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Elena was completely overwhelmed by her returning memories. Going through the tattered pages of her diary hundreds of images kept invading her mind. She closed her eyes and gripped the bridge of her nose trying to relax her self, she could already feel a headache coming on.

Damon she met two years ago had nothing in common with Damon she met when he arrived in Mystic Falls almost two months ago. Surely, he could be cocky and arrogant also, back then, but he certainly wasn't cruel.

'He was almost... human.' Elena thought as she rubbed her eyes. She knew that she always felt safe with him, the past and the present had that only thing in common it seemed. She didn't know what to think or feel any more. There were things back then, signs pointing to that he was actually a vampire, but Elena had never really noticed any of them. Although two years ago, Elena would have never believed in vampires.

The trip down to memories land continued…

Two years ago

The days passed quickly, Elena felt as if she were teleported to a dream world. She was absolutely, hopelessly in love with Damon and she was confident that he had strong feelings for her. Every day was something new, something wonderful and every day she felt closer to him. Damon had her dancing, laughing, swimming and kissing... They spent many hours together, she couldn't seem to get enough of him.

They were practically inseparable, leaving each other only when they had to. Damon had shown Elena a whole new world and she had never been happier. They often stayed at the boarding house talking and reading together. Damon loved to read to her, he would make cocky remarks about the history novels, he would make fun of the characters while Elena laughed snuggling up against him as they sat in front of the fire. Elena was completely charmed by this gorgeous man, everything seemed perfect until suddenly…

Present Day

Reaching for one of the final pages Elena felt her heart start to ache as if it remembered something that was coming within these last pages. The bright smile she had on her face the last couple of hours, as she was reliving some of the best days of her life, disappeared. She looked at the page she was holding, not sure if she wanted to continue reading...

8th August 2008

Dear Diary

Something happened today and I feel like my whole word has been destroyed

Two years ago

She was at the boarding house, sitting an a stool in the kitchen watching Damon cook for her. He was preparing her favorite meal and the kitchen was a mess. Pans lined the sink and random ingredients Damon was using were plastered to the table and some on the floor around him.

He was wearing dark jeans and a black shirt and he had a towel slung over his shoulder. His ebony hair was a mess, Elena felt the desire to go over and wipe them out of his brow. She was frozen in place as she looked at him feeling certain that he was the closest thing to perfection, like he was made just for her. No one would ever compare to him. She was in love and it felt just… right.

She smiled to herself, "Damon?" she said casually "Hmm" he muttered his eyes concentrating on the sauce he was preparing. "I love you." Elena sincerely stated

Damon's features marred suddenly by a deep frown, his shoulders tensing. He stood still for a couple of seconds taking some short breaths, his hands clutched tightly in front of him. He turned his back to her suddenly, throwing the spoon into the sink and stormed out of the kitchen, never looking at her.

Elena felt like as if she was hit by a bus. A mixture of anguish, venerability and confusion overcoming her as she looked around trying to grasp what just happened. She was being honest, opening her heart to him, letting him know how she felt and he just… left. Elena felt desperation taking over her. "Am I just some casual girl, to spend time with, because he's bored?" she thought and suddenly all of the emotions inside her turned to rage. She got up and followed him into the living room. She found Damon looking out the window. She stood behind him and put her hands over her chest.

"What is going on Damon?" She asked demanded, irritation obvious within her tone. He didn't answer so Elena spoke again

"I am not asking you to say it back… Although, I know that you care about me." she added firmly, as if challenging him to dispute her claim.

"You have no idea who I am, or what I have done" he said, the softness in his voice taking her off guard.

"I know what I feel and what we've shared these last two months. What I don't know is why you are acting so surprised by my feelings? What did you expect?" she yelled and her voice started to tremble her eyes watering and her sobs catching in her throat. She would not let him make her cry. "After everything we have done, all the time we've spent together, all the amazing things you've shown me. Tell me. Why did you even bother?" Elena reached for his shoulder in an attempt to make him turn around but was stopped when he spoke.

"I want you to leave now" Damon said. She could hear a threat hidden in his tone.

"What?" Elena asked confused "Why? We need to talk about this!"

"Now! Elena" he screamed, without turning to face her "Get out of here. You need to leave. Now!"

Elena was shocked by his reaction, she never expect Damon of all people to scream at her like that. She stumbled back, trying to breathe, her heart was beating fast and she felt the tears of frustration betray her as they fell to her cheeks. She turned and ran. She left the boarding house, got into her car and drove away as fast as she could sobbing harder then she could ever remember.

Present Day

Elena put her hand to her heart, as the memories of that day came back to her. She felt the same desperation and frustration she had experienced when he had left from his house. Everything was perfect and suddenly, everything just fell apart. Why? Was it because he didn't return her feelings? Even If he didn't, he didn't need to act like that. Then, Elena remembered a fight she had with Damon recently, when Vicky had died, he had used the exact same line then.

"You need to leave."

When Vicky died, Elena felt scared she had been afraid of Damon. In some twisted way that made her doubt herself as if she was betraying him for feeling that way. There were so many things she questioned, but no matter what, she was certain with Damon she was always safe. He would never hurt her plus he had proven that no one could ever hurt her, if he was around.

But why did he react like that, when Elena told him that he loved him? Why? Nothing was making any sense. She couldn't find any explanation for his behavior. The Damon she knew would be cocky and would probably rejoice, seeing her love for him as a win for his ego.

She continued reading, hoping that somewhere within these pages she would find the answers to her questions.

She remembered spending the next four days in her room, crying. She had refused to eat and wouldn't speak to anyone. Her parents were obviously concerned, but they wouldn't push her to tell them what was wrong. Maybe it was obvious that she was suffering from a broken heart and they were giving her the time and space she desperately craved. The conversation she had with Damon a few days ago kept replaying in her mind torturing her. She had text him a few times, asking what went wrong, almost begging for some kind of answer. He didn't respond to any of her messages until...

13th August 2008

Dear Diary

I think that all my pain has just turned to rage...

Two years ago

She received a text, her heart skipping a beat when she saw who it was from.

"Meet me at the Grill at 8." the text demanded, flooding Elena with rage.

'How dare he!' She seethed 'After the way he acted, without an apology he demands that I go meet him. I just wont go.' She said firmly. As quickly as the decision was made it was changed.

"No. I will go. I'll go just so I can tell him that he is an ass and I hate him" Elena whispered trying to convince herself that it wasn't because she secretly hoped he'd explain everything and apologize and they could resume being happy together.

She arrived at The Grill at eight sharp. Her eyes scanning the crowded bar she abruptly feeling like the wind was knocked out of her when she saw him. He was sitting at the bar with a blond girl who had her arms wound around his neck. She whispered something in his ear and they both laughed as Damon leaned in placing a small kiss on her neck. Elena felt the ground leaving off her feet.

The green monster of jealousy over taking her she felt like crying and screaming when she saw Damon lean in and capture the girls lips in a heated kiss. Elena fought the urge to turn and run out of the bar as she walked quickly to him her eyes glowing in rage. She stood behind him, took a deep breath trying to steady her voice as she spoke.

"Hello Damon."

He turned around smiling. "Elena!" He said cheerfully "How are you?"

He was obviously drunk and Elena felt like she was being stabbed as his smile never wavered.

"You asked me to come. So here I am." She could feel her face flush as she tried to keep control of her emotions.

"Ohhh right?" he gasped feigning forgetfulness and turned his face to the blond next to him "Hunny can you give us a minute?" he said giving this girl a small kiss on her lips, playfully slapping her butt as she stood up from the bar and walked away.

Elena stared at him directly in his eyes, her gaze never faltered.

"Do you want a drink?" Damon asked casually as if nothing was happening.

"No. I want you to tell me what the heck you want to tell me, so I can leave." Her gaze narrowed.

"Why are you so uptight?" He asked smirking. Elena turned around preparing to walk away

"Ok. Ok" He said in fake defeat and she turned to face him again

"I just wanted to say goodbye." Damon said softly. The smirk disappearing from his face "I am leaving the day after tomorrow and... I just wanted to see you, before I leave."

Elena felt her throat clench in response.

"Leaving?" Her anger faded from her features, surprise replacing it.

"Yes. I..." He started to say and changed his mind the smirk appearing on his face again "I had a good time with you, but, if you don't mind I have decided to have different... entertainment, for my last two evenings here. So... Bye" He said and waved turning away from her, back to the bar.

Elena struggled to keep the tears from falling down her cheeks and turned around to leave, changing her mind she stopped herself.

She turned back towards him slowly, clapping her hands sarcastically and faced him smiling. "That was a pretty good show. Not my kind of comedy, but still... I have to say that it was good. I know I've enjoyed it." she said and felt satisfaction as she took control of the situation watching surprise fill Damon's eyes. "You may run away, but don't think for a second you can fool me. You asked me to come here tonight, so that you can show me that you are an arrogant bastard? Sorry, but I don't buy it." She took a step closer to him and lowered her voice. "What is going on? Why are you doing this?" She asked looking straight into his eyes, looking for the answer there.

"I am leaving and I want you to forget me. What happened Elena... It was a mistake" Damon said sincerely.

"No. It wasn't." Elena replied firmly

He turned his back to her and let a breath out "Its over Elena." He took a deep sip of his scotch, got up and joined the blond woman who was waiting by the door. Elena stood there for a few seconds not sure how to feel or react, before she walked away, feeling his eyes following her until she passed the door.

She returned home, her head feeling as though it would explode. She wanted answers. She needed to find out what went wrong, why he was being like this. She collapsed on her bed but there was no way she would sleep. She couldn't let him go, at least not before she learned the truth..

Present Day

Elena let the page of the diary fall from her hand as the tears kept spilling out of her eyes. She was so close to the end and she was exhausted. She had spent the entire day remembering things that brought her on a roller coaster ride of emotions, she wasn't sure she could take anymore. "One page left" she said looking down at the last ripped page of her diary. Suddenly she felt fear, she knew that she would be finished soon and would have to deal with what all of that meant for her now, in the present. Things were very different now, everything had changed. But first, she had to know everything that happened back then. She had to finish what she started. "Why did you erase my memories Damon?" she asked out loud as she took the last page in her hand.

Ok. That was my favorite chapter so far, so please review and tell me If you liked it too. Its very important for me. We are close to the ending. Two or three more chapters and its done.