"Don't trouble your pretty little head. There's only room for love"
-Anarbor

He led me to a meadow. The soft grass flowed in the wind and held a greenish blue glow due to the dim moonlight. Autumn leaves danced around the edges as a slight breeze began to blow. Wild flowers grew everywhere and it looked like a place only found in fairy tales.

"Oh my gosh," I whispered as I stared completely dazzled by the beauty of it.

"Do you like it?" he whispered and I could see his pale face in the moonlight that escaped the clouds.

"It's beautiful."

I couldn't think of anything else to tell him. I had no idea a place like this existed. I walked into the middle slowly as though afraid it would disappear and I would wake up to find it was only a dream. I could feel the grass bend and caress my footsteps. Everything was so beautiful.

"So what is this place?" I asked as I started to take a seat right in the middle of the meadow. I could feel the dew soak my jeans and a shiver ran down my spine. He laughed and walked toward me. He opened the book bag he had brought and took out a very think picnic blanket.

"Get up," he said and I crawled to my feet. He flicked the blanket and laid it on the grass. I sat down. The blanket was so thick I couldn't even feel the grass blades. It was warmer than sitting on the wet grass, but the night was still cold. I could feel the winds through my jacket. Edward sat next to me and pulled out a fleece blanket from his book bag and handed it to with a smug smile.

"Well didn't you come prepared," I teased and draped the blanket around my shoulder. His scent floated through the air and I snuggled closer into the blanket. I wasn't sure I'd be able to give this back to him. A blush heated my cheeks at the thought. He laughed loudly and my eyes snapped up to his face.

"What?" I asked with a chuckle, because he had one of those laughs. The ones that made you want to laugh along with or would bring a smile toward your face if you were feeling down.

"You're blush. I think I figured out why you do it," he said and smiled that devil's grin.

"Why?" I challenged.

"Because," he said and then pushed my hair away from my shoulder as he leaned into my ear.

"You're not as innocent as you look," he whispered straight into my ear. His warm breath sent tingles down my neck. His words made my eyes widen and the blush to turn into a very deep red. He pulled away and laughed when he saw me. I looked away and toward the grass. I began to lace my fingers through it letting the fresh water cling to my fingers.

He grabbed my chin with his fingers and turned my face to stare at him. I clung to the grass a bit more tightly as I met his eyes.

"Don't do that," he said and used his hand to cup my cheek. Again I found myself leaning into his touch, but for once I didn't feel guilty about it. I didn't care that my heart was pounding louder than it had a right to. I didn't care that my lips were starting to tingle. I didn't care that all my thoughts could seem to realize was how beautiful he looked. I just didn't care and the feeling was liberating.

"Do what? Look away?" I asked bewildered by his demand.

"Yeah, I don't like it," he said and stared at me for what felt like forever. His green eyes glittered and I couldn't focus on anything else. I wanted to look away, but I found I didn't have the power to do so. It was almost as though I was in a trance.

The electricity seemed to crackle quietly all around us. Slowly he leaned in.

I could feel fear again, because I wasn't sure I wanted to stretch this out beyond friendship. If I let myself, I knew I could easily fall in love with Edward, but the meadow didn't take away the fact that it would be wrong if I did. But I wanted to kiss Edward.

His lips came closer and I pulled back on instinct. He stopped and pulled away slowly. I smiled and tugged on the grass in between my fingers. The soft blades came lose in my hand and I flicked them at Edward. The blades caught in his hair and slid down his face.

He shook his head making the rest fall down slowly.

"What was that for?" he asked and ran a hand through his hair, trying to get all the grass out.

"Because I'm not that innocent," I said with a laugh. He smiled evilly and I yelped as I scrambled to my feet. I grabbed the blanket from my shoulder and threw it at him. He caught it and pushed it aside.

"Oh you're gonna get it now," he laughed.

I knew I couldn't out run him or even run in this meadow, but I did anyway. It didn't take long for him to get to his feet. I tried to run faster, but stumbled and then he was behind me. The boy was fast.

I screamed once more when I felt his arms encircle my waist.

He spun me around and my legs lifted off the ground. I laughed loudly and we tumbled to the ground together.

He laid me flat against the ground. He used his arm to keep his body weight off of me.

"Hi," I whispered and he smiled once again. It was the soft smile that brought out the creases in his eyes and was slightly crooked. I loved that smile.

"Hey," he answered back. He pushed back a lock of hair. I found myself staring at his lips. On instinct I found myself moving slowly toward them, but then small flecks of dirt and grass hit my face. I startled slightly not expecting him to actually get back.

He laughed loudly at my expression. I quickly tugged out some grass and made sure to run my fingers through his hair. I rolled out from under him and continued to run away from him.

I don't know how long we did this.

We ran toward the trees and through leaves at one another. He tried grabbing at me and I manage to slip him. We acted like kids, but no one was telling us to stop. No one was telling us to behave. No one was there but me and him.

I couldn't remember a time I laughed louder or had as much fun as I was right now.

I didn't have much of a childhood. Making friends had always been extremely difficult for me. I was shy and the only family my age was living in Washington. I had friends, but I never saw the outside of school and I usually stayed inside with my mother.

But I felt like a kid once more.

When I was too exhausted to run anymore I laid down in a heap on the blanket he had originally set up.

He followed and sat down next to me.

The sky was cloudy and you could barely make out any stars. I missed that.

"In Phoenix the sky was always clear. You could see an endless amount of stars. It was beautiful," I whispered and he stared back up the sky.

"Do you miss it?" he asked.

"In some ways. It was the only home I had ever really known, but I love being by my family. I love Rosie and Jazz. It would. They make this bearable…and…" I trialed off not sure it was appropriate to tell him. How do you tell someone you had barely known for a month, who was suppose to be your family's enemy, that they made your life a lot better?

"And what?" he asked simply. The words were carefree. He suspected nothing.

"And…you make it better too," I whispered and his head snapped down to meet my eyes. He smiled and leaned over me once again.

He placed his fingers underneath my chin and softly kissed my lips.

Just like the night at the dance I could feel my face flush. My fingers tingled and my chest was heavy.

I ran my fingers through his hair. Tugging softly and feeling him moan into my mouth. The sound surprised me. This was new to me. I had never felt this way.

The kiss was more than just a simple kiss. It was a kiss that was sealing our fate. It was full of pleading and apology, of risk and need, or want and secrecy. It was the type of kiss you read about in stories. The kind that flipped your whole world upside down.

Edward dug his fingers in my hair and everything seemed to blur. I found myself trying to get closer. Trying to put out the crazy fire he had started inside me.

Nothing was real anymore.

I was no longer myself, because I would never have snuck outside the house against my parents' permission. I would never have run off with a boy. I would never have befriended the enemy. I wouldn't be here kissing the very person I was supposed to hate.

This wasn't me. I never did any of this. Not outside my dreams anyway and yet here I was.

If I was willing to do this, then I was willing to risk it all to be with Edward.

I didn't think about what would happen if we were caught. I didn't think of the pain I would cause my family, because I was being completely selfish in that moment. I hated myself for it, but I couldn't give this up. I couldn't let this feeling go away.

I felt like a thousand butterflies had broken free from their cocoon and were now fluttering inside my lower belly. I felt my face heat and my skin slowly turn pink to red. I felt my breath grow heavy and my chest heave.

We broke away for air, but we didn't pull away. He rested his forehead against mine and smiled at me; because I was pretty sure he felt the same way.

We were in this together and completely too deep. We couldn't break the surface if we tried. I ran my fingers down his jaw. The skin was soft and smooth.

"You pretty much drive me crazy, Bell," he whispered and I laughed.

I laughed because he did the same to me. I laughed because I was happy and felt giddy. I laughed because this was crazy and I was scared. I laughed because it felt good.

I was happy, because even though I knew it was completely wrong, and it went against everything I was raised to believe, I had done the unspeakable.

I had jumped over the cliff and enjoyed every moment of it.

I fell in love with Edward Cullen.

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Even though I was exhausted when I had gotten home that night, I couldn't fall asleep. My whole body seemed to be running on an electrical current. I stared at my plain white ceiling and smiled and giggled at every moment that came to mind.

I wanted him to be here. I wanted to be with him. My head was dizzy and I couldn't keep the stupid grin off my face.

Eventually I started to flow into the soft water of sleep.

Sunday passed in a happy induced blur. I spent most of the day doing homework I had neglected. He called later that night and we talked until I fell asleep.

When I awoke Monday morning the happiness and giddiness I had been riding on suddenly went away.

Reality seemed to slap me hard in the face. I wouldn't be able to stroll into the school with Edward at my side. I couldn't talk to him in any of my classes and I would have to pretend he didn't exist. I had to act like I hated him. How could you hate someone you loved?

The word seemed strange in my head, because for the most part I thought differently. I didn't believe you could fall in love in a few weeks. I didn't even know I could fall in love. I thought I was too young, I thought a person needed to get around live life before they could officially declare themselves in love, but I knew what I felt and I was pretty sure most people would define this as love.

Maybe it was just puppy love and in time I would grow out of it, but it hurt to think of ending it with Edward. I could feel my chest tighten up with just the thoughts of us not being together, although if I was being honest, I had no idea how this was gonna work out.

I laughed as I realized the situation I was thrown in.

Maybe I should keep a record and publish a book.

The morning routine was much the same. I dressed, I ate, and I got in a car with my cousins.

I walked by Edward. He stared at me with soft eyes and flesh heated.

In my classes I found myself staring at him. It was hard to concentrate on the classes I shared with him. He would sneak a glance over at me and I would look away embarrassed. I was mesmerized when a friend of his would make him laugh.

During passing period I happened to pass Edward at his locker.

I felt nauseous and angry when I saw a girl flirt with him. She twirled her hair around a finger and laugh at something he said. I hated it. I secretly planned my revenge on the unsuspecting girl. The only thing that kept me from feeling completely sick was the fact Edward seemed to take no notice.

He didn't flirt back or encourage her and I felt a sense of pride come over me. He wanted me.

Ha take that!

He shot a smile my way when I passed and I felt a smug grin creep over my face. I think I felt a smidgeon of sympathy for the girl. Her efforts to get him to notice were futile.

I had never really been a jealous person, but seeing her being so public with him, made me angry. I hated that I couldn't be the one batting my eyelashes at him. I would actually get a reaction. He's probably laugh and stroke my cheek. He would call me silly and kiss my forehead.

I hated that we couldn't even talk to each other without causing suspicion.

I found a note in my locker after lunch. It was from Edward. He asked me to meet him at the public library after school. A smile slowly crawled on my face and I couldn't wait. I was anxious and fidgety the whole day.

When the end of the day came around I was so eager to go home, that I was a bit more clumsy than usual. I fumbled with my locker and it took three times before I could get it open.

I was walking down a nearly empty hall way trying to get to the parking lot, when she approached me.

"Bella!" I heard her tinkling voice come from behind me. I twirled to see Alice Cullen walking my way. I tensed a bit, but allowed for her to catch up with me. She had a smile on her face, but her eyes were boiling with some type of emotion.

"Hello Alice?" I said my voice flat.

"Bella I want to talk to you," she said and grabbed my wrist. She never gave me a chance to refuse or accept. Her grip on me was tight and almost painful. She pulled me to the end of the hall and into the bathroom. She let me go and turned to face me.

Her face no longer held a smile. She looked at me with dark eyes and a serious face.

"Look Bella, personally I have no problem with you. I don't really care about the stupid feud our families can't seem to let go. But I do care about my family. I care very much about them, and there's a reason I don't like Jasper Swan. But you…you've never really crossed any boundaries.

"I'm going to tell you now. If you have any plans of messing with either of my brothers you can rest assure the rest of your time in Forks will not be pleasant. Whatever thing you have going on with Edward, better stop. Edward is a good person and he cares too easily. If you hurt him Bella, be prepared to feel three times as much pain," she said slowly and glared at me. I think I was truly frightened of Alice. I pressed myself against the bathroom wall to put as much space between us as possible.

I couldn't help but wonder how she knew.

"And believe me, I don't make idle threats. Stay away from him," she said and then sharply japed something in my chest. She turned on her heel and walked away. I managed the catch the item she through at my chest before it hit the floor.

I stared at it.

It was my mask. The snow white glittery mask with the dark sapphire colored edges. I felt the material with my fingers. I was stunned. My heart was pounding loud in my ears. My fingers started to shake and my breath was heavy.

My legs were too weak to hold me any longer and I was sliding down the tiled wall.

My chest was tight. It wasn't so much the fact that Alice had made a threat, but what she had brought to mind.

Edward and I were truly supposed to be enemies. I suddenly found myself cursing my great great grandfather for making the stupid faulty deal with Cullen. I found myself cursing every generation that had ever continued to add fuel to this stupid fire.

I hated myself for being stupid enough to fall for him.

Everything was wrong. This wasn't supposed to work out like this. It wasn't supposed to be this hard. I wanted to be able to bring Edward to meet my family. I wanted to be able to get along with Alice and see the sweet funny side of Emmett, Edward had never failed to mention.

But that couldn't happen for us. Edward would never be able to meet my mother or argue over sports with Charlie. I would never be able to come for dinner at his house or chat with his mother. It just wasn't possible.

I suddenly wondered if this was all worth it.

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okay…well this is an extremely late update…I know. But I started school and it was so tiring and busy that I barely found time for anything else. It was very hard to update, but I tried to get in the time to type and at last I finished this chapter.

So tell me what you think… please!!! Reviews make me happy and make me feel guiltier and want to update…so please review!!

Oh and BTW what about that new New Moon trailer. Wasn't it fabulous? Didn't it make you want to scream?? Did it make you count the days once again until NM???
It did for me…

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