wasn't a far-fetched idea, the thought has crossed his mind a couple of times, but the thought that he actually loves someone other than his relatives and the colour green scares him. He could easily say the words 'I love you' to explain how he feels about them but when it came to saying how he felt about her, things were different. The words 'I love you' aren't enough to describe this 'thing' he's feeling towards her. Does he tell her? Yes? No? Maybe? After 30 minutes of debating with himself, he finally decides to say it, hoping she doesn't turn him down and break his heart. He gets the tiny piece of paper that he keeps in his wallet and writes, 'I more than love you, Stella.'
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He knocked on her door and patiently waited for her to answer. When she did, she looked at him and wondered why he was there. An impromptu visit wasn't a very Mac Taylor thing to do. Still in the hallway, he handed her the tiny little paper that he wrote his feelings on. She looked at him, uncertainty written all over her face. Was this supposed to be some twisted joke? Did he loose a bet or something? If it was a joke, it certainly wasn't funny and if he did lose a bet, why'd he agree to do this a type of punishment. One could call it inhumane even. He took her hand, kissed it gently and looked into her eyes. He didn't let go of her hand and she mentally cursed herself for liking it and getting all mushy inside. You know, the whole stomachs doing summersaults kind of thing. She tried to look away but couldn't. There were so many emotions in his eyes. The emotions that caught her eye the most was fear and love. Fear of what? He was Mac Taylor and Mac Taylor doesn't get scared often. The Mac Taylor has fallen in love with her? What could he possibly love? She had her own flaws, one of them being the ability to attract jerks. But then again he had his flaws too. Do two wrongs make a right? To hell with all of that, he loved her and she loved him. Now that I know my feelings for him, what the hell do I do next? Stella thought.
"There are a lot of other women out there you know… I mean, why me?" she said timidly, not exactly sure what to do.
"I don't give a rat's hairy ass about them. It's you I want, and it's always going to be you."
"I love you too." She said barely above a whisper, looking at her bare feet.
"What? I'm sorry, I didn't hear what you said." He said with a smile. Mac moved closer so they were only mere inches apart. Actually, he heard her perfectly. He just wanted to see if and how she would say it again.
She wrapped her arms around his neck while his instinctively went around her waist. She looked at his eyes and said, "I more than love you too."
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I don't have a beta so all mistakes are mine. :) I hope you enjoyed reading anyways.