Shock.
It was the only way Sakura could describe Kakashi's symptoms. He had barley looked at her since she had cleaned him up...
*****FLASHBACK*****
After getting Kakashi through the worst of the panic attack, Sakura led him into the bathroom. She turned the faucets on and began filling the bathtub.
"Kakashi? Go ahead and clean up. Just set your clothes outside the door and I'll throw them in the washer, alright?"
He said nothing.
She left him there so she could look for something for him to wear and to also get cleaned up herself. However after a fruitless search, she returned to grab Kakashi's clothes, but they were nowhere to be found. Cautiously, she entered the bathroom only to find him sitting on the floor still fully clothed.
"Kakashi?"
No response.
What was she supposed to do? He was one of her best friends and he was breaking right before her eyes. She'd be damned if she let one day change their entire relationship. He was her family. With a blush on her face, Sakura helped Kakashi out of the filthy clothing and into the hot bathwater.
Not once did he look at her.
Sakura ran her hands softly through Kakashi's silver hair washing away the dirt and grim. He just sat there not really seeing anything. Taking a wash cloth, she slowly started to wash down his chest. For a moment she hesitated going further. It wasn't as if she hadn't done this before. She was a medic for heavens sake! She couldn't just leave him like that. Still, awkward was an understatement.
Very gently, she ran her hands down Kakashi's body, slowly washing away the sticky evidence of his earlier activities.
Blushing fiercely, she looked up and found Kakashi starring at her. The moment their eyes met he tore his away.
Sakura saw something in Kakashi's eyes that she'd never seen before...
Shame.
*****FLASHBACK END*****
Sakura frowned as she starred intently at the man lying in her bed.
She had finished bathing him, and then helped Kakashi into bed.
She shook her head.
Kakashi was in her bed...
Naked.
Oddly enough, it didn't really bother her as much as she thought it would.
Sakura sighed and sat down on the other side of the bed. She placed a glowing hand on Kakashi's chest and began removing the excess alcohol from his system. When she finished, she felt exhausted.
"You're out of danger now, but you still have a lot of alcohol in your system. I'm amazed you didn't black out.
Kakashi let out a shaky sigh, and once again their eyes met.
He looked so...
Broken.
"It's alright Kakashi."
Kakashi looked away.
Sakura smiled, and gently brushed the hair from his face.
"You didn't do anything wrong."
A bitter grunt escaped his lips, but when he looked into Sakura's eyes he was surprised to find truth there.
Suddenly, Sakura's gentle smile, turned into a feral grin.
"If you ask me, everything that happened today was totally worth it."
Kakashi stopped breathing.
"After all, I did get to see your face. Just wait until I tell Naruto!"
Kakashi groaned audibly. He had forgotten all about that little fact.
Today was just not his day.
Sakura let out a nervous laugh.
"I won't really say anything. Naruto would never stop whining until he found out how and…"
Kakashi tensed.
Sakura blushed..
Today was not her day.
"Anyway, you can stay her for the night. I'll just go sleep in the other room."
"Saku…"
Sakura growled.
"Don't you even start! You're in no condition to leave this bed."
Not wanting to further anger the pink haired fire cracker, Kakashi nodded dumbly.
"Kakashi?", Sakura smirked sleepily.
"Hmm?"
"If you sneak away before you sober up, I'll hunt you down and break both of your legs."
Black eyes crinkled amusedly, and for the first time that day, Kakashi smiled.
"Ah."
Then, without warning, Sakura slumped over onto his chest.
For a moment he couldn't do anything but look at her. She had fallen into a deep sleep.
And now he was actually touching her.
Not another woman…
Not a clone…
SAKURA.
Kakashi had dreamed about this.
It wouldn't hurt to hold her just this once.
She would never know.
Very gently, he pulled Sakura into his arms.
She fit so…
Perfectly.
Looking at the innocent girl, his chest ached deeply.
Simply holding her had him feeling happier than he had been in years.
He didn't feel so…
Broken.
Kakashi had led a bitter life.
Most ninja had.
But then Sakura and her friends had managed to give the older generations something they hadn't had in ages…
Hope.
And somehow Sakura had become the light in his dark and twisted world.
He held her tightly, breathing in her scent.
Without even realizing it, Kakashi had begun to run his hands along Sakura's lower back.
She was so…
Soft.
Moments passed, and he new he had to let her go.
He started to move her to the other side of the bed when Sakura suddenly moved.
She was still sleeping, but had unconsciously pressed against him.
And now they were touching…
Intimately.
Kakashi tried not to become aroused, but only the thin material of Sakura's shorts was separating their bodies.
He tried to calm his body, but once again Sakura moved.
She was wiggling against him, seeking out his body heat.
His head felt so fuzzy.
Before he realized what he was doing, his hands had moved to her bottom, and he began to rub her thinly clothed center against his naked thickness.
Up. Down. Up. Down. Up. Down.
The friction was euphoric.
He squeezed her bottom, and continued the slow grind.
And then he heard it…
Sakura moaned.
Kakashi's eyes rolled back, and he began to grind against her franticly.
Tiny sleepy whimpers escaped her lips.
Then, without warning, Sakura cried out and her body arched…
She was coming...
And then so did he.
With a low growl, it ripped through him, and he came all over her heat.
More fulfilled than he had ever felt, Kakashi's sanity started to slowly return…
And then the world came crashing down around him.
He choked.
What had he done?
Panic and shame gripped his heart.
And then it just...
Stopped.
Everything in Kakashi's mind became clear.
He knew what he had to do.
Kakashi stumbled out of the bed, grabbed a towel, and moved to the window.
With one last longing glance, Kakashi walked away from the girl he had come to love, and toward the one thing he knew would take him out of her life forever…
*Authors Note: -^_^- How am I doing?