It's All The Same

Sequel to the "I don't want to be in Love"

A Four Brothers Fan Fiction

Disclaimer: I Do Not Own Anything from Four Brothers.

Author Note: Thanks to Lily Rose Redrider, Rooney276, Sweet-Romantic, prettypinkcrane, blackrosevine, and readerfreak 10 for the Reviews and also thanks to everyone still reading this.

Chapter 6:

I sat up quickly in my bed. I tried to even my breathing but I couldn't. Beads of sweat dripped down my face. I pulled my knees to my chest and sat in the darkness. I closed my eyes and rested my forehead on my knees. I looked at the clock and saw it was 12:57am. I couldn't take it anymore though… I just broke down and cried. I stood up from my bed and went to my door. I walked down the dark hall and reached Jackie's door. I wiped my eyes and sniffled. I opened the door softly and looked inside. Jack was on his side sound asleep. I walked inside and shut the door softly behind me.

I walked over to his bed and climbed into my usual space trying not to wake up Jack. He looked up slowly and I stopped where I was to look at him. He looked at the clock and looked back at me. "Come here." He moved the blankets and opened his arms. He understood. I went into his arms and cried into his shoulder. "I was so awful to him." I sobbed quietly. Jack stroked my hair to comfort me. He sang softly into my ear until he heard me calm down. He put his hand under my chin and made me look up at him.

"Regardless of what happened… You know he loves you even if he isn't here." Jack said and I nodded. He pulled me closer and kissed my forehead. He held me close as I remembered my nightmare…

I sat in my Dad's car looking out the window. I continued to ignore him. I wished I wasn't even in the car anymore. "Would you at least say something?" My dad asked. "What do you want me to say?!" I asked a bit harshly. "All this because I told you the truth?" My dad questioned. "Its not the truth dad! Derek loves me! He wants to be with me! I'm going to L.A. and we are going to be happy together whether you want us to be or not!" I argued. "He is using you! He's always making you pay for everything, he is rude, he bosses you around, and he has cheated on you twice. When will you open your eyes and see!" my dad began to get his stern tone. We pulled into the driveway and I slammed the car door angrily as I rushed out the car when it came to a stop. I went into the house. "Hello…"My mother stopped when she saw me angry and rush to my room. I heard my parents talking downstairs as I packed a suitcase with a lot of my things. "You're not going anywhere young lady!" My dad yelled from downstairs. "I'm 18! Watch me!" I yelled back and started down the stairs with my things. I kissed my mom goodbye and ignored my dad. I rushed out the door and waited for my cab to the airport. "If you go, don't think you are welcome in this family anymore!" My father yelled out of anger. I knew he didn't mean it…but it hit a nerve. "I don't want to be in a family where you are in it. You're always ruining my life! I hate you!" I yelled. My dad looked hurt but I ignored it and turned towards the street. I heard the front door shut and my cab soon came. I reached the airport and after a long plane ride, I was finally in L.A. I turned my phone back on and read that I had one new message. "Rayanne please, when you get this please call me…Its important." I wasn't going to call but my mom sounded really upset. I called her and she was crying. "Mom… Are you ok?" I asked. "Hun…Your Father is dead…."

I felt silent tears fall down my face as I lay in Jack's arms. "He was always right…" I said softly. Jack looked at me a little confused as I sat up. "Somehow… My dad was always right." I said and stood up to look out the window. I watched as the moon lit up the sky as light snow flakes covered the old layer of snow. Jack came behind me and Put his hands on my shoulders. "He was a good man and he loved you… He just wanted you to be happy." Jack whispered softly. I turned to face him and he wiped away a new fallen tear.

Our faces inched closer to each others. I saw Jack swallow and my heart beat quickened. Our lips collided as I wrapped my arms around his neck. It was as if we were in High School and in love. A new couple that believed they could overcome anything as long as they were together. With Jack… I believed that was true. Jack rested his forehead against mine as we broke apart. "I love you Jackie…"I said softer than a whisper, just as if we were in kindergarten and I didn't want anyone else to know. "I love you too Ray." He whispered back.

Jack pecked my lips a few times. I loved the feeling of his soft lips against mine. I didn't want it to end. Jack held onto me as if I'd run away if he didn't. "You have no idea how long I've wanted you in my arms for…" Jack murmured into my neck as he pecked it softly. "I think I do…" I said and smiled slightly. Jack put his hand on my face and stroked it gently with his thumb. His eyes connected with mine. "Are you ok?" He asked referring to my dream. "I'll be ok…" I answered honestly. He looked at me almost as if to try to read for any signs of me lying. He would know if I was because he could read me like a book. He nodded and pecked my lips again.

I held onto his wrists as he kept his hands on my face. He smiled down at me as I smiled up at him. "You should get some sleep." Jack whispered. I moved from his arms and crawled onto his bed. I got under the covers and made myself comfy. Jack slid in next to me and pulled the covers over both of us. I snuggled into Jack's chest as he wrapped his arm around my waist. "I'm glad I met you Jack." I said and I looked up at him. "I'm glad I met you too." Jack kissed my forehead.

Jack closed his eyes and pulled me to him closer. "I'm not going anywhere Jack." I said with a small laugh escaping my lips. He smiled and looked into my eyes. "I know." His voice was calm and promising. I pecked his lips softly. I snuggled into him with my head tucked in between his shoulder and head. It felt right where I was. I knew this is what I wanted. I felt safe and loved in Jack's arms.

Not like in Derek's arms. When I was with Derek… It was as if I was some trophy, something to show off to his buddies. I never felt safe, never felt loved. I was just content. I was afraid to be alone and Derek was there. I needed someone for comfort when my dad died, and that's all he was. I wished I realized that a long time ago. I should have listened to my dad. I knew my dad would have loved Jack. Even if he was trying to be a rock star… my dad would have known he'd love and take care of me.

"Jack…" I said softly. "Hmm" He replied. "Do you think… Do you think your mom would have liked me?" I asked and Jack shook his head no. I moved my head down looking away from him. He put his hand under my chin and made me look into his eyes. "She would have loved you." He said and I smiled. "She would have liked seeing me like this." He said and I smiled. "Where did you guys go after we searched the house? Sofi seemed pretty mad whenever you guys left. Oh yeah and thanks for letting me know." I said. "Sorry." Jack smiled. "Its alright, I don't really care." I answered.

"We went to that Lawyer's house. He lied about seeing our mom only once, found out they were dating. Sofi just kind of complicated things." Jack rolled his eyes. "Are you tired?" I asked. "Not really…" He said. I sat up and reached over Jack to turn on his lamp. He held me in place and wouldn't let me move. "Do we really need the chance of Bobby seeing us like this again?" I joked around making Jack smile. "I don't mind…" He said and pulled me into him, kissing me soft yet passionately.