The conversion chapter 4

It was two months since she had the altercation with Spencer and the brief break-up, now she was trying so hard to forget what Morgan did to her, but something was threatening to tear her apart, a secret she was keeping, she was pregnant.

Lisa Miller, fiancée of Spencer Reid, was pregnant to Derek Morgan, and now she wanted to keep it a secret from everyone. But Spencer stayed over last night and was on the couch right now, just a few feet away from the bathroom where Lisa was now throwing up, morning sickness, she hated it, she hated being sick at the best of times. Morning sickness was just a normal symptom of being pregnant but the guilt of being pregnant to Morgan was eating away at her from inside. It wasn't even her fault but she couldn't help thinking of Spencer and his reaction when he found out. She had entered into a world of her own thoughts, a world that entrapped her, a world that covered her in guilt and shame.

She felt a cool breath on her neck, it was Spencer. He was crouching beside her, his arm around her shoulders in a loving grip. There was great difference in the grip that Spencer held her with to the grip that Morgan dominated her with.

'Are you OK baby?' he asked with concern.

'I'm fine I must have ate something dodgy last night, that's all' she tried to smile but it didn't reach her eyes, still Spencer seemed satisfied. They went for breakfast in the little breakfast bar Spencer had installed.

'Mmm, you make good French toast! I love your cooking already! Aren't you having anything to eat, here I'll make you something' he stood up to go to the stove.

'No, I don't want to eat anything in case I'm sick again.' She made up a lame excuse.

'Ok, suit yourself, I'm going to have my breakfast anyway.' Spencer picked up his knife and fork and cut into his second slice of French toast, 'you know that's strange, you hardly eat at all, but your stomach is still growing!' he smiled to himself and shook his head, Lisa needed to show him why, she couldn't live a lie anymore, so she ran upstairs and grabbed the spare pregnancy test, she had burned the other one when she found out. Lisa ran into the bathroom to take the test. 'Pregnant' came the reply, she ran into the kitchen and threw it at Spencer, he looked at her confused, 'But...how long?'

'Two months' she knew the next question before it was asked, 'Yes, it's Derek's baby, he doesn't know and I don't want to tell him, not just now anyway.'

'But he deserves to know, it is his baby too isn't it?' Spencer looked more confused than ever, 'I don't understand, why don't you want him to know?'

Lisa looked down at her shoes, or slippers as it were, and thought very carefully about how to phrase her answer, 'I want to know if you'd raise another man's child with me first, I don't want Derek to know until I know that you'll be there for me and the baby. And that you won't abandon us.'

'Don't be silly, of course I'd be there for you, the both of you, come here.' Spencer held his crying fiancée. 'I think we should tell everyone, including Derek, it'll tear me apart knowing I kept this from him. He is my best friend after all' He rubbed Lisa's back and turned away, back to his breakfast, when he had finished they got dressed and went to work.

As they both went into the office, Derek was no where to be seen and Hotch was addressing them at their desks, 'I am sorry that you all needed to find out this way, but Morgan got fired after it emerged he assaulted one of our fellow agents.' He looked sadly at Lisa.

'Assaulted, how exactly?' came the gruff voice of David Rossi, the oldest member of the team, so to speak, he was around when they started up the division.

'He raped them, I don't think this is becoming of an FBI agent, do you?' came Hotch's harsh reply.

'But, who? Don't you think he should have been able to face his accuser?'

'We got it on CCTV we don't need an accuser.'

'Then can we know please?'

'NO!'

'Why not?'

'It was me, OK? Me! He raped ME!!!' Lisa's cry startled even her; she didn't know her voice could go so high. 'And I'm pregnant.' Even Hotch's head shot up and looked at her.

'Pregnant?'

How long?'

'It can't be Spencer's'

In order she answered the questions 'Yes, two months and no it's Derek's'

The rest of the day went by without many hitches, Lisa and Spencer finally went over to Derek's, as soon as he opened his door he slammed it in their faces, Lisa knocked again and this time made sure he kept it open, 'I need to tell you something, and you have to hear it, I'm pregnant, it's yours.'

Derek sat down and put his head in his hands, and then after a minute looked up at his friends, 'I want to be there, for both you and the baby.' He took Lisa's hand in both of his and looked up at her expecting an answer, and he got it!

'Are you crazy? You raped me and then want to marry me? Do you think I'm that gullible or that stupid? Me and Spencer are going to raise the baby together as soon as we get married and I want you to keep out of my life, but not the baby's and that's why telling you right now!'

'I want you, I need you, that's why I did this in the first place, I mean, don't get me wrong I never meant for you to get pregnant, but now that you are I want to be your husband and love you properly!' he furrowed his brow and looked at her confused.

'And another thing' Lisa continued as if he hadn't interrupted her, 'if you could feel just half of the guilt I do, and anyway it's not my fault, it's your fault and now you don't even feel any guilt? What is wrong with you?' Lisa pointed a finger at him, but Derek couldn't hide his anger, got up and punched Lisa in the jaw, knocking her unconscious, then Spencer came into the room.

'WHAT DID YOU DO DEREK?' Spencer shouted as he looked at his unconscious, pregnant, fiancée.

'I don't know I just one minute we were arguing the next I was knocking her out, I really didn't mean it! Spencer I'm sorry, I'm so sorry...'

'NO I should be the one who's sorry, I asked her to come here to tell you that she was pregnant! Now I see my error, it's that last time I ask her to come to you, you can stay out of all three of our lives!!!!! WE DON'T NEED YOU!' Spencer spat slightly at Derek, just then they both heard Lisa groaning, coming round, Spencer hovered over her, 'Are you Ok honey?'

'I'm fine, but I think I need to go home and sleep.'

With that they left Derek's house and got into the car and Derek sat down and wept in his hands.