Tommy watched as Kim lost herself in a trance like state as she continued to strum before she began to sing:
If you only knew,
I'm hanging by a thread,
The web I spin for you.
If you only knew,
I'd sacrifice my beating heart
Before I'd lose you.
I still hold onto the letters you returned.
I swear I've lived and learned.
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep,
Without you next to me,
I toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight bring me back to life.
Breathe your breath in me.
The only thing that I still believe in is you,
If you only knew
If you only knew
How many times I counted all the words that went wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I spent,
the nights we shared,
or letters that I sent
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep,
Without you next to me,
I toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight bring me back to life.
Breathe your breath in me.
The only thing that I still believe in is you,
If you only knew.
If you only knew.
I still hold onto the letters you returned
You help me live and learn
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep,
Without you next to me,
I toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight bring me back to life.
Breathe your breath in me.
The only thing that I still believe in is you,
Believe in is you,
I still believe in you.
Oh oh whoa oh
If you only knew
As the final note faded into the night Kim looked up at Tommy. "I actually wrote this song very recently, and even though I had no idea I would see you soon I knew it was for you and that I would play it for you before I ever let another soul even read the lyrics. I realized a long time ago that I would always want if not need you in my life. But I've also realized that I don't regret the letter or any of the ones I sent before and in an odd way I'd glad you wanted to wait till fate brought us to one another instead of just Jason. I thought I had found someone new but I couldn't even try with him until after I ended what we already had and I doubt the mail had even reached you by time I realized how stupid I had been. I still find myself awake at three and four in the morning just wishing you were there and that I hadn't messed things up. I truly hope that we can work everything peacefully but no matter what at least now I can stop thinking 'if you only knew'. "
"I think that pretty much answers all of my questions..." Tommy said, near tears at the message he had just received.
"And your opinion of Kimberly?" She asked in a small voice.
"As beautiful as ever." He started with a smile.
"Tommy..."
"I know. That's not what you meant. Although she did cause me one of the greatest pains I have ever felt, I don't hate her. I too realized quite some time ago that I want her in my life. She might have been the one who ended our relationship, but I let her go without a proper fight. I've learned to take responsibility for that part and that I probably did need to explore other options not just stay with her for life because she was the one in high school. But I always go back to thinking she was 'the one', not just the one who got away. I've spent many nights, all night long on those nights, thinking about her and what happened- good and bad. I didn't walk away at Jason's because I was still mad or anything, I just wanted to know it was actually time for us to be reunited, not set up by Jason... I forgive Kimberly for the letter, not that it's something she needs to be forgiven of, but because I need to let go of her past decisions and focus on her new ones." It was silent as the two stared at one another. They were both happier than they'd been in a while. Both were relieved to have said their part, and to have heard the other's feelings. Finally Tommy asked, " May I think of you as Kimberly, Ms. Crane?"
"Yes ,you may." Kimberly had tears running down her cheeks as she threw her arms around Tommy. "I'm so glad you don't hate me."
"I could never hate you, Beautiful." He whispered into her hair.
Their embrace lasted for several minutes before they both felt slightly awkward and parted. Both were smiling as they stared at the faces that had been absent from their lives for far too long. "So..." Kimberly began, "are you going to tell me how you're involved with the group you came here with?"
Tommy laughed at the story he was about to tell. "Well, Hayley and I met in college actually. We became really great friends, but just friends. Kira and her friends are actually students of mine. I teach science in Reefside, California."
"I get that. But is that the whole story? You're just their teacher? I can't see myself winning a contest in high school and choosing my science teacher as one of my guests."
"Well... I guess I have to tell you sometime..." Tommy began, watching as the look on Kimberly's face became very concerned, almost frightened. "Kim, I'm a ranger again."