"Peyton?"
Lucas looked worried, and I guess he should be.
I just stood there, looking like a complete idiot. Why couldn't I just say 'I do' and live happily ever after with Lucas?
I slowly looked up at him with an apologetic look in my eyes. "Lucas…I-I". He turned and looked at Haley and whispered to her "We need a moment. Stall for us?". She nervously nodded and Lucas took my hand and pulled me inside. As we were walking away, I could hear Haley say something about us forgetting the rings.
Part of me wanted to turn around and look at Jake, but I knew I couldn`t look at him like this.

We pushed through the doors and we sat down inside, facing each other.
"Peyton, is everything okay?" I started to cry. "Lucas i`m so sorry! I don`t know what`s wrong with me" He took my face in his hands and smiled at me "There is nothing wrong with you. I completely understand." I hesitated. Did he see Jake? "You…understand?" "Of course. I`m a little overwhelmed myself" I let out a small sigh of relief "Yeah. It`s a lot to take in"
He took my hands in his and squeezed them tight. "Peyton. If your not ready to do this, we can wait" It surprised me a little to hear him say it. "I know. It's a little last minute to postpone the wedding, but i`m sure they`ll understand." I looked at him lovingly. "You would do that for me?" He smiled "I would do anything for you" I smiled back and he wrapped me in his arms. He made me feel so warm and safe. Why was I so hesitant earlier? The way I felt now made me want to run back outside and scream 'I DO!' at the top of my lungs. He pulled me back and held me out at arms length and just smiled at me. Maybe it is best that we postpone the wedding. It would give me time to think about, well, Jake.

Lucas stood up and took my hand. We headed back outside, hearing curious whispers from the guests.
Haley looked a little nervous, but we just smiled at her and I whispered her a thank you. We turned and faced our guests, hand in hand, and Lucas started our apology."First of all, we just want to thank all of you for coming. It means a lot having your support." He looked over at me, and then back at the guests. "Unfortunately, were both feeling a little overwhelmed and have decided to call of the wedding-" I jumped in with "temporarily!" and he smiled over at me and continued. "-to temporarily call off the wedding until a time when we are more settled. But please feel free to stay for the reception, we are still having it. No need to cancel the party right?" There were gasps and jumbled chatter from everyone, and we turned around to Haley. She looked at us like we were crazy. "Uhm..is everything okay?" I didn`t really feel like saying anything at this point. I already felt so bad for doing this to Lucas. He nodded at Haley, "Everything is fine. I think this whole wedding issue just happened so fast so I think were just going to take some time and sort things out. Thank you for doing this for us though Hails. It means a lot." He opened his arms and gave her a hug. "Anytime. But don`t ever scare me like that again" she lightly punched him in the arm, "I was worried"

Her and I both.

To my surprise, almost everyone showed up at the 'would be" reception.
By this time, I had changed out of my wedding dress and into a cocktail dress. Don`t want to ruin the wedding dress, i`ll still need it. Right?
I walked around and talked to some of the guests, still apologizing for the days earlier events, which they all waved off and said "it happens" or "just remember to invite us to real one". This one was real. Or at least it was supposed to be, until he came and ruined everything. Ugh.

"What the hell?!" I closed my eyes and turned around to face Brooke. "Are you insane? Is this because of Ja-" I covered her mouth before she could finish saying his name. I grabbed her arm and dragged her away from the reception to somewhere where could talk privately. I let go of her arm and she held it close to her "Uhm, ow!" "I`m sorry. I just don`t want anyone knowing he was there. Lucas doesn`t know and I don`t want him to find out." Brooke crossed her arms and stared at me "Is this all seriously because of Jake?" I sighed and looked down. "I don`t know". I looked back up at her. "Today was supposed to be a fairytale. I was going to marry Luke, and everything was going to be amazing. But then Jake came in out of no where and complicated everything." She gave me an odd look. "P. You don`t still have feelings for him do you?" I was a little shocked that she had even asked me that. "What?! No! of course not" She didn`t budge. "Do not lie to me Peyton. Do. You. Love. Him?" I closed my eyes and sighed. "Yes" "Peyton!" "Brooke, please, just don`t. I`m just confused. I mean, Jake and I had something amazing. It was like fireworks going off every time we were together. And then I ruined it. I ruined it." She looked at me, almost sympathetically. "So this was about Jake" It wasn`t a question. "I just need some time to think. It`s just like a bomb went off on me and my mind is every where. I need to figure it all out." She pulled me in and hugged me tightly. "Whatever you need, i`m here for you. I won`t say anything. I`ll help you figure it out." I started to sob in her shoulder. "Thank-you Brooke" She let go of me and gave me a slight smile. "Come on. Lets go back out there and party." As we were heading back out to the reception, Jake walked up to us and I stiffened. Brooke looked back at me. "I`ll keep Lucas occupied. You need to talk to him." I nodded at her and watched her walk away, leaving me alone with Jake. Again.

"Peyton. I`m sorry." I crossed my arms and looked up at him. "You ruined my wedding day." He looked sad. "That was never my intention Peyton. I just wanted to know if you still loved me like I love you. I want you to be happy, and if Lucas makes you happy, then that's okay. He`s a great guy and he'll take care of you." "Jake…" I wanted to tell him that I did still love him. But now wasn`t the best time. I needed to figure it out before I said anything. "I know. I just came to say goodbye. I`m sorry and good luck with Luc-" I cut him off. "You`re leaving? Already? You just got here" Why did I not want him to leave. If he left everything would go back to normal. Wouldn't it? "Peyton, I can see i`ve caused enough damage today, and that i`ve hurt you. I`m going home. Goodbye." He turned around and started to leave. Don`t do it Peyton. Let him leave. But I couldn`t. I reached out and grabbed his arm. "Wait. Please. Don`t go."
What was I doing? This wasn`t going to make things any easier.
He came so close to me, I could feel his body almost touching mine. "If you want me to stay, i`ll stay. Just say the words Peyton". NO PEYTON! TELL HIM TO GO! RUN INTO LUCAS' ARMS AND TELL HIM YOU LOVE HIM AND YOU WANT TO BE HIS FOREVER! Part of me wanted him to stay. With me. But part of me wanted him to leave so I can focus on being with Lucas. My Lucas. But which one wins? My heart? Or my head? I slowly looked up into his eyes.
"Stay. Please"
He smiled and hugged me tightly. "Anything for you"
Well. Shit.

Hey! Sorry it took so long. I`ve been a little busy lately.
Hope you like the second part. Chapter 3 coming shortly!

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