(Well thank you all for the reviews. I know this stories pretty sad =( But it needs to be.)

I packed all my stuff as fast as I could. I can't let anyone get to me, I need to leave. They will want to talk to me about the stuff I said at the funeral, and I'm not sure I'm ready. I put all my stuff in my boxes, running back and forth making sure I got everything. I ran to my car, putting them in the trunk.

When all of my stuff was packed I locked up the house and ran, ran from everything, no looking back. I called the school earlier telling them I want to come to the school now, and if they had rooms ready for people. They said yes. I took all the money I have, and ran.

The school is about an hour away, they would never know where I went. I bet they won't even come looking for me.

As I drove I thought of what I promised Jasper, I would be his sister again. I took my phone out, looking through my contacts, his number still there. I pushed call. Nervous.

He picks up after the fifth ring.

"Hello?"

"Hello Jasper."

"Bella thank God, where are you? I'll come get you. Are you still walking?"

"Jasper I didn't want to hurt you again so that's why I'm calling."

"What are you talking about Bells?"

"I'm leaving."

"What where?" He was freaking out now.

"I can't tell you that. I'm sorry I need a fresh start and I can't get it here."

"Bella please, you know I love you, you can't just leave me hanging like this."

"I'll be fine Jasper, I promise. You can call me whenever you want, I can't promise I'm going to answer but you can call."

"Please." He was pleading.

"I'm sorry I have to go now."

"Bella, Bella, don't you dare hang up please." He was yelling, I didn't listen I just hung up.

The rest of the car ride was long, Jasper didn't stop calling my phone, or stop texting it. I ended up turning my phone off. He's going to have to live with the fact that I hurt people, it's not my fault I can't help it.

I drove for the rest of the way thinking about my life, the worst life ever. Then I saw it, the college I would be going to for a long time, with no friends. I will not make any friends here, I promised myself.

I'll just end up hurting them.

I look at my papers that tells me where my dorm is and were all my classes are. My dorm it number 209, I get all my bags out of my trunk. Walking over to the building where my dorm was, it was a boy/girl dorm building. I'm hoping my roommates are not here yet, school doesn't start for another two weeks.

I walk through the doors, walking down the halls. I reach my door and open it to see an empty room. Yeah that means I can pick whatever bed I want.

I ended up picking the one by the window, facing the school building. I put my purple bedding on, gift from my parents. My heart started hurting, breath. I sat on my bed wrapping my arms around my chest, so I can't feel the hole that's there, the one for all of my family.

I truly feel alone. I know, I chose that but still it hurts.

I lay on my bed trying to clear my head.

All I did this week was cry, thinking about my parents. I didn't meet anyone, I just eat and slept. When people would come up to me asking me who I was, I would just walk away. I know I'm probably a really jerky person here, but I can't hurt them to, I just really need to live in a bubble from the world, a bubble full of pain.

I thought I came here to start again but it's so hard.

I finally turned my phone on, and there are over one hundred voice mails. I guess leaving you phone off for that long can really do that. Most of them were from Jasper, than there was some from Charlie's friend Billy Black. I can't talk to him, he would bring to much sadness to my heart.

I told myself it's time to call Jasper.

I call his phone.

"Bella?" his voice sound upset.

"Yes."

"I've been looking for you everywhere I thought you were dead somewhere on the side of the road."

"Sorry."

"Bella are you okay? Are you safe?"

"Yes I'm safe."

"But are you okay?"

"Not fully no." He sighs.

"I wish you would tell me where you are."

"I know, but I can't."

"Please Bells I want to help you through this."

"No, one can Jasper."

"Let me try."

"I don't want the rest of them feeling sorry for me, they could probably care less."

"Bella you don't know that." He says softly.

"I hurt all of you, why don't you hate me like they do?" I ask.

"Because you're my little sister and I'm going to help you through this."

"You should hate me." I said simply.

"I can't hate you." I heard someone in the background. "Give me the phone Jasper." I think it's Esme.

"Bella honey come home to us." Esme says softly.

"I can't." My heart is aching now.

"Bella tell us where you are and well come and get you."

"I got to go." This needs to stop I'm not coming back, if I keep talking to them then I'm going to want to come back and I can't.

"Bella don't hang up."

"This is the last time you will hear from me. I'm sorry I can't do this anymore."

"Bella don't hurt yourself." Esme says sounding like she's crying.

"I'm not going to kill myself." How could she think I would?

"Bye." I hung up quickly bursting into tears.

(JPOV)

Bella just hung up, Esme is in tear, and I took her into my arms. Can't Bella just stay with us? I still love her as my sister and I feel so much pain for her to be this way.

Seeing her at her parent's funeral broke my heart, her crying on stage, and then she just leaves. All of us frozen there, staring at the door. I ran out after her but she was gone.

I drove all over town looking for her. I couldn't find her. She calls me telling me she's leaving, what am I going to do.

I see that she is in so much pain and I can't do anything about it.

She calls again tell us this is the last time will hear from her. I've had too much of this.

I let go of Esme running out the door, I'm going to her house and I'm looking around for any sign of where she went.

I drove as fast as I can push my car. I can't believe everyone else is perfectly fine with Bella just running off.

Their all mess up.

Bella needs are help and there living in the past.

I know why she did it, she didn't want to hurt us. She did hurt us, but the hurt was a lot better than her dying on us.

Edward, Alice, Rose and Emmett (Even know Emmett wants to help me, but can't because of Rose) are being idiots.

Bella could be hurting herself for all we know.

I got to Bella's house and ran to the porch. Got the key out and opened the door.

I ran into the kitchen, looking for signs for anything.

After awhile I found a paper, and smiled. Well I don't have to wait long to see her.

I ran home, I guess I'll wait a week or two. Got you now Bells. I thought.

Well that was crazy. How'd you like it or hate it. Review on what you think, and be nice to me.