Disclaimer: I do not own Skins; If I did Series 5 & 6 would include Generation 1 & 2!

This Chapter sees the intro of the Cookie Monster into the story!

Katie.

Katie sighed, Emily's scent still lingered on the covers, and Katie hadn't realised before just how different to her own it was. Sometimes Katie forgot that Emily was a separate person; she treated her as part of her, as if they were one. She truly believed that she knew everything there was to know about Emily, they shared their deepest darkest secrets, so why didn't she know why or where her sister was. Walking over to the window she pulled the curtain back, peering down at the world outside, somewhere in the cold darkness her sister was all alone.

Katie could hear the low buzz of the voices on T.V downstairs; she knew her parents would be watching the news. Emily's disappearance had first reached the new stations a week into her disappearance, her face scattered the streets on missing posters that Rob had plastered every where. Yet no one had any news of where she was, and no one had seen her. The policeman had been right however, one night when Katie and some off their friends had been searching for Emily, a man had run up to her crying out Emily's name. Initially Katie's stomach had fluttered, she thought the man had found her, but really the man had thought she herself was Emily. Cook explained and the man had apologized, before telling Katie he would carry on looking out for her sister, after that Cook had walked her home.

Katie was tired and drained, that was the first night she had broke down, and so far she had been strong for her parents. Deep down she felt like some one had ripped her in half, discarded the other part, she found herself crumbling into a heap against Cook at the front door. Instead of knocking on the door and leaving her with her parents, he sat down next to her on the doorstep, "We'll find her Katiekins", he said, wrapping his arms around her protectively. He had sat with her, rocked her as she sobbed, whilst she thought to her self that this was something Emily would normally do. Her whole life it had been Katie and Emily, Emily and Katie, and now it was just Katie.

She snapped out of her day dream, back to the present day, finding herself once again alone. Picking up a photo frame from the window sill, she ran her finger over Emily's face that grinned back at her. She smiled; the photo was of them both on their tenth birthday, a small two year old James sitting in the middle of them. They both were dressed in their favourite union jack dresses, with there ginger hair, both tickling James. God their hair used to be horrendously orange Katie thought, she remembered their following birthday, when she had saved up money, for some boxes of red hair dye. They had done it in the morning before their party; Katie had persuaded Emily that it would look good; Jenna had exploded when she saw them. She laughed at the memory of Jenna going off on one, whilst Rob tried to persuade her that actually it looked quite nice, and for eleven year olds they had done a good job. Since that day they had dyed their hair the flame red colour, which they were famous for among their friends. Putting the frame back down on the sill, Katie made her way down the stairs, to where her parents where stationed by the phone and T.V.

She watched them from the doorway for a moment, the worry still etched in their features, she was sure her fathers hair had gotten more grey hairs over the past three weeks. She pushed the door open, they both turned around, faces expectant as if they were praying it was Emily who had snuck in. Katie couldn't help but feel her heart drop as their faces dropped and Jenna turned back to the T.V. The past few weeks had been difficult between them both, Jenna claimed it was because Katie reminded her of her missing daughter to much, but really Katie suspected it was because Jenna thought that Katie must have said something that morning when Emily disappeared. Rob smiled at her, he had bags under his eyes, and in fact they all did. If Katie hadn't been feeling so useless right now, she would have felt disgusted with the way she looked. She hadn't been to college since Emily had gone missing, her hair just hung limp, and she had been wearing one of Emily's baggy sweaters constantly. "I'm going for a walk", she said, Jenna turned back to glare at her. Rob nodded, "I'll come with you, because we don't want you to go missing also". Katie shook her head, she could understand her parents concern but she didn't want them to be there right now. She pulled her phone out and dialled Cooks number, "Cook, can you come walk with me for a bit". Rob smiled, "Ok then, that's fair enough, but don't leave until I have seen him arrive". Katie nodded and went to wait by the front door.

When Cook arrived, he came in and spoke to Rob, reassuring him that he wouldn't let Katie out of his sight. Rob nodded, giving his acceptance and they left, Katie pulling the sleeves of Emily's sweater to her face. The walked in silence for a while, Cook knew to give Katie some time think, eventually she looked over at him, "How you holding up Princess?" he asked her. She didn't know why, but since Emily had gone missing, Katie had been relying on Cook to be there for her whenever she needed someone. When she had first meet Cook that first day at college, she had thought he was a disgusting little prick, who believed he could have anyone he wanted. She hung around with him because he followed Effy around, just like her, both intrigued by the mysterious girl. However if she had to pick someone in the group that she was closest to she would never have said it was Cook, but the thing was Emily liked him. She didn't like him as in fancy him; she just thought that he was nice deep down and a truly funny guy, which Katie had learnt was true these past few weeks. Without Emily, she knew she needed someone to lean on, because despite popular belief that Katie was a bitch and it was Emily who relied on her, she too relied on Emily. Cook had become her new leaning post, and to be honest he didn't mind, he felt sorry for her.

"I miss Emsy", she mumbled, "You know when everything just blurs into one, and you feel like you can't move or see". Cook nodded, though it was normally drugs blurring his vision, who knew what Katie really meant. "It actually hurts, I mean like really hurts, I don't think I can live without her", Katie cried, she sniffed at the sweater sleeve. Katie stopped walking and sunk to her knees, they had reached a place that she and Emily had used to come when they were younger. It was a massive hill in the middle of the park; they would sit at the top, and then roll down it racing each other. Katie always won obviously, because she always cheated, going on two rather than the agreed countdown of three. Cook knelt down beside her, taking her hands into his own, and staring deep into her eyes. He didn't say anything, just watched her as hot tears burst forth running down her cheeks, staining the sweater as they landed. Katie leant over onto her side so she was lying down on the damp grass, closing her eyes. Cook let go off her hands and went behind her, wrapping his arms around her body, as her body shuddered from the sobs.

Eventually the sobs slowed down, Katie was taking deep breaths now, and they felt sharp in her chest. Her skin felt warm and sweaty, her vision now blurred from the tears, and her head was pounding, her stomach churning. "I'm going to be sick", she cried, Cook sitting her up in time for her to be ill, onto the grass. She screamed out as a stabbing pain shoot through her body, doubling her over, into Cook who was still behind her. Again the stabbing pain shoot through her body and she screamed out, Cook turned her onto her back, staring down at the withering mess she had become. "Katiekins", he shouted as her eyes rolled, and her head flopped, her body shaking. Everything had gone black, the pain still shooting through her; she could hear Cook mumbling away.

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