I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry! I'm a bad person for not updating over a month! So I have decided that I'm making longer chapters and updating more often.. Because I feel so terrible about not updating for so long.
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Sally Forth!
EPOV!
3 weeks had dragged on. I couldn't believe that my Violet hadn't woken up yet. I had nightmares that Carlisle came to me and told me she would never wake up, and it ended by me killing myself. I was miserable, and I didn't leave her room. Seth only came with Jasmine. He wouldn't face me alone, and I don't blame him. I understood why he was distant, and I could wait for him to come to me, no matter how much it hurt. I knew he hadn't told Leah yet. She would have come to talk to me if he had.
I didn't know what day it was, but Seth had dropped by with Jasmine, and I decided I would tell Seth what I had mulled over the last few weeks. Jasmine sat down beside Violet, and talked to her softly. She had started that a few days after she had first come by. I noticed that Seth hadn't come in the room, so I went out into the hallway. He was standing with his back against the wall next to the door. I closed the door behind me so Jasmine couldn't hear our conversation.
"Seth.. I know ever since I told you, you've been avoiding me." I paused for a moment, looking for any sign he was listening to me. He just stared at the wall. I went on.
""Do you understand how happy I am to finally find out who my father was, to only then realize that I'll never get to see him again? Never get to call him Dad, to never hug him or spend time with him? You are so lucky Seth. And you don't even realize it. I now have a half-brother and sister. And you running away from me has been bumming me out. But I understand that you don't want to speak to me. All I wanted to tell you was that I'm sorry that I hurt you. I didn't want to, I was hoping you were going to celebrate with me. But I'll be here when you're ready to talk Seth, know that." I knew he wasn't going to speak to me, so I opened the door and went back into the room. I came back in and saw Jasmine looking up at me. I'm sure she could read the emotions on my face, but I hardly cared at the moment. I collapsed onto the small couch in the corner, and looked at Violet's face. I knew every feature by heart now, from spending so much time staring at her beautiful face. There was a faint scar above her left eye, that I'm sure no human could detect. She had a couple of freckles tickling her cheeks, and her light brown skin was smooth, no blemishes. The second Jasmine turned around, I saw a quiver of her eyelids. I gasped, and I heard the door open. There, again, was the small flicker of her eyes. I ran to the other side of the bed, and grabbed Violet's hand. This was too good to be true. I felt like singing the Hallelujah Chorus, and jumping up and down at the same time.
Her eyes finally opened, I was about ready to burst. The word that escaped from her lips was better than anything else in the world at that moment.
"Embry?" A soft hoarse voice called.
"I'm here." I whispered, tears nearly fell down my face.
"Embry." Violet confirmed, and she smiled, faintly. I smiled, and took my other hand and cupped her face. It felt like we were the only two people in the world, and I wasn't going to let her out of my sight.
VPOV!
Everything was so dark, so cold. I felt like I was tied down, unable to move, do anything, but listen. I could hear, most of the time. The first time I heard, I thought I was dead. It was Embry, crying. I wanted to comfort him, tell him everything was ok. But I couldn't move. It was the worst torture I could imagine. I listened to him, for hours on end. He didn't stop, and the heartache that went with it continued. Then there was nothing. The next time, I heard Jasmine. She was speaking to me, telling me about how Sharon was being obnoxious. I wished I could rant with her, complain anything but sit and listen to her with tears in her voice. Everyone was hurting, and I didn't know why. I didn't know why I couldn't open my eyes, couldn't do anything. I heard bits and pieces of conversations. Everything was a blur, and I hated it.
There was one day where I could hear everything. Embry had been talking to me, I knew when he was. From what I heard, he was upset.
"Violet.. I need you. Everything is awful since that night. Seth won't speak to me. We haven't spoken in three weeks, Vi. Please wake up.." I was frustrated. What was he talking about? I was so confused. How much I hated this black space that contained me. There was nothing for awhile, then I heard shuffling, and someone sit beside where I was.
"Embry just left. Seth is outside in the hallway. I assume that Embry wants to talk to him. Things have been weird. Seth doesn't come down here unless I'm with him, and even then he doesn't speak to Embry. Things are weird, Violet. I don't understand what is going on." I heard a high pitched voice speak. Jasmine. She talked to me everyday. How I missed her, the short curly brown haired girl that was a good friend, after just one day. Even if I was out of it, she was still there. I itched to answer her. I tried making my arms move, talk, anything at all. But nothing, like every other time, happened. I was so angry, and tired of this. I heard the door open again. Embry. My heart raced just thinking about him. I wanted to wake up. I wanted out of this black hole, out of nothingness. I struggled, willed for anything to move. I felt strained, until I heard Embry's voice.
"Violet?" That was it. I had to wake up. I tried to look. My eyes opened, unlike all the other times I had tried I saw Embry, looking at me with tears in his eyes.
"Embry?" I croaked. I felt so joyful, so happy. I left the darkness.
"I'm here." He said. Of course he was. Just like I wanted him to be.
"Embry." I smiled. So happy. His hand covered my face, and it was hot but it felt right.
"Violet.. I miss you." His voice cracked at the end, and tears began to roll down his face. I wiped a few away and he took my hand and just looked into my eyes.
Nurses came and went, checking on me smiling at me. Dr. Cullen came back and checked up on me, saying my bones were healing well. I finally got some food a couple of hours later. I was starving, ravenous even. I was inhaling my meal that one of the nurses had brought me. I wasn't in a lot of pain because of the pain medicine, which was fine with me. Jasmine had told me everything that had happened since that night. She came as much as she could, with Seth and Embry had been here day and night since that night.
"I can't believe you stayed here most of the time." I said, knowing I had said it multiple times before.
"How could we not?" Seth asked. His features seemed uncomfortable, yet happy. I would have to ask Embry about it when we were alone.
"You were my first friend here, and I felt something telling me to be here. I missed you." Jasmine said, looking at me. Tears welled up in my eyes, and I felt upset for making all these wonderful people distressed.
"Thank you, for being here. I'm sorry I didn't wake up sooner. I feel bad for worrying everyone." I said, apologizing.
"Don't worry about it." Seth said. His answers were curt and vague.
"Seth, I need to go." Jasmine blurted out. I felt sad that she was leaving, yet relieved so I could be alone with Embry. I believe that she sensed that, and I appreciated her for it.
"Alright." Seth said, following her out, as we said our goodbyes. I looked at Embry as soon as they left. His eyes hadn't left me for one second. He had been in the room the moment I woke up.
"Embry.." I said, patting the bed beside me. He came and sat down on the bed, taking my good hand.
"Violet." Was all he said, and he started crying. Sobs rang through the room, and it worried me. All I could do was put one hand on his back and let him hold my other one. After a few minutes, he calmed down a little bit. I pulled him close to me, or I tried to and he scooted closer to me. I moved on the edge of the big bed, and let him lay down beside me.
"What is going on?" I asked quietly, staring into his eyes.
"I usually don't cry." Was all he said. I laughed, but it hurt. I brushed it off, not wanting him to get distracted.
"Promise me you won't say anything?" He asked.
"Cross my heart." I said.
"Ok, so I know I haven't been very open with you. And I thought I.. We almost lost you and I want to be honest with you and tell you everything." My heart pounded when he almost said "I almost lost you."
"The guys I hang out with, we're very close. Like a family, so we know everything about each other. Well, for so many years, I never knew who my real father was. There were many different suspects, but each one meant that one man cheated on his wife with my mother. And three weeks ago, I found out who that man is. It's Harry Clearwater. Seth and Leah's father." He said.
"My mom told me the night when Jordan came back for you. She said she did it because she was lonely and drunk. So was Harry, but he was engaged to Sue at the time and I don't know if she knows or not. I've only told Seth and he won't speak to me." He said. I put my hand on his cheek, and he leaned into it.
"Give him time. He'll come around. I know he will. I understand why he was so guarded tonight. It makes sense now." I said, thinking back.
"And I want to be honest with you. No secrets from now on." I promised him.
"Yeah.. No secrets." He said softly.
"Then I want to tell you something. I felt bad for him." I said quietly. Embry sat up, and looked at me.
"Felt bad for who?" He asked.
"Jordan." I answered, and he got up and ran his hand through his cropped black hair. He growled.
"Why!" He roared. "Why do you feel bad for that pathetic piece of a man?"
"You don't know why he did it!" I said evenly.
"Yeah? Then tell me why, Violet." His tone was harsh, violent. Embry shook, and a hum was quivering in the air.
I took a deep breath, and pushed past the pain of my broken ribs to tell Embry why I felt bad for Jordan. "I had just turned 16, and Jordan was19 and asenior.."
It was dark out. Jordan and I were sitting in my bedroom. My face was stinging, and my wrist was burning. Everything was sore. Jordan was in the floor, sitting with his knees pulled up to his chest. He was rocking back and forth, mumbling to himself. I was on the floor, in the corner of my room. I heard crying, and looked over at Jordan. I scooted closer to him and tried to reach out to him. He turned away.
"Jordan.." I whispered. He looked up at me with bloodshot eyes and his cheeks were wet.
"Don't touch me!" He yelled. I was thankful we were alone, for once.
"What's wrong?" I asked, reaching slowly towards him.
"No! Don't Daddy! I'm sorry!" He yelled, then more cries came from his mouth.
I was puzzled. What was he talking about? Jordan wasn't making any sense. Usually he was happier after he beat me.
I touched him and he grabbed my wrist. He was gripping it hard, and I could feel the bruises that were going to be there. I tried to keep from yelling out in pain. I knew it was broken, but I wasn't going to say anything.
"Jordan, it's me, Violet." I said, touching his cheek with my other hand that was free. He looked up at me, but he didn't see me. Jordan was somewhere else then.
"I'm sorry that I'm not good enough Mommy. I'm sorry Daddy beats you. I'm sorry I let him hurt you and Jayden, I'm sorry.." He kept saying this over and over. He succumbed to tears in my arms, and sobs controlled him. He lay there in my arms, helpless, unconcealed, raw. I knew no one else knew of this. He never let on that anything had ever happened to him. I finally had gotten him to calm down a few hours after his episode, and he told me the whole story. I shed a few tears while he was closed off, aloof. It hurt to see him this way, and no matter how he treated me I still felt compassion towards this broken hearted man with a damaged family. Jordan had told me his deepest darkest secret that he had never shared with another human being before that day, or since then. I was the only one who knew, who knows.
"Do you understand a little better now?" I asked, trying to reposition myself without letting Embry know how much pain I was in.
"I do, but that never gave him the excuse to do what he did. Period." He said, evenly. I knew he was trying to control himself.
"I know. I still feel bad for him." I sucked a breath in through my teeth. My ribs were killing me. Embry jumped up from his chair and leaned over me.
"What's wrong? Are you ok? Where does it hurt?" He asked.
"My.. Rib.." I said, as he pressed a button behind my head. A nurse came in with a shot. I turned away as I felt a sharp twinge of pain on my arm. I felt kind of fuzzy and warm, and everything was going blurry.
"Embry.." I said.
"Yes?" I heard an angel's voice answer.
"Stay.." I slurred.
"Anything for you.." Was the last thing I heard before I went under into darkness again.
EPOV!
I watched Violet fall back into sleep. She was so peaceful when she slept. I was glad she wasn't in pain anymore, but I wish I could talk to her all night long. I knew I needed to tell her about the pack and everything, I just didn't know how. I had been in this hospital room since she came here, and since she had woken up, I knew I could leave for at most an hour with peace. I bolted out the door, and headed home.
Mom left a note for me, saying that she was sorry about the other night, and hoped that Seth would come around. I showered and changed quickly, eating 3 sandwiches while I did it. I needed to see Jake, Jared and the rest of the pack. So I headed to Sam's house.
I pulled up to the small house, and heard conversations inside. When I opened the door, Emily greeted me with a smile.
"Hello, Embry. How is Violet?" she asked, letting me inside.
"She woke up. She's still in a lot of pain." I said.
"I'm glad to see you here. I was starting to worry about you." She said.
"I'll get you something to eat." Emily smiled, and turned away.
"Em!" I heard someone say. I turned around and saw Jake coming at me. Quil was right behind him, followed by Collin and Brady.
"Hey dude! Where have you been? It's been so quiet without you here!" Quil said.
"I've been with Violet.." I said, shrugging.
"Well it's good to see you out. We've missed you around here." Jake said, smiling.
"Yeah. We need to hang out soon, whenever Violet's feeling better." He said, the rest of the guys agreeing with him.
"Alright. Where's Sam?" I asked, looking around.
"He's probably out buying Emily some of that crazy stuff she asked for last week. What was it? Peanut butter and pickles? Gross." Collin said, making a face while the rest of the guys chuckled.
"Why would she want that?" I asked, feeling disgusted.
"You don't know?"
"No. Haven't been on patrol.. Remember?" I said, pointing to Quil's temple and tapping lightly.
"Well Emily's pregnant. Sam is gonna quit phasing soon." Jake said, becoming serious.
"That means you'll be the alpha for all of us." I said.
"Yeah. I wonder how Renesmee will feel about that.." He said.
"Oh brother." mumbled Brady.
"I'm gonna go see her. You wanna go?" Jake asked.
"No, thank you. I don't feel like seeing the leeches today." Collin said, turning and walking away with Brady.
"How about you, Em, Quil?"
"I gotta go see Claire. Apparently she's asking for me." Quil said, looking up from his phone.
"Bye Quil! Have fun with your little Claire-bear!" I said, waving and making a kissy face. He rolled his eyes and grinned.
"Jake.." I started.
"What?" He looked at me.
"I have news." I said, becoming sober.
"What news?" He asked.
"Mom told me who my dad is. You are not gonna believe this." I explained.
"Who? Tell me, Em! This is huge!" He exclaimed.
"It's Harry.."
"Clearwater?"
"Yeah."
"Whoa. I never thought it would be him.. I don't think anyone else knew either. Do Seth and.."
I interrupted, "I told Seth. He won't speak to me. Leah doesn't know. I haven't been able to find her, and I definitely haven't said anything to Sue."
"Wow."
"Yup."
"I think you need to tell Leah. She has a right to know." Great.
"Ohh-kayy." This was one thing I was freaked out about.
"Any idea where she is?"
"No. But now that I think about it, she left right before Sam found out Emily was pregnant.."
"You don't think..?"
"She ran? Probably. I've been her alpha for a little over 2 years. I think I know her."
"Do you know where she ran to?"
"Nope. I'd phase if I were you and look for her. ASAP." Jake said.
"Thanks Jake." I said, smiling.
"No problem. Good luck, Em."
"Yeah. I'll need it."
Ohh yes Embry will need all the luck he can get when it comes to dealing with Leah. Good grief lol.
I apologize for abandoning this story. I just.. Haven't felt inspired at all. This isn't the best chapter, but I wanted to get it out there so you guys wouldn't just be hanging.
So review, that might just inspire me ;)
Courtney