Anger
I watched Bella leave the next day. I already knew where she was going. To Jacob's, or else Charlie wouldn't let her go. She was going to be there for a long time and I knew that. She would be welcomed to their world, there was no way to erase what she knew. And that's exactly what Jacob wanted. There was nothing I could do to stop what was in the process of happening. He was only going to hurt Bella and she was going to hurt Edward.
While Bella was gone, I went to the house. It rested peacefully in its surrounding. Everything was in the same place as the last time I'd seen it. A small layer of dust had collected on the furniture. I took the time Bella had granted me to clean. If the rest of the family ever came back, they deserved a clean house.
A few minutes into cleaning, my phone began to vibrate. It was Alice.
"Hello Alice."
"Hi Julia. Esme said thanks for cleaning the house. How's Bella?" she asked.
"Fine, but that little Jacob is becoming a major pain in the side. He keeps wedging his way in when ever he can." I huffed.
"You sound a little disgruntled." she said lightly.
"How are things on your end?" I asked trying to make small talk.
"Aggravating. Everyone is in an uproar because we miss you three. And Rose wont shut up about Edward being selfish. She's doing the same thing she did when you left. It's like deja-vu."
"Sorry to hear that. Have you seen anything yet?" I turned of the vacuum and sat on the couch.
"No. Nothing yet. He's being very sneaky. Going to places, hiding in attics. It's very dramatic, even for Edward." she laughed slightly, but it held no happiness.
"Sounds like him. I miss his voice."
"You haven't heard him?"
"Not at all." I looked down at the floor. I wasn't wearing shoes. I never wore shoes in the house.
"Hopefully, it'll get better." she tried to sound like it could. We both knew it wouldn't. "Bella should be getting back now, so I'll talk to you in about another two weeks Alice." I smiled.
"Bye Julia." her voice sounded happy as she hung up.
I stayed in the seat for a few minutes. Thinking. I was trying to hear Edward. I wanted to know he was okay, that I didn't have to worry about him right now. Every time I thought I was close to his voice, to his thought, it would fizzle out and become a low mumble, a pit of blackness. I figured he wasn't thinking about much. I fuzzy picture of Bella shot through his mind and then it went back to black.
I rubbed my temples and slowly got up. I closed my eyes and shook Edward's tortured mind and tried to look into Jacob's. The sight was faint, but I saw him see Paul transform out of rage, them him transform to protect Bella. He ran Paul back as my hand turned to fist. I jolted out of the front door and ran straight to the line. The invisible shield held me back.
It felt like hours until Bella's red Chevy came rolling over along with Charlie's truck. He most likely had no idea what Jacob and his friends were. If he did, he'd rather her be with Edward. I wish he knew. Vampires were safer than Wolves. We could keep our control. Well most of us.
I wanted to see Jacob at that moment. I wanted to rip his throat at and feed him to lions. Or better, Victoria.
The next day Jake dropped by to see Bella, then followed her to work. I took that as my cue. He drove back down the road on his bike and I speed ahead of him and stood in the middle of the road. He slammed on the break and halted to a screeching stop in front of me.
"Hello Jacob. Or should I call you puppy? The way you follow Bella around is quite terrifying. Hopefully you aren't forgetting what I told you." I said, darkly. My voice sounded terrifying, like I could rip him in two.
"Get out of the way vampire." he revved the bike.
"If you plow into me, the only thing that will be damaged is that stupid bike." that bike was the reason Bella had gone to Jacob in the first place. I wanted to rip it up as well now.
"Does my being around Bella tick you off?" he smirked and revved some.
"It pisses me off. So does the fact you transform in front of her. Who do you think you're playing at? Hmm? You can't control you temper." I yelled.
"And obviously neither can you." Jacob tilted his head to the side. "She's coming over today. You have to admit, I'm taking good care of her."
"No, I don't, cause that would be lying." I put my arms over my chest and looked to the side.
"I wont do it again, unless it calls for it." he said after a pause.
"This you can keep that promise?" I asked looking at him with my head tilted to the side like I didn't believe him, which I didn't.
"Better, than you or your other vampire friends could." he smiled and kicked the bike in gear.
I moved out of the way and watched him speed away.
Bella continued to go down to La Push, much more now that she knew what they were, and it scared me. It would be better if she were here, I told myself over and over again. Every time she went down there, the closer Victoria got to her. I could sense it, feel it. But the day they really crossed Victoria's trail, I was scared out of my wits. They left Bella alone and there was only one thing I could do.
I remember running. I remember seeing her trail. I remember being angry, angry at a lot of things. I was angry at myself, angry at Edward, angry at Jacob, angry at all the wolves. I was angry at James and Victoria, I was angry at life, pissed off that everything that happened seemed to be bad. Like life never brought any good things. And it hurt.
I remember seeing Bella, jumping and disappearing. I remember freezing in front of the wolves, in front of Victoria's trail that lead straight past the line, and straight to the cliff. I remember screaming stop, to someone who could hear me.
"You left her alone?" I looked at wolf Jacob and swallowed something hard. "She jumped." I heard it come out slowly.
He ran away fast, following the trail he couldn't see, and being followed by the others. I fell to the ground and searched for Edward's mind. I prayed that he didn't find out. I heard Rosalie bickering in my head, telling Alice she wanted to call Edward. I remember hearing Alice saying no, that she was coming to check things out herself. I should have known then.
I went to the Cullen house. I didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want to know if Bella was okay. If she was okay, everything would be fine, but if not…
I twisted on my bed and grabbed a pillow, held it close to my body. My chest heaved as I waited, I now had my resolve. Alice knew what I was going to do, where I was planning to go.
"Julia…" Alice's voice came through the house.
I flew down to her. "Oh Alice." My arms wrapped around her in a hug. I realized just how much I missed them, how I never wanted to live without them again.
"Julia you can't go. You don't know yet." she held my head in her hands.
"I do, I heard Jacob. She'll be okay. But I have to go. I can't stay here, I have to try again." my voice sounded as though I'd been crying. It sounded weak.
"I can't stop you." she smiled. "No one can." she shook her head and chuckled. "You're so stupid sometimes." she came in and gave me another hug. "Promise me, that when this is over you'll come back. And you wont leave again. We've missed you so much."
"I know. I guess being a vampire does that to you." I smiled and choked on my chuckle. "I'll come back with Edward or not at all. But I've missed you too. You're the best sister anyone can have Alice."
"Be safe."
"You too."
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I left before her, running to the airport. Looking at the flights. I was able to catch the first available one and waited impatiently as boarding took place. I watched out the window the whole time, listening to Alice and listen to Edward.
Alice talked to Charlie. She heard everything I saw. She heard of what Bella had been like in person, though she already had a good outline of what she was like.
We were half way there when I heard Rosalie, surprisingly. Alice hadn't called them, they still didn't know.
Rose…no. I thought as her resolve became clear. Don't make this flight be necessary. I pleaded as she pick-up the phone. She called Edward. I saw him then. His face, plastered with death that he wanted for himself, he looked sick, he wasn't beautiful like he once was, he was terrifying. He was in a worse condition that I could have ever imagined. He called her house. And he picked up, out of all people, Jacob picked up and uttered the miss understood words. 'He's at the funeral.'
"No." I held my hand to my dead heart and watched Helplessly as Alice's vision played like a dance in my head. I knew what I had to do. I had to beg. I had to plead. I had to try and save Edward, or die with him.
"You have now reached you're final destination. Volterra, Italy." the flight assistance's voice called cheerily.
YAY another new chapter : ]
Fambam leaves saturday for Australia.
How good are my chances that a Twilight star will be on my flight? lol
Hope you like the chapter. Its about 4:30 here.
Oh, and its my 17 birthday. Finally as old as Edward.
I'm ranting lol. Bye now : ]