Hello everyone!

I must say I'm really thankfull for all your sweet reviews! You really are the ones who make me post this story!

Just so you know, and since some of you seemed confused by last chapter, especially about the speech that Jae Kyung played on her mind, here is the explanation: for those that didn't read my previous story "Forever F4", Jae Kyung has run away from Woo Bin, after their first night together (and her first time too, since I pictured her as a virgin...) because she is beeing forced in another marriage of convenience, that has yet to happen. But, this arranged marriage is nothing like the one that she had been in previously and this is the story after she and Woo Bin parted ways. As you'll see, this one will turn out to be a little more dangerous...

I'm not telling anything else, so you'll have to read it for further explanations!

Here is the next chapter!

Enjoy!

Chapter 4 - Still Can't Let Go

Woo Bin drove fast in the night, turning the night lights into a blur of color all around him. He wasn't caring for the speed or where he was headed. He needed to vent it all out.
Strangely, his drive brought him to his house and only when he parked the car did he allow himself to shout out loud and let out all his pent up anger:

- FUCK! AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

He leaned over the wheel, the honk echoing into the night without interruptions while he closed his eyes, letting the sound resonate in his ears. How could he have been such an idiot? How could he…?

- I'm an idiot… I'm such a pitiful idiot… - he murmured, under the sound of his horn.

Some of his men came out in his direction, when he got out of the car but he dismissed them:

- I want to be alone…

They didn't follow him and quickly dismissed themselves.

His steps brought him to the door of his bedroom and he took a deep breath before opening the door and allowing himself in.

It was the first time he had done it since he and Jae Kyung had been together there. He had even moved to another room, after that, and forbidden everyone, even the cleaning maids to enter it. The memories had been too much, and he hadn't been able to sleep there even for a minute. Pacing till the bed, he noticed how, after all that time her perfume was still in the air. Everything was the same as he had left them, that day: the bed was still unmade, his clothes were still in the floor… as he had ordered, no one had changed anything. Now, he wondered what had possessed him into doing so.

Of all the girls he had been with, somehow Jae Kyung had been the only one he had been on his own room; with the others he had occupied the other rooms in the house. How on hell had that happened, he was still wondering; he knew he felt something more for her, at the time, than lust or desire. But now…

He fell upon the bed. What did he felt now, after seeing her and hearing what she had said?

He laughed bitterly, while he crossed his arm over his eyes:

- I can't believe it… after all she said… I still…

He had secretly hoped, in his heart, that she had another explanation for her leaving. Anything other than that would be understandable, in his point of view: that she had been scared, that he had hurt her, that she wasn't certain of his feelings for her… but this?

When he had seen her again, his heart made another upside-down turn loop and he hoped they could sort it out. Darn it, he had even hoped to have her where he was laying and doing what they had done over and over again, until both had been fulfilled from each other.

And now, here he was, without her and her explanation had been the god dammed company!

Anger once more boiled inside him… he had been so sure… so sure she had been honest and truthful with him… that she really loved him…

- A fake… that's what it was… it was all a lie…

He stayed in the room all night but did not sleep. In the morning, when he got out of the room he instructed one of his man to order the room to be cleaned and left sparkling and to inform his father that he wouldn't go to the office. Then he left for his room and slept all day, a sleep without dreams.

When he woke up, it was already dawn. He realized that his father mustn't have let his man wake him up and, silently, he thanked him for that. He really had intended to go to work but sleeping for the entire day and the following night had proven to be the best thing, since he now felt ready to face the outside world once more.

As he was getting ready to leave his home, an orange Lotus parked itself in front of his doorsteps and out of it came So Yi Jung.

- My bro! – he shouted surprised at seeing him. He quickly descended the stairs and hugged his best friend.

- How are you? When… when did you arrive?

- A few hours ago. I went to see Ga Eul but she had company so…

- Ah, - said Woo Bin, suddenly unable to look Yi Jung in the eyes – so you've already found out about…

- Yes. As a matter of fact, it was Ga Eul who asked me to check on you, since she called your house yesterday and they told her you were not to be disturbed.

- Why didn't she come…?

- Seems you weren't the only one damaged after your confrontation...

- As if! – said Woo Bin, laughing bitterly. – You want me to believe she was affected by what she told me? Bullshit, I tell you!

- Why don't you offer me breakfast as we talk about it? I'm really starving and didn't have time to eat at Ga Eul's…

- To eat what? Ga Eul or her delicious chocolate muffins she makes for breakfast? – teased Woo Bin, while leading his best friend in.

- Yah! Don't you think you've been hanging with her too much? How do you know what she makes for breakfast?

- You don't really want to know… - said Woo Bin, a mischievous smile in his face.

- Yah!

The two friends sat themselves at the huge table, as breakfast was brought for both of them. Woo Bin had already eaten but he still had another bite, along with his bro, while explaining everything that had happened between his confrontation with Jae Kyung, two days ago

- The company? That was her explanation? – asked Yi Jung, while cleaning his mouth.

- Yeah. She said a person like me would likely brought a shadow on her company…

- I can't believe she really said that…

- I know, I would have expected everything… and the worst part of it was when she told me she was sorry for leading me on…

- What a mess, that girl! And you? – Yi Jung eyed Woo Bin, almost expecting a sudden reaction from him.

- Me? Me what?

- Oh, c'mon! I know you! That crap of looking just fine won't work on me or Ga Eul, as a matter of fact. She understood quite quickly you weren't exactly ok when you left…

Woo Bin sighed and glanced at his cup of coffee.

- I'm not ok…

- I've noticed.

- I really… for once… after Lya, I believed that nothing would happen again for me, at least nothing like that… and then, with Jae Kyung… it was different. It was fast, yes, but still different as… as if we're meant to be… and now…

- Now you're stuck. You can't let go. – his friend smiled at him.

- … yeah…

- I know that feeling. I had never thought I would ever find a person to replace Eun Jae in my life. But Ga Eul proved me I was wrong. Definitely wrong. She showed me I had barely started living and that there was more than girls and drinking… there were still things like innocence and purity in the world. Things I had given up already in believing… she brought them back… she brought happiness to me, true happiness. And I wouldn't trade it for all the gold, money, women, drinks and ceramic of the world. Before I had time to even realize, I had already fallen for her…

Woo Bin looked amazed at his friend. He sounded so confident and happy, as he had never seen him before. Woo Bin was even a little jealous. He also longed to feel that way about someone… specially if it was…

- Have you told this to Ga Eul? – he asked, cutting his own line of thoughts.

- Of course not! – Yi Jung shouted, looking ashamed and shocked. And blushing to Woo Bin's surprise and delight.

- You're blushing!

- No I'm not!

- Yes, you are!

- No, I'm not! I don't blush!

- I've never seen you blushing before! You look cute!

- And you look like an ass!

Woo Bin grinned. Then his smile faltered and he spoke in a whisper, barely lifting his face from his lap.

- I just… I wished I could have been able to wake up, at that time… perhaps I had been able to stop her…

His friend looked at him, sorrow and companionship on his gaze. Truly, Yi Jung didn't know what he could do. He knew a lot more than Woo Bin supposed, as did the remaining F4, about Jae Kyung's situation but not all the details had yet arrived into their hands. The girls, being her confidents, had full knowledge of the situation. Still, between them, they had agreed to a pact, in which only after everything had been proved and known they would let Woo Bin know the complete truth.

At that moment, after hearing his friend sighed whisper, he was tempted to tell him everything but he decided, after he and Woo Bin parted ways to both their business that the time for the revelations had yet not come.

Well, what do you think? I'm sure you are curious about what is the "entire truth", aren't you? Perhaps next chapter you'll start getting hints!

See you next chapter!

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