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Forgotten Love Story
Chapter 4 : suffering more than you know
Mikan stirred in her sleep… she woke up and rubbed her eyes. Mikan sat straight in her bed and yawned. After yesterday's events ran through her head, she quickly stood up.
"oh god! I must have fainted… that tsubasa guy brought me to my room" mumbled mikan as she fell back on her bed. She sighed deeply.
On one side there was natsume who she felt like she knew… for her it was love at the very fucking first argument… his everything captivated her… his presence alone could make her go crazy.
On the other side there was there was tsubasa… he comforted her… he felt so warm and safe… he would stand by her side no matter what would happen
Mikan yelled frustrated. "what the hell is happening to me?" said mikan loudly and frustrated. She walked out of her bed and went to shower. She sighed as the cold water hit her face.
Natsume… natsume… natsume… why is like I know this name and person?
Mikan got out of the shower and dried her hair she straightened it and wore her uniform. She let her hair glide through her fingers. "finally it is smooth" mumbled mikan as she looked in the mirror. She wanted natsume to think she was beautiful… she wanted to make him jealous. She knew she wasn't ugly, but she wanted to make herself beautiful for him. She wanted to see his reaction. The looks.
She looked at her reflection and sighed. What the hell is wrong with me?
Mikan walked out of her room towards her homeroom class. She placed her hand on her stomach and frowned. When she woke up she had this very bad feeling and it still didn't go away.
Maybe something bad will happen?
"I hope nothing happens" mumbled mikan to herself.
Natsume on the other hand hadn't slept the whole night. There was one girl on his mind the whole time…
Mikan sakura…
She was beautiful… fierce… calm and yet too familiar…
Natsume shook his head and walked to the shower. He got dressed in his uniform and walked out toward class.
Oddly enough mikan and natsume both bumped in each other in the hallway. Mikan fell on the ground and so did natsume, both winced in pain.
"hey watch ou-" natsume didn't get to finish. He started at the girl in front of him. She too looked shocked. Natsume slowly stood up and reached out his hand for her to take. Mikan didn't hesitate and grabbed his hand gently. Natsume pulled her up and they stared at each other.
"sorry" mumbled mikan as she kept looking in his alluring eyes. He was just simply mesmerizing.
Natsume gave her a nod and did nothing more than staring. The school bell made them come back from dream land. Natsume looked at the girl in front of him. She looked so beautiful… to beautiful.. wait, did she straighten her hair?
Natsume narrowed his eyes. "why did you straighten your hair" asked natsume with a rather demanding voice. Mikan looked surprised by his sudden question.
"I wanted to see how it looked" said mikan innocently. Somehow she was happy that he actually noticed. Mikan suddenly noticed they were still holding hands.
Mikan let go of natsume's hand unwillingly and both of them walked to class in silence. Natsume sighed as mikan looked at him curiously. They stopped at the door entrance. Mikan looked at the ground as her hair fell over her shoulders. natsume slid the door open to enter. He walked casually to his seat as mikan walked in after him. The silence after they entered was threatening.
Mikan walked to her seat which was next to natsume much to her pleasure… which she didn't show ofcourse.
Sumire glared at mikan. How dare she even try to look at natsume. She was a little pretty she got to admit, but she wouldn't admit it to her.
Mikan looked at her phone as she saw one incoming message from jin. She narrowed her eyes as she opened it. he never texted her. NEVER.
RUN
Mikan's eyes grew big as she stood up. run? why run? what happend with jin? did HE find him? No, no, no NOOO
Natsume was watching her all along. The look on her face as she grabbed her phone and also when the color drained from her face. She slowly stood up. He narrowed his eyes. He didn't like her worried face… she looked much more better with a smile or something like that.
Mikan stumbled out of her chair and walked towards the door. Why did it look like everything around her turned black. Why did she feel like earth was sucking her in…
She knew everyone was staring at her. She heard the nasty comments sumire gave her, but the worried looks natsume's group members gave her didn't go unnoticed by her… why did they care what happened to her?
She couldn't handle it anymore and fastened her steps. She slid the door quickly open and ran to who knows where her feats would lead her.
No, no, no, noo… please let jin be okay! Please I beg you!
Hotaru had watched the whole drama, the looks mikan was giving and the looks natsume was giving her. She too had to admit that she felt slightly worried… the girl suddenly paled and stumbled out of class. Something must had struck her like a knife to act like that.
Yesterday… she suddenly walked out of the class yesterday too… there is seriously something wrong with her… maybe I should check up on her?
The teacher arrived and looked around. "is mikan-chan absent?" asked narumi as everyone was silent. narumi sighed. He looked at hotaru and smiled.
"imai-san, will you check up on her" asked narumi as hotaru sighed. How did he know?
"whatever" mumbled hotaru as she stood up. She looked at natsume as he tried to mask his troubled face.
Are you so much worried about her natsume?
Mikan breathed heavily as she looked at her reflection in the water. She let herself fall on the ground. she was back at the lake…
"jin…" mumbled mikan as she rolled over on the grass and looked at the sky.
"I wish I could turn back time jin… It would save both you and me from HIM" said mikan as she fought back the tears.
"it still hurts jin… it still hurts so much" said mikan as she covered her face with her arms. She heard rustling sounds behind the bush. She didn't care anymore… nothing mattered.
Why do I get to live when he takes everything away from me… everything is gone…
"you plan to lie there the whole day" said a bored voice as mikan slowly removed her arms. Hotaru stood there with her arms crossed.
"how did you find me?" asked mikan out of the blue, as hotaru showed her a device.
"I can find anyone, anywhere" said hotaru as mikan shuddered at the though. Find anyone… anywhere…
Mikan slowly stood up and looked at the lake. She closed her eyes. "I don't wanna go back to class" said mikan as she heard hotaru sit on the ground. mikan opened her eyes and looked at her.
"you can go if you want" asked mikan as she saw hotaru look at the lake in peace. Mikan didn't hesitate and sat next to hotaru on the ground. both of them looking at the lake.
"memories…" said hotaru as mikan looked at her. Mikan smiled and looked back at the lake.
"memories you want to forget" added mikan sadly as hotaru looked at her. Hotaru took a deep breath as she closed her eyes. Mikan liked this feeling. Sitting here with hotaru. She was a different person, so cold yet so caring… she wanted to know her better…
"what happened" said hotaru demanding an answer. Mikan smiled sadly.
Each day reminds me of that pain.. that pain you gave me… please, release me from this pain..
"so much has happened… it is becoming so normal yet terrifying" said mikan as hotaru didn't fully understand what she meant. But she did knew that even though she was supposed to hate mikan. She just couldn't.
She also had this feeling of wanting to help her… the pain that she is suffering will only double if she opens up to natsume…
I have to stop her…
Both of them stayed at the lake for a while… the sunset looked so beautiful, wait… sunset? Hotaru looked up. They were here like hours?
"we should be getting back" said hotaru as mikan nodded. Both stood up and walked towards school… together…
As they reached the schoolyard mikan smiled at hotaru. "I am going towards the music room" said mikan as hotaru nodded. Hotaru cleared her throat.
"well… if you want to talk or something…" said hotaru not knowing how to finish that sentence. Mikan smiled.
"I will come to you" said mikan as hotaru nodded with a small smile as she walked away. Mikan gave her a last glance as she walked towards the music room. She heard a beautiful sound coming from the music room. She walked slowly as every tune hit her. She felt her knees grow weak. The sound made her feel like she was in heaven…
It sounded so pure… so full of love… she felt so wanted…
Mikan leaned against the door of the music room and slowly slid towards the ground she slowly started humming.
Mikan smiled as she closed her eyes. She didn't even notice that the music stopped. She was away in her own world as she felt someone kneel besides her. She slowly opened her eyes, only to be greeted by the one and only natsume hyuuga.
Mikan looked at him with her big innocent eyes. He felt his heart go faster by the second.
"what are you doing" asked natsume bluntly, mikan shrugged her shoulders.
"I don't know… I heard you playing, so I started listening" said mikan softly as she played with the end of her skirt. She didn't look up to meet his gaze. His eyes made her forget how to speak…
"you should have come in" mumbled natsume as he hid his eyes behind his bangs. Mikan sighed as she stood up, natsume noticed this and also stood up.
"this is wrong… you are supposed to hate me and I am supposed to… I am supposed to ignore you" said mikan as she struggled to find the right words, she looked in his eyes. His beautiful mesmerizing eyes…
"then ignore me" said natsume as he leaned forward placing his arm on the wall. Mikan didn't step backwards… she couldn't.
"ignore me" repeated natsume as mikan held his breath on her face. Her heartbeat went faster… she felt herself wanting natsume..
"… I can't" uttered mikan as she kept looking in his eyes, knowing his face was nearing… this feeling was so… so… different… she felt a need for his lips, his body, his… everything. This feeling… it rushed through her whole body and she knew she could no longer ignore natsume hyuuga's presence.
Natsume looked at the girl in front of him. He knew she couldn't ignore him, but he also knew he could no longer try to hate her… he wanted her… he needed her… his palms felt sweaty, his heartbeat was going faster… it felt like his heart would fall out any moment. This girl turned his world upside down and he just downright needed her.
If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
- Courtney Kuchta -
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i am so sorry for updating so late but i have a lot to do because of sschool-_- and also i have a lot of afterschool activities...
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