Chapter 4

Depart Love

Bella's POV

Why did I want her alive? All she had done was cause me pain, suffering, near death… and pleasure. To much pleasure. Was that the reason to keep her alive? Pleasure?

"Why Bella?" Edward asked. "Let me kill her." He growled, showing a side of him I'd never seen.

"Edward, don't." I whispered.

His shoulders dropped. "Why?" he suddenly looked hurt.

I frowned and took a deep breath. Could I tell him? Did I have the guts to tell him the truth? And could he handle it? I took another deep breath, then looked him straight in the eyes.

"I love her."

Edward's POV

I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her.

I thousand times the words repeated. She was in love with Jane. My enemy, her enemy, the one that had caused me such pain she yelled. My reason for existence was in love with someone else. In that moment, I felt my dead heart being ripped out of me and thrown on the floor, then stomped on and stabbed a million times.

My stomach was heavy, and I suddenly found it hard to keep my eyes open, and to breath.

"Cruel." I muttered, breathless, my head dropping.

"Edward." Her voice was soft and worried.

"Cruel." I repeated, now smiling with anger.

"Please, Edward." She tried, like she was sorry. Please, she'd just killed me… in a sense….

"You can't do anything now." I said, looking at her again.

"Edward-"

"No!" I said, cutting her off. "You love Jane. What do you need me for?"

"Edward I-"

"No!" I said again. "I can't be with you like this." I took a step back. "Find me when you love me again." And with that, I jumped out of the window and ran away in a flash. My steps were heavy, and I felt like I wasn't getting anywhere. I kept running, just staring ahead into the darkness.

I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her. I love her.

The words repeated again. I took a deep breath and wondered if I could cry. I felt how empty my stomach was now, as if a piece of my was missing. Bella was already gone. The idea made me stiff, and I suddenly knew what needed to happen.

"I love you Bella." I said aloud, fighting off the wind. "No matter what, I'll always love you." I took a deep breath and found myself fighting back tears. "I'll miss you… in hell." I then took a sharp turn towards in my track, leaving behind Forks, and heading towards Italy.

Bella's POV

I sat frozen on my bed. What had I done? I felt my tears fall and hit the bed. I didn't bother to wipe them away. I felt Jane watching me, and felt my heart being slowly ripped out of me. What had I done?

"Bella?" I heard her voice slowly say.

I snapped my head at her in rage. "Damn it Jane!" I yelled. "Why-you-I-UGH!" I threw my hands in the air, then fell on my back. I stared though my tears at the ceiling. "I can't live without." I said breathless. "Not again. Please." She didn't move, but I felt her watching me. She wouldn't help, she doesn't care.

"Bella." She whispered finally. I sat up a bit and looked at her. Her soft, pale face suddenly looked dark and upset. Her eyes were planted on the floor and she stood awkwardly, leaning forward slightly yet keeping her distance. "I'm sorry."

"What?"

"Don't make me say it again!" she said, suddenly sounding scared. A odd feeling hit me, I felt sorry for her. What was going on?

"I just… I don't know. Why do I care for you?" she seemed to wonder aloud. "All I wanted was your pain, but this has turned into something else…" she trailed off. I watched her closely, making her continue. "You said it, you love me." She shifted her weight awkwardly. "And I feel it. I understand what love is, Bella." She smirked at herself. "The only love I've ever felt was for Alec and Aro. Alec as my brother, and Aro as my master." She chuckled and finally looked at me. "But my love for you is different. It's a strong, burning love deep inside me. I can't explain it, but I just want to be near you. Talk to you. I don't just want your pain. I was your pleasure, and the pleasure of being with you."

Her words had shocked me, and my actions shocked me even more. I climbed out of bed and walked over to the little vampire. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her on her full lips. The kiss didn't last long, but it made it's point: We were madly in love with each other.

A/N:

Sorry it's kind of short, but it made it's point… Please review for more…?