Understanding Hurt
Chapter 3: The New Kid
The next day, as Serena gets her books out of her locker she noticed a boy she's never seen before a few lockers down. She closed her locker and walked to her first period, English. Darien turned and watched as she walked by him.
As Serena walked to her seat, she spotted Raye talking to a group of people. She let out a sigh, ready to take her chance. As Raye was laughing with her friends she noticed someone walking towards them. When she realized it was Serena her smile instantly fades. Serena looked away from Raye's glare and closed the gap between them still making sure they were a ways apart.
Raye stood there with her arms crossed. "What do you want?" She asked starting to tear up just by looking at Serena remembering what had happened that night.
Serena looked at the tears and felt the guilt wash over her all over again. She let out another sigh. "Raye...I'm sorry." She said looking down. "Sorry?" She asked surprised. "What makes you think that 'sorry' is going to make up for everything you did?" Her voice raised as she said this.
"Seiya told me it wasn't my fault!" Serena blurted out trying to defend herself.
Raye laughed without humor. "And you believed that?" Serena looked away for a second not wanting to answer. "You don't know how badly I wanna take back what I did!" She yelled back at her. "But that's the thing..." Raye paused as she looked away and a tear rolled down her cheek. "You will never be able to take back what you did." She shook her head slowly as a few more tears fell.
More tears started to form as Serena looked at the people beside them, who were staring. "Don't say I tried." She whispered through her tears. Raye looked at Serena with a cold, hard look one last time before turning away and ignoring just like any other day.
Serena wiped her tears before they stained her cheeks and turned around to head to her desk. She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw the boy from the hallway watching her. She felt her face turn red, wondering if he saw the fight. Darien looked at her for another second before walking to his desk. She let out a long breath and sat down at her desk and pulled out her work from her bag.
Not being able to concentrate on her work, Serena pulled out her diary starting a new entry.
Dear Diary,
I tried my hardest today. I tried to talk to Raye. She didn't want anything to do with me.
She scribbled fast, not wanting the teacher to take away her diary, the only thing she can rely on to bring out her pain.
I still love Raye as my own sister, and I always will. I just wish sometimes..that she felt the same. That we were still friends.
She closed her diary and quickly hid it under her desk before getting back to work. Darien was watching her closely as she did this. She felt someone staring at her and looked around the room and found locker boy looking at her. She looked away from him quickly, confused as to why he keeps looking at her. He slowly stood up from his desk.
Serena looked over at Raye, who is silently crying with her head laying on the desk. What have I done? She asked herself as she felt a lump rise in her throat. She looked back down at her work as tears flow down her cheeks. Darien sat next to her. "Um...hey." He said with a slight smile on his face.
She looked up slowly from her class work to the boy talking to her. "..What?" She asked her voice cracking. "Come to spy on me some more?" She asked looking back down at her work.
He laughed quietly. "Sure, I guess you can say that. But what I wanted to know," He said reaching under her desk. "Is what this is." He said as her brought up her diary.
She quickly grabbed it from him. "Its personal!" She said a little too loudly, people started looking.
"No need to freak out on me!" He said holding up his hands. "All I wanted to know is what it was, not whats inside." Then the bell rang.
She shoved her diary far into her bag then stood up, hoisting her bag up onto her shoulder and walked out of the room. Darien just sat there watching her walk away from him without another word.
After school, Serena walked out to empty court yard and sat down on the bench pulling out her diary. She flipped through the pages until she found the one she was looking for.
She gently lifts up the picture of her and Mina, just days before the accident. "Hey, Min." She whispered as tears formed in her eyes. "You know I didn't mean for any of this to happen, right?" She asked keeping her voice low, low enough for only her to hear. She ran her fingers over the smiling, blonde haired best friend she missed so much. "I owe you. Big time."