Okay this is the last chapter! Yay! It is over. I am thankful to all of my Reviewers and I am glad you enjoyed the story. However I am not writing anymore stories for this anime on this Account. I will give you more details after the chapter.
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Chapter 14
A-12 on your map is the place of our next scene. You will hear my conversation on this tape with my counselor, Crowler. He is the one who decides if I choose to live…or die. He makes the choice now. It is not in my hands.
They hear a door open. And a sound of a chair screeching across the floor as it is being pushed out. They hear a plop.
"Maybe it was her backpack?" Syrus asked.
"Possibly," Bastion said.
"Alexis! How are you?" Crowler's voice was heard through the tape. This time, she wasn't telling the story. Both of them were, only Crowler didn't know it. He wasn't even aware of the fact that he was being recorded. His whole conversation between him and Alexis was recorded so everyone on the tape can hear it. Everyone would know that was the one who was the one who ended her life. Even if she was the one who overdosed, even if she was the one who choose it. Even if she really made the final decision, he played the biggest part in it. Larger than anyone else, it was his decision that allowed her to die.
"Alexis," Atticus whispered. He could find the words to say anything else.
"I'm not really sure, Professor Crowler." Her voice was low, almost a whisper.
"Oh? And why is that?" He seemed genuinely curious.
"Have you ever felt…unwanted?" Her voice was hesitant, almost as if she didn't want to tell her secret.
"Yes, that is normal in life. Many people experience it." Crowler said in a confident tone, like he knew he was right and anyone who defied him was wrong.
"But to such an extreme as self-inflicting pain?" Alexis inquired. Her voice was still timid, like she didn't know how to express it.
"Well...that is unusual but not uncommon. Why are you asking about it?" Crowler stated the facts yet again, he said it as if he repeated it daily.
"I'm just curious." Alexis's voice was pitched a little too high.
"She's lying…again." Atticus said.
"How do you know that?" Jaden questioned.
"Her voice always gets a little higher when she lies; it's how we know she is lying." Zane stated.
"Why haven't we noticed this?" Syrus and Jaden questioned in unison.
"Because you guys are slow, you morons." Chazz growled out.
"Are you sure?" Crowler seemed to be aware of Alexis's uncomfortable state. However, if he knew she was lying or not still wasn't known.
"Yes Professor Crowler." Alexis's tone was more confident.
"Have you talked to your brother in a while?" Crowler decided to question her to make her feel a little more at ease.
"No." Alexis' voice grew distant.
"Zane?" The teacher questioned?
"No."
"She's lying." Jaden said.
"How do you know?" Syrus asked.
"She said it earlier in this tape. 'I ran into Zane today' that is what she said, word for word." Chazz said.
"Oh, Well I forgot!" Syrus huffed.
"Yuki?"
"No."
"Anyone?" His voice seemed surprised.
"No. I don't really see why you are curious about whether I have talked to someone or not." Alexis said, her voice held a restrained animosity in it.
"Most girls your age tend to…seek other's approval." Crowler said, attempting to easy her into their conversation that he was guessing will be a little uncomfortable.
"I don't give a damn what other people think about me now." Alexis shot back. Her animosity restraint is long gone.
"Well, you use to talk to them a lot. However, I noticed that lately you are not hanging out with them as often as you use to." Crowler said. His voice was stressed, like he wanted to yell at her, but he couldn't. He wasn't allowed to judge what she said to him in private; he could only offer advice. If he did anything else, it would all back fire.
"They don't need me to be around all the time. Besides, what does that have to do with me seeking "attention" from people?" Alexis sounded hurt and upset.
"Maybe this was your way of getting them back?" Crowler told her, his voice seemed calmer.
"I don't need their damn pity! If they wanted me to hang out with them, they would have found a way to hang out with me." The young female Obelisk blue's temper was back and roaring to go.
"Now, now, Alexis, don't get so riled up. I was merely stating what I thought might help." Crowler attempted to calm her.
"Answer my question, Crowler." Alexis demanded.
"And what was that again?" Crowler asked.
The heard her suck in a breath, something she did every time she felt the need to scream…loud. They heard her even breathing for quite some time. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. It seemed like forever that they just heard her even breathing.
"Are you alright?" Crowler asked her. She didn't respond, all they heard was her breathing. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out.
"Have you or anyone else ever felt the need to hurt yourself?" Alexis asked once she didn't feel the need to scream.
"I cannot tell you about other students, Alexis. You know that." Crowler chided her.
"Have you then? Or anyone else in the world felt the need to harm themselves?" Alexis seemed almost desperate for the answer.
"I have never. I would be repulsed at myself or any student's action to do such a heinous act. As for other people in the world, yes they have felt like that and they do many times a day. Many people cut themselves, starve themselves, attempt to drink their problems away, and even do drugs—especially hallucinogens—to attempt to rid themselves of those feelings." Crowler stated the facts.
They heard her sigh a little. It sounded like a sigh of relief. They didn't know if she was happy that she was the only one, or if she was just happy that she managed to avoid the conversation about them. All they knew was that for some reason, she was relieved.
"Tell me, why are you so curious about that?" Crowler attempted to start a new conversation.
"What would you do if I died, Crowler?" Alexis did her best to impede that conversation from starting. She wanted to be the one in control of the conversation. She wouldn't let anyone else take over her control of the conversation.
"Well…I…I…why ask something like that?" Crowler was shocked. His voice was proof enough.
"What would you do if I did die?" Alexis asked the question again.
"I…I…Alexis I think it be best if we change the subject." Now it was Crowler's turn to avoid the subject.
"I think it would be best for you to answer my question, Counselor." Alexis stated. She was growing impatient.
They heard her foot pat softly against the ground. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap.
"Are you going to answer me?" Alexis asked.
"Well, Alexis, I don't think I can answer that." Crowler sounded quite frightened. He didn't want to answer her question.
"Why can't you answer that? You are my counselor." She said. She sounded like she was getting upset again.
"I cannot answer that, Alexis." Crowler's voice grew hard. He was trying to make her see that he would not.
"Do you care if anyone died here?" Her voice was low.
"Of course I care if someone died!" Crowler growled out.
"Then why don't you answer my question?" Alexis shot back.
"Because it is you! I can't do anything!" Crowler growled out.
They heard a feminine gasp. Then more sounds of breathing. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out.
"Because it is me?" Alexis said after a few minutes. "What does that have to do with whether or not I die?" Alexis was clearly hurt. Her voice was a clear indication of that.
"I didn't mean it to sound like that, Alexis!" Crowler stated hastily.
"Then how did you mean for it too sound, like no one cares about me? That I am just some whore?" Alexis screeched.
"No! Who gave you that idea?" Crowler said. He tried to make her calm down.
"You did!" She growled out.
"I never called you a whore, Ms. Rhodes!" Crowler stated.
"No one cares about whores." Alexis stated. Her voice was cold and distant.
"We cared about her." Jaden whispered.
"Of course we cared, idiot!" Chazz snarled.
"She didn't know that." Syrus said.
"Yes she did!" Atticus growled out.
"Then why didn't she confront us about everything?" Bastion barked back.
"She was scared. She didn't know how we would react. We could have reacted like Crowler just did! We could have called her psychotic or said she was making it up. We might have not believed her! She didn't know how we would react and that terrified her!" Atticus shot back bitterly.
"Atticus is right. If any of us were in her position we would have done the same thing. Our outcome might have been different but we would have never come to the people who hurt us." Zane said.
"It's not her fault." Jaden said.
"It never was." Atticus said.
"Then who the hell is at fault?" Chazz asked.
"We are. Why do you think we are on these tapes?" Atticus growled.
"Why didn't she try to reach out more?" Bastion growled.
"Who was she going to reach out too?" Jaden asked.
"She could have reached out to anyone!" Syrus yelled.
"Everyone she did reach out to had failed her!" Chazz said.
"I never heard her reach out to, my brother!" Syrus said.
"Everyone else she trusted hurt her, Syrus. How do would she have known if I did or not?" Zane said.
"See it is not her fault." Jaden said.
"No, it is." Zane said.
"What?" Atticus asked in shock. "Zane! How could you say that?"
"I am not saying she is the only one, Atticus. We are all at fault. No one forced her to do this. She did do that on her own free will. She is ultimately at fault for taking her life; however, we all pushed her in that direction. So we too are at blame. Not just her, all of us." Zane explained.
"She could have sought help." Bastion said.
"What do you think she was doing you slacker?" Chazz growled.
"I'm a slacker? Last time I checked I have better grades than you, Princeton." Bastion said.
"Both of you shut the hell up!" Atticus roared. "That is enough of putting my sister on trial! She is dead and there is nothing we can do about it. So stop insulting each other and let's finish the tape!"
Both of the younger teens shut their mouths immediately. No argument presumed.
"Ms. Rhodes, you are not a whore!" Crowler did his best to reason with her.
"Am I though?" Alexis said.
"No one cares about me. Everyone calls me one. So what makes me not one?"
"Who calls you that?" Crowler asked in his teacher tone, like he would do something about it.
"No one you need to know about, Crowler. It is not important anymore. They have gotten away with it. Now tell me why you wouldn't do anything if I died?" Alexis deadpanned.
"You are a student here; it would be out of my hands." He answered.
"Would you tell anyone?" Alexis asked.
"I would have to." He responded.
"If you didn't have to tell someone, would you still?" Alexis asked.
"I probably wouldn't." he responded.
"Why would he not tell anyone?" Atticus asked.
"He is the only one who knows the answer to that." Bastion said.
"Why would you not report my death?" Alexis asked, her voice held forced curiosity. Conversation was coming to an end, the boys knew it.
"It would become messy to get involved with such a thing. It would be better to let my superiors deal with it." Crowler said.
"…If you were the only one to know—since you didn't tell anyone—how would your superiors deal with it?" Alexis asked.
"They would stumble across it eventually." Crowler stated.
"I think our conversation is over, Crowler." Alexis said. They heard a chair screech across the floor again, and a door open.
"Alright, Alexis, remember to come to me anytime you need to talk." They heard Crowler say before a door slammed shut.
Well you guys heard the conversation. He didn't do anything to persuade my decision. In fact he furthered my choice. He proved suicide was the right choice for me. He didn't care if I died, just like everyone else.
"That is a lie! I cared about her! Zane cared about her!" Atticus said.
"She didn't know that." Bastion said.
"Don't twist my words against me, Misawa." Atticus bit back.
"I am not." Bastion said.
Well, my tales are over. I made it all clear. Now all I can do is pray that it got through. By and by passes time. My story ends, but maybe for you, a new one can begin.
The guys waited to hear more but no sound came. It was true, Alexis was not going to tell anything else. She was dead and the tapes were over. Now, no one will speak for her.
"Well, now what?" Jaden asked.
"You guys will go to bed." Zane said.
"And you two?" Chazz asked.
"We are going to make sure the tapes are in order, rewind, and send them to the next person on the list.
"Alright," Jaden asked. "Bye guys!" Jaden then dragged the other younger gentlemen out of the dorm.
The next day, Atticus was at the school shop with Zane.
"Can you mail this for me?" He asked Ms. Dorothy.
"Yes, why of course," She said glancing over the package. "But it has no return address." She said.
"I know. I want to keep it that way." Atticus responded.
"Alright, dear," She responded "I will send this package."
"Thank you, Ms. Dorothy." Atticus said.
"Anything you want me to do for you, Zane?" The elder woman asked.
"No thanks, Ma'am. I'm just here with Atticus." The elder Truesdale responded.
"Alright, have a good day boys!" She said.
"We will bye Ms. Dorothy!" The boys said in unison. Then they both departed from the school store.
Now the tapes are Jim's.
15388 Teens are Arrested
4219 Teens get sexually Transmitted Diseases
3610 Teens are assaulted
2861 Teens drop out of school
1377 Teens become mothers
1106 Teens get an abortion
1000 Teens begin drinking
500 Teens begin doing drugs
420 teens are arrested for drug use
6 Teens die from suicide
All in one day
If you know someone who needs comfort, give them comfort. It might be against your instinct to get involved, but it is something that everyone needs. Don't judge them; just give them someone to talk to. It is something they need, and something that can prevent their premature death.
The final chapter! Done! I am happy :). I hope you guys liked it.
About not writing anymore of this anime on this account it is because I made a new one that is for fan-based stories only.
I will update when I get a firm idea. The username is Romantically Distant.
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