Author Notes: Companion piece to "That Guy". Blaine's pov.
When I look at you Kurt, I see someone who I wish I could be. I see someone who's talented, and funny, and just plain amazing. And I never knew how much I missed being me, until I started hanging around you. You're something special, Kurt. Something else entirely. You're outgoing, sure, you're pretty much a walking stereotype, and yeah, you might be a bit of a diva, but it's so undeniably you that I honestly couldn't imagine seeing you any other way.
I'm pretty sure I lost that part of me, transferring here. It was just so easy to blend in at Dalton, so I just did. And after what had happened at my old school, all I wanted to do was pretty much disappear, and if that meant wearing a uniform, and being that confident person, who knew what they were doing, that people expected me to be, then it was worth it. It didn't seem like a big deal at the time. Then I met one Kurt Elizabeth Hummel. I met you and I thought "This is what I've been missing, isn't it?". I know that we spend totally unhealthy amounts of time together, even before you transferred; and I know you must think I'm a total spaz, but I can't help it. Spending time with you reminds me of who I used to be, before Dalton, before the bullying. It reminds me how much I liked that guy.
I like you Kurt, more than should. And I wouldn't even think about making a move on you after what you've already been through, (at least not yet, but soon) but I can't help think that I've been sort of lying to you about who I am. You're crazy smart, so I'm not going to delude myself into thinking that you haven't already noticed the difference between me at Dalton, and me with you anywhere else. To be honest, I have no idea what I should do, let alone say to you about that. But knowing you, you'll call me out on it eventually. And maybe that's what I'm waiting for, because ironically, I'm too much of a coward to step up and confront you about it first. I don't want to mess this up, Kurt, because I seriously think you might be the best thing that's happened to me. Ever.