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I wasn't sure what I was expecting Jacob Black to be like, but this certainly wasn't it. Old for sure, maybe gross and weird. But I most definitely was not expecting him to be young and handsome.

He was up there on the platform speaking about Charlie but I didn't understand a single word of it. The first things he said was "Charlie was a great man. He was like a father to me after mine died. And as I got older he was my friend."

That was about as far as I listened before I mentally blacked out. Why on earth did Charlie put me in his care? He's barely older than me and he's attractive. Why is it that the one time Charlie trusts me to be around boys, it has to be a grown man I actually like? It's not even a stupid one, who's feelings I can play with. Why Charlie? Why?

Charlie always told me teenage boys were trouble, I naturally listened to him because I agreed. But that didn't mean I didn't play around with them a little bit. Boys are like puppies, you give them a little attention and they do whatever you want. A little kiss on the cheek and their putty in your hands. Next thing you know your going shopping with his' daddy's credit card.

I never said it was fair but that's how it was. Plus I was bored and I never had many girl friends.

I was home schooled. I have been ever since I was six. After my parent's died I couldn't help but cry every time I saw those kids with their parents. The way they would lovingly pick up their children from school. Or bring them 'McDonald's' when the kids forgot their lunch. My little five year old heart couldn't take it, without crying.

The thing about kindergarten is, when you cry the kids laugh. I hated being teased and laughed at, to this day I can't stand it when it happens. That truly was the first time in my life I ever felt like people didn't like me. I never wanted that to be the case again. So I tried as hard as I could to make people like me. The only kids that seemed to be nice to me were boys, it's been that way ever since.

In school I tried to toughen up but I couldn't. Later Charlie told me just to finish up kindergarten and then I wouldn't have to go anymore. So that's exactly what I did.

I got the best tutor money could buy and his name was Jasper Whitlock. He was one of my Father's friends growing up. And he's an amazing tutor especially in history, when he would speak I felt like I was their with him. It really upset me that I had to let him go the other day, but he was a reasonable man so I knew he'd understand. You know, my being imprisoned by some hot guy.

Anyway every year before school would start, Charlie would ask me if I wanted to go back to school. I'd always say no because I'd rather be with Jasper. Even though I toughened up I didn't want to go back to school, not when I could stay with Grandpa and Jasper. Well Kaure, our maid worked there too but I didn't consider her family like I did with Jazz.

I didn't like kids my age anyway, they were mean and stupid. I mostly hung out with older teens that lived in my neighborhood. Like Tanya, Kate, and Carmen who still are my friends and still live on the block. Charlie thought it was good for me to have some female companions, since I had no mother or grandmother and my aunt was never around.

I only had one friend my age but he doesn't talk to me anymore, we had a falling out two years ago. But I will always consider him my best friend.

The fact that I probably had to go to public high school did occur to me. The fact that I was going to high school was bad enough. But public? EW! Even my kindergarten was in an elementary prep.

Truthfully I don't want Jasper around me while I'm living with Jacob. That guy was always so good on reading people's emotions. I don't know why he wasn't a psychiatrist. One time I asked and he said it was because my father was better with messing with people's heads. I did understand that about my father, he was very intuitive.

If I had Jasper around in the house I'm going to share with Jacob, all he'd do was tease me about it. And I really didn't need that right now.

I would miss seeing Tanya, Kate, and Carmen though. They were really good friends to me when I needed it most. They also along with my aunt Rosalie, introduced me to the world of fashion. For which I will always be grateful.

After my best friend conveniently moved away. I was really depressed so Kate and Tanya took me shopping. Kate and Tanya understood me, their mother and sister died too when they were young. If they taught me anything it was that friends and family come and go but fashion is forever. So that's how I lived, I shopped and I spent. Because it was the only thing that made me happy anymore.

Charlie never seemed to care about my spending money. I don't think he even noticed, he was just happy I was happy. As the years past Charlie quit the small security job he had at a mall in Chicago. I truthfully didn't even understand why he had it, it's not like we needed the money. After that he just spent most of his time on the couch watching 'ESPN' and drinking 'Vitamin R'. It didn't bother me in the least, I was just worried because he looked so tired all the time. But every time I asked him he was always "Fine" or "Great Rennie, how 'bout you?" So I pretty much gave up on asking him. Then one night he went to bed and the next morning he didn't wake up. I figured Charlie died of old age, natural causes. But maybe I was wrong.

"Thank you" Jacob said on the platform he was on. I realized that Jacob just got done with his long speech, Charlie hated speeches. He walked off the platform and glanced in my direction, I didn't want to look at him back.

The funeral guy who's name I still don't remember walked up and said a few more stuff and then it was over. It was over so now I had to meet 'Him'. I was freaked out and nervous for more than one reason. One because I had to live with this guy. And two because the first time I saw him, I totally started falling for him.

He didn't come up to me right away, which was fine with me. But I certainly was not going up to him. A few people came up to me and said "sorry for your loss" or "Charlie was a great man" I even got some "You said such beautiful things".

Unfortunately 'Newton' came up to me again except this time he came with a brunette woman, who's arms were interlocked with his. I then noticed that they had matching rings on their ring finger. Mike smiled at me shamelessly while the woman, or rather his wife scowled at me. I loved it when I pissed people off, it was one of those things I was really good at. Usually it would have made my day.

But I was too busy thinking about Jacob Black. Speak or think of the devil and so he shall appear. Wasn't that how it goes? Well it was something like that.

Jacob was walking up to me and I just stood there looking stupid. The good news was he looked embarrassed which meant he felt stupid too. That made me feel better.

"Hey" he said awkwardly scratching his neck.

"Hi" I responded, with a weird little wave of my hand that two year olds are famous for.

"So your Renesmee." He said stating the obvious.

"Yup" I popped the p because the silence was killing me. I was surprised crickets weren't chirping right now.

He snapped out of his awkward behavior. "Well nice to meet you I'm Jacob Black." He said with his perfect white teeth showing. He said that one sentence so smoothly, I just knew he's used that tone before on girls. He was so charming and so attractive, that from that one sentence I knew he was a douche bag. I was always right about people, and I got the feeling he was a total player. The heartbreaking kind, that can get any girl to drop her panties for him. But I most certainly was not 'any girl'. And if he messed with me, I would make his life a living hell.

With that promise already in mind I replied in my most charming voice. "Likewise, Mr Black." I gave a small seductive smile. Jacob's eyes darkened. When I shook his hand I felt his pulse racing under my fingertips in his wrist. 'Oh yeah' I thought 'you have no idea who your dealing with.'

"We should get going it's a long drive to Seattle" 'Yeah I know' I thought bitterly. So Jacob lived in Seattle, truthfully I was relieved that it wasn't Forks. I'm not an animal, I like to live in civilization.

"I rented a car today from Seattle, so I could drive here." I replied thanking god I didn't have to ride in the same car as this smug son of a "Leah" he yelled out. All of a sudden a tall Quileute woman comes walking over, and I recognize her as the one in the back row with the overgrown children. She was beautiful although being older, and I wondered if her and Jacob were romantically involved. That thought brought a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, but it quickly passes when I see her shoot him daggers.

"What Jacob? What now?" she asks obviously angry.

He just laughed and said "Lee, someone needs to drive Nessie's car to Seattle." 'What did he just call me?' Nessie, as in the nickname of the Loch Ness Monster? I had a couple nicknames growing up, Ren, Rennie, May, MeeMee pronounced (MayMay). They were all pretty horrible but calling me a monster was taking it to a whole new level. If he was going to call me Nessie I was going to call him Jakey. And why can't I drive to Seattle by myself?

Leah was about to reply when I said "Listen Jakey," I spat out the name and continued "I don't need anyone to drive me to Seattle, I did it this morning and I'll do in again."

He just let out a laugh and said "Your cute when your angry, you look like a pouting bunny." and he continued to laugh. I don't even know how to respond to that comment. I couldn't believe how demeaning he was. How could I have ever found this guy even remotely attractive? Oh that's right because his mouth wasn't moving.

Leah laughed and said "I'll get Seth to do it." she looked at us. I was staring angrily in Jacob's direction while Jacob was looking at me as if sizing me up. As if he could try to read what I was all about. Leah looked in my direction and nodded approvingly as if she was agreeing with me.

Jacob was still smiling and said "Nessie meet my right hand man Leah." Leah looked pissed that Jacob just called her a man, but didn't say anything because I had a feeling she was used to it.

In an effort to make Leah feel better I said "What, he's to lazy to use his own right hand?" Leah laughed and said "Nice to meet you Renesmee." I shook her hand and and said politely "You too Leah." I appreciated the fact that she called me by my real name instead of the horrid nickname that 'Jakey' gave me.

I looked over at Jacob who was blushing deeply at my comment, which made me smile inside.

We all walked outside together when a tall and gangly young man stops us and says, "Hey I'm Seth you must be that Ruh-Nez-May girl" he said all of that so enthusiastically. He seemed like a sweet guy even though he said my name like funeral guy, and was one of the babies in the back row laughing.

"Hi" I tried to say it as enthusiastically as Seth, but I don't do crack.

"Here Seth your driving her car back to Seattle." Leah said while she grabbed the keys out of my hand and threw them at Seth's head.

"Ouch, cool Porsche" Seth said while drooling on the yellow rental Porsche I rented in Seattle. I know I shouldn't have rented something that expensive but it was so pretty. And I'm really going to miss my Bentley. Kaure the maid and her husband Gustavo the gardener, better not touch my baby while I'm gone for a year.

I saw Jacob getting in his 67 black Corvette in mint condition. "American muscle, why does that not surprise me?" I thought I said it in my head but apparently I said it out loud cause he said "Because of my American muscle" he flexed and I saw that he took of his dress shirt and suit coat and was only wearing a tight black t-shirt and the dark jeans he had on earlier. I'd be lying if I said his body was unimpressive. Good thing I'm a good liar.

Or was a good liar. Because I saw him smile as I got into the car. He knew I was checking him out. My face felt hot because of my blushing. I hoped because it was a convertible the cool Forks air would cool off my face. Or at least the wind in my long curly hair would cover my face. It didn't, and Jacob saw it because from the corner of my eyes I saw his smile grow wider as he stared at the road a head of him. I blushed harder.

He was just doing this to get reaction out of me. Well guess what? I'm not falling for it. I've never been that type of girl and I won't start now.

I'm not the type of girl that just falls for guys without reason. I'm not clingy or needy or anything. I can take care of myself. I don't have the 'Cinderella Complex' where I desperately need a man to take care of me. I don't even need a man at all. I've gone seventeen years without one and I don't need one now. If anything I should just play the player, teach him a lesson. Like I've done in the past.

But I will not fall for him. I don't even believe in love.

Jacob Black you better watch out, because you have no idea who your messing with.

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And btw the next chapter is going to be in Jacob's point of view, So you can get to know him a little better.