I didn't want to yell at him again because I had definitely did my part of wrong today too. So I let him hold me. "This may sound like I'm hitting on you…I'm not. But your really beautiful." I smiled. And it was genuine. I didn't have to force it there. I don't know what came over me. But I was just feeling happy, giddy. And I leaned into him and rested my head on his neck.
After being in the water for about an hour we got out and laid by a tree to air dry. My hair was curling up as it dried and hung a little past my past my neck. I sat up and ran my hand through the redish-brown curls. To help it dry quicker.
"Your hair is better when it's natural." Kyle said. "thanks," I said. "and your body is sick!" "What?" he asked sitting up. Oh crap! I couldn't believe I just said that aloud. I looked at him blushing. "Sorry! I didn't mean-to say-that out-loud." I looked down. He came and sat down closer to me. And waited till I lifted my head up.
I looked at him, his light blue eyes were practically bursting. He pressed his lips. "What?" I asked. "you like me." he said slowly. I stood up and he did too. "no I don't. we should get our clothes back on." I said. maybe when he had his clothes back on I could think straight. "You like me." he said again and he was right beside me as I was walking. I turned to him. "you like me Renesmee you know your lying-" the next thing happened so fast it was hard to really understand.
I pushed his stomach and at the same time he grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him until his face was inches away from my mine. He looked at once to see if I was disapproving and kissed me. I don't know what it was but again like the other time. Something came over me and I just couldn't stop. I laid my hands on his chest and he still hand a grip on my hand.
But his other free hand was at my hip. His lips followed mine. I don't know how it happened but we were suddenly on the ground with out even breaking the kiss. By hands moved up to his face and his hands moved under my shirt. under my shirt! This was getting to heavy.! I had to stop. I pulled back, but it didn't work. I took my hands off his face but a few seconds later they were on his legs.
It's like I wasn't even in charge of my own body. My lips were moving but not on my command. My hands moved back up to his stomach and his hands moved down. Finally he stopped kissing me. Once he did I smacked as hard as I could. It took him back a few feet. But there was no blood, no nothing.
I felt furious. "I guess I deserve that…I'm sorry." dammit I felt so guilty now. I couldn't blame him because I couldn't control myself. I went over to him and kissed him again. Then I pulled back to see if it was going to happen again….nothing. So I kissed him again. Then pulled back.
Nothing. He looked confused and a little sacred. "Sorry. I was just a little mad because I lost control." I sighed. He leaned in and kissed me again. He placed his hand under my chin. And that's when the whole outer body experience came back. My hands were tingling while I tried to fight the urge to put them against his chest. They were just about to when he pulled back. And looked over my shoulder. I turned around.
Jacob was standing at the entrance to the woods shaking tumors rolling through his body like waves.