"She never slept more then a couple of hours each night, she had nightmares, of who she uses to be, of everything she had been through with you, Harry."

"She always had those nightmares." Fred said, "That's how we came close, she could never sleep and I was always there, she would tell me about them, she was so afraid about what will happen to you, Harry and Ron. She was not afraid for herself but about you guys."

"She replaced you with Sirius, she told him everything and he listened. Of course they didn't tell us about this, every morning they kept up the facade that they disliked each other, though Lily sensed something is up, she called it woman's intermission."

"Was she right?" Ron asked, speaking up for the first time.

"Of course, she wasn't the smartest witch of her age for nothing."

Weeks past for me, school was good, uneventful; at time's it felt like I was being watched however when I had turned around there was no body there. I had told Sirius about these worries one night and he had laughed it off calling me silly.

It had been two weeks since that one night that Sirius and I shared together and every night since then we have spent it together talking about nothing in particular, some times I helped him with his homework and he listened to my nightmares.

We never told the others about our meetings, we didn't know how to tell them that we liked each other now so in the day we pretended we hated each other, teasing and insulting each other.

"Lily, come on!" I yelled up the stairs, my school jumper itching my arms. Lily was running late, AGAIN! For the smartest witch in the year she was always running late and being disorganized.

I pulled the jumper off, the collar being caught in my curls.

"Bugger! Bloody Bugger! Stupid jumper!" I tugged on the jumper to no anvil.

"Stupid rudding thing! I would rather freeze!"

"Ah baby you will not freeze if I'm with you." a cocky voice said from behind me. I jumped at the noise.

"What?" I pulled the jumper back down, my curls being tussled down around my face and shoulders.

"Stupid hair." I muttered making a mental note to get Lily to cut it.

"I do love your hair though!" the voice said and I realized I had spoken out loud.

"What?" looking up I realized I was speaking to Tobias Zabini, the Slytherin boy from the train. I had seen him in classes, he never paid much attention to me and vies versa. He sort of scared me and put me in awe at the same time, he was brilliantly smart and handsome.

"Oh hi."

"Oh hi!" he mocked, "I was just wanted to ask if you had those potion notes from Tuesday, I can't seem to find them."

"Tuesday are you sure?" I asked, a smile playing on my lips.

He smiled back, showing a row of perfect white teeth, "Oh definitely."

"Because I think on Tuesday we don't have potions."

"Oh woops my mistake, that would be why I don't have those notes." His voice was sweet and had a hint of a French accent.

"Properly."

"Jen what on earth are you doing!" Lily screeched as she came down the stairs FINALLY!

'I was just talking to her, Evens." Tobias said silkily.

"Well don't!" Lily's voice was raised, her hand placed in her left pants pocket where she kept her wand.

"Its okay Lily, Tobias was just leaving."

"Yes I was good bye for now Jenny!" I cringed at the nickname; it reminded me of something else, another name, Ernie? Fernie? Hermie?

"God Jen, why were you talking to him?"

Ignoring her, "Did Phillips have those books you wanted?"

"Yes but Jen, listen to me he is EVIL! His family is in league with Voldemort!" Lily turned on my almost bowling me over.

"He's nice Lily and I know that if some one is nice to you, you always be nice back."

"But he is EVIL!"

"No he is not!"

"Hello Ladies." James stalked up behind Lily wrapping his arms, Lily smiled she now had an allies against me.

"James tell Jenn that Tobias Zabini is evil."

James looked confused, "Zabini is evil, like uber evil. Only Bellatrix and Lucious are more evil then him."

"But he is Nice."

Remus spoke up and for the first time I had noticed he was standing there, "Look Jen just don't talk to him okay, now Lunch!"

I laughed at his way of changing subject, he always changed subject before an argument erupted.

"Yes, lunch." James placed both arms around Lily and I's shoulders.

"We will talk about this later Jennifer.' Lily scowled.

"Yes mother." I joked slipping slightly on the floor with my cane; I had to keep remembering to pay attention where I placed the cane, trying to up the end in the gaps between the stones on the floor.

"Where is Sirius?"

"Library with Peter, looking for some book." James pretended to faint stumbling back clutching his heart.

"Library! He has gone mad!"

Lily and I laughed loudly, getting some strange stares as younger students past us.

"Does he know where it is?"

"No, he had to ask for directions."

We entered the great hall, to the smells of fresh bread and meat.

Our group was waved over by Peter and Sirius, who had returned from his maiden voyage to the library.

"So how was the library?" Lily asked as Sirius went bright red.

"Okay, but don't spread it around okay."

"OH we won't, we promise." Lily and I chimed.

"Okay..."

Lily had decided not to let the idea of me and Tobias go (and maybe with good reason).

"Sirius can you please tell Jenn that Tobias is evil!"

"Stop calling him that!"

Sirius slammed his fist on the table, sending bread crumbs through the air.

"Jennifer!"

"What Twat?"

"What are you doing with him?" the vein in Sirius's neck pulsed.

"Well he wanted to borrow my Tuesday potion notes."

"We don't have potions on Tuesday." James chimed in.

"Really? No duh." I sent him a look, what was there problem? Couldn't they see that to me Tobias was a good man?

"Jennifer! What the hell were you thinking?" Sirius hissed anger apparent in his eyes.

"I was thinking that if I was going to survive here in this school as the "cripple" then I am going to have to be nice to people!"

"Not him, Jennifer, not him!" Sirius had got to his feet, his voice beginning to be raised. Lily and the others stared glances, wondering why all of a sudden Sirius Black actually cared for me.

"Get over your self, Black. You are not the boss of me!"

"Jennifer, for me please, don't. I've seen that world, the world he belongs too and it isn't pretty."

My nightmares flashed behind my eyes, all that blood, death, that eye of the snake, I had seen it to.

"So have I Sirius Black and I'm a grown woman who can make her own decisions!"

"Jenn-"but I cut him off, with my hand slapping his cheek, the sound echoed in the now quiet great hall. I turned briskly, holding my stick I left, limping as I tried to put my bag on my shoulder.

The moment I got threw the door way I collapsed, my body defeated as well as my mind.

"you okay?" And there stood the source of the entire argument, Tobias Zabini.

"Yep, I just love stone floors." Sarcasm dripped out of my mouth. He lent a hand and pulled my up, while balancing on his shoulder, he picked up my bag and walking stick.

"Thanks."

"So that was interesting."

"You could say that."

"They don't like you very much."

"Nope, though I think Black does more then the others."

"Why"

"Because he likes you, and I like you."

"You like me?" My only answer was his lips on mine; his hands pulled my closer, winding around my waist. I let him kiss me, I kissed him back.

In the back of my mind there was dancing going on, this was my first kiss! (At least the first kiss I could remember)

Then the kissing stopped, Tobias was pulled away from me, and a fist replaced my lips.

Sirius's fist.

"OH MY GOD!" I screamed, falling to be besides Tobias.

"Stay away from her Zabini."

"No you Arse! You stay the hell away form me!" I screamed back, my sleeve wiping away the blood on his lip and nose.