Chapter 1 – The Park Bench
Have you ever felt so lonely that it's like there is no-one else alive in the world? Like everyone has died in a mass bomb blast except you? That's how I feel right now. Like there 's nothing worth living for anymore. The way I see it, if everyone has died, including all of those who you really care about, why bother continuing to exist? Why not join them if you're the only one? So many times a day, this thought runs through my head. So many times a day I see things which could easily end my misery. A pair of scissors, a pen, plastic wrap, traffic. All lethal when you think about it.
I can't go home anymore. I can't go back there. I have no-where to go. I only have one person left but he would never let me in. Why would he after all the things I've done to him? Earnestly I wish for my best friend back, my beautiful friend Carly. Carly Shay was my best friend since I can remember but was whisked off to Yakima to live with her grandpa. I sigh as I pull my soft red wool blanket up around me, trying to avoid the bitter chill from the November wind. It was evident that it would rain soon, so I burrow down further in my blanket, the ridges of the park bench digging into my back as I try to make myself comfortable.
Pulling my PearPod from my shorts pocket, I switch it onto 'Running Away' by AM and let tears slide down my cheeks as I feel icy droplets of water fall from the sky. I try to get comfortable on this stupid excuse for a bed. I was always close to gutter trash before but now I'd sunk even lower in class, becoming a regular hobo. Me, Samantha Puckett, a teenage hobo. I laugh feebly at my own thought. If only Carly could see me now. Cold, wet and hungry. I have made a new record for myself – I haven't eaten for 3 days. Its Monday tomorrow though, I might be able to scab some food or money at school. I push the hunger away and curl up for the night in the cold November rain.
A/N: Hey guys! This is my first official iCarly fan fic, cos I haven't finished the others yet. I am a big fan of Seddies btw so most of mine will be. :P. I wrote this in the middle of a heatwave out of boredom and so its not that good. I am really glad cos I actually managed to remember that November is cold in America, even in the middle of a 40+ degree heatwave! Yay! Thankyou Guns 'n' Roses! :D
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