I smiled as I saw him chasing her. They got to be friends after their break-up, how come we didn't? But I was still willing to fix this. And I knew I could. I fixed things between Kevin and me; Joe and me; and even Selena and me. Demi and I were friends anyway. So now it was only him left.
Today was the day of the video shoot. Considering of the events that happened at the recording studio we were told to come back one week later. I was kind of glad that they told us to. I wasn't emotionally ready to face the one guy that could make me the happiest in a second but also break me the next moment.
But now it was time. We were there. Kevin, Joe, Demi and I were sitting on a couch outside of a tent they built up for… god knows what reason. Probably so we could change into the outfits they gave us. Well, anyway, we were sitting on one of the couches and just giggling while Selena ran after Nick angrily because he apparently messed up her hair - he actually didn't.
"So Joe was like 'That's my banana, dude!'… You should have seen it, the guy was shocked and the people around just stared at Joe as if he was an alien." We all laughed and I shook my head. Only Joe would do that. Only Joe could do that.
"Joe, you have got to be the most awkward guy on the world." He huffed and crossed his arms over his chest.
"Whatever. It was a onetime thing and it just slipped out! That guy wanted to touch my banana!" We burst out laughing again.
"Onetime thing? Haha, Joe, you're hilarious!" Joe rolled his eyes and got up.
"I'm going over there to people who are cooler than you are." He stalked over to Nick and Selena. Selena was just ruffling up Nick's hair. We got to see how he turned really red in a matter of seconds. Rule number one: Never - and when I say never I mean never - touch Nick's hair without his permission (which you only get if he loves you more than his hair).
He glared at her and walked over to one of the tables to get a water bottle. I turned to Kevin and Demi. They nodded their heads towards Nick. Great, he was a dick and I had to make the first move to make things right again? Well, it was my choice so I had to.
I reluctantly got up and slowly walked towards him. He didn't see me coming because… I don't know why, he looked straight past me. Hm, either he wanted to ignore me or he was in a daze or something. I reached him and tapped his shoulder. He turned his eyes towards me and I watched them move into two little slits. Yeah, I feel the love.
"Uhm… hi." He nodded and put the bottle down, ready to leave again. What did I do to have him so angry at me? I grabbed his wrist - preferably ignoring those stupid sparks that shot through my fingers the second I touched him - and turned him towards me.
"I said hi." He sighed and looked at me. His eyes looked... tired and a little pained, but beautiful, like always. But they also glared at me which didn't fit into my 'perfect little world'-picture.
"Well, hello to you too." He pulled his wrist out of my grasp and wanted to walk away but I wasn't done talking to him. I started walking too, walking a little quicker to reach him.
"I don't think I was done talking to you." He turned to me, still glaring.
"Well, I was done talking to you." I sighed and stepped in front of him, making him stop. He looked at me confused and for a second he didn't glare at me which made his eyes seem so soft I wanted to touch his cheeks and- wait, pretend I didn't just think that.
"Why are we like this?" Way to be bold, Miley. I rolled my eyes at myself and looked at Nick. He seemed really confused which made him look incredibly cute but I chose to ignore his cuteness for now.
"Like what?" Okay, I rolled my eyes again. He was either really stupid or just totally oblivious to the situation. Believing he was not dumb I chose the latter.
"Like this! Always fighting or just not talking at all. You promised me you'd be there for me if I needed you. I needed you most of the time during the year. But all you did was take away all my best friends, make the media turn against me by saying I broke your heart and make my fans hate me because of these stupid pictures I took for you because you asked me to!" Nick sighed and looked away from me. Okay, I admit, this was not the best way to start a reconciliation, but whatever.
"They were hot though…" I swear I heard him mumble those four words. Did he really just say that?
"What did you say?" He snapped his head back to me and shook his head.
"What?" I sighed and rolled my eyes.
"Nothing, I just really want to know why you did all this. Why are we like this? Why did you lie?" Nick shrugged innocently and kicked a stone. I groaned and looked around frustrated.
"Please, I just need an answer. If I get one I'll let you be and do whatever you want. You can keep on making fun of me or calling me bad names… I just need an answer." Nick stared at me with actually sorry eyes and looked down.
"Can I tell you in break? Lunch break, I mean…" I nodded and watched as he walked away. Was he really willing to give me an answer? To all my questions? Oh wow, I must be dreaming. Demi suddenly squealed and ran over to me.
"I saw, I saw! At first I was like 'I think I will have to kill him' but then when he looked so sorry I was like 'Yay, finally'." I giggled and shook my head.
"He didn't even apologize. I mean, all he did was tell me that we'd talk in lunch break." Demi sighed and shrugged. She then smiled really big.
"See, you'll talk that means he wants to talk to you which means… you'll talk! You haven't 'talked' in so long." I nodded.
"Yeah, I guess you're right." Demi laughed.
"Didn't you know I'm always right?" I chuckled sarcastically.
"Really now? So you can tell me why he lied? Why he lied and made everyone turn against me? No? Didn't think so." Demi sighed sadly.
"Okay, fine. I don't know everything. Whatever. I think it's time to record some scenes…" I nodded and followed her. Thankfully, it was around ten and Disney decided that they would shoot the scenes with Joe and Demi first. I watched them sing and laughed together - they had some chemistry, alright. Then they started with Kevin and Selena. You couldn't really say they had chemistry but more like… friendship additions, if you know what I mean.
They worked really well together, let's just put it at that. Too bad that just as they were about call up Nick and me, they saw that it was lunch time.
"Oh, look at the time. Good job so far guys. Take a break and come back in an hour and a half." Wow, that was a long break. I wasn't even tired. Well, I didn't have anything to do but whatever. I linked arms with Demi and joined Joe and Kevin at the tents. The first scenes were shot inside a dark theater. It was empty in the video and the only people in there were supposed to be Joe, Kevin, Selena, Demi, Nick and me. Well, we had four out of six.
"Are you nervous to hear what Nick has to say?" I looked at Selena. How did she find out? She giggled.
"Nick told me. He said that we couldn't play 'catch' in lunch break because he has to talk to you." I nodded shyly and shrugged.
"Yeah, I guess I'm kind of nervous. I mean, all these years I've wondered why and now he'll tell me… it's kind of historical, isn't it?" Demi rolled her eyes and looked at the buffet.
"You're a bit dramatic, aren't you? Ooh, look, cheese." Did I mention she had a thing for cheese? A secret obsession, so to say? I laughed as she dashed forward, leaving me and Selena behind. Joe and Kevin were already at the buffet - right, where else?
Selena grinned at me and linked arms with me, taking Demi's place. Over the week, Demi, Selena and I had spent every day together to get to know each other individually and as friends. It turned out that Selena and I had more in common than everyone would ever think we have.
"Well, it actually is kind of historical. Mr. Nick maybe apologizing over more than a song? Hm, I didn't get him to do that." I looked at her confused.
"What do you mean?" She sighed a little and shrugged.
"He never really… apologized. Our break-up was mutual. And we didn't date for almost two years. He never said he loved me or that stuff. We just… dated, I guess. And I was never really mad at him. I just hated how he made me change. I think he wanted a new… well, a new you. He never really got that though." I looked at her shocked. New me? What was wrong with the old me? Why with her? He could've told me that I was boring! Selena shook her head though.
"No, not like that. I mean… a new you as in another you. I don't think he really wanted to break up with you. It was more like… he felt like he had to and he did. You should ask him though; he's the one who broke up with you." I smiled at her and nodded. She smiled back and walked over to the boys and Demi. I wanted to walk over there too until someone grabbed my arm. Of course I knew who it was. I sighed.
"Can I get something to eat first? I'm hungry." I heard him sigh.
"Okay…" His voice was pretty low. I nodded to myself and walked over to the buffet. I grabbed a bagel and a bottle of water and walked back over to Nick. He started walking towards the building where the video was shot at. I followed him confused. Why would he go there? I shrugged and watched him open the door for me. Still a gentleman, I see.
I walked into the now empty theater. The only things left were the cameras and two guitars. Guess that would be for our shot. I sat down on the stage and watched him jump up himself. A piano was placed on it. He walked over there. Sitting down, he sighed and looked at me.
"What do you want to know?" I just stared at him for a bit. I know it sounds weird, but the light made him look extremely… hot. Yeah, that's the best word. Handsome would work too or… beautiful even. He always was though.
"Uhm… everything. I want to know everything. Why did you break up with me? Why did you lie and say I broke up with you? Why just… why?" He sighed and looked away from me. I could see him play with his fingers nervously before he turned back to look at me.
"Okay, you want the truth?" I nodded as if it was obvious - which it was - and he sighed again.
"Well, I broke up with you because… people kept telling me that we would hold each other back. But I wanted the world for you back then so of course - since everyone was telling me that I did hold you back - I thought it'd be best if we broke up. And honestly, though I regret it and all, it was. Look at you - everyone knows you! You had such a great record, your show's doing great and you got new movies coming along!" I sighed. He was right. I got good songs out of our break up. And maybe he was even right about holding each other back but…
"But I don't really think we held each other back! I think that it wasn't the only reason you broke up with me. There must be something else too that you're not telling me." Nick groaned and ran a hand through his curls - another sign that he was nervous.
"We fought a lot and you cried so much - I didn't want to hurt you anymore. I thought that if we broke it off completely you wouldn't cry so much because of me anymore. I don't know…" I sighed and played a few chords on the piano. I slowly got up and walked over to him. I stopped his hands from moving and made him look up at me.
"Why did you lie?" He sighed and looked away from me but I wanted him to look me in the eyes and tell me why he lied. I pushed his head back and stared right at him. He bit his lip.
"Because I was scared… I was scared that they would leave me alone in my misery which I caused myself to comfort you. I couldn't handle it with them, I don't think I would've managed it without them." I looked at him angrily.
"And I had too? I had to go through this alone? You turned my best friends against me, back then! And then Selena? You went out with her after four weeks! FOUR weeks, Nick! Four weeks after we broke up I was still in my room crying!" Nick sighed again.
"I wanted to distract myself from you! I thought, if I went out again I would forget you! And for a few seconds every now and then, I even did. But then I felt worse for actually forgetting you. So I don't know… okay? I never thought they would hate you. And what Kevin did was unacceptable. I told him not to wear the shirt. I told him it would hurt you. And he replied that you hurt me too and I couldn't fight with him… I'm so sorry, Miles." My nickname. Honestly, it sounded the best when it came out of his mouth.
But I wasn't sure if I should just forget him that easily. I mean, maybe it would solve us a lot of problems, but then again, he didn't have to break up. We hadn't talked in a year and a half, almost. I wasn't really one to hold grudges, I guess, but I had a reason too, right? I sighed and looked at him - square in the eyes once again.
"Sorry for what exactly?" Hey, at least he could explain everything, couldn't he? He looked straight back at me which meant he was about to tell the truth.
"For all of it. For breaking up with you without giving you any reason; for lying; for making you look bad; for trashing you; for breaking all the promises… everything." He sighed again and looked away from me. Wow, was not expecting that at all. I gulped and gently grabbed his hand. Like I said, I was not the one to hold grudges.
Nick turned to look at me and I smiled slightly.
"It's okay…" He looked at me shocked - and if I were him I would've been shocked too. After one and a half years, the person you broke up with and broke their heart while doing that, was just forgiving you for everything. That person was me - so that was another shock.
"It's… it's okay? You seriously want to forgive me for everything after all the… crap you went through?" I nodded slightly and smiled again. I was definitely being a better person right now.
"Yeah, I do. I want to forgive you. I miss you - I miss talking to you. And I understand why you broke up with me. You could have told me and you know that. I know you're serious about your apology. I never accepted it before because… well, didn't you listen to my song? 'When you mean it, I'll believe it, if you text it, I'll delete it'? Yeah, you meant it; I know you did." Nick stared into my eyes.
I never thought I would look at him like that again. Well, maybe I would, but I never thought he would look at me like that. I sighed a little and gave his hand a squeeze. He shook his head a bit.
"You're… you're too good for anyone, you know that? I don't think anyone really deserves you." I blushed and shrugged.
"I know a person who does - he just doesn't think the same way." He sighed a bit and let go off my hand. I know it sounds cheesy and all, but I felt cold the second he let go. He also got up and started walking around - well, more like pacing, but you get the idea.
"You can't… you can't just walk in and… I can't believe you would… No, you didn't just… Okay, this is too crazy to understand you… gosh, I don't know what to say… are you still seeing Justin?" I looked at him confused. Yeah, this was too crazy to understand. I never heard him mumble like this. He would always keep his cool - at least in front of me.
"What?" He sighed and walked up to me. My eyes widened as he searched my face… which he did when he was looking for the truth. Wow, after so long without talking and I can still read him like a book.
"Are you still seeing Justin? Are you still dating? Are you a couple?" I sighed and shrugged.
"I don't know. We hang out a lot but that's it. We were never really going out in the first place. It was more like… friendly meetings or so. Why?" Nick shook his head and sat down at the piano again.
"I was just- just asking. Because you just said… he didn't know or he doesn't think so and… Just… who did you mean?" I bit my lip and shrugged. If it wasn't obvious before then he wouldn't get the hint anytime soon. Either I told him straight out who I meant or I would shrug and shake my head and tell him that I was kidding. Guess what I chose.
"Who am I talking about? Well, I think it's pretty obvious. If it weren't you then I would be talking to someone else right now." Nick just stared at me for a few moments. Those were the longest moments in my life. I could practically hear his brain working inside his head. And finally, he got it. His face lit up a bit as realization dawned on him. But then he looked at me shocked.
"Me? Out of all the people… me? Seriously, Mi? You could have anyone you want - they all want you and you… you say me?" I nodded shyly and shrugged. I couldn't help it, right? I could love who I wanted to and if it was him then it was him.
"Yes, you. Who else, Nick? It's always been you. Before we got together, while we were together and after we broke up. There's no one else, Nick… only you. And I know it sounds crazy because a few hours ago we didn't even talk. But I want to make things right between us - I want you back. As my friend, best friend or boyfriend doesn't matter… I just need you back, Nick." Nick shook his head slowly.
I was actually scared he would say 'no' and leave but then he smiled. He actually smiled - his real and rare smile. The one with his teeth and all. And then he hugged me. He really hugged me. Tight and warm - that's how it felt. And I loved that feeling more than anything. He always made me feel this way.
I closed my eyes and laid my head on his shoulder, enjoying the feeling of being in his arms again. He rubbed my back softly.
"I really am sorry, Mi. For everything." I nodded. Secretly, I was squealing inside. Mi; he hadn't called me that in way too long. And now he finally did again.
"I know you are. I'm sorry too. For being such a bitch, I mean." He chuckled and pulled back. I wanted to protest but kept my mouth shut as I felt his hands on my hips. Oh how I loved his hands on my hips.
"It's okay. We were both… stupid and… well, really stupid. Idiotic and jerks… but I was the biggest jerk." I giggled. Yeah, he was. And I think I would even let him know that.
"Yeah, you were." Nick laughed and pulled his hands back. I sighed a little.
"Well, at least you're honest with me." I giggled and nodded. I looked around and noticed a few sheets of paper on the piano. I picked them up and then glanced at the piano.
"Hey… let's write a song." Nick looked at me confused.
"When?" I rolled my eyes a little and giggled.
"Now, obviously. We still got more than an hour to go and I know you. You can write a song in ten minutes if you have to. With music and all." Nick shrugged as if it were nothing.
"If you say so…" I rolled my eyes and sat down at the piano. I patted the spot next to me and grinned.
"Oh please, dear master of music, would you write a song with me?" I chuckled and sat down next to me. I grinned as he sighed and looked at me.
"What should the song be about?" I shrugged and looked around.
"Curtains?" He laughed and shook his head.
"You're funny… No, really what should it be about?" I sighed and kept looking around until I looked back at him. Then I grinned.
"Us… I mean, like our past…" He nodded and grinned a bit. Then he shifted and pulled something out of his pocket.
"I uh, I wrote something about that already…" I looked at him curiously and grabbed the paper. I read through it and sighed. It was beautiful. I read the title.
"Hm… Before The Storm? Very poetic." Nick grinned and leaned back.
"Well, you know what they say; I am a very poetic person." I rolled my eyes.
"Yeah, right, that's what they say." He chuckled and grabbed the piece of paper from me again.
"It's not done yet, though. The lyrics aren't really that good… I think they could need some 'Miley' in them." I giggled and shook my head.
"Only you would say that… but fine, what do you want to change?" He pointed to a part of the first verse. Okay, I didn't expect him to start that high.
"Hm… how about this?" I scribbled the lyrics down next to his. I only then really noticed how sloppy my handwriting was. Nick read it though and nodded.
"Yeah, that looks good. Now that one?" He didn't even put up a fight? Hm, I might as well enjoy that, right? I looked at the next part.
"Well, how about…" I scribbled some more on it. He nodded slowly.
"Yeah, that's good." I smiled and looked at him. He grinned at me.
"There's only one part left. It's the bridge. I wasn't so sure about it as I wrote it." I nodded and skimmed it over. It could definitely still improve. I think I could do that.
"Okay, how about… this first? And then this…" I wrote it down. Nick nodded. He grabbed the paper and started playing it on the piano. I didn't know he had a tune to it already! He played and I just listened. He didn't need to sing to make it sound beautiful. I sighed a bit.
How could everything change so fast? Was I too forgiving? Should I have waited a bit before I actually forgave him or not? Was I right to just say that everything was okay even though we both knew that I hadn't even forgiven him completely? But how could I not? I still loved him with everything in me. I wouldn't tell him that now, of course.
I hated not being able to talk to him. It was like a piece of me was missing. And he was the missing piece, of course. I know that sounded cheesy but there's no other way of saying it. He was my other half - even at fourteen I could tell you that. And now, here we are, sixteen and writing a song about our past.
"Miles?" I snapped out of it and looked at him. I smiled a little at his amused face.
"Yeah?" He chuckled and shook his head.
"Still the same. You used to do that a lot. Zone out on me while I would play something for you." I shrugged and blushed a little. I always admired him while he played, so what? You would too if you could.
"Yeah, well, let's write a song about that too. 'Miley Zoning Out'. Perfect title, right?" Nick laughed - his real laugh, something you barely hear from him - and shook his head again.
"And I thought you were a songwriter. You can come up with a better name." I rolled my eyes.
"Well then, how about 'The Out Zone (Nick Plays A Song)'. I bet that would sell a million times." Nick chuckled and rolled his eyes.
"You picked up my sarcasm, I see." I nodded and shrugged.
"Things just stick to a person like honey." Nick laughed and started playing again. He nodded towards the sheet.
"Sing with me?" I nodded and smiled. He made some sort of introduction before I started to sing. Well, I didn't even get the chance too. Why? Because someone decided to interrupt us. Just as I wanted to sing Demi burst into the room. She laughed and closed the door, hiding behind it. Then she turned around and stared at us.
"Oops… was I interrupting something?" I shrugged and nodded.
"Yeah, kind of. But it's okay. What are you doing?" Nick sighed and pulled his hands back. Demi giggled and pointed to the door.
"Joe's trying to tickle me but I won't let him. That means I have to hide." I nodded and grinned. It kind of felt like kindergarten if I'm completely honest. But it felt nice too.
"Yeah, you do that. I don't think the door will work any longer." She giggled and raced to a few cameras which were crowded near the stage Nick and I were on. She hid behind them and kept on giggled. I rolled my eyes. Way to keep it covered, Dems. Nick chuckled.
"He's going to find her."I smiled at him and nodded.
"Yeah, I know." Just as I finished, Joe burst through the door, looking around for Demi. He spotted us and grinned, walking up to us.
"Hey you two. Have you seen Demi?" I shook my head and tried to look as innocent as possible. He nodded and bit his lip. Then he shrugged and started walking towards the door again. I looked at Nick funny. He shrugged and pulled a funny face. I held back a giggle. That was until someone else giggled.
Joe stopped walking and turned back around. He grinned at the cameras and started running over there. Demi squealed and ran back out. She made a run for the door and quickly ran out of the room again. I laughed as the two exited. Nick shook his head.
"To think both of them are older than me…" I laughed even more.
"Demi's only like a month older than you." Nick shrugged and looked at the lyrics.
"We'll finish this some other time… hey, I got an idea." I looked at him and nodded. What idea could he possibly have?
"How about we… record this song and put it on our next album?" I looked at him shocked. Did he just say that? He never wanted to record a song because everything could get leaked. And now he wanted to put it on his next record? I squealed and nodded.
"Yes! Of course! Sure, oh my gosh, now I'm excited!" Nick laughed and let me hug him. He wasn't the one to let you hug him that easily. I giggled as Nick stiffened up a bit. He had some problems with human proximity.
"Well, that's good then." I nodded and looked at my watch. I sighed. Break was almost over.
"Oh great, break's almost over." Nick sighed and nodded.
"Yeah, but we still got the whole day to go." I smiled at him and nodded.
"Yup." He grinned as we got up and walked out of the bit hall again. We decided that we should be in the sun the last few minutes of break. Kevin, Selena, Demi and Joe were laughing on the field so we decided to join them. Nick walked ahead of me and I saw that as the perfect opportunity to jump on his back.
He seemed confused and shocked at first, pulling his head in - like a turtle. I giggled as Joe laughed and Demi shook her head. Kevin chuckled and Selena held her stomach from laughing so hard. That's how it was supposed to be. Six friends - best friends - laughing and having fun without any trouble whatsoever.
I got off Nick's back patted it. He turned to me and shook his head. I giggled and shrugged. Joe ruffled my hair as I grinned at them. This felt way too right to be wrong. I knew it wasn't wrong but I also knew that the press would make a big fuss out of it.
But I decided not to care at the moment. This was how it was supposed to be. Whether it was too early or not would be decided later on. Maybe I wasn't right for forgiving Nick that easily. But my intention was to make everything right between me and them - and I did. But I knew that it wasn't over yet. It was nowhere near over.
This was only the beginning of even more drama than I ever thought I would experience. Maybe some more love than I have experienced. And tears, definitely tears. But I knew on that day that it didn't matter yet. This was a fun day and I would not ruin that by bringing something like this up - something that seemed not important at the moment. My worries would have to wait.
I put myself out there again. I put myself out there for him again. I left my heart on my sleeve, waiting for him to either take it or break it. And I really hoped he would take the first option because I'm not sure I could handle the latter.
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