Watching

I'd been watching for so long, I couldn't remember the date. The only thing I was wondering, was if Edward could see me watching him. Did he know that I missed him more then anyone could understand. If he knew that my life was crumbling to pieces while his was just getting better.

I'd seen Edward sit with her at lunch. Watched as he watched her leave for blood typing then take her from the boy and to the nurse. She could smell blood and that surprised him, it was like a weird connection between the two.

I'd watched as Bella invited Edward to La Push (which I found quite funny) then saw as Edward watched from the sidelines as Bella walked around Port Angles creeping through peoples minds to make sure no harm came from her. When the harm did come, Edward drove fast to save her and when he did, she had questions. They went to dinner, and since he couldn't eat, he answered questions. He didn't answer them all, but he answer enough and on the way home, he answered more. She finally figured it out. He was a vampire, so was his family, and she didn't care. That was okay and now they were going to live happily ever after.

The next day Edward told her everything and the day after, Bella told him everything. That night Edward went to his piano, and started to mix together keys and Alice came to hum the melody. Edward hadn't played his piano since I'd left, he found no joy from it. But now, he didn't need me to play, he had her.

Then the day which Edward and Bella were planned to go to Seattle, Edward took her to the Meadow. Our Meadow. My whole heart had been broken. That was our spot, to go to together. He showed his skin and laid in the grass with her. If I didn't feel so horrible at the moment, I'd probably would have painted the beautiful picture. It looked like a dream. Right now I wanted a nightmare to occur. I wanted him to kill her, for her to not exist. I was so bitter and angry but had no real reason. I knew he was going to love her. I knew this was going to occur. I was the one that left.

I was the one that left.

He didn't leave me…I'd left him. Heartbroken and all. I'd left for a selfish reason but he never hated me for it. Even now, he didn't hate me, even though I hated him. I was wrong. You cant change who you love and they both loved each other. My eyes grasped on him in her room. She woke and they were now talking. He told her how long he'd been doing this insane thing and she didn't even care.

He'd done that with me first. He'd watch me as I slept and when I caught him he apologized. That day, so long ago, he'd left me to do a solo piece alone. But knew now that it wasn't his fault. The sun was out that day and I didn't know that he was a vampire then. He'd come to check on me, to make sure my parents hadn't done anything to me.

I snapped out of my day dream to find them kissing. Passion and fury hit me. My fist slammed into the wall in front of me and punched a hole clear through to the other side. His lust came out and he forced himself off of her. He really did love her.

I sighed. Now I'd ruin my screen. I got up and looked at myself in the bathroom mirror. A thin layer of dust covered the top half of my dress and with a quick tap it all came off. The mirror showed my black eyes with deep bruised circles underneath of them. My pale skin had turned practically translucent and if I hadn't looked fully dead before, no doubt in my mind, I did now.

I went to the next room and laid on the floor. Above me, a window cut into the ceiling showing the midnight stars covering the black sky. Right in the middle laid the moon which was full. The wolves were out tonight no doubt.

As days pasted, I continued to watch. Edward spent the night, every night, simply watching her sleep. It was calming to her for some odd reason.

Then Edward got it into his mind that he wanted to show Bella the house and let her meet the rest of the family. She found out about Carlisle, and Alice finally got to have her fun and gain her as a friend. Of course they all loved her except Rosalie. Esme loved her, just as much as she loved Edward which wasn't a surprise.

Bella found it extremely odd that the house held no coffins, nothing dark. She thought the house would be dark and cryptic. Silly Bella. The Cullen's never fit the normal vampire life and if they had I never would have left. He played for her and they had a merry time.

Sighing, I open my eyes and waited for the next day.

Thunder crash through my mind and Edward's. Alice vision clouded his mind while mine looked to see the storm which was right over head. Slowly, I went to the closet. Thunderstorms were always the worse now. I had no way to cover my storm or theirs.

Alice saw three distant figures and seemed to pay them no mind. That was their first mistakes. The next mistake, was taking Bella. Vampire Baseball was the last thing that girl needed to encounter. Knowing Rose, she might have hit it the wrong way.

As the game continued, Alice saw them more clearly. They were coming. Red eyes and all to a location where a human laid. It wasn't going to be pretty.

It wasn't.

Edward charged at the first look. James was his name, and right when he smelt her, millions of thoughts flew through his mind and Edward was paying enough attention to hear them all. The low hiss turned to a growl and now he was protecting his lamb. But James had other plans.

The one name Laurent cut in and took James along with Victoria away. Edward and Alice both knew it wasn't over. They were going to have to hide Bella, or she would die. The worse part of the situation was James was a hunter. A tracker. I was the Cullen's tracker…but I wasn't there. I didn't want to be there. Not now. Not when I'd been replaced in there un-beating hearts.

The split up as I laid cradled on the floor. I could only see frantic moving. Shutting out their thoughts I became peaceful. If I watched anymore, my hair would fall out from the roots.

He ended up saving her. Removing the venom that coursed through her veins from the vicious James. If he was going to change her, he'd have to do it himself, do it right. Her leg was broken and she was weak, but she was alive. He'd been her hero again, but this time, the problem was him. He tried to leave her, but couldn't, she couldn't be without him and he knew he could be without her.

They went to prom and some boy named Jacob, who I'd seen before cut in on there dance to warn Bella that her boyfriend wasn't safe. He didn't even know the half of it.

Bella tried to convince Edward to change her but he wouldn't. Not yet at least. The though of him refusing made me smile. Edward didn't even let me choose, he'd just made Carlisle change me. Then I turned bitter. My life wasn't as precious as her. Again my hand busted through the house, this time the floor.

I'd seen the summer and the beginning of the school year. Edward had worked his magic and they had the same classes together. What luck my vampire butt. When her birthday came around, she couldn't stand being older then him, and really didn't want to go to the 'surprise' birthday party Alice was throwing for her. But she did. For her sake. Another wrong choice.

Clumsy Bella obtained a paper cut. Jasper smelt and went to attack then the second mistake happened. Instead of simply holding off Jasper, Edward dodged for Bella, sending her flying into glass bowls filled with roses. Her arms and legs were jagged with pieces of glass and she watched, horrified and Jasper was hauled off.

Esme was left cleaning the blood up with bleach and Edward left to mop. Carlisle told Bella about Edward's past and I was happy Edward had the decency to tell me himself. Getting air, I could understand why Edward was so frustrated. He wanted Bella's blood just as much, possible more then Jasper. He knew it was wrong but he couldn't keep off natural instincts.

He made up his mind, he was going to leave Bella and before I knew it, I found myself in the dealership of Ferrari's and on the road to Forks.

To save Edward from leaving her.

From doing exactly what I'd done so long ago, but with no good reason too.

I wouldn't let him lose what he cared most about.

He wasn't going to make that mistake.


Probably alot of grammtical mistakes.
AP Biology is taking my life away. *sad*