Broken Spirit, Renewed!
By: BellaAlice4E!
Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Twilight or any of its characters. Those belong to Stephenie Meyer. I only use them to entertain myself and those who read my fanfic.
Chapter 7
She pulled me closer and held me tighter. I have never felt what I feel for her before for anyone. The kiss was phenomenal and I only pulled away because I could no longer breath. I never wanted it to end. It took me a moment but I finally was able to breathe again.
"Bella." she whispered.
I just stood there watching her expression. I kept wondering back to what he said about me being used and no one wanting me. I only hoped that it wasn't true. Her eyes didn't betray anything and I released her and turned to gather my things for my shower. As I turned away from her I felt her delicate hand grab my wrist. I stopped.
"Bella, please look at me." she said softly.
I turned to face her and could see the smile in her eyes. Her lips shared the sentiment and my heart jumped in my chest.
"Bella, I've wanted to do that for so long but I was afraid. You don't know how badly I've wanted to take you in my arms and kiss you. Even when I found you all I wanted to do was comfort you like a lover would. I wanted to hold you and kiss you and tell you everything would be alright. I settled for being your friend because I was afraid I would scare you away." she said slowly.
"Alice, I wanted to tell you. I was going to tell you when we went shopping. But then Edward changed everything."
I noticed when I said his name the anger that touched her eyes quickly. If I hadn't known her like I do, I would have been scared. I could tell she wanted to kill him. I reached out with my free hand and pulled her towards me.
"Alice, come back to me. He will get what he deserves. Please don't think about it. I'm here. I'm here with you. Please stay here with me." I said softly against her cheek.
"I know. I am. I am just so furious with him. I could kill him. He hurt you. He hurt YOU! He knew how I felt about you. I never would have thought he would ever hurt you. I am so sorry he hurt you Bella. I wish I could take it back. I should have stayed with you. You don't know how horrible I feel. My brother hurt you." she said as she started to cry. This was the first time I ever saw Alice cry. She had been made of stone the whole time. She was my rock and now she was crumbling.
"Oh Alice, it's not your fault. Please don't feel like that. Please listen to me, it's not your fault. He is a monster. You are not to blame." I said as I pulled her closer to me.
I wrapped my arms around her and held her. She wrapped her arms around me and I actually felt safe. I held her and we cried together. After we both cried I looked into her eyes and saw that he was wrong. I kissed her then. I kissed her like I wanted to kiss her every day I saw her at school or when we'd hang out. I kissed her like I kissed no one else. And she kissed me back.
She pulled away this time and pointed at the shower. I know what she was talking about so I walked over and turned on the water. She looked at me and smiled. Then she handed me my shower things and turned back to the door. She grabbed the door knob and looked over her shoulder at me.
"You need to shower because you're mother is out there and to be honest, I don't want this to be our first time. Not under these circumstances. Bella, I want to do this right when you are ready. I have to give you that much. You need it. I will be right outside this door waiting for you. I am not going anywhere. Okay." she smiled at me. I nodded. She opened the door and went back out into my room. I just stood there.
After a few moments, I removed my hospital gown and stepped into the shower. I washed my hair and then my body. After that I stood there under the warm water letting it wash away all the horrible things that have happened. If only it were that easy. I stood there thinking about Alice's soft lips against mine. Her hands on my back. Her body pressed into mine. It almost made all the bad go down the drain with the spent water. Why did this have to happen to me? I shook my head. I can't think like that. I need to be stronger. I will not be a victim. He will NOT win.
I stepped out of the shower and toweled off. I looked at my clothes and was glad Alice didn't get me anything showy. I just wanted jeans and a t-shirt. Something comfortable. I brushed my hair and looked at the bruises on my face. They were going to be there for a while. At lease the swelling around my eye has come down. I hate him. I will NEVER feel that kind of fear again. I will not allow it. He will not win.
I collected my belongings and opened the door. Alice was sitting on my bed talking to my mother. I glanced around the room and when I saw her in the doorway I was shocked. Esme looked at me with the saddest expression I think I have ever seen on her face. She rushed in and pulled me into her arms. She held me so tightly that at first I thought she was going to squeeze the life out of me. She was crying as she held me.
"Bella, I am so sorry honey. Carlisle told me. Do they know who did this to you?" she asked me as she pulled away from me. Alice walked over then and nodded to her mother. How was I suppose to tell Esme her own son did this?
"They are trying to find him now." Alice said for me. I felt her arm against the small of my back for support. I relaxed into it.
"I hope they catch the scumbag. I hope he suffers too. I know if Charlie were to catch him he'd be a dead man so it's probably good that he isn't out there." my mom said from the bed.
"Mom, please. I don't want to talk about this anymore. Have they brought my release papers by? I know I'm staying with the Cullens' but how am I getting there? Are we stopping by my house?"
"I already packed some of your things while I was there earlier and they're in the trunk of my car. I am driving you over. Your release papers are on the table there. They just need you to sign them since you're eighteen."
I turned to the paperwork and signed the lines with x's on them and left them sitting on the table. I turned back and picked up my bag. I looked at Alice and my mother. Esme just stood there. I don't think she knew what to do. Then I heard my father's voice coming down the hall.
"She still in her room right?" he asked a nurse at the Nurse's Station. I heard someone say yes and then I heard his footsteps come to my room.
"Bella, we are going to have a patrol car go by the Cullens' property every hour because we haven't caught him yet. Are you absolutely sure she will be safe there Esme?" he asked.
"Yes. Emmett is there along with Jasper. I don't know where Edward is but Carlisle will be there soon too. Whoever this man is, he won't get to her."
"Esme..." my father started.
"Mom, it was Edward." Alice interrupted him.
Esme just looked from her daughter to the chief of police and back to her daughter. Alice rushed over to her mother just in time to catch her. Esme looked as if her whole world had just crumbled. Just then Carlisle came in the room.
"Esme, honey." was all he said as he rushed to her side. She let him hold her up. Alice backed away and came to stand next to me again. My mother stood up and walked over to Esme and reached out to help guide her to a chair. My father just stood there, not sure what to do.
"Bella. Oh my sweet Bella. I am so sorry. I didn't know. No one told me. How could my sweet son be such a horrible monster. Carlisle, what did I do wrong?" Esme mumbled.
"Esme, I don't blame you. You have been like another mother to me since I met Alice. I want you to understand that I don't blame you." I said as I walked over to her. I got down on my knees in front of her and hugged her tightly. I know I was the one raped but her son turned out to be a monster.
"Mom, I'm going to take Bella home. Do you want to ride with us or stay here with dad?" Alice asked her mom.
"I'll stay here. Does Emmett, Rosalie, or Jasper know?" she asked.
"No." Carlisle answered.
"Someone needs to tell them so that if he shows up they will know what to do. Carlisle please call Rose and tell her. She will know how to tell the others and that way she can help with Bella." Esme said. Carlisle nodded. He pulled his cell phone out of his pocket and excused himself. My mother stayed next to Esme. Alice stood by my side.
"Alice. Please take care of my daughter. I will stay here with your mom." my mother said.
"If we hear anything I will call you Alice. Okay." my father said as Alice grabbed my bag from me. She held my hand as she led me to the door.
"I promise I won't let anything happen to her. My phone will be on. Mom, if you need anything, call me." she said as she led me out the door.
"Why would Rose want to help with me. She doesn't like me." I said suddenly.
"Yes she does. Bella, she would help because she's been through this before. She doesn't talk about it but that is part of the reason why she's such a bitch. Don't get me wrong. I love my sister. But she can be a bitch." she said as she smiled.
We walked out to her car and climbed in. We headed back to her house. I was nervous though. Would her brothers and sister blame me for the trouble Edward is in? I know it's not my fault but they are his family. Doesn't family usually stick together?