Sorry there has been a longer than normal gap between the last update and this one - my demons have been at me again and Left me quite unable to write, think, sleep - well anyway.....I have made this quite a long chapter in the hopes of making up for the time gap.
**PLease note - there is explicit scenes of a sexual nature towards the end**
That's the warning..... 'M'
Disclaimer as Norm….
A VERY DIFFERENT KIND OF THEREPY
Gill just sat there, head down, hands forcibly held in her lap fingers laced together.
Cals mind was still racing – of all the things…
"I need you to explain to me why you want to do this Gill, I'm not saying no, I just need to be sure of your reasons"
"I need to get back to …life…to me, but although I know that everything that…cult…told me was lies, and false…I still feel …'disconnected'"
"From what? Disconnected from what?"
"Everything! My life, work, all the people I know as friends and colleagues, from the world. I especially feel disconnected from me….and you."
"I'm sort of with you luv, go on"
"It's like I'm empty, a shell with a memory. I need a ..'jump start'
Cal sat and contemplated what she had said.
"And you think this is you only way to do that? to give you this..'jump start'?"
"Yes..I do. It's not like I haven't thought about it, I have done nothing but since it came to me – I still think it's the only way"
"Gill…in a way I can see the reasoning behind it…It may even work…but me! Why me?"
"Because you are the only one I trust"
xXx
There was no one he could talk to.
Not the de-programmers or doctors, they would not be able to understand the dynamics of their relationship, the history – there was only one person he could think of that came close.
He was extremely loath to do it, but he was out of his depth in this area, for once, he simply couldn't make the decision on his own.
"Torres" she heard his voice on the internal phone system,
"Yeah"
"My office- at the end of the day please"
"Errr Sure"
Loker scoured her face.
"End of the day – Lightman's making appointments with you now?...and he said please – he never says please"
"That's the part that worries me the most"
Her face told him that she really had no idea what the summons was for anymore than he did.
"Weird..interesting – but weird"
xXx
"I…I'm just not sure what to say"
"Whatever came into your head while I was telling you, whatever is there now…just say it"
"Well…I think it could work, I think she feels like a nothing…they made took out everything she was, and it's left her with a big hole inside. The facts have been given back to her, but her feelings haven't – she is asking you to help her get them back, and it would have been a really hard thing for her to do so, ..she must be very sure – about what she wants, and about you"
"This go's nowhere outside this office, you understand that Ria?"
"Of course – yes!"
His face said she was dismissed but she ignored it and stayed in her chair.
He looked at her and raised one eyebrow.
"I wanted to know if you were…if you have decided you are going to help her?"
"Torres!"
"OK ok, if you need any more …advise…"
"Good night Torres"
The 2nd dismissal held a hint of a threat that she knew not to ignore.
xXx
"Thought you'd be more comfortable in your own place"
Gill looked around. Nothing had been touched, everything appeared to be as she had left it apart from the fresh, fragrant flowers that appeared to be in every room.
"I don't understand – I thought – I was told that I sold my property"
"Yeah …well you…and then the couple that bought it sold it on….to me"
"Oh no Cal, you didn't…It must have cost you a fortune ..and…well I don't appear to have any money left to repay you"
"Don't worry bout that for now luv. we are gonna get it back..all of it trust me! But you had to have somewhere to live didn't you"
"And the flowers?"
"Errr Em's idea – my plastic"
"Thank you – both of you. Well I was going to suggest I make some coffee, but I don't know what…"
"Everything you need has been got in so it's all fresh- and yes, I'd love a coffee please"
30 to 40 minutes of polite conversation followed, but there was a strain than ran underneath all of it.
Gill went to her kitchen and started to clean away the evenings flotsam and jetsam.
She jumped very slightly when Cal wrapped his arms round her waist from behind her, his voice was surprisingly soft and caring as it whispered in her ear.
"Gill luv, all this" his hand waved around the dishes and mugs "is just a delaying tactic, cum on luv, let's go"
His hand lingered as it drew soft lines down her arm and gripped her hand. He pulled her away switching all the lights on the way through to her bedroom.
xXx
As he closed the door behind them she turned to look at him, she smiled but her who face and body screamed out nerves. Cal was actually quite pleased, nervous he could deal with, but there was no fear – fear would have been a problem.
"Normally I suggest a couple of stiff drinks, but I want you to be fully aware of your senses luv, so I've cum up with another idea, I think you'll like it"
Her voice was breathy and slightly higher pitched than normal. "Ok, well what do you want me to do?"
"Nuffin Gill, just- trust me yeah"
She nodded her head as he walked towards her.
At first his kiss was gentle, almost respectful – but he was just testing the water, and soon his tongue moved inside the warmth of her mouth.
He could feel her trying to respond, trying to match him – but the barrier of her nerves was still there, he nevertheless carried on applying more and more pressure, pulling her closer so their bodies connected at every place they could.
Each time they broke briefly for air he would claim her mouth again quickly, each time with a bit more passion trying to build the need in her.
She found herself being lowered backwards onto the bed. Again his mouth left hers but this time his lips, his tongue sensuously trailed down her neck, and his pushed aside the top of her blouse he continued onto her shoulders.
She tried to lose herself in the moment, desperate to respond naturally to the heat of is body, the persistence of his kisses – but the release she sought from her emptiness was still hovering around her keeping her shut off from what should have been the ecstasy of the encounter.
"Trust me luv?"
"Of course Cal.. what.."
"I'm gonna take your clothes off Gill"
He removed each item of her clothing in an almost matter of fact way, ending when she had just her black panties left on her body.
"Turn over Gill"
She was almost happy to comply, at least like this he would not be able to see the uncertainty that was gathering in her mind.
Leaning over, Cal pulled open the drawer on the bedside cabinet and pulled out the bottle he had previously placed there.
He had had the mixture made up specially. A blend of oil and lotion with hints of orange blossom and lavender added.
Pouring some on one hand, he laid the bottle down – near to him – and then massaged the fluid into both of his hands, warming it.
Gill felt the first of his touches on the outer parts of her shoulders, his palms first spreading the lotion then his fingers starting to push at the muscles beneath her skin.
As his hand moved closer to her neck she picked up the aroma and she breathed in deeply.
He worked on the whole of the back of her body, every part of his hands, the palms, the heel, the fingers moved across her skin, her shoulders and neck, shoulder blades, up and down either side of her spine, lessening the pressure as he reached the small of her back- then on down her thighs, her calves, ankles to he very tips of her toes.
After the pressure came the gentle finger tip touches as he moved from the top to the bottom again just letting his fingers trace the lines of where his hands had gone before.
She felt his breath on her neck as he whispered to her.
"I'm gonna turn you over now, just relax, keep you eyes closed and let your body feel the sensations"
She experienced a slight chill as the front of her body was exposed to the air in the room – was it that though, or was it anticipation?- at this point she really wasn't sure!
Again he started at her shoulders, moving inward as he softly worked across her throat and down over her clavicle area.
Her heart beat had increased- she knew it …and so did he as his hands moved to the upper part of her breasts.
As difficult as it was for him, he kept the massage on a strictly non sexual level as he progressed downward, his touch was much softer as he reached her lower abdomen.
He let his fingers briefly trail across the fabric of her panties before moving on to her hips and the upper thighs.
A slight grin crossed his face when he caught the almost imperceptcal, certainly unconscious movement as she let her legs part a fraction.
Finally he again ended with her toes.
When she finally opened her eyes he had moved to lay at the side of her, just one hand resting on her stomach.
It was only then she realised that he had also removed his clothes down to just his underpants.
Reading her face he laughed gently "Get that stuff on yer clothes and you can never get it out"
Gill put her hand on his and then let her fingers run up and down the soft curly hair on his forearms, "That was amazing Cal, just beautiful"
Using his other hand he took hold of hers where it was resting on his arm, he pulled until she was on her side facing him. Quickly checking for any hint of fear again, and finding none – he let his lips move in on hers.
This time, as he deepened the kiss, he knew her reaction to it was more natural and relaxed.
He felt her hand creep up behind his head and entwine with his hair pulling him closer to her as she let her tongue enter his mouth and flick against his.
Once again his hands started to move over her body – this time with sexual intent!
His fingers found her nipples and at first gently teased them, as he intensified his grip he heard the tiniest of moans escape from her mouth into his so he opened his hand to encase the whole of one breast cupping and then squeezing.
This time she pulled away from his mouth as her groan came.
Taking the opportunity of the break he moved his head own to where his hand was and started using his tongue to elicit more groans as it licked and flicked over the skin.
Gillian still had her hands locked in his hair and she used them to keep him there, not wanting to lose the sensations her body was experiencing.
His mouth complied, but his hand was tailing down the centre of her stomach, feeling the muscles quiver as his fingers hit every sensitive spot on the way.
Gill felt his fingers start to pull at the top of her panties and lifted her hips slightly as he pulled the last of the material barriers away from her.
She hated it when she felt the warmth of his mouth leave her breasts, but instinctively knowing where it was headed lessened the sense of loss and it was only a short time before his tongue reconnected with her body causing something akin to an electric shock that made her jolt.
As the wave grew inside her bringing her so close to the release she desperately needed she couldn't but scream the word 'NO' as his head suddenly pulled away.
She tried frantically to pull him back but he grabbed his wrists and pulled them from his hair holding them at her sides as he pushed his body back up hers stopping only when his lips started brushing her face "Cal…please…why?"
"Because I want your first orgasm to be a full and proper one luv – trust me"
He let go of her wrists and briefly cupped her face, as his mouth came down on hers again.
His tongue entered one hot warm, wet space as his cock entered another. Gills legs instantly wrapped round his hips and gripped tightly, as he made his second thrust she moved hard against him .
It had been quite some time since she had engaged in sex with anyone so there were flicks of pain as he moved faster and harder against her, but whatever pain there was, was far outweighed by the pleasure.
The eruption when it came was cataclysmic sending her soaring to a place she knew she had never been before, there were no screams, no moans, her breath was gone and she felt like she had no control over her body to make it pull in more.
It was only when she felt him shudder and bite into her neck that she realised she could breath again.
As they both lay there in that place of dreamlike exhaustion that follows near perfect lovemaking she realised that her plan had worked.
Her whole being felt alive again, and her heart…..her heart was filled with the love that she knew she now had for this man that given her this amazing gift.