Waking Up

Bella's Point of View

I remember the pain being worse the first time. Now after heartbreak and years without one of the two reasons for living, the burn feels like a paper cut. Perhaps that's simile, a paper cut after all is what got us into this mess. If I hadn't have cut my finger, Edward and I would have been married in church. We wouldn't know about our ability to have children, so the thought of it being stripped away wouldn't matter. It may be the burn, but the pain from the knowledge that Edward and I will never be able to experience pregnancy together burns. My heart feels like it is on fire. Again I'm not sure if it's because I am changing or if it is from the pain.

I feel the pain begin to dissipate in my legs, slowly moving to my heart. I hear my family gather around, all except for Rosalie. It's probably a good thing; I might kill her for taking away my wanted future. I smell Ryan and he runs to my side to hold me. At least I will have one baby. Ryan is crying he wants to know that I am ok and that I still love him. I will always love him, he doesn't need to ask.

After a final burst of pain my hearts beats for the last time, leaving me to open my new eyes for the first time. I can see everything the dust, the light beams, and more importantly the scars on Jasper that were hidden from my human eyes. I hissed at him, feeling afraid. The only creature that can inflict bite marks upon us is vampires.

"Bella," called Jasper feeling my fear, "I will not hurt you these are from long before my time with the Cullen's. I know you don't know my story, but please understand I am not going to hurt you."

I smiled, understanding what he meant; no one here would hurt me purposefully. "Where's Rose?" I hissed, finally letting the anger I had bubbling under the surface out. The wicked Bitch of the North had some apologizing to do. Blondie burst into the room, a cherubic baby in her arms.

I glared at Rose, putting every bit of animosity into the stare, trying to make her feel my pain. She looked at me with venom welling in her eyes, "Bella, thank you. You have given up everything for me. I now have everything that I could ever want, please understand that I am sorry that you aren't able to have another child, but I can never be truly sympathetic. I wouldn't have a baby if this hadn't had happened." I looked at Rosalie absorbing her words, she made sense.

"Rose, I will not hold this against you. As long as you are forever thankful." Rose smiled at me and left the room, cooing Emalie as she left. I smiled at her; not feeling any different, except my throat burned and I somehow knew that water wasn't going to fix it.

"Bella, you must be thirsty. Here eat this until we can get you out of the house," Edward told me as he handed me a blood pop.

I stuck the horror candy in my mouth, and was surprised at how good it was, with every suck I felt the burn subsiding. "What kind was that?" I asked my family.

"Field mouse," Carlisle answered looking at me with mild disgust, "we talked and decided to give you a small herbivore first because when a human is changed they bring forth their strongest traits. Since you had such a high intolerance to even the smell of blood, we need to see how you react to different species."

"What's wrong with field mouse? It didn't taste bad to me." I stated looking around for some reassurance that I wasn't crazy.

"We normally like larger and more dangerous prey. Try this one," Edward said handing me a different sucker.

I opened it and gagged. It smelled horrible. "Is it spoiled?" I asked.

"No, you just have the aversion to blood we thought you would have. That one was dingo. We will have you eat small prey for a little while until your tolerance is up." Esme said smiling.

I smiled, and started an internal monologue. Great now I'm a vampire who can't stomach blood, how much bigger of a freak can I be. Jasper still eyed me warily, I stared back trying to make him feel uncomfortable. "What the hell do you want Jasper? I'm not going to attack anyone, in case you hadn't noticed I just ate."

"You are fascinating Bella, are you sure you're not thirsty."

"Jasper, I am not thirsty. My throat doesn't burn, and I'd really appreciate it if I could get off of the bed now. My legs are twitchy." I said earning a gasp of shock from every vampire but Alice. "What?" I yelled.

"Vampires are supposed to be fine just sitting still. You shouldn't need, nor want to move." Edward told me.

"Well I do. Damn it Alice take me shopping," I earned laughs.

"Bella, dear we can't take you shopping. We faked your death so you can't be seen in town until after we move. We already held your memorial service; also we totaled the Volvo to make your death seem believable." Esme looked down at me sheepishly.

That's great, I can't leave my house until we move. Aro came into the room, and started talking to me. "Bella, so what feels different about you? Anything? Can I touch you?"

"Um, Aro that sounded wrong, and yes you may touch my hand. I don't really feel any different." I opened my mind just to shock the family, as Aro touched my hand Edward gasped. He was suddenly assaulted with every thought I had, good and bad.

"Holy hell, Bella! I can hear you thoughts," Edward commented as I closed my mind again. It was too easy.

"I think I have control over it now, if I want to all I need to do is open a little gate in my mind and let the thoughts come through. I think I might also be able to use my shield on others. So when is my funeral?"

"Love, we had it while you were out. Everyone came, even Jake. He just about killed us before I told him that it was what you wanted. I hope that this life is still what you want."

"Edward, it is. I just hope that it gets easier to deal with the pain of what I have lost. On the bright side now I can finally be your equal, and you don't have to worry about control."

With that I zoned into my own little world.

Edward' Point of View

Bella doesn't hate me, that's a good sign right. Sure we can never have another child, but at least I still have her. If worse comes to worse we can always adopt, or we can even use the eggs that Carlisle set aside. It would be our baby, just from a different uterus.

Her funeral was decent; Renee, Charlie, and Jake were her only guests besides us. I knew she didn't have many friends, but it still broke my heart. For the ceremony we played her favorite songs and listened as everyone gave a speech. It was almost heartbreaking. I started to sob half way through it, and then Alice poked me and told me she was alive.

I continued to sob for my human Bella, however and that got the entire family going. After the ceremony, Renee commented on Emalie. We said that she was all Rosalie's. For the sake of the funeral and goodbyes we also faked Ryan's death, now we were free to move around the country at will.

I sat in my room reminiscing about human Bella, when a knock came to the front door. Whoever it was blocking their thoughts so they must have known about my gifts.

I ran downstairs and joined my family as Carlisle opened the door. What I saw made me hiss in anger and Ryan to run into the house before he was seen.

Aro started to speak, hopefully taming the apparent malicious intentions. "Casius, brother what brings you some of our guard here?"

"We came to make sure you were still living dear brother, but I see now you have gone soft. I brought the guard along in case I needed to dispose some of the creatures in this world."

Ryan please hide everyone yelled in their minds even Aro. "Please come in old friend," Carlisle greeted the hostile vampire on our doorstep.

"Don't mind if I do." Casius puffed up and moved into the room and plopped himself on the couch, Jane Alec and Demetri stood behind him waiting for his next move.

We were talking for a few moments before Ryan poked his head into the room, and Casius immediately went into attack mode. I have no idea how we all are going to make it out of this I screamed inside my head.

End Notes- Here you have it my pathetic excuse for a chapter. I will try to post in a quick succession over the next few days, I have started two new jobs and they are taking up a lot of my time. Please forgive me for this being so short, I didn't know what else to add into it.