CPOV

I was immediately assigned to Bella's case. I sat in my desk and opened her file.

April 19 22:00 pm 19 year old female referred by her father for self injury. Father reports subject jumped off a cliff in an attempted suicide. Father reports subject has been severely depressed for approximately 3-4 months. Ambulance arrived on scene. Subject refused treatment and was placed under a 5150 hold.

April 20 5:45 am subject refused prescribed medication and was intravenously medicated

I shut the file. It was pretty much what I had expected.

"Excuse me sir," the aide stepped in my office. "The young woman, Bella, Is awake."

"Thank you, I will be in there shortly." I began to gather up my files and walked out of the room.

BPOV

After the bathroom incident, my bodyguard brought me in a tray of food. It was awful but I choked down a few bites. "Do you really have to stare at me?" I hissed

I never realized how uncomfortable it was to have someone watch me chew. He remained emotionless. I rolled my eyes and finished up. "So now what?" I pushed the tray away.

Knock, knock, knock, Mr. bodyguard grabbed the tray and headed out of the room.

I fell backwards onto the bed. Man this sucks! I am so pissed at Charlie I could puke. Someone must have seen me jump and ran to Charlie to tell, I was definitively going to find out who it was and have Jake kill them!

Just then I saw the door creak open and the back of what must be a doctor. Oh great! And it begins! I wish I could just melt into the floor. I stare at the ceiling and close my eyes.

"Hello Bella!" Oh my God I must have fell asleep because that voice sounded just like Carlisle. I keep my eyes closed, too scared that if I open them I will wake up.

"Bella?" I feel a cold hand on my shoulder nudging me. I smile but continue to hold onto the dream keeping my eyes shut.

"Bella, please open your eyes! Bella you need to face reality here!" Before I knew it I was sat up in the bed. I slowly let my eyes open.

"Carlisle? Is that really you?" I reach out, grab his cheek and pinch it. He smiles.

"If your dreaming shouldn't I be the one pinching you?" He grabbed my hand in his.

Dreaming? I can't be dreaming. All my dreams are hellish nightmares. If I were dreaming I would be running from Victoria or lost in a forest searching for Edward. I'm not dreaming. OH MY GOD, I MUST BE DEAD!

CPOV

In an instant I saw Bella's demeanor change.

"No, No, No!" She shrieked. The look on her face horrified me. She jumped off the bed and ran to the corner. She fell to the floor, grabbing her knees, sobbing and rocking back and forth. It was quite apparent she was far worse off then I had imagined.

I ran over to her and knelt beside her, grabbing onto her shoulders.

"Bella, sweetheart, what's wrong?" I rubbed her shoulders.

"I'm Dead!" She let out.

I grabbed her into a hug.

"No sweetie, your not! Your going to be fine." I could feel her trembling.

"Please, I need you to calm down. Shhh" I rocked her back and forth trying to soothe her. Slowly I raised her face so that she was now looking at me " I promise Bella, Your not dead! I came here to help you!" I could feel her relaxing in my arms. I sat and rocked her for awhile until her sobbing subsided. I picked her up and put her back on her bed. I pull up a chair next to her.

"Who cam here with you? Where's Edward?" She asked

"Well I'm supposed to be the one asking the questions here." I needed to avoid that subject for the time being. She nodded.

"First I need to ask, do you have any objections to me being your doctor?"

"No, I'd prefer not talking about what happened though. Not just to you but to anyone. I'd like just call it a moment of stupidity and forget about it."

"I think we both know that isn't going to happen. Bella, you gave a lot of people a scare!"

"Can't you just get me out of here? I can just jump on your back right now! We can pretend this never happened!" She was pleading.

"I don't think that would be in your best interest. We need to help you first Bella. It's apparent that there is a problem and whether is be big or small we need to get it figured out."

"I don't want to be here." She was getting teary eyed again. I grabbed her back into a hug.

"I know you don't but as much as it pains me to see you here I know it's the best thing for you. If you cooperate this will be a smooth process and your time here will be much shorter." I kiss her head.

BPOV

So I guess I'm stuck here for now. At least I have Carlisle! It could be worse. I wonder if Edward came back with him? I haven't been able to get him off my mind since I first saw Carlisle. Eventually I feel Carlisle lay me back down on the bed.

"Are you ready to talk a bit about what happened? He asked

"Not really?" I smiled over at him.

"You know the sooner we can get to the bottom of this the sooner you can get out." He raised an eyebrow.

"Fine, what do you want to know?" I snapped

"Let's start with the depression. Charlie states that you have been depressed for 3-4 months. Would you agree with that?" He was holding a clipboard and a pen now.

"Sure, if that's what you want to call it." I pulled me knees into me.

"Bella, did this all start after Edward left?" Carlisle asked

Duh! I mean isn't that obvious. "Yea so?" I felt myself getting jittery, this was about the last thing I wanted to be doing right now.

"Do you feel compelled to hurt yourself right now?" He asked.

My head shot over at him and I glared. Did he really just ask me that? He must really think I'm crazy. I jumped off the bed. "What the fuck do you think? Do you think I'm just going to lose it on you right here?" I was pacing and grabbing my hair. "Jesus Carlisle! I had a STUPID STUPID lapse in judgment and now everyone thinks I've lost my mind." I punched my hand into the wall. "Fuck!" I grabbed my hand and pulled it into me. Damn that hurt!

"Bella!" Carlisle grabbed my hand and pulled it into him. Looking it over he said "Honestly I don't know what to think. One minute your fine and the next your punching walls." I rolled my eyes at him. "Ouch." He pressed on my big knuckle and it was sore. "I think it's just bruised. Now please sit down." Like I had a choice because in one big movement he sat me down. He sat back in his chair next to me and opened the file again.

"I see you didn't want to try the anti depressant earlier. I would like for you to try one called Effexor. This will help your mood to even out a bit. I think it will help."

"Do I have a choice?" I snarled, the idea of drugs never appealed to me.

"It does come in an injectible form if you prefer that method." He smirked

"Just give me the pill." I was done with the scary lunch lady.

"That's a good girl. I will be right back." In a flash he was gone and back again with the pill and a glass of water. I swallowed it down.

"Okay Bella I have a few more questions before we have our morning break.

Was your jump planned out? Did you have a specific time or day picked?"

"No it was a last minute decision."

"Bella did you think you would die?"

"Yes." This time I didn't look up at him. I couldn't!

CPOV

Well that answered it. I wanted to get the truth and I did. I wanted to believe this was just a freakish accident but it wasn't. It became quite apparent this was going take a lot of work. Edward would not be able to come back into Bella's life until all her dependency issues are resolved. Before Bella can love again she must first learn to love herself.