Because your kiss, is on my list, of the greatest things in life .

Alice stood there, blinded. Touching her lips. Jacob's lips were once again pressed against hers, and once again, those butterflys came back to hunt her. Why am I feeling this way ? She asked herself, but the answer was clear, even to her, that she aswell has been developing feelings for him, after what happened last night. And after that show that just occured, she can feel the feelings growing.

"Alice" her thoughts were interupted by a voice, she was expecting Edward,but she found Bella. Bella with that face of, "I want to know what you two are up to" Alice bit her small lips, "yes Bella ?" "What were you and Jacob talking about ?" Alice couldn't tell her, she knew , that even though she was infatuated by Edward , she sort of loves Jacob aswell, and it will just break her heart, and Alice didn't want that, that was the least thing she wanted. Bella was her best friend, she couldn't break her heart. She had to make up a lie , and fast, but what ? Bella was too smart to believe just anything so what does she tell her ?

"we were discussing about your wedding" she raised an eyebrow , "my wedding ? Wouldn't Jacob want to talk to me about that ?" "Well we saw each other at the party last night-" last night, memories were brought back to her when she spoke those two words ; last night. When Jacob's soft lips touched hers, when his manly hands were feeling all over her body, and she explored a world that she didn't know excisted ; last night, she wanted to relive the whole thing. "Alice ?"

Alice opened her eyes to realize that Bella was still in front of her and still waiting for an explanation, she touched her forhead, "oh ! I'm sorry ! As I was saying, we saw each other at the party, and I told him he is invited and that me myself and I are planning the wedding and he just wanted to know more about it. Like the date, and how he should come dressed. And ofcourse he started complaining on how you would be better off with him and not Edward"

Alice was lieng to the bone, but she knew this was the only way for Bella to not find out and not get hurt, also, Edward would be dissappointed in her if she were to tell Bella what she and Jacob did, also the way they were both feeling for each other. Bella had an unknown face on, she stayed quiet , unsure if she should believe Alice or not. "Um, okay, yeah, usual Jake, i'm going to talk to him after school" Alice smiled, "Okay".

"So the kings and queens-" the teacher was talking, but Alice wasn't paying attention.

All that was on her mind was the touch of Jacob's lips , the feeling she got when they pressed upon hers. She closed her eyes and started imagining her and Jacob together, bodies naked pressed upon each other, passionetly making out, and whenever they stopped to catch a breath of air, they would say to each other "I love you" she smiled at the thought. "Oh how wonderous" she said out loud,

and she opened her eyes to find all eyes on her. "Alice" the teacher started, are you paying attention?" Alice gulped, "yes ma'am" her teacher raised an eyebrow , "alright then" Alice sighed. She looked to her side and found Jasper staring at her , "what were you thinking about" , she bit her lip, "you and I, in bed" he smirked, "so you were thinking about last night" he laughed, and kissed her cheek.

Oh how she despised lieng to him, and when he said that, those words ; last night, it just brought pain to her heart and a stomach ache. She was a horrible wife, she shouldn't have done that, she regretted it, very much. Even if she was gaining feelings for Jacob, those feelings had to stop, she had to push them away one way or another. If she still wanted to be with Jasper, that's what she had to do.

Class ended and she hopped inside her car , to her side was her beloved husband, who she has lied to plenty of times since yesterday. Starting to day there will be no more lies, he will not find out what her and Jacob did because she will no longer see him. She turned on the engine and started to drive, she drove and drove 'till they reached their home. They got out and he put his arm over her, she smiled. Waiting for them was Edward, and she knew that he wanted to talk to her.

They stopped infront of him, and Alice gave Jasper a look claiming that her and Edward wanted to be alone to talk, he nodded in agreement and left. "Yes Edward ?" he had a look of disgust, and Alice put on a curiouse face, then she gulped and wondered if he had read her mind in class.

"I think you know why my face is like this"

she looked down in dissappointment , "you read my thoughts. ?"

he sighed,

"yes" , "Edward I-" "save it Alice, you have sexual feelings for him"

"no , I-"

"what ? You're denying it ? Alice your thoughts say it all, what happened last night says it all, the way you look at him says it all. I think you should tell Jasper" "what ! ? and risk my marriage with him ? Never !" "Your marriage is already at state if Jasper finds out you cheated on him and that you have sexual feelings for a werewolf he'll-" "he won't ! He won't . I'm never seeing Jacob again""yes you will, the wedding,

"Bella, and he will come looking for you, he has those same exact feelings for you that you have for him"

"well i'll ignore him, anything for Jasper"

"you sure you can handle it ?" "Yes" "make sure those sexual feelings don't turn into love Alice, because after that, there is no turning back" afterwards, he left. She was left alone. Her eyes got watery, she didn't want to see anyone, not Jasper not anyone.

She ran up to her room, hoping noone was in there, she jumped on her bed and started to cry. Started to cry so hard , because she couldn't take it anymore, she just couldn't. She stopped, and closed her eyes. His kiss, that night, his touch, it made everything seem alright. Why does something that seems so wrong, feel so right ? She started to cry again, feeling so ashamed , she felt so , so bad.

She didn't want that to happen, she really did love Jasper, but Jacob, Jacob. Oh Jacob ! His lips, his touch, his kiss, his everything. She needed to talk to him, she had to anyway to warn him about Bella- Oh Bella ! Yes she was going to talk to him, what if she was already there ? It was worth a try. She dialed his number and locked the door, two rings ; "Hello" it was him she knew , that deep sexy voice of his, "hello ?" she responded, "A-Alice" "is Bella there ?" "No" "has she passed by" "no ? Why ?"

"She told me she was going to go talk to you. She went up to me today , wondering what we were talking about , I told her you were curious about the wedding, just incase she asks you" "Alice , i'm not going to deny the way i'm feeling for you in front of her" "please Jacob don't" "Alice, i'm not going to hide it, there is no reason to . Listen, i'm not sure if it's love but -" "it's not love Jacob. Listen, today I was thinking about you , about our naked bodies pressed against each other , and we were making out" "wow, that sounds appealing" he laughed, "hm, I know.

"But I realized that we don't love each other, we're just sexually attracted to one another"

there was silence on the other end of the phone,

"Alice, yeah , we are, but isn't that how most couples start out, physically attracted and sexualy attracted ? We don't know if we're in love yet unless we try and get to know each other, hang out more, see how we feel, then we figure out if we're in love"

"i'll like to do that, but I can't. I don't want to find out if i'm in love with you, because i'm with Jasper and the last thing I want to do is hurt him"

"you're with him out of sympathy Alice"

"no, ofcourse not, I love him. That's one thing for sure. Jacob do me a favor, try to forget about me, because I don't want to find out if this is really love, I don't want to speak to you again, you're still very welcomed to come to the marriage, but we will not talk to each other, we'll keep on bieng enemy's, and strangers. Please don't tell Bella what happened between us, please don't tell her the way you're feeling , just forget it Jacob please"

"Alice don't ask me to do this because I can't I just can't"

"please Jacob, if you really care for me you'll do this"

"I care for you Alice , but I can't, my heart doesn't let me"

"Jacob"

she was interupted by a knock on the door, "Alice, it's me Jasper open up" her eyes opened wide, "and she whispered, "I got to go" and she hung up. She hesitated before opening, afraid that Jasper has been hearing the conversation all this time, but she still opened it, what other choice did she have ? She welcomed him with a smile, and he responded with a kiss upon her lips.

She was craving for Jacob's lips though.

"Why are you here all by yourself babe ? And why was the door locked ?" "Um, I wanted some privacy" "oh, do you want me to go ?" "No ! No, I always want you around" Jasper smiled, and touched her cheeks, "I love you" "I love you too" and he kissed her once again. Oh how Alice wished that kiss could come from Jacob, but she was feeling awful craving a kiss from a man she had a one night stand with, from a man who is not even her husband, she felt terrible. She was cheating on Jasper with her mind, but she just couldn't help it. She pushed away. "What's the matter ?" "I'm not in the mood"

She's in the mood for Jacob.