Hey y'all thanks for the wonderful reviews! So I'm like really in love with 'owl city', who else likes them?

Enjoy this new chapter please tell me what you think.

Oh and question, what kind of theme should I have for my birthday? (Not twilight. =( it make me sad to) My friends don't like twilight (I know crazy, but I'm not going to make them like it =) Well if you have any Idea please tell me =)

I woke up in some room, then I remember that I slept in the lounge room. I had this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, like something is going happen. I don't know what is, I just feel weird. Like my life is going to change, it doesn't feel like when I got cancer. I don't feel tired, sick, I can breathe. I just feel like something is going to happen and I don't know if it's bad or good.

I get up from the couch in pain, for me it hurts to sleep on the couch. I look around to see people staring at me, what have they never seen a girl sleeping on a couch before?

"There's nothing to see here on your go!" Well I didn't say that, I was surprised to who did say it. He hates me why is he helping me?

I look at him confused.

"Umm thanks Edward." I said, I didn't know what he want from me, yesterday he's sending me hateful looks, and now his helping me. What is with him? I will never understand guys, I truly will never understood Edward, for he is the guy I love. Even if he hates me.

"Yeah." His voice still has that hate in it, he walks away. I'm so confused.

Well I need to change, what it's about six thirty. So if I'm quiet then I won't wake Rosalie and Alice. I stroll to my dorm, I'll get in and out without being seen. That all. I unlock the door quietly. When the door is open all the way, I see Alice sitting in her bed with a worried look on her face. When she sees me her face turns normal.

"Bella I was so worried!" She jumps up from her bed. What? Wait she hates me, this day is so confusing, are they all on some kind of mood meds or something.

"What?" She let me go quickly.

"Never mind." My gosh my heads going to blow.

"Okay, well let me get out of you way." I moved over to my dresser, and got some jeans and a blue blouse out. My under stuff too, just all the stuff I need. I walked back to the door.

"Bella wait..." I turned around.

"Yeah?" She looks around.

"Uh...you forgot you hair brush." It sounded like she wanted to say something else but she stopped herself.

"Hmm okay. Thanks...I guess." I closed the door.

After showering and all my girl like things, I was done, so I marched out of the bathroom, time for breakfast.

I walked into one of the eating areas and got in line. The line move way to slowly.

"Next." One of the girls said.

I smile.

"Can I get an egg sandwich and hash browns?"

"And I'll have two of those." I looked over to see Emmett and Jasper.

"Me too, but only one." The girl looks at me, she was confused.

I just nodded.

"You're going to pay me back." I told them. They smiled at me.

"Of course." They say at the same time, I laugh.

"Okay it will be out in a few." She says after I pay her. I looked over trying to find somewhere to eat. I walked, I stopped Emmett from coming.

"You're bringing the food." I ordered him.

"Man you scary." Jasper laughs at what Emmett said.

"You know it." I smile. Jasper puts his arm around my shoulder.

"How was the sleep with my girls?" He asks. I can't lie.

"I wouldn't know." I say sitting down.

"What?" His voice is puzzled.

"I slept on the couch in the lounge room."

"Bella!" I look up at him, he has a mad look on his face.

"You don't need to be doing that!"

"Yes, I do I have to let them have what peace they have left." I say closing the subject.

"Bella."

"No, I can do what I want, end of subject." I tell him. Emmett comes to the table with a grin.

"Whoa, who died?" His says this because Jasper and I are glaring at each other.

"Emmett-"

"Don't you dare." I cut him off.

"What is going on?" Emmett asks sitting next to me.

"Bella slept in the lounge room on the couch!" Jasper says before I could stop him. Emmett looks at me.

"What?" His voice is mad to.

"I didn't want them to hate being here because I'm here, they should have an awesome college year too. I don't want to be the one who ruins it for them to, I already have Edwards year. Why should I do it to them too?" I said, almost in tears.

"Hey...guys..." We look up to see Edward, Alice and Rosalie staring at us. I guess they heard everything I said.

I got up from my seat.

"I'm going to go."

"Bella you didn't even eat." Jasper says.

"I know, eat in peace." I moved away from the table.

(EPOV)

She left us there alone. I was just standing there in shock. I looked at Jasper and Emmett.

Did I really just hear her say she made my life here bad. Well I did say that myself.

Jasper glares down at the table.

I sit down.

"Wow she can't leave us alone can she. She probably just sat with you guys without even asking." Rose and her big head said.

"No, we sat with her, she pay for our food for us, because we kind of made her."

"Why in the heck our you hanging out with her?" Rose asks, you can hear the venom pouring out of her voice.

"Because Rose she's are sister!" Jasper says.

"Well I'm you blood related sister and you pick her over me!" She screams.

"Well at least she has a heart." He tells her.

"I told you not to pick me over them." I look up to see Bella standing there with tears in her eyes. Oh how my heart aches. They gasps.

"My gosh she even listens to our conversations too!" Rose is getting mad.

"No, I left my purse." She reaches over me. I stopped breathing.

"I'm sorry for killing your peace." She looks at Rose when she says this. Then she looks at Jasper and Emmett, her beautiful face turns to pain.

"If it helps you guys, I want you to stop talking to me, I told you not to pick me. Now leave me alone." She walks over, I can see her bring a sleeve up to her face, whipping away tears. My heart just starts to hurt. I look over at Emmett and Jasper, they look ready to cry as well.

"Well that's was a wonderful little act she has there! Why does she always have to play around with us." Rose says.

"I don't think she was playing." I say getting up, I'm trying not to break, why must Bella always do this to me? They look at me.

"You're on her side, the girl who broke your heart." Rose asks.

"No, but your head is turning to big and it going to pop at any moment and I don't want to be here to see it." She is so vain! I walk away quickly out the door.

Bella is going to kill me one day. I can't stand it, she's so selfless. She left me so I wouldn't get hurt, and she wants me to have the best year here. Well what about her, she doesn't seem to be enjoying herself. Maybe one day Rose will start being like her. Because all Rose cares about is herself. Bella is truly to good for me, but I will never forgive her, because I'm not a selfless person like her, I want myself to be happy. I don't want her in my life.

I think if I let her in, she'll leave me again.

My heart can't handle that.

(JPOV)

"Rose, you're so vain. Bella is trying to let you have a good year, even when she's here. Did you know she slept on a couch in the lounge room, so you would have a better year, everything she is doing is for you! And for us.

"She left us so we wouldn't be hurt when she dies, she thought that if she left then when we weren't so close it would be easier for us. But she doesn't understand the hold she has on us, she doesn't see herself clearly. And all you can think about is yourself, even when she's in pain to. You were probably thinking of yourself when she was having treatment. You need help Rose, and until you can learn to stop being a butt I'll talk to you again."

I look over at Alice.

"And as for you, I'll always love you and I hope you'll stay my girlfriend even if Rose and I are not talking." She smiles.

"Of course Jazzy!" She hugs me.

"Now I'm going to find Bella, and I'll let you guys think, because Rose, I would much rather have a sister like Bella who cares for people other than herself, and not one as vain as you." I get up, running out of the door.

I ran looking for Bella.

Oh how I hope I find her.

(BPOV) (Three hours after classes)

I got into my truck.

I have to see my parents.

I drove as fast as I could, I can't hold it anymore, I will cry when I'm there.

I make it in a few minutes, because I'm driving like crazy. I run to their grave. I fall to my knees, crying my heart out.

"Oh mom and dad how much I wish you were here to help me though this year, everyone hates me and I don't know what to do."

"Why did you have to leave me here alone, to face the world without you is so hard." I lay on their graves trying to feel them, I just cried my eyes out.

It started to rain on me and it was really cold outside maybe like in the thirties.

After awhile of sitting in the rain, I started to feel really cold, I sneezed. I got up and decided I should go to the ER. I hope Carlisle isn't still there.

I got in the car and drove to the hospital. I walked through the door, when the nurse saw me she gasped. I guess I look pretty bad.

"Get a wheel chair." She yelled. "Where's Dr. Cullen?" She yells, they bring out the wheel chair and make me sit.

She moves to the phone and turns it onto speakerphone, so that it is going down the hall into every room.

"Dr. Cullen, paging Dr. Cullen. Please hurry to the front desk." Her voice echoes through the halls.

A few seconds later I see Carlisle running down the hall. When he see me, he walks over to my side.

"Bella?"

"I'm fine really." I tried to say through my sour throat. I cough. He brings his hand up to my forehead.

"She burning up. Bella what where you doing."

"I was outside lay on my parent graves, crying my eyes out." I said out loud. DANG!

"You where? Can I ask why."

"Your family is breaking my heart." I told him softly, I don't have a father anymore, and he's the closes to it. He feels like a father to me.

"Bella do I need to call them?" His voice drifts off in the background. My world start going black.

"Bella...Bella...Bella..."His voice is gone now.

(CPOV)

After I got Bella under control and hooked up to an IV, I picked up my phone and call Edward.

"Hello?" His voice sounds upset.

"Son Bella's here in the hospital with me."

"What, is she okay? I'll get everyone else well be there in a few."

"Son-" He hung up. Well that wasn't what I wanted, and I thought Edward didn't like Bella anymore.

(EPOV)

"Jasper, Emmett, it's Bella she's at Dads hospital. Emmett go get the girls."

"Edwards what's wrong with her?" Jasper asks freaking out.

"I hung up before he could tell me."

"Edward!" Jasper and I got our coats and ran to our cars, meeting the girls.

"What's happening Edward?" Alice asks me.

"I don't know but we have to go to the hospital to help Bella." My heart was going crazy. What if the cancers back, I can't live with her not in the world.

We all jumped into my car, I speed down the road, trying to get to the hospital that's one hour away. It was getting later it was like almost eight now. Good thing it the weekend is tomorrow. That mean we won't miss anything.

I guess I'm trying to get the thought of Bella out of my head, just the thought of her lay in the bed alone sick. Her parents dead, and she thinks we hate her.

I can't bear the thought of her dying, as much as I couldn't before. I didn't want her to see me before, I was a mess. I would hide my pain for her and everyone else in my family. She didn't know how much I cared for her, how everything she did made me love her even more, even know, her smile still makes my heart jump. When I saw her crying in my brothers arms my heart couldn't help but ache for her to be happy. To think it's my fault. Seeing her face when I told her I didn't want her to be in the same school with me, I felt like a monster. Her face look so hurt, I wanted to just hit myself right then and there, I may have not seen it then but I know my heart is in so much pain, its aching for her. Her to touch me, just to look at me like she use to, to have her in my arms, to hold her to my body.

But I might not ever feel that again.

I turn into the hospital entrance.

We all jumped out of the car and ran to the entrance. Mom was waiting for us, she looks tired.

"Mom how's Bella?"

"We don't know yet honey."

"Well what happened?" Just when I asked Dad come out to the entrance.

"Edward we have her on an IV because we don't know what's happening, so were taking blood from her. And running test on her." Just when he says this his beeper goes off.

"Oh no." He runs down the hall. He runs into Bella's room. "Doctor she's going into cardiac arrest." The nurse screams. I look at my family.

Beepppppppppppppppppppp.

We sit there shocked.

She gone.

I fall to the floor, how could I have been so rude to her, I should have fought for her when she left me. I should have told her how much she meant to me.

Now I'll never have her in my arms again.

I'll never feel her lips to mine.

I start crying.

(RPOV)

No, she can't be gone, the last thing I did to her was yell at her. I loved her like a sister and now she's gone...

(JPOV)

She gone...

(APOV)

I could feel tears falling down my face...

(EMPOV)

WHY!

(ESMEPOV)

My dearest daughter is gone...

(EPOV)

NO, no, no, no, no, no, she can't be gone it's not true.

Is this some sick joke?

How will I live? She was my everything even when she thought I hated her.

She will never know how much I adored her.

Beep...Beep...Beep

I could hear the heart monitor starting back up.

HOW?

Beep...Beep...Beep

How could this be, she was gone.

Beep...Beep...Beep

She's really alive.

My love is alive.

Beep...Beep...Beep

Thank you God!

Carlisle comes out of her hospital room.

"Well she's a fighter." He say breathless. You could see sweat coming down his face.

"How?" Was all I could say.

"CPR." He tells me back. His sleeves are rolled up, he whips his sweat on his shirt.

"She was dead...Her heart stop all together. I tried all I could, her heart wouldn't start up...I was about to turn the monitor off, then her heart started back up, it's like she couldn't leave the world." He says still out of breath.

"Can I see her?" I couldn't handle being away from her any longer.

"Yes." He tells me. I walk slowly over to her room. I feel as if my family is following me.

"Let him go alone, he needs to do this." I can hear Alice telling them. For that I was thankful.

I moved closer to her room. I open the door to see my sweet Bella lay there not moving, the only thing that I was sure she was still alive was the monitor.

I sat down next to her. Taking her hand in mine.

"I'm sorry love." Was all I could get out at the moment. I felt tears fall down my face.

I breathed in.

"I should have forgiven you a long time ago. You could have died right now, and I wouldn't have been able to hold you in my arms or say how sorry I am for yelling at you.

"For hating you all those years, because you left me. I didn't know until I thought you were here dying that I can't live without you.

"Your my life, and will always be. What will I have to do to get you back in my life?" I couched back my tears. Bella's eyes open slowly.

"Edward?" Her soft voice goes through me like a knife.

I'm never leaving her again!

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