Deidara isn't good at Acting.
He thinks that this must be so obvious, especially around Sasori.
He has to Act the most around Sasori.
Deidara has to Act like he doesn't love Sasori.
He has to Act like his Heart isn't breaking from how Sasori Reacted.
He isn't good at Acting, he thinks.
He doesn't Understand why Sasori doesn't Say something about it.
Sasori must know, he reasons, because Deidara isn't good at Acting.
Deidara wants to Understand Sasori.
One day, he Asks Sasori.
"What do you see when you look at me, un?"
He decides on this Question because he thinks it is subtle.
He needs it to be subtle so he doesn't set himself up for failure.
Deidara has had enough of that, already.
He watches Sasori intently as Sasori's head turns once more towards Deidara.
Sasori smiles and laughs, as he did days before.
"I think you're beautiful."
Deidara does a double take.
He did not want this Question to yield a complicated answer.
He needs closure on this subject,
but at the same time he doesn't want it.
Deidara doesn't want to know if Sasori doesn't like him.
He wants to stay safe, in his world where there is always a chance for him,
and always a place for him in Sasori's life.
Deidara sighs. He doesn't want to Act anymore.
He isn't good at Acting.
He takes a deep breath and a Risk at the same time.
"Un, Sasori. What do you mean by that?
Sasori loves the way He Smiles.
This is just another Feeling He can elicit from Sasori, he knows.
He doesn't think that Feeling things is all that bad anymore.
He kind of likes this.
When Deidara wants an Answer from him,
he decides to tell the straight truth,
simply because he loves the way Deidara makes him Feel.
He hopes that Deidara will react well,
but Deidara seems to be Confused.
Sasori wants Things to be Clear.
He smiles again.
He wishes for Deidara to Feel the same way about Sasori's smile as he does about His.
"I mean I love you,"
he Answers, loud and Clear,
because for him,
this is the only choice of words.