They were towelling themselves off in the bathroom some time later. Syed picked up his discarded clothes and walked out into the bedroom. He pulled his clothes on as quick as he could. He could feel the guilt starting to hit him and the shame surrounding him.

What they had done was wrong and yet compared to what he did with Amira, it felt so right and natural. He hadn't felt so satisfied since before he married Amira. But it was bad and wrong and he tried to put the images of what had just happened out of his mind.

Christian was half-dressed and walked out the bathroom with his t-shirt in his hand. He looked over at Syed who was doing his shirt up. Syed wouldn't meet his eyes.

"You okay?" he asked.

"Yes of course. It's just Amira may be back soon, we just need to be careful."

Syed walked out the bedroom and into the living area.

"It's probably best you go Christian."

Christian looked at him "I think we should talk first don't you?"

"What about?"

"About what just happened. We can't pretend nothing did and I don't want to."

"It shouldn't have happened."

"What how can you say that? Why not?"

"You know why not. I'm married to Amira now and also it's wrong."

"I didn't see you complaining a few minutes back. The opposite in fact. I think you were begging for more." Christian glared at him. Syed shifted uneasily and looked away.

"It was a mistake, I shouldn't have let it happen."

"Weren't exactly fighting me off though were you."

"Christian please don't make this more difficult than it is already."

Christian walked right up to him and lifted his chin so he had to look at him.

"What happened just now between us we can't fight it. You love me and I love you and no pretending otherwise will change that fact. Pushing me away won't achieve anything."

He stroked the side of Syed's face gently "don't do this Syed. Don't push me away again."

"I can't you know I can't." Syed's voice broke with emotion.

"I do love you but I'm married now and we're trying for a baby. In fact Amira could already be pregnant. I can't leave her can I?"

"That's why you have to do it now and soon as possible before that happens."

Syed moved his head and rested it on Christian's shoulder. His hands moved around his waist and they hugged tightly. Christian kissed gently at the side of Syed's neck and he lifted his head and they kissed. It was a kiss of love and promise for the future.

They looked at each other and Syed could see all the love he felt reflected in Christian's eyes and knew that he would make him happy. He had to be brave and do the right thing and tell Amira and soon. He wanted to be with him and he couldn't fight it anymore.