This morning started just like any other day should except for the pouring rain that was affecting my mood-as usual. I combed my hair and took a quick bubblebath with the fragrance of freesias and now I'm finishing breakfast with Angela.
"Isabella?"
"Angela, I told you that I'd like to be called Bella." I said taking a bite out of my caramelized croissant.
"Sorry Isa- I mean Bella" a smile forming in her lips
"Have you seen Edward yesterday?"she said not meeting my eyes
"I see Edward everyday, and why would you ask?" barely a whisper I asked
"Oh, nothing it's just that Jessica..."she sqid looking away
"What about Jessica?"
"Promise not to tell?"
"I promise." I said pretending to zip my lips
"Jessica likes Edward"
A train of thought rushed into my head. Why does Jessica like Edward except for the the way he looks or talk or that cute little crooked smile he does after he knows he's in trouble... fine that answers it but is she mad at me because I was spending so much time with him? Is that why she didn't come this morning when I told my maid to invite her? I barely have friends and I don't want to lose anyone of them just because of a...misunderstanding?
"Does Jessica think I like Edward?"I asked hoping that the answer would be no even thought it's actually...
"I'm not really sure..."
"Why didn't Jessica come today?"
"Oh, she hasn't been feeling well since last week"Angela said wiping her mouth with her hand
"I hope she gets better."I said trying to ease of the tension
"I hope so to."
After we finished breakfast my governess,Carmen, asked Angela to go bakc to her chores because I need to start my lessons for the day which were: Reading, Language, Mathematics, History, Art and the rules of adequatte then me and Edward will play. It was like this everyday except for Sunday when me and my family had to go to mass first. My lessons were absolutely boring. I constantly ask Carmen why should a little girl like me have to learn so much, I'm just going to be a simple house wife when I grow up but she just smiles at me says that "I'm destined for so much more." then we continue our lessons. Blech.
"Gardez à partir des personnes qui essayent de déprécier vos ambitions. Les petites personnes font toujours cela, mais vraiment les grands te font la sensation qui vous, aussi, pouvez devenir grand" (Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great) Carmen said thoughtfully to herself
"What does that have to do with History?" I asked her completely confused in the change of subject
"Because my dear Isabella, you may not know this yet but you will become a great figure in France's history and I hope you remember this words and use the, to your advantage." her eyes filled with sincerity and admiraion that I can barely find myself to think it was a joke but still.
I giggled and told her "Oh, stop kidding around Carmen."
Suddenly I can find a hint of humour in her eyes and the corners of her mouth slowly turning into a small smile and just like that we continued on with my bearable lessons.
knock knock
I just finished my lessons on how to be proper and adequatte which required me to where small high shoes and required me to walk around my room with three books above my head, and now I was lying on my bed annoyed by whoever it was ouside my door.
"Entré" surprissed that I could actually manage a decent reply
In came Edward wearing his favorite brown trousers and a buttoned up white coat and a tearful expression on his face
"Edward,what's wrong?"I said sitting up completely alarmed
"Why are you asking me that?" he asked so emotionlessly that I flinched "You're the one who's moving"he said finally letting go of his tears.