Thanks for reading the first chapter….I hope you enjoyed it. =) Well onto the story.
I can't stay still, when are they coming home? They should be here by now, they're going to freak out when I tell them what happened. I sure moms going to cry and dads going to be a little teary eyed. I'm sure they'll be happy for me.
I can't wait any long I have to tell someone, but who?
Then I remember I don't have any friends at all.
Because I didn't want to hurt anyone and most of the kids at school were weird and rude.
Like Mike, he was always after me. He never let me live my life without him asking me out.
Or Jessica the only reason she was with me was to get gossip about the Cullen's and Hales. Just saying the names turn my stomach I still love them very much.
Angela was very nice to, but she ditched me after I left them. No, one understands why I left them. They just wouldn't understand if I told them.
No, one would understand, they only would if they had cancer to.
I probably seem like the jerkiest person in the world to them, but I did what was the best for them and me.
And I don't regret it.
I may be sad I don't have them by my side, but I would have been worse if they were next to me through all the treatment and pain.
They have probably moved on, I haven't and that's why I'm going to a college where I can live a life without them.
To start over.
That's what I need to do to live my new life, my very sad life. I'm still trying to recover from all that chemotherapy, trying to look healthy again.
I'm sure I don't look so health in other people's eyes, but I look better than I did before.
I turn around at the sound of the door bell.
"Mom, Dad?" I walked over to the door, opening it.
It's Frank one of Dads men and the pastor from the church down the street. And Carlisle, just seeing him brings back memories. He looks so sad.
My heart falls. No. I whisper in my head.
"Bella can we come in?" Franks ask. I nod weakly.
They come into my house, sitting down next to me.
"Bella your mom and dad were in an accident." Tears started falling down my face.
I shake my head not believing it.
"Bella I'm sorry we lost them. I tried all I could do, but it was so bad." Carlisle says. I put my head in my hands.
I can feel tears pouring down my face.
Someone comes and sits next to me, I know who it is because he gave me so many hugs before and after my treatments.
Carlisle held me tight in his arms.
"Guys I got it from here." Carlisle says. I look up to see the guys giving me a questionable looks. They were trying to ask me if that was okay. I just nodded weakly.
My tears began to pour more and more down my face. I start to lose my breath.
They're really gone.
"Bella, I'm sorry." Carlisle says in a whisper.
"I know."
"Bella you welcome to come and stay with Esme and our children." My heart got weaker.
"I don't think I'd be that welcome." I whisper through my sobs.
"Bella honey your always welcome."
"It's okay Carlisle I'm fine here."
"Okay, please call us if you need anything." I know he didn't want to leave me, I just bet he doesn't know what to do to help me out.
"Okay." He gets up to walk over to the door.
"Goodbye." He moves over and kisses my forehead.
"Goodbye sweet heart. Please I want you to call us for anything." He says, moving away. I nod.
He walks out the door, as soon as it was closed I fell to the floor, breathing for life.
(Days later)
It's been three days since my parent's death, I haven't moved from the floor. People have been coming to my door, telling me to let them in.
I just don't have the strength to let them see me this way.
The door rang today, I could hear the voice I once call mom. Well Cullen mom.
"Bella sweetie let me in, please." I did as she said. I open the door from the floor. She walks in, she looks at me with sadness on her face.
"Oh Bella honey, come let me get you up from there." She moves over to my side and helps me up.
"Let's get you cleaned up." She says when I was in her arms.
She helps my take a shower, clean the house. And then she asks me the one question I didn't want to answer.
"Bella would you like me to help with the funeral?" I burst into tears.
"I'm sorry." She comes over and hugs me.
"Bella we need to start the plans we can't wait a long time."
"Okay."
After all the plans were made, I cried myself to sleep.
(Two days later)
Today was the day, where I would put my parents in the ground.
Esme came over to help me get dressed. Black of all the colors. That's how I feel black.
Everything is now black to me.
My parents where the only ones I had anymore. And now their gone forever.
Esme drove me to where my parent funeral is being held.
My heart stops when I saw my once called family.
Edward in all his beauties, Alice and Jasper. Emmett and Rose. Then Carlisle, he comes over to my side of the car, he opens my door and helps me out. He pulls me into a hug, I start to cry into his shoulder.
"I'm so sorry Bella."
"Me too." He lets me go and helps me walk into the building were my parents will be seen. I can see Alice, Rosalie, Jasper, Emmett and Edward looking at me with sad faces. I look away from them. Carlisle walks with me, he takes me into one of the room, I see my parent's bodies, lay in the caskets. I walk over to them. I look at the peaceful faces.
I start to break down. I touch my Mother's hand, cold and hard. I couldn't help it, I fall to the floor, putting my head into my arms.
"No, why does all this bad stuff happen to me." I yell into my hands. "Is this my fault?" I ask up into the air. "Why did you do this to me?" I scream to the sky.
I get up and run outside, I need air. When I ran out if the room, I past Edward and Jasper and the rest of them. I could see all of them with pained faces.
I run to the little table, falling to the floor, holding onto my stomach, for my life.
Then I feel something run down my face. It's raining. I look up into the sky rain falling down my face.
"Why! Why me! Why." I whisper the last part.
"Bella it's not your fault." I look over to see Jasper looking down at me.
"But it is I hurt everyone I love."
"Bella honey it's not your fault they died." He walks over to me. He sits next to me on the floor, putting his arms around me.
"I hurt everyone." I cry into his shoulder. His warm body holds on tight to me. Oh how I've missed his hugs, his love. How I miss his words of comfort.
"Oh Bella." He whispers, he picks me up from the ground. He moves over to the table, sitting down with me in his lap.
"I've missed you Jasper."
"I know, I have to. Well you be my little sister again?" I nod into his shirt.
"Good."
"I know this doesn't change all the things I have done to you, thank you for forgiving me...we should get back in there." I say to him. I don't understand how he can just ask me to be his sister again, after all the things I have done to him, all the pain I have thrown at him in the past few years. I don't understand him, he has always known my feelings and he has always been the one I talked to more than Edward. I don't understand him.
"Let's go." He helped me stand then stands next to me.
"You can go back to Alice now." I smile weakly once we get in there. He nods, and walks off. I go and walk over to where my seat is, all wet. I start to shiver. Esme saw me shivering and walks away to get me a blanket. When she comes back I thank her.
Wrapping the blanket around my cold body.
"Isabella will you come and say some words for your parents." I move up there slowly. When I got there I look at my hands.
"My parents were the rock through this hard life off mine, I wouldn't be here without them. Through my cancer, there were some problems, I didn't heal as was expected, and my parents were the ones trying to help me with it all. There were everything to me, and now their gone, and I'm alone. I loved them with all my heart." I look down tears falling. Out of breath.
"I'll miss them very much, without them I'm nothing, but weak. How am I going to live in this world alone? For I have nothing to live for. Nothing at all, if I knew there were going to die I wouldn't have gone through all that treatment against my cancer, because I would be with them right now. I've hurt so many people in my life, I don't know if I could live anymore, for doing that." I look at my once called family, Rose and Alice where crying. Emmett looks like he is in pain.
"I'm sorry to my parents for making them leave everything to care for me, because I never disserved it. Good Bye." I whispered. I look at them for the last time. Then I walked out the door not coming back. I just looked ahead, not looking back. Tears running fast down my face, walking to the door, through the rain. Time to walk home, time to freeze, never look back...
(Well that was sad, please review what you think of this chapter)