As I walked out of Volterra I started thinking of places to go. I know that Carlisle said that I was welcome to stay; I didn't think that I would be able to with Rosalie. I would just feel guilty the whole time staying. Though I consider her family; I doubt that she could take me as the same.

This may as well be one of my hardest decisions. Leave my beloved family, or stay and possibly harm them? These are the questions that taunt me.

Hours Later

Being the person that I am may be the worst thing to ever be. I mean… I kill vampires. By the time hours have passed, I had made it back to Forks. I didn't run much, I mostly walked; to give me more time to think things over more.

I walked through the woods to the Cullen's house, I'm sure they are already home, considering the fact that I walked and they probably took a plane.

As I walked up the porch of the house I stop to see if they were in the house first.

"What are we going to do? Move," said a voice. "She's not going to stay here, is she?"

By the sound of the anger in the voice, I'm sure it was Rosalie.

"Rose, you know she's part of the family, you can't just single her out like that," Said a motherly voice. Esme.

I wouldn't tell anyone, but I miss her… a little. Hey I mean she kept me entertained.

I couldn't believe what I had just herd. Did Rosalie, Rosalie Hale, the goddess just say what I think she said… well thought?

I took that as the time to make my presence known. I didn't want to just walk in like I owned the place; so I knocked. As soon as I did Alice answered the door and jumped me. Well hugged, but it was like she jumped me. Man, I did miss this little pixie. Even though, I just saw her a few hours ago.

"Where in the world have you been? Do you know how frustrating it is not being able to know if you were still alive!?" She screamed at me.

"Sorry, I guess I forgot," I said.

She just ignored what I said and kept ranting.

"I was worried sick, I can't believe you did that, and didn't even call or anything. It was total torture without you here. First when you ran off the first time then again, and you took so long I thought you could run faster than us-," she was cut off.

"Alice, she just got back and obviously she's fine. Give her a break," to my surprise; and everyone else's, it was Rosalie who had spoken up.

No one else knew other than me that Rosalie had some sort of feeling for me. I guess they knew now.

"Rose, I thought you didn't care," said Emmett.

Edward must not have been paying attention to what Rosalie was thinking earlier, or else he wouldn't have such a dumbfounded look on his face right now. I just nodded in thanks to her, she nodded back.

Oh stop looking at me like that Edward, I kind of sort of like her, a little now, ok? She thought to Edward. Hey Bella, can I talk to you up stairs... alone? She asked.

I nodded and headed up stairs.

"Let's head to my room," she told me.

I followed her into her room; she started pacing the floors then just went to sit on the bed. She motioned for me to join her, I obliged, sat next to her.

"It seems earlier you must have been still standing on the other side of the door just waiting, huh?" She asked; I nodded. "Then I guess you herd when I thought about you keeping me entertained?"

I nodded, waiting.

"Well then I guess it's time to tell you the truth." She figured.

I waited; Rosalie was finally opening up to me, telling me what was being hid.

"Well, you see, the reason why I said I never really liked you… was because I really did like you." She paused. "I always thought 'why is she here with us, she could do so much better, she could have a life'. But, then you also fell in love with Edward, everyone could also see he fell in love with you too. Then I was thinking that, of course, she would want to be one of us, to stay with him.

"So, I became angry with you, thinking, 'how could she, she could have everything that I wish I could have. A life, family, kids.' But I get it now; those were all things I wanted and still do. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that the mother side of me, wanted you to have what I couldn't. To let you know you don't have to do it.

"But, I have also learned, that when love gets in the way, you have to do what your heart tells you to do. And that's all that you were doing, wasn't it? Doing what it was telling you to. I'm proud of you, Bella, I really am. And I'm also sorry for the way I have been acting; could you ever forgive me?"

She had finished everything she said; and I was almost in tears. I spoke, for what felt like I haven't done in a lifetime.

"Rosalie Hale, there is nothing in this world that would or could stop me…" I paused and saw sadness in her eyes. "From ever forgiving you, I always thought of you as part of my family, even if you didn't."

"Thank you so much, Bella. You don't know how much that means to me. I love you, I really do."

"Come on, Rosalie, let's head back down stairs." I said.

"Ok; and you can call me Rose, Bella." She said.

I nodded. I was happy I had finally gotten Rose to tell me what she really thought; she is and always will be part of my family.

We made our way down stairs, big smiles on our faces, hand in hand.

"Rose! Let go of her, what are you crazy!?! Don't hurt Bells!" Emmett yelled.

Rose walked up to him and slapped him on the back of his head.

"There's nothing to worry about, Em. We've got everything figured out." She said.

"Oh, so what did you girls talk about?" He asked.

Rose and I looked at each other, smiled then said together, "Girl stuff."

Alice was just about bouncing, of course, she already knew. So I said to the rest of the family;

"We're not fighting anymore; we are now and always will be the best of friends."

Mainly, the only expression I could see on all the faces' other than Alice's was shock, pure shock. I really didn't see a real enough reason for Edward to be shocked; I mean he is a mind reader, after all.

"What?" Said Rose irritated.

"Wait I don't get it." Of course Emmett had to say something.

Waiting a few minutes for every ones faces to go back to normal; this surprisingly for vampires', took a long time.

"Aaahhh!" Alice screeched and ran over to give me and rose a huge. "I'm so happy! I've been waiting for you two to do this since, like forever!"

"Wait, so you already knew this was going to happen?" Esme asked her.

"Well, duh!" She stated. "Do you really think I would just sit around and not look to see if it would ever happen? I mean I saw it, I just never saw the cause for it; you know, what changed. I didn't see it."

"It's ok, Alice, you shouldn't have to explain anything to them. They should have known something like this was going to happen sooner or later." Rose commented.

I ignored their comments and walked out the back door to the stream out there. As I approached the stream I watched as the moon light danced off the water. Looking at the water this time, compared to all the other times I have, it all seems so much sadder than it did before.

The Cullen's; my family, the thought of possibly being able to hurt them. It hurts to have to consider leaving them, after all that we have been through together.

Alice being ultimately my best friend from day one, even though I can block her out so she wouldn't see me leaving, to try and stop me. She would be one of the harder ones to leave. With Rose, we just became friends, and if I was to end up leaving, it could crush not only her heart, but also mine.

Then there's Esme, the almighty mom. The mother of mine that could do anything, the one person you could ever feel safe tell her your deepest darkest secret. Carlisle, was always there for me, going through the hard times with Edward, he never set an ounce of doubt to anyone's mind, it was impossible for him to do. He always brought hope. Both him and Esme.

Emmett the big teddy bear, that's all you could ever describe him as. Loveable in every way. Jasper, with him and Emmett they were like the big brothers I never had.

And then, of course, there's Edward, my one true and only love. Without him there would be no happiness, no sun light, no forever in my eternity. Without him there would be nothing in me to keep me sane or alive. There would be no point.

Looking at the stream brought forth all of the worries I've been trying to ignore for as long as I could. Seeing the ripples in the water; was like seeing the ripples of my life. Watching the light of the moon bounce off of the water; was like watching the rest of my life without the Cullen's. An emptiness of nothing.

I didn't notice, that as I was thinking on of what would become of my life without the Cullen's, that there was someone standing behind, me watching me. Though I didn't need to turn around to know it was Edward. I still did.

So, there her was, standing in front of me looking like the god that he was, all the while he has no clue of the thoughts that I have been thinking.

"I came out here to come and check on you," he said. "To make sure you where alright."

I didn't say anything; just nodded.

"Are you alright, Bella?"

"Yes," I finally spoke.

He nodded in response.

"What were you thinking about?"

I shrugged. "Nothing really, just watching the steam."

I looked to see if he had believed me or not, it seemed he had, but seemed to be calculating something. I tuned in to his mind to try to see what it was.

I can feel it coming, a change, and its not going to be one that I will like. She's probably going to end up leaving us again. Is that what it is, Bella? You're planning on leaving us again?

The dread in his voice left me heartbroken, how could I do something like this to such an incredible being? I couldn't look at him, I couldn't face the sadness. I couldn't watch his sorrow.

So I shook my head. "No," I said.

He seemed to struggle with what I told him, as if he could sense I was lying. I couldn't tell him the truth. That yes, I was planning on leaving. That yes, I was going to break, not only his heart but the Cullen's hearts, while in the process of doing so. I just couldn't tell him, that soon, he was going to have to leave without me, for his own good. I couldn't do it.

As for now on, today was going to go down in history, as one of the most saddest day of the universe. For both mortals and immortals.