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BPOV

So maybe I made a mistake, maybe I over reacted. Maybe my life was just doomed to be horrible,

maybe I was forever meant to be addicted. It was now Friday. After I left the Cullen's on the side of the

road I had every intention of going home and crying myself to sleep, but I didn't in fact I didn't even go

home I just drove and drove. I only made one intentionally stop, one which I regret but am grateful for,

I could not openly voice this, but in my mind I already came to terms, I gave in. Relief from all my

problems was sitting in my purse, I tried to stop I really did. But you see when you have an addiction, it

becomes your life, it becomes your soul, it becomes you. I don't even remember why I did it, however

I do remember the feeling .The feeling of being high is like taking that first breath after you have been

under water for too long, it lights all your scenes on fire, it makes you feel so free, so numb to the

outside pain. I have no idea where I stopped or when, and I don't remember how the pills got out of

my purse. I just sat there staring at them, trying to figure out whether it was worth it. I didn't have

anything in life right now besides the pain , was it worth it to make the pain go away , was it worth it . If

the pain was my life and I made it go away what would I have ? Happiness, no I am not that lucky, I

would have a numbness that made life more liveable , no survivable and I would have a part of me

back, not the whole part though , that part was forever missing . I would have a part of Nicole back. She

was my life , even with the drugs and partying , she was my anchor and I hers we kept each other

balanced , we completed each other . BFF, best friends forever, if only forever would have lasted

longer. My mind was now made up, ever doubt I had vanished as I took two pills everything else

disappeared quickly after, leaving nothing but numbness .I started to drive home slowly , adjusting to

my familiar state . I arrived home quite quickly, it turned out I was only about four hours from home.

I was met by an empty house, thank heavens I couldn't handle anyone right now. I walked into my

room and looked around , it seems like something is different , like something is off . I ignored the

nagging feeling in my head and opted for a shower , I was in the mood to go out partying tonight , but

where ? I made my way to my bathroom when I noticed something on my desk in a pink box. I realized

what it was almost immediately , I backed away from it like it was going to bite me . How did they get

here who could have done that ? I thought over every possible explanation and just couldn't find one.

I walked closer and noticed a tag attached to it. Not once touching the box I plucked off the tag and

read it aloud " Bella , I hope these will make up for my behaviour t .Miss you , Edward." Who the

fuck did he think he was , he had no idea , no right . I lost my temper and tipped over my desk spilling

the contents everywhere . I turned on my heels and decided to get away from here. On my way out I

herd a distinctive ' crunch' and felt a throbbing pain in my foot , I looked down and my heart feel , and

so did tears . The pain was suppose to

be gone not intensified . I reached down and carefully picked up the now broken picture of Nicole and I

before our last performance together , ever .It is so amazing how fast your priorities can change when

you looses someone you love . I thought back to our last day together, our last minutes together,

Two beautiful ballerinas stood before the panel of judges that would decide their future. They had given

the performance of a life time, but was it enough, were they good enough?

" Well ladies , you both are trained beautiful , your lines are clean and graceful . You both have incredible

Feet, you move together as if you were one, that is very rare to find , perfectly in sync , perfectly . "

Stated an older gentleman with a grey beard. Nicole squeezed Bells hand and in turn received a squeeze

in response , a silent ' yes ' between the girls .

" However , individually you are nothing special , we have seen it a hundred times before and will see it

hundred more times ." The air rushed out of both girls lungs, they tensed but their smile never faded ,

they were frozen in place by fear . "Together, together , two of them ." The grey bearded man kept

mumbling to himself , he finally beckoned the other two judges whom remained silent the entire time ,

to his side to talk .They talked among themselves for what felt like an eternity . Both girls were frozen on

the spot , they didn't dare to move .

Finally , the older man cleared his throat , but it was a different voice that spoke, a soft , motherly voice.

" Girls , you have to understand that in A Ballet , the show is only as strong as its weakest dancer and

here at ABC we DO NOT accept weak dancers . We do not accept average dancers, we take the best of

the best and make them better . You have to understand that taking the both of you would be

impractical and poor judgment on our behalf .However just taking one of you would also be poor

judgment on part as well , because as Mr Ripley stated separate you individual are weak dancers, but

together you are a force that is certainly to reckoned with . Therefore, we have no other choice than

to take the both of you , one without the other would simply be a shame.

The bond you two girls share in incredible, we are very much looking forward to having you both in our

company ." The girls stood there unbelieving what had just happened, they were both , accepted to the

American Ballet Company.

" You know what this means Bella ?" Nicole stated, Bella couldn't manage words she just simply

turned he head to the side to look her sister in the eyes .

" We going to live together !" And with that Nicole jumped into Bella's arms and they began spinning

around , free as ever , their dreams had come true and they were together , they always would be

together .

They ran off the stage, Nicole still in Bella's arms . The girls did truly have a bond, one that could never

be replaced .

Bella snapped to reality, she expected to be sad and revert back to her previous state of dry sobs, but

nothing came , no tears , no sadness .

After cleaning up the mess she had made, Bella started to grow antsy and decided that another shower

would help .

Steam quickly filled the bathroom, covering all surfaces, Bella turned to look in the mirror and noticed

something odd and eerie . There was a large hand print on her bathroom mirror, Bella held her hand up

to it and noticed that the fingers were two long to be her own , and the ballet shoes . Bella could only

think of one explanation

" Edward was in my room ," she stared at the hand print in shock , disbelief and confusion .

She turned off the water forgetting the shower and went over to her trash can she tore open

the pink box and gasped when she eyed what was inside . A pair of crimson red ballet slippers, they

appeared to be extremely expensive and she felt guilty for throwing them out . Bella acted on impulse

and sat down on the floor sliding off her socks and putting on the ballet shoes , something she swore

she would never do again because of the pain . There was none just an ever building feeling of

excitement . She looked down at her feet and just stared, they fit perfect and were extremely

comfortable , .

" I can't see the harm in just one little dance , just to test them out ." Bella stated to know one but

herself as if trying to convince her own body to move . Slowly and carefully she took her first steep in

the shoes just walking around to see if anything pinched or pulled, nothing they were perfect .Bella

looked into her wall length mirror and noticed a un familiar face staring back at her . It was a glowing

Bella , someone who looked happy . Bella continued walking around in the shoes for the rest of the

morning , marvelling at all the feelings that bubbled to the surface because of them . It was late

afternoon and she was growing restless , thoughts of making her pain go away were not present , there

was no pain. Realization hit Bella like a brick, it was Friday there's a dace tonight .

After showering , doing her hair and spending an eternity picking out the perfect outfit , Bella was

finally ready .

"What will people think, after not showing up to school for a few days . How will they react to me

showing up at the dance ,?" Bella fought with herself before she finally decided to go . The drive to

school was shorter than usual , Bella could hear the music coming from the gym . All of her feeling and

emotions that had been held back all day stayed in check . Nervously, Bella stepped out of her car and

glanced around .The parking lot was empty so she still had the opportunity to turn around and get back

into her car and that's exactly what she was intending on doing . Bella spun around on her heels and

smacked into something that felt like a wall . Bella looked up into the eyes of Edward Cullen.

"Bella , I'm so glad you're here ." Edward said quietly

"Actually I was just leaving."

"Where have you been? Why weren't you in school? "Edwards's eyes burned into Bella's with such a

passion Bella felt like her legs were going to give out .

"Bella ? are you alright ?"

"I can't do this right now Edward I have to go." Bella tried without success to break free of Edwards

grasp.

"Bella what's wrong , you just got here you can't leave yet ." Edward let go of Bella's arm and attempted

to grab her hand Bella took the opportunity and bolted for her car . She shoved the key into the ignition

and slammed the car into drive , a chilly breeze filled the car as the passenger side door opened and

Alice climbed in.

"What the fuck, Alice how the hell did you manage that?"

"Don't ask just drive ." Alice stated. Bella obeyed and pealed out of the parking lot