Whoot! Finally got this done!
I don't own pokemon (I wish I did )
I'm sorry.
I really am.
We've been through so much… guild training, saving the world, fighting legendaries… We've done so much together. We've relied on each other for so long, and that's why it pains me to keep this from you.
I'm sick, Vision.
It's not that bad right now, my joints hurt and I'm not that hungry, but for some reason I know it's only going to get worse. I know I'm not going to get better. And I know that if I let you know you'd have our team retire. Or at least hand over the main duties to some of our team mates.
I don't want that.
You'd be miserable. You'd pretend to be fine (oh the hypocrisy), and say that you didn't mind, that taking care of me was more important. Exploring is your life's passion and I couldn't take that away from you. I just couldn't.
Please forgive me for being selfish. I know that some time in the near future, whether it be two months or two years, I will leave you alone for a second time. Permanently, and all I want is to spend as much of the time I have remaining doing the thing we both love.
So I'll grit my teeth (figuratively speaking, I have none) and swallow the discomfort. I'll put on a brave face and look forward to each and every mission we will complete, every moment that we'll be together.
I promise I'll hold on as long as I can for you.
I'm sorry.
It's getting harder, Vision.
I'm trying, I really am, but it's getting harder to hide it from you.
I've noticed your concerned looks as I struggle through our jobs, your worried face as you watch me fall into bed each night. I know you want to take it easy for me, but that wouldn't be fair to you.
You worked so hard to make it this far, everyone says we're the best, and grew so much. Looking at you now it's almost impossible to picture you as the unconfident Totodile that woke me up on the beach all those years ago. You put in everything you had to get us to Master Rank and I can't bring myself to do jobs that would be 'too easy' for our rank.
You have so much faith in me, believing that I'd take a break if something really was wrong and because of that you wouldn't say anything. You were worried for me but you trusted me more. I'm sorry for betraying that trust. I'm sorry that I'm concealing this from you.
I'll try harder. I won't let you worry.
I'm doing it. I'm doing it.
You've finally stopped worrying, and think everything is back to normal. You're so proud about how well our Team is doing. I'm proud too.
I'm getting stronger, kind of. I'm leveling up at an unbelievable rate, outlaws are a cinch to defeat now, and you couldn't be happier.
I'm getting sicker too, though.
Not only am I fatigued all the time now but my health in the dungeons is also suffering. It's like being poisoned, but not being able to cure it by eating a pecha berry or moving onto a new floor. Quite frankly it makes hiding this from you much harder. Relearning Mega drain from Electivire helped though, and that technique has become a crutch for me. I'm using it at least once on every floor, sometimes more.
You're just so happy right now… I want to do everything in my power to keep it like this for you.
I'll continue to pretend for now. I'll put on a big smile every morning and go through the day with an even bigger one. I'll do anything to extend this period of happiness for you, anything.
I just hope that you'll forgive me one day for deceiving you like this.
Everyone knows now.
You know.
It…It just got too much to bear, I'm sorry.
I can't go on missions any more, you won't let me. You won't leave my side either. I'm sorry for not being stronger. I'm sorry that I'm going to leave you soon and that I can't bring myself to even let you know that.
I won't give up, though. I'll keep trying to keep your mind off what is really happening, I'll try to disguise the truth for a little bit longer.
… I don't regret anything Vision; I want you to know that. I cherish everthing. But above all, I'm thankful to have known you. There is no pokemon that could have taken your place, no other pokemon I would rather have been with. I'm glad that I got to watch you grow and proud that I had helped you along when things got rough. You are my irreplaceable partner, and I can only hope that you think of me the same way.
I can't move now. Not even to open my eyes or speak. I can't tell you how I feel, how important of a friend you are to me. I'm always listening to you when you visit and I'm sorry that I'm not able to let you know that. It's really hard to stay awake, but I'm determined to hear everything you have to say to me. I don't care much for when our friends visit (Even though Chatot's concern took me by surprise) and I prefer to sleep then, just so I can stay awake to listen to you.
I'm glad that you've been taking missions again, even if it means that you have less time to visit me. It's nice to hear you recall each job at the end of the day, you seem so much happier and it's good to know that you won't give up on your dream. It gives me hope that you might be able to move on, that you'll keep doing what we both loved to do.
I'm left to my thoughts more often now, well… when I'm not asleep that is. I've had a lot of time to think and if I could... If I could have one more thing… I'd want to spend another day with you. Even if it was just to be in each other's company, I'd like that. I wish you knew that I'm still awake...
Vision?
Where are you?
I… I can't hear you…
Where did you go? Where is everyone? I can't hear them.
… Where did the waves go? The sea's right outside out room… Why can't I…?
Oh.
Is… Is this the end?
Vision! Vision where are you?
I don't want to leave yet! I don't want to die! Not alone! Not alone…
It's almost funny how I'm wishing to feel something, anything… A few months ago (I suppose it's a few months… It's hard to tell time when you're virtually comatose) I would have given anything to get rid of the aches and pains that plagued me. Now I'm even missing the feel of the straw that lines our beds. I miss a lot of things right now.
Heh, I just realized something… I'm a vegetable. Me, a grass type, in a vegetative state, how funny is that (in a sick twisted way)? I'm literally a vegetable.
… Well, I guess it's not that funny, but you don't have a lot of material for jokes when you're in my position. Or much of a reason to make jokes in the first place.
…
…
Why? Why me?
I saved the world! Twice!
Vision and I could take on legendaries and come out victorious!
We went to the future and survived!
I even disappeared and came back. I stopped existing and still managed to return to Vision.
So why?
Why me?
Why not-
…
…
No.
NO.
It's better off being me. It really is. I take all of that back.
Otherwise it'd be Vision in my place. I don't want that. I'd never want that.
I'm sorry Vision. I'm sorry.
Something's different. I feel different.
Not good, not bad. Just…
Vision! I see you! I'm really seeing you!
Vision?
What's wrong Vision?
Why are you... Oh.
OH.
I'm…. I'm sorry…
I didn't mean to… I didn't want…
D-don't cry… please don't cry Vision.
I'm sorry that I can't comfort you when you really need it.
You'll be okay. You'll still go on missions, right?
I'm sorry that I can't go on any more with you.
And… and you'll keep the team together. Don't let our third level Master rank go to waste. We both worked for so long to get there, don't throw it away.
I'm sorry that I can't help you raise our rank any more.
You know that you're my best friend right? My partner in crime (or stopping crime as it may be), the most important person in my life, and best buddies through thick and thin. You know all of this right? You have to…
I'm sorry that I've never been able to tell you how much you mean to me. Best friends forever, Vision. Best friends forever.
I'm sorry.
Double WHOOT. ^^
I'm extending this again, and I'll be putting up a third and final chapter. Don't know when, but I'll get around to it.
Big thanks to my Beta reader!