Second Chapter... Grammer is very bad I'm working on it though try and look past it :] (I also use alot of txt words ,cnt,...etc)
After Edward left the room I sat on the bed and thought about things...funny thing about being a Vampire was I had to much time on my hands to just sit and think...How some Vampires dont go mental is beyond me when your human theres pills you can take to rest your mind to take a break from it...but as a cold one theres no end no time when we can just block it out the only time I can even slightly get away from it all it when I'm distracted and even thats a battle.
I walked down the stairs was about time I should say sorry to Esme. They were all sitting in the living room Mathew going over and over again about what happened. I walked right up to Esme.
"Esme I'm so very sorry about the pictures I'll pay to have them replaced if you want" she smiled at me.
"Bella dont worry about it its fine"
"I'll still pay for them but thanks" after I had said that I felt uncomfortable not being on the other side of the room where the majority of my coven was. I nodded and then stood beside Hellen. She wrapped her arms around me and I clung on to them I needed to feel safe for just a minute. I breathed in her motherly smell I closed my eyes and I felt loved I needed this...I needed someone...anyone...even if it was just a mother figure. Alice came running into the room with a big white folder she sat it down in front of Renesme and Edward.
"Ok just because theres all this stuff going on duznt mean we dont still get to plan a wedding"...Wedding I looked over at them Renesme laughed
"Alice please it looks like you have it under control"
"Well of course I do but I still want your in put Nessie...It is your wedding after all you'v been engaged for over 7 years now...we need to make plans"
7 Years...A wedding...Jacob and Renseme...Pain slamed into me...I didnt no how much more I could take...Can things get any worse.
"Tanyas Clan are comming" Carilse announced. Things just got worse!
Tanya the one who lusted after Edward Years before I came along...I wonder how many vist's shes made since Ive been gone.
"What?" Edward roared
"Her clan will be a great deal of help...I know its going to be awkward given your history" Carlise explained to Edward.
Why was Edward so upset about this did he have to reject her again? Emmet busted out laughing.
"Oh c'mon Edward it wont be that bad you'l probly get lucky again" again? what does he mean again is he just messing about or did Edward get with Tanya? I needed to know Edward glanced my way cringed and then just as fast shot a look at Jacob him obviously thinking something Edward didnt approve of. Jacob shrugged his shoulders, Edward stormed out.
"What was that about?" Sammy asked. Rosalie jumped in to explain.
"Well you see about two days after Bella left Tanya came over she saw how lonely Edward was and decided to fill that right up..they had lots of fun you could hear them all the way from that little cottage that used to be Edward and Bella's...now its just there doing nothing...but yeah Edward just doesnt want things to get awkward between himself and Tanya...theres alot of sexual tension there you see" I just stared at Rosalie while she told the story she knew how much pain she was causing.
"Rosalie...stop" Emmet spoke while looking at me and then glanced over to the door I followed his gaze Edward stood he was looking me right in the eye.
"Two Days? Well I guess its clear how much I ment to you"
"You left me...so that kinda shows I ment nothing to you either"
"I didnt leave and then screw some random bitch two days later...matter of fact I havent been with anyone...so C'mon Edward how many other 'Family friends' have you had" I folded my arms.
"Can we talk about this more privatly" he asked through tight lips.
"No It doesnt matter its not vaild anymore" I snapped and then turned away. I was trying to be mad at Edward but I couldnt after all what I did was ten times worse and I think we both knew that. I was hurt the thoughts of Edward with any other woman was enough to make me feel almost physical pain, but the thoughts of him with Tanya was to much to bare. we all stood in silence. everyone looking at me and then Edward. someone spoke.
"Rosalie you Evil Bitch" Izzy spat through clenched teeth she glared at Rose and then clenched up her small hands into fists.
"Oh I'm sorry I just thought I should let you ALL know about what happened before Tanya got here" she said very sarcasticly
"You knew full well we didnt have to know that and Bella didnt have to know that! it could have been kept away if you hadnt of opened your stupid mouth" I just shook my head...this was the kind'v menatl breakdown thing that Vampires can have I wanted to run out into the forest curl up into a ball and scream. I wanted to run and keep on running back until I was back in Edwards arms. I didnt want to be around him if I couldnt touch him. Kiss him. Be held by him. I shook my head to try and get the memorys of him out of there the memorys of his touch his smell everything.
Izzy was still yelling at Rosalie. I needed out.
"Bella?" Hellen called after me.
"Where are you going?" Sammy yelled grabing for my hand I jerked it away fast, and just continued walking.
"Leave her alone" Ric said wrapping an arm around Hellen I walked away from the house slowly letting the sobs out I wanted to scream in pain but held it in, until I got far enough away so know one would hear. When I was done screaming I curled up on the dirty forest floor. A memory was trying to break through the wall I had put up. The one where Edward left me. Felt like it was only yesterday.
I climbed in through the window when I got back I didnt want to have to go through the living room. I dont think they knew I was back, because I sat there for over an hour and Izzy didnt come running into the room asking a load of questions. Yes I was sitting there for an hour doing nothing but stare at the wall. Until I heard a high pitched laugh I shot my head towards the door sniffed once...I could lmost smell the ginger comming off of her 'strawberry blonde' hair I cracked the door open and I could hear them all Carlise welcoming Tanya and her coven. I wasnt going to hide away. I walked down the stairs causiously everyone stared at me obviously surprised they must have thought I was still out.
"Dont mind me didnt mean to inturupt...continue" I said calmly I walked over to the files on the table picked up my one and read over it...for the 47th time. Tanya looked at me. Oh crap she was walking over.
"Hi Bella nice to meet you again" she held out her hand I looked at it and then just ignored her
"I see you must no about what happened with Edward I'm sor..." I cut her off
"Tanya if you say your sorry I will beat you to death" I then walked out to the kitchen area into the sitting room. I sat down with my file and just looked at it. Alice sat down beside me within seconds. I leaned awayu from her. She was smliling...why was she smiling?
"Hi Bella" she said in a very high excited voice.
"Umm Hi Alice" I turned away from her ever so slightly...this was weird
" sorry about Rose..you know how she can be..."
"Umm Yeah...I remmeber"
"So Bella how do you like being back in forks the weather..."
"Alice please tell me you'r not trying to talk to me about the weather? what do you really want"
"I just wanted to chat...for a bit...and ask you something...Bella Nessie is gonna wear your wedding dress for her wedding...I just wanted to make sure it was ok with you"
"Why would she wear mine wedding dress?"
"Well I've made a few alterations..."
"What?" I was barely able to whispear
"I'm sorry but I thought you wernt comming back...you didnt like the dress anyway...did you"
"It was still mine one of the very few things I've ever worn that has made me feel beautiful...where is it"
" follow me" I followed alice up to her room. she pulled out a big white bag and un zipped it in seconds I braced myself she hung the dress up on the door so i could see it better...Oh my god it was completely diffrent...
"Oh my god alice what did you do" It was tight fitting all the way to the knees and then there was nothing more she cut off half the bloody dress for christ sake The only thing that remaind the same was the top half the corset half of the dress it still had the angelic design on the front I leaned over and touched it...it wasnt mine anymore it was Renesme's I had no right to it. Every other part of my old life has been cut up why not the dress aswel.
"I'm sorry I can maybe fix it...if you want it back...Nessie can wear something els"
"No...I dont want it...its hers now not mine" I left the room I need to go away for good this time not just a little walk or hunt nothing good has come out of this trip its just caused so much more pain its ripped open old wounds brought back some not so great memories. I went to my room and threw some of the things I brought into a bag. Someone knocked on my door I flung the bag under the bed. Izzy walked in.
"Hey we'r all going hunting...wanna come"
"I already went thanks...um I'll see you later"
"Ok...cool" she went to walk away
"No Izzy wait"
"Yeah" She smiled at me and I knew this was maybe the last time I would see her. I grabbed her and pulled her in for a hug I squeezed her and wouldnt let go my eyes stung up.
"I love you" I whispeared in her ear.
" I love you too...Bella whats wrong" I pulled back.
"Nothing. Everything is going to be just fine" she nodded and then left. I waited ten minutes until I was surre they were all gone I then began stuffing my bag again.
When I got to the front room. I knew I wasnt alone.
"Hi Bella" a dark voice loomed over me I dropped my bag and spun around. no body was there. something flashed past me. I got into a crouch position and put my back to the wall so she couldnt come behind me. She dropped from the ceiling and looked right at me. I knew her. Black hair she had a deep scar up her face along her neck it wasnt red it was greyish she had plenty of bite marks aswel, the scar looked like a bad rash almost like...a burn mark.
"I killed you...you're dead I ripped you apart and burned the pieces"
"You may have thrown me on the fire but you didnt watch me burn" she raised her top a little the dark mark was all along her torso.
"Are you going to kill me?" I asked her with maybe the slight bit of hope in my voice she gave me a quick answer
"Yes"
I didnt want her to kill me or atleast I think I dont want her to.