Title: An Unexpected Surprise
Summary: AU Post-New Moon, Bella never jumped so Alice never had her vision and Edward still thought Bella was alive, so there was no reason for him to die. So they both goes on with their lives until Bella has enough and go visits some of the Cullens friends.
Rating: Teen
Warning: I'm not an American, I'm a 15-year old girl from Sweden but I have a A in English so I think you will understand, but I know I will make a lot of mistakes but don't stop reading beacause of that. This is a work in progress so if you liked this chapter, keep on waiting to the next chapter!

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Chapter five: To Give Something In Return?

APOV

"So were are we going next?" Jasper asked.

Jasper and I had been in different cities in Washington for almost two weeks by now, and it was time to run away agian. This started to get boring and irritating. Everybody hated to move around.

"Well, we could take off to Canada if you want, it's not far way from here"

Deep in my heart I wished that he would say yes, beacuse then I wouldn't be far away from the rest of my familj -who lived somewhere in north of America, they moved around a lot and Jasper and I had been away three months soon, and the last time I talked to them was in January when we left, so I guessed they moved again. They all miss Forks and Bella. But it isn't safe for her to be close to us.

And I wouldn't be far way from my best friend either. Edward had forbidden me to speak with her, to even visit her. I couldn't even be close to her, even if she didn't see me 'cause he thought that maybey somebody else would. He had a point, but I missed her so much.

"Sure, if that's what you want" He replied. Jasper would to anything for me. Anything. And I would do the same, even if it meant that I would have to die for him to live.

"Good. When're we leaving?" I asked. We wasn't supposed to be here in Port Angeles, it was way to close to Bella according to Edward. It was totally forbidden. The closest we were allowed to visit was in Montana. Before it was in North Dakota, but we talked him in to there was no way she would even leave Washington. But we still think hes exaggerating.

Carlisle and Esme are the only ones who followes Edward rule.

"A week from now?" Jazz asked

Suddenly we heard a loud gasp behind us (probably 60 meters) and just as we turned our heads just a centimeter so the wind could blow in too our faces and in to through our nostrils. We knew exactly who it was.

"A..Alice, Jasper?" She whisperd

"What are we going to do?" I murmured

"Get her to sleep" He replied, not taking his eyes from her. He was just as surprised as I was.

Bella's grey hoodie was already soaken wet from her tears and I just wanted to run to her and beg for forgivness. I would beg for her to forgive me for a million years. And I wouldn't stop. She means to much for me.

She started to walk towards us, very slow and the next second she collapsed by Jaspers sleep feeling. I immediatley ran to catch her before she hit the ground. Thankfully nobody was there to see my inhuman speed.

She was totally unreconizable. Her pale skin with her rose red cheeks was completly white. Her brown, healthy, shiny hair had totally lost it's glow and luster.

Her clothing was, without words… Trashes. The bottom of her tee was ripped apart. She didn't care about how she looked. She didn't care bout anything anymore. She was a wreck, and we didn't know that beacuse we wasn't allowed to visit her.

"We have to take her home" I whisperd when Jasper had come up to me and the now sleeping Bella.

"I know" He murmured. Jasper continued to look at her. "She look so different. I can't reconize her. Her body, face, hair, lips, eyes. Her personality has totally changed. The color of her hoodie match her personality perfectly now. Grey. Before we left her, I could always feel that she was happy. She was always happy when Edward was around. But now everything is gone. All her emotions. Blank. Gone. Like somebody has sucked her soul out".

"We all have" I reminded him.

"Here let me take her, and you could go call Edward"

" 'kay" I replied as I handed her over to Jasper.

I took up my cell and pressed 1 for Edward as I was heading for some space to speak alone. It took three seconds before he answered.

"Hi Alice" I heard Edward's sad voice. He was always unhappy nowdays and we all knew why

"Hi Ed" I replied, not quite sure of how I would say it. But it didn't really matter because he would be furious at any rate.

"Jasper and I thought that you would like to know that we have met Bella" I said quiet.

He didn't answer for a few seconds.

"You've WHAT?" He growled. I knew what he would ask; How could I be this irresponsible?

I knew him to good.

"It wasn't my fault. Jasper and I are in Port Angels. We wanted to be as close to Forks as possible beacuse we miss it too much, but we didn't want to go to Forks if somebody would see us. And now it seemed that we had the bad luck on our side anyway and Bella just happend to be here." I defended myself and Jasper.

"Where's Bella and Jasper now?"

"Jasper is taking care of Bella. Which you never did" I comment, but he growled louder now.

"You know it was beacuse of her safety and health!"

"Guess what, she is in worse condition then you can ever imagin. You did more damage then good Edward. Ever thouht of that?"

He didn't replied.

"I thought so"

"You're just exaggerating" He whisperd after a moment

"No"

He didn't want to talk about it anymore. "Is she asleep?"

"What do you think?" I replied annoyed. He didn't deserve any good behaviour from anybody right now, not since the last six months either.

"Just take her home, without her to wake up" He begged

"We are already working on that. Bye"

He hung up the phone and I started to walk back to Jasper in normal speed. Human speed.

"Was he mad?" He asked when I was with him again.

"Very"

"Shit. He will never forgive me for this"

"Me neither" I said as I looked him in his eyes. "Let's take her home, but keep her sleep going"

He nodded.

Jasper and I ran back to Forks. He carried Bella in his arms. Carfully not to wake her up.

When we arrived we layed Bella done outside the front door and took a last look at her before we rang on the door bell. It was just like when kids used to rang on doors and run away.

Jasper and I took a last look of the broken Bella we would now remember, instead of a happy Bella but with a bloody cut on her arm. I prefer my last memory of her.

A minute after I gave her a kiss on her cheek and Jasper rang on the door.

We ran in to the woods so we could see Charlie open the door and find his daughter on the grund, asleep. Before he would wake her up beacuse of his yelling, he held his hand over his mouth and carried her in to the house and up to her rom. He was shocked.

And that was it.

"I guess we better get going rigth away" I said to Jasper. Our eyes still locked on the Swan's house.

"I think that's the best now"

I turned around and let him comfort me as I fell in his arms, sobbing for the loss of my best friend once agian. My tearless crying never ended until he kissed me passionate. His soft lips curved around mine. They were everywhere. One my cheeks, my nose, my neck, but mostly my lips.

But after a while we had left Forks behind us for the second time in less than a year and was heading to the north.

BPOV

I heard somebody knock on my door. I didn't understand that I was at home before I heard Charlie's voice.

"You're awake?" He asked with his morning voice.

"Yeah" I croaked.

He opened my door a little to see that I really was awake.

"Do you have any idéa how worried I was last night?"

"I'm sorry" I whisperd while I braided my hair up in a hole in my duvet. I sat up now in my bed

"Where were you?"

"Port Angeles" I said

"How did you get home?"

I hadn't got a chancce to think of it. I didn't remember.

"I was to tired to drive home, so I took a cab" I lied, but he seemed to belive me by the fact that my truck wasn't there it should be.

"You could have just called you know. I would have picked you up"

Okay, he definatley belived it. "I know, but I was too upset and weren't you sleeping?"

"Without knowing where you are? Wouldn't think so hun" He said with his warm eyes.

I knew that he had already forgived me for my disapperance, but I hadn't forgived Renée's and Charlie's propose abort me getting a psychologist. But I would handle that later.

"Could I have som privacy, I think I would need a shower to clear my head" I excused myself.

"Of course" He said, and he was out of my rom in no time.

I took some clean clothes with me before I went to the bathroom.

I dragged myself all the way with big, slow steps.

I brushed my hair and undressed myself for the shower, turned on the heat. Almost the hottest, and just stood there and let the water stream down from my head and down my body.

Eventully I stept out and took double towels. One I wrapped around my body and one around my hair, so my hair wouldn't drop water everywhere I went. I got myself dressed. My old sweats and a black tee. I let my hair fall down on my back and brushed it violent for the second time to day.

I rememberd Alice and Jasper on the log. But suddenly I was here.

I could remember the anger and frustration I had felt. The sadness and disappointment. The feeling that I could breathe again after so many months of lonlyness.

Hot wet tears had been streaking down my cheeks again before they had even turned their heads. I had been crying a lot recently.

The other emotion I had felt was sleepy.

Were they back? Could my bad luck really turn in to something good? Would they be back one after one? Would Edward come back?

Of course not. Beacuse a second later Charlie had knocked on my door and I was awake.

Jasper must have get me to sleep so they could get me home, without me asking any questions or so I would miss them even more. But that was already done. I started to miss them even more as quick as I saw them, so it didn't matter if I spoke to them. I would still miss them as much as when I saw them.

Suddenly I rememberd that I didn't know what date it was. Or, I did not remeber the date. Same thing.

I flipped my phone open. April 11th.

Of course. I had been out for three weeks.

More and more memories came back I was Jacob's biggest love, we had been discussing our realationship compared to Edward's and mine, if they were anyway so I could contact them. Now I rememberd the most imortant memory.

Carlisle had contacted me.

I went straight to my bedroom and started my computer.

I was too nervous to pass the time while my computer started. I did not dare to get up before I knew what he wanted. But it was a huge chance that I would be more nervous and terrified when I knew what he wanted.

I opened my inbox and clicked on the email without looking on the name 'cuase I knew that it would cause more pain and that would really set me of and I would probably past out again.

I took a deep breathe before I scrolled down to the beginning of the mail.

I wasn't sure if I could handle this. Had I the guts to do this? Would I scream out loud or sit frozen, not being able to move or speak? I would soon have the answer on that.

What if it was something important. Something that would give me some info about why Alice and Jasper were in Port Angels last night? Maybey it was something about Edward.

I had to know.

`Dear Bella

I understand if hate me or my whole familj. I understand if you don't want to read this. You maybey even don't read this. You maybey have already deleted this. But if you haven't I want you too kow that all of us are deeply sorry for what we have done to you. We all miss you too much. Emmett, Rosalie, Esme and I have talked about contacting you for a whilee now. But we didn't know if it would upset you further or make it better. Alice and Jasper haven't been with us since Januray so they don't know anything. It's the same with Edward. He hasn't been with us since we left.

Bella, my family is breaking apart slowly. Part after part.

We still haven't made a decion if we should contact you or not. But I'm going crazy and you are the only one who I know that can save my family. The others don't know. Espacially not Edward.

I can't tell you where we are. It's to dangerous for you.

I know we have hurt you deeply and it can never be forgiven -I understand that but I'm begging you Bella. Help me…´

I read the it four times before I got it. He wanted me to help him to save his family. Good to finally know that I didn't was a part of that. Or he had already counted me in it without saying it. ``My family is breaking apart slowly. Part after part. ´´.

Maybey I was the first to go, Edward the second and now Alice and Jasper?

It was my fault in a way but it wasn't my fault in a other way. They left me, so I didn't need to save them. It was there decison to leave so they brought the pain to themselves, and me.. But I wanted to beacuse I loved them too much.

But it was they who left me, so why would I help. It was like I would give them something in return? They leave me and I would give them something in return? That's just crazy.

But I love them to much. I honestly don't know what to do, and I really couldn't decide now. But I thought it was the best to reply.

When I was about to write back my fingers froze on my keyboard. What would I say?

Could I just say that I didn't know if I wanted to help them? But if I decided to help them, how the hell would I do?

`Carlisle.

I don't hate you. I just don't understand why you left. Was Edward tired of me? Were you guys tired of me? Is it hard for Jasper for me to be around? For Rosalie?

Or was it something else?

I miss you too. More then you could ever imagin. But I'm sorry to say this Carlisle. I don't know if I can help you. If I want to help you. I ain't Bella anymore. I'm just a girl without a reason to live. As long I ain't myself anymore I can't see how I could possible be a help, I would probably be more of a burden.

Don't write until I know how I will do. I need space and time to think. You left me bleeding, Carlisle. And I'm still bleeding and it will never stop. Even if you came back. Right now it's like a huge hole inside me and blood are running out all the time. But if you came back it would be a little hole. But it will always be blood. You left me alone, without somebody to talk to. To love. The only emotions I have left is hate, lonlyness, disappointment, anger, sadness, confusion, frustration and fear. But the emotion I feel the most is that I miss somebody. But I even don't know if he miss me. Do you know how that feels for me? Not to know if the love of your life is missing you or really hates you?

He hasn't contacted me for six months and I have started to doubt on the first one.

So why live? I'm deeply hurt.

Remind: Don't write until I know how I will do. I will contact when I know. Right now, I just need to collect my thoughts and to be alone. Until then. Have a good life.

-Bella´

I didn't say anything about I had met Alice and Jasper beacuase I didn't want him to be worring for nothing. So I sent the mail and went back to bed and started crying over the biggest loss of my life. My new life, my new family, my love of forever.

I switched clothes and went down to take a snack. I was so hungry. I made a omlett. I was to tired to do anything. So I kept it simple.

Two eggs and milk, mix it together. Put it in the pan. Wait until it's soild. I wanted ham and cheese today instead of veggies.

When I was done eating I suddenly felt the need to talk somebody and since Jake had promise to stand up for me if I ever needed to talk I called him.

"Jake?" I asked when somebody he picked up the phone.

"Bella!" He yelled. He was obviosluy happy that I took the time to call my favourite werewolf.

"How you doing?" He continued, he couldn't stop the happines.

"Well, that's why I called. I could need somebody to talk to. Something has happend" I replied

"What´ve happend?" He asked without hesatating of what it might be.

"It would be better if we could talk face to face. I need to show you something too"

"Okay. My place or ours?"

"Mine, if that's okay. Charlie isn't home either."

"Okay, I'll be there in ten. See ya soon"

"See ya." And then we both hung up the phone.

I started to dish while he was on his was here. I was just done when he rang on the door.

"Come in!" I yelled as I wiped my hands dry.

Just as I was about to turn to greet him, I was caught up in his arms and he turned me against him himself and hugged me tightly.

"What the fuck has happend Bella? Tell me everything."

"Okay, follow me" I said, tryning to break loose. He got it and put me down.

We walked up in to my room and sat on my bed. I curled my legs up to my chest while he sat on the bottom of my bed.

"Okay, let's start from the beginning. Do not interrupt me" I warned him. I didn't wait for a answer, instead I took a deep breath.

"Do you remember when we talked about to contact the Cullens?" I asked

He nodded.

"You said that I could email Alice, since I had here email adress"

He continued to nod.

"Well, now somebody has contacted me." I let him catch his breath before I said something else.

"What? Who? When? How? Phone? Email? Visiting?" He was almost more shocked then I was when I saw the mail. Almost.

"Calm down Jake. You're going to have a heartattack if you don't breathe soon."

I answered his questions, question after question the same way he had asked them.

"Yep. Carlisle. Before I past out. Email."

"Wow" He breathed

"Don't tell anybody, but that's the reson I past out."

The size of his eyes seemed to get bigger and bigger each time I told him something. Maybey they were.

"So you got contacted by Carlisle, by email, and you past out?" He asked

"Yep, and then I woke up in the hospital - three weeks later"

Three weeks. I had totally forgot. March 19. I layed down on the side on my bed and started to cry. The tears wouldn't stop. This was the second time in less than a week that Jacob saw me this weak. I was a mess.

Jacob pushed me a little to the side so he could lay down next to me since I had taken up all the space. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to him.

"Bella, what is it?" He asked desperate.

I didn't answer. I know I needed to cry a bit.

"Bella, please. I hate to see you cry. Hate to see you suffering. Please tell me what it is so I can take the pain away. He started to rub my arm up and down"

"You can't" I whisperd

There was a paus before he said something. I could feel his heart race faster as the anger in side him got bigger and bigger.

"The Cullens" He finally said with disgust.

"No Jake, you got it wrong" I knew what he thought. He thought I cried 'cuase I missed them to much. But it wasn't that. "You will probably laugh now" In some strange way my voice held it's tone.

"I would never laugh at something that makes you cry, Bella" He whisperd in my ear. I was used to feel a cold, almost ice cold breathe. But his was warm.

"I layed in...Edward...I missed.." I tried to come up with the best idéa to say this "Edward and I met for the first time March 19th." I breathed.

"So?" He didn't understand.

"I layed in shock for three weeks Jacob!" I yelled. I sat up now, looking at him.

"I missed the date Jake, it's April now." I whisperd as I played with my finger in my quilt.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't know. Belive me if I could bring March back, I would"

I belived him. He would do that. Becuase he loved me.

"It feels like I'm letting him down. I even don't know if he cares abort me anymore"

"I know he does" Jake said, he sat behind me now and rocked me forward and backwards.

"Let's not talk about that anymore, it's the past. I'll just have to wait until next year" I tried to say with humor, but I failed miserable.

"Ya sure?" He said

"Absolutley" I tried to smile, but he saw right through me.

"Bells-" He began but I interrupt him.

"I'm okay Jake, honestly. I wasn't finsished anyway. There's more"

"Okay, keep talking" He was still sitting behind me.

"After I got home from the hospital I called Renée and Charlie walked in and they started to talk about I needed to see a psychologist, but I of course refused and went to Port Angeles straight away and hanged out there for a while and when I was on my way home I.. I saw.."

"What did you see Bella? Please.." He was desperate now.

"I saw Jasper and Alice" I whisperd looking in to his eyes.

"And you didn't call me? I would have ripped there heads of" He growled

"That wasn't the first thing that plopped up in to my head, and if I knew you would do that I would never have called you anyway. And you shouldn't beacuse they helped me home." I finished

"How?" He still growled

"As fast as they saw me, Jasper got me to sleep and I guess they carried me home. How else would I get home?"

"Your car, you did drive to Port Angeles, right?"

"Oh fuck! It's still there. I don't want to know how much the ticket is on."

"We'll get it home"

"Hope so" I replied

"Hey, you said you had got a email from Carlisle" He continued

"Yeah, wanna see?"

He nodded enthusiastucally.

After I had showed him what Carlisle had said he was stunned. He didn't say anything.

Before I snapt with my fingers infront of his eyes. Then he woke up, but he didn't react to my "wake-up-call".

"HOW THE HELL DOES HE HAVE THE GUTS TO ASK YOU FOR HELP WHEN IT WAS THEY WHO LEFT YOU? He roared. This wasn't a pretty sight.

"Jake, calm down. I even don't know if I want to help them. I'm thinking the same way as you."

I think it made him feel a little better beacuse the yelling had stopped. It was a good thing Charlie worked on the day, or else he would storm in to my rom with a loaded gun.

"I'm going to kill them when I see them. And if they don't show up, I will" He said. Still angry. But I could swear I saw his eyes burn. Literally. It wouldn't surprise me if they did. 'Cuase when you have been through all the things I have, the word `impossible´ dosen't excist.

We continued to talk until Charlie came home. We both thought it would be better if we continued this conversation another time when we could be alone, so we wouldn't caught ourself while saying something like vampire, werewolf or powers that Charlie might hear.

The only thing that was on my mind for the rest of the week was about if I would help the Cullens, or let them handle it themselves. One part of me wanted to help them, when the other part of me wanted the other thing.

I was being ripped in to two different parts.

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