Jacob leaned back on both hands and I scooted down to the ground next to him, leaning my head on his shoulder. We both looked into Paul's sad eyes as he took in a deep breath to speak. Seth hadn't even spoken a word yet... The tears were already starting to fall down my cheeks, and the story hadn't even started yet. Just thinking about how many lives were lost for the wolves was so incredibly sad. But it also worried me.

If so many wolves died...how many vampires died?

But it also gave me hope, because if wolves did survive, then maybe some other vampires did too. Or maybe I was just getting my hopes up. I decided not to psych myself out until Paul finished his story. I shuddered a little, not from the cold or anything, and Jake wrapped his arm around my shoulder. I really did love him, and I suppose I should have been happy that one half of my life was still alive. I felt sort of bad that I had focused too much on the other half.

Paul interrupted those thoughts when he started speaking.

"As you guys know, it was getting tense. Those leeches were looking for any reason to attack us, and trying to force us to make the first move. Which is exactly why you left, since we all thought they'd be successful at it. You guys ran off when that one sister was killed right? And the other sisters got angry." He asked, and we both nodded. That was the last thing I saw before we left, apart from my parents faces, was Irina getting killed for being wrong about me. That's when my family decided it was a good time to leave. Paul continued, "Well, your exit was exactly what set them off. One of them yelled, 'Hey, they're running from us!' And the rest of them looked really pissed off. The leader, or so it looked like that's who it was, said something like, 'We don't like it when our authority is ignored, and when rules aren't followed. Call them back or pay the consequences.'

"Well, of course, nobody wanted to call you back. The Cullens and friends wanted to protect Renesmee, and us wolves just wanted to rip apart some vampires. While Edward, who seemed to take control of our group, told them that they weren't going to call them back unless it was safe...well, that's when it all started. It started slow, with the Volturi crowd racing at us with one command. A lot of them stayed back...I think I heard someone mention they were witnesses, but most of them rushed forward. The Cullens were the first to react, followed shortly by their leech friends. Then we all stepped in.

"It was hard to see what exactly was going on, and remember all of it. Jake, you know how when you are in battle the adrenaline just takes over and you don't really know what exactly you are doing...just killing. Well, that was no exception, it was like I was on a high. Ripping one vampire apart after another. But it seemed like there was a never ending amount. I did catch sight of a few things. Like Bella," Paul glanced at me as he said her name, "She was intent on getting to someone. But all the Volturi wanted her dead, and all our guys wanted to do everything to protect her so she could protect us all. So instead of just sit behind all those that were guarding her, she dragged them all straight to that guy. I would know because Sam ordered me an' Seth to help protect her once we saw she was on the move. People must have thought she was royalty or something. Well she got to him, calling 'Demetri' or something but Seth and I took care of the guy.

"I was also amazed at these two big burly leeches on our side knocking everyone out of their way to get to the little blond looking demon girl. One of them lost a hand as he tried to get to her, but he payed that no attention. They just ran straight to her, barreling through anyone in their way regardless of what side they were on. You should have seen the look of terror in her face, like she knew what was coming. I was surprised that the little girl even took one down, but the other one crushed her instantly.

"What also helped us were a couple of those other gifted leeches. You could see a few guys wandering around like they were in a completely different place and running straight into trees and rocks! Others were falling into holes in the ground that just appeared right at their feet. It was a great distraction so us wolves could get them while they were down. It all seemed like it was going great, but the Volturi started to force those who weren't there to fight into the battle. Some refused and were killed instantly, which forced most of the others to abide. Those that didn't just ran off, not wanting to fight us. That's when it all started going downhill. I saw our own kind fall out of the corner of my eye, and I lost count of how many we lost. I just focused on getting as many as I could. I watched Embry die. I tried to help him, as he was surrounded by four vampires and I ran to him but I got stuck in a fight of my own. As I finished off the vampire I was fighting, I went to go help Embry, but I was too late and I could only watch as they all crushed his body.

"As for everyone else, well they were dropping like flies, wolves and vampires alike. It was just one giant massacre and the enemies looked like they were finally starting to enjoy it. I'll admit, I'm not sure if any Cullens went down while I was there. It was too hard to tell. I think out of the corner of my eye I saw the blond Cullen surrounded by a ton of them and taken down. But it could have been someone else." He quickly added the last part when he saw the increasing horror in my eyes. The entire story was too much, I wasn't used to this much brutality. And who would the blond Cullen be? It couldn't have been Jasper since he wasn't there, right? So he must have seen Carlisle or Rosalie. I know he saw it, because it wasn't too convincing when he said it could have been someone else. And my heart felt like it got ripped out just thinking about either one of them being hurt.

But Paul carried on, unaware of how this was affecting me, "It came down to three of us. Sam, Seth and I. I know for sure the rest of them are dead. I saw their bodies with my eyes, and it was a horrible scene." He shook his head and closed his eyes as he remembered it all. I tried not to imagine what it would look like to see tons of wolf and human bodies all mangled all over the place. But it was a hard sight not to imagine. Paul kept his eyes closed as he finished his story up, "Sam ordered us to leave. I had to follow, alpha orders. I didn't want to, which is why I protested like hell, but Sam was stubborn. He only asked Seth to leave, to try and help preserve the ways of the wolves in case there were more in the future. I ran off, unwilling, and Seth followed. That was the last we saw of everyone. Sam was determined to stay back, but he also didn't want us to die. I understand, I'm just angry because maybe had we stayed, Sam would have come back. It's just something that we'll never know." Paul shook his head again, and Seth looked down to the ground.

"Two days later we returned to the field, after Sam never came home. We were both still so tired and sore from the battle, but we wanted to find Sam. But when we went there we found nothing. Nothing but ash. No Sam, no Cullens, no bodies. It was all empty grass covered in ash. We checked the Cullen house, but it was empty, and we checked the surrounding forest but found nobody. It was as if nothing happened. Like everyone had been destroyed. But someone lit the place on fire. We hoped it was Sam, and that he was in La Push looking for us. But it's been seven years since anyone has seen him...he's gone." The last part was in a small whisper, and Jacob and I both knew that Paul would say no more.

I hadn't really realized that I had buried my face into Jake's chest while I cried. But when I looked up at Jake, knowing that he was in pain thinking about his brothers being dead. But he just looked at me and smiled sadly as he tried to wipe away my tears. He whispered very quietly the words, "You are worth it."

I felt my gut get wrenched out of my stomach. Was I, one life, really worth all those that had died? I was one person...who cared if I was one of a kind or not, all those people fought to protect me. They succeeded, and died. And I was to blame. It was a horrible feeling, and it only made the tears come faster. Jacob pulled me into a hug, and I rested my head on him comfortably as the tears kept rolling down.

It took me a few minutes to gather myself again, and I used those few moments to see what Charlie was doing, but they weren't there anymore. I must not have heard them go inside, but Billy must have done that knowing that this story was coming. Poor Charlie was surrounded by a huge secret that would make his life so much easier if he knew.

Jacob still held me close, although I wasn't crying any longer. I felt like such a baby, but he made me feel much better about that. Still, hearing that story didn't help me much. There were still so many unanswered questions. Somebody out there could tell me who died and who survived. Somebody could lead me to my family.

"I want to see the battleground." I said aloud, for Jacob, Paul, and Seth to hear. All three looked at me as if I were some masochistic little idiot.