Ok just so you know this chapter is just all about Jacob's life. The next chapter will follow the events that happened in chapter 4. So chapter 6 is when they actually start living together. I hope you don't totally hate it. But the story will get much more interesting as time goes on.
Jacob's P.O.V
I've never really had an easy life. Dad died when I was sixteen from Diabetes. Mom died in labor with me. The only ones who knew about that, was my family and Charlie. I've never wanted anyone else to know. Dad always said he didn't blame me for her death but even if he didn't, I blame myself. I think my sisters blamed me too because they left as soon as they turned eighteen. They probably couldn't even stand the sight of the monster that killed their mother. Once my father died, I was all alone.
Sure I had friends who were their for me, but it's not really the same as family. The thing about family is that they love you or their supposed to. Most of the time no matter what. Their always there for you. When you need someone to fall back on they hold you up. Family is stable and reliable, it's safe. No one should ever have to be alone. But I was... And I guess still am...
Charlie Swan was my father's best friend. They always liked fishing and hunting. And they practically wet themselves when Charlie discovered 'ESPN'. Yup, eating Harry Clearwater's fish fry and drinking 'Vitamin R' while watching sports was the life for them.
When I was six Charlie's sixteen year old daughter came to live with us. Her name was Bella and despite our age difference we were good friends. She'd always take me to the park and play with me. And when Billy was busy she'd babysit. She always said if she had a kid she'd want it to be just like me. Because I was the sweetest and cutest kid ever. Let's just say, I was the king of the playground after that. Embry and Quil were so jealous.
I had a total crush on Bella, she always called it puppy love. We hung out a lot that year, I once asked her why she hung out with me, mostly and she said "cause your still the cutest." But all of that changed when Bella turned seventeen and the Cullen's moved to Forks. I was obviously no longer the cutest.
His name was Edward, and my seven year old self hated him. And I told him that once too, I swore I would kill him. But Edward just laughed. Bella still hung out with me just not as much as before.
A year later Bella and Edward announced their engagement. I told Billy I wasn't going to the Wedding, but of course he made me go. I pouted the whole time I was there.
Bella came by me and crouched down to my level and said "You know your still my best man, which means you owe me a dance." I danced with Bella and in an effort to make me feel better she said "One day your going to find the perfect girl and you'll love each other so much that you'll forget all about me."
Two years after that her and Edward had a baby. I was ten at that time. I remember they named her that weird name. 'Renesmee', seriously that's a hard name for a ten year old to say. So I called her 'Nessie', she was a really pretty baby. With reddish brown curly hair and brown eyes. Her rosy cheeks looked so cute against her light skin.
Bella was right about one thing, I did forget all about her. But I never fell in love. How sad is that? I'm twenty-seven years old and I've never been in love. Some people my age are married and have children. Most people at least have someone who their sharing their life with. Hell, even teenagers are falling in love now. So why haven't I?
Sure I've been in a few relationships with girls that I liked. But I never loved them, even if they loved me back. And I tried to love them too, but I just didn't. So I'd end it because you can't force yourself to love someone, it just doesn't work that way. Love I guess takes takes time, but once again I wouldn't know. Lately I've just given up on relationships all together.
One night stands and causal sex was about all I was getting these days. It was always at the girls place too, so that once she fell asleep I could leave. I never wanted them in my loft because then they would stay longer than necessary. Some girls would see me leave so I'd just say I had to work early the next day or some other crap. It was mean using them like that, but in truth I didn't want anything more from them other than sex.
Their was some girls that wanted something more like a relationship. But I don't want to be in a relationship with someone so easy they give it up to some guy they met in a bar. A girl who frequently has one night stands, was not the kind of girl I wanted my wife or mother of my children to be.
Which is what I wanted, I wanted a wife and I wanted children. I wanted to settle down and have a family. I wanted to wake up every morning with the person I love right next to me. I wanted someone who loved me and would stay with me through the thick and the thin. I wanted my wife not to see her pregnant stomach as a bad thing. But instead be proud of the fact that this is product of our love. I wanted to hold my wife in my arms as she held our child.
Guys act like they want to be single players for the rest of their life, but that's not true. Sure it's fun at first but when you get older you realize that you want someone to come home to. You don't always want to be alone. And after so many years of not having a family, I wanted one. I think I need one.
After my father died I was so depressed I dropped out of school. I know my old man would have wanted me to stay in school. He always said "Education is the one thing no one can take away from you." As inspiring as that was I'm pretty sure he got that off a flyer or something.
Charlie was already living in Chicago with his granddaughter by then. But he visited often, and he told me if there was anything I ever needed all I had to do was call. We kept in touch a lot. It sucked that he lived so far away, because he was like family to me. And after dad passed he took on a more fatherly role.
I needed to get a job, I didn't have time to go to school. So I worked as a mechanic, it started out with crappy pay cause I was so young. But I knew what I was doing and eventually got promoted. The owner though, kept trying to cheat me out of the money he owed me. So I quit.
My friends told me I was way to good for that place anyway. I asked Charlie what I should do and he told me to start my own business. He even gave me a couple grand to get started. And thus 'Jake's' was born. And with Embry, Quil, and Seth's help we built 'Jake's'. It was a garage, and it actually became popular. Leah helped me with all the financial stuff, since the rest of us were morons when it came to that.
Leah was a good friend to me. She was like the big sister I never had. I did have sisters but they were never really there for me. Leah was I guess grateful that I gave her a job outside of La Push. She used to work for her ex-boyfriend Sam but then quit when he broke up with her. Leah was so in love with Sam but he feel in love with someone else. Specifically, he fell for her cousin Emily. Leah was of course heartbroken, and to this day she has a strained relationship with her cousin and refuses to have anything to do with Sam.
I didn't blame Sam though, like I said you can't help who you fall for. Love either happens or it doesn't.
By then 'Jake's' became pretty popular, so much so that we opened one in Seattle too. Now there's about five more through out Washington.
When I was twenty I was just a regular bachelor living in Seattle living a carefree life when I got a call from Charlie.
(Flashback)
"Jake" Charlie questioned.
"Yeah, hey Charlie how's it going?" I was really happy to hear from him. Even though I talked to him every week about what's going on in my life. I still liked him to know how good I was doing. If it wasn't for him I would never be the man I am today.
"Not to well Jake. Can we talk? There's something important I need to talk to you about." This sounded serious, I've never heard his voice like this before.
"Sure sure Charlie, of course." After all this man has done for me, I'd give him anything he wants.
"Jake, normally I wouldn't want to say this on the phone but I feel as if I have no other choice. Jake I have cancer." His words came out slow and timid. And I couldn't believe it.
"What?" I asked, still not being able to register the meaning of those words.
"Jacob, I have prostate cancer." Once again those words came out slowly yet evenly, but I still didn't understand.
"What? No!" My words barely came out. My throat felt like it was closing in on me.
"Yes Jacob. But please listen, the cancer is spreading. I know you want to hear this just as much as I want to tell you this but please just listen." It sounded like he was chocking up too.
"Ok I'll listen." I said the words softly because they wouldn't come out.
"I found out a week ago went I went to have a check up. And since then I've been figuring out what to do about it. I've been taking the medicines I'm supposed to but I'm not taking the treatments."
"What why not?" I felt seriously close to exploding. Why wouldn't he try to take care of himself?
"Because I have Ren to think about. That poor girl has already lost everyone she loves. I don't want her to have to see me suffer." I could hear him crying on the phone, and I touched my face as I realized water was coming out of my eyes. I figured he was talking about his granddaughter the one I called Nessie.
"Wouldn't she want her grandfather to be alive?" I asked infuriated at how he could be so selfish and yet so unselfish at the same time.
Silence. He didn't say anything and I realized that I just insinuated that he was going to die.
"Charlie I didn't mean that..." Begging the words to come out so he didn't get the wrong idea.
"No. Your right I'm going to die. I just don't want Ren to be alone once I'm gone she'll have no one." I could hear him bawling in the background but maybe that was me.
"Charlie your not going to die."
"I am I just don't know when. I hope it's after she an adult. Because I can't even imagine her all alone in this world like you were Jacob."
"She really has no one else?" I asked wanting to be sure before I offered something I couldn't go back on.
"Well she's got an aunt and uncle but I don't even know where they are. Their always traveling, and their not stable. I want her to be with someone stable and reliable, someone I trust." Kids really should be in a stable environment.
"I'll take her in, if you die before she's an adult." It had to be said I didn't know anything about kids. But I would do anything for family and Charlie is family.
"Really?" he said as if he was hoping for this all along. "I Just don't want her to be alone Jacob. She's so young and she's already lost so much."
(End of Flashback)
The week after that I found myself signing Charlie's will. I might not have known this kid but I would help her out anyway I could.
As the years passed Charlie seemed to be getting worse, he told me the cancer was spreading. I knew he was suffering but he wouldn't tell anyone about it. His own granddaughter didn't even know he had cancer. I tried to tell him he should tell her but he would just say, "I don't want her to get all worked up over nothing." I didn't see how that was nothing. But that's how Charlie was. I was just happy he was still alive.
Then one night I get a call telling me otherwise. I haven't cried that hard since my dad died.
I didn't know how old she was because I forget to ask, but she was a minor and I gave Charlie my word. And I will never go back on my word. Billy taught me that much.
Which brings me to my own personal hell now. I was expecting a kid ten or maybe a little older. Not a gorgeous teenager.
When I first saw her I thought she was just some beautiful woman. She has this reddish brown hair that shines like bronze. And these milk chocolate colored eyes that are so big and wide. She's got this milky cream complexion with a beautiful rose blush. A blush that matches the color of her plump kissable looking lips. She has a straight yet small nose. And she's thin but soft, she's also thick in all the right places.
When our eyes met it was like everything changed. I was never one to believe in love at first sight but there it was. When they said that she was Renesmee I completely froze. My friends were laughing at me me because they totally knew what was going on with me.
It just figures that I find a woman that I actually connect with and she turns out to be the girl I'm taking in. And she's a minor and yet I still flirted with her. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
Gosh why did I flirt with her? I'm so stupid because even if she liked me back we couldn't do anything. She's a minor and one that I'm going to live with. If we ever slept together I could go to jail for statutory rape. Unless we were married. Shit, did I seriously just think that?
She's not going to screw me. And she's defiantly not going to marry me. Sometimes I take stupid to a whole new level. But ugh, I can't help it I've never felt this way before. Ever since I saw her, things feel different. I feel different.
And now here we were in the car driving to Seattle, she was asleep or was pretending to be. I didn't know for sure but the latter seemed entirely possible. I watched her, god she's so beautiful. The sun made her skin glow.
Seriously, how am I going to live with her? How could I possibly go to sleep at night knowing shes in the room next to mine. Instead of in mine, with me?
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