Your Sugar Sits Untouched ~Epilogue~

4 O' Clock

There lay Kaoru, arms intertwined with his lover's. Kaoru had never been happier than that moment, never felt more in love than that moment. He held Yomi's sleeping figure so close he was breathing on the other's neck. As Yomi's eyes fluttered open Kaoru placed small kisses on his lover's neck. He loved waking up before Yomi.

Yomi's hands found their way to Kaoru as he edged closer to his lover. Still partially asleep Yomi was already in a good mood, as he always was when he awoke in his lovers arms.

"Kao-chaaaaan!" Yomi muttered sleepily. Kaoru nuzzled Yomi's neck in reply. "Kaokao, I love you!" Yomi's voice slurred slightly with sleepiness.

Kaoru pulled Yomi's face closer and placed a sweet kiss on the blonde vocalist's lips. "Yomi… You mean the world to me." Kaoru whispered.

Yomi often made fun of Kaoru for all the hopelessly romantic things he said but he always loved to hear them and fell for them every time.

As Yomi pulled himself closer to his lover he let out a painful groan. Kaoru's face instantly filled with worry. He began apologizing, feeling extremely guilty.

Yomi interrupted his lover's apologies by jumping into Kaoru's arms and kissing him. "Kaoru… I love you. Don't worry. My ass doesn't hurt that bad."

Yomi loved that Kaoru was always so concerned and afraid to hurt him. He knew why too… Yomi knew how afraid Kaoru was to hurt him or lose him like he had done to Kyo. Yomi knew that Kaoru could break at any moment and become the monster he had been for years, but Yomi loved Kaoru too much to leave him.

Kaoru felt better and wrapped his arms around Yomi tightly. Yomi had never been so in love with anyone else in his entire life.

Then the two boys heard a knock at the door. It was loud and urgent sounding. Kaoru quickly got up to get dressed even though he wanted nothing more than to stay in bed with Yomi.

He rushed to the door and opened it. There, standing at the door, was Kyo.

Kyo was wearing ragged clothes, somewhat dirty and confused. For the past year Kyo had been struggling with retrograde amnesia* due to the brain damage he had sustained in the accident. Kyo's voice came out shaky and quiet but clearly audible. "I remember."

Kaoru rushed forward and hugged Kyo. For the past year Kaoru had been unable to apologize to Kyo. Kyo didn't remember what Kaoru had to apologize for and Kaoru didn't want Kyo to have to relive such horrifying memories so soon after such a traumatic incident. Now Kyo finally remembered what had happened.

"I'm so sorry Kyo. You have no idea what kind of guilt I've felt for what I've done to you." Kaoru said, crying into Kyo's shoulder.

Kyo wrapped his arms around his former abuser tightly. "Kaoru… It's okay. I forgive you."

After a moment of the continuous hugging, Yomi peeked into the room wondering what was going on. He saw the scene of Kyo and Kaoru hugging and Kaoru crying. He suddenly felt a little jealous. Kaoru had been in love with Kyo before Yomi… A thought occurred to Yomi that Kaoru could leave him for Kyo but he brushed the thought aside knowing he was overreacting.

Kyo finally began to pull away from the hug and spotted Yomi. He instantly ran over to Yomi and wrapped to shorter man in a tight hug. Yomi was surprised by Kyo's actions but returned the hug anyway.

Kyo pulled away from the shorter vocalist, tears running down his face. "I'm sorry to have interrupted your time together. I didn't know where else to go." Kyo said in a near whisper voice.

"It's fine, Kyo! I'm so happy to see you've remembered everything." Yomi replied cheerfully.

"Yeah…" Kyo let a moment of awkward silence pass between them before speaking up again. "So what have I missed?"

Kaoru and Yomi took Kyo out to lunch and explained what had happened while Kyo was away.

In the hospital, Kyo's heart had stopped beating. Nurses had rushed in to help him. He was dead for a little over three minutes. But by the time his condition was stabilized, Hitsugi had disappeared. For the following weeks, Kyo was unconscious. He'd sustained brain damage causing retrograde amnesia. Finally, Kyo woke up. The first word out of his mouth was "Hitsugi". Kaoru knew that Kyo wasn't his anymore. What happened after that was a little tricky to explain. As soon as Kyo was well enough to be released from the hospital, he left. He never told anyone where he was going or anything so Kaoru didn't know what happened to him after that. But after that Yomi and Kaoru became good friends. Yomi had often visited Kyo in the hospital to see if Hitsugi was there since he'd not heard anything from his friend. And after a while, Kaoru and Yomi's friendship progressed and then one day, all of the sudden, they were lovers.

Kyo listened intently to everything but was slightly disturbed by the lack of news about Hitsugi. Then Kaoru told him about the call he'd made to Hitsugi but how Hitsugi hung up before Kaoru could explain anything.

Kyo really wanted to know more about what happened to Hitsugi. Kyo loved Hitsugi. But he knew he's wasted the past year. Hitsugi had probably found someone else. It had been such a long time.

Kyo's stomach twisted itself into knots, wondering if Hitsugi still loved him or even remembered him. "Do you know where Hitsugi is now?" Kyo asked nervously.

Kaoru and Yomi gave each other an odd look. Kaoru hesitated. "Well… no…" Kaoru answered nervously.

Kyo sank down into his seat. "I have to find him…" Kaoru and Yomi sat silently.

"WAIT! I think I know how to find him!" Kaoru said, excitedly.

Kyo's facial expression asked the question Kyo didn't feel the need to put into words.

Within the next hour Kaoru had found the address of Hitsugi's current residence.

….

Hitsugi was in his room playing an old Nightmare song. Lost in the Blue. There was a gentle knock on the door. Hitsugi continued to play the song, ignoring the visitor. After a few minutes of persistent knocking, which was beginning to make Hitsugi miss several notes, Hitsugi got up to answer.

When he opened the door he saw a short, blonde, trembling man. The man was probably a few years older than Hitsugi, dressed in new, clean, darkly colored clothes, dark eyes and long hair. "Hitsugi…." The man whispered.

Hitsugi's face was blank, completely expressionless as he stared at the blonde man at his door.

"Hitsugi? Are you okay? Don't you remember who I am?" The man's eyebrows knotted with worry. But Hitsugi's face remained blank.

"Kyo." Hitsugi whispered. "You're Kyo." Kyo's stomach was so knotted up in nervousness that he could hardly stay standing up. "Come in."

Kyo walked inside Hitsugi's new apartment. He looked around, seeing blank, grey walls and a lack of furniture. It was almost completely different from Yomi and Kaoru's residence which was painted in warm, welcoming colors and beautiful furniture.

Hitsugi closed the door behind Kyo and turned and stared at his guest.

"Hitsugi…" Kyo started. "I know I've been gone for a long time. I'm really sorry." Kyo explained everything that had happened to him in the hospital. Hitsugi stood silently and stared.

"Hitsugi?" Kyo whispered. He'd finished his story but Hitsugi just stared blankly. By this time Kyo was on edge and Hitsugi's lack of response wasn't helping. "Hitsugi! Say something!" Kyo shouted. Hitsugi didn't respond. Kyo grabbed Hitsugi's shoulders and shook him. "Hitsugi!"

It was like Hitsugi was dead. How numb he'd become to block out the pain. But the moment Kyo touched him he'd realized that it wasn't the Kyo who haunted his dreams at night. It was the real Kyo. He was there. Alive. Hitsugi felt the numbness of the past year leave him.

He lurched forward, kissing Kyo. It took Kyo by surprise but Kyo returned the kiss.

Hitsugi wrapped his arms around his lover, finally returned to him. "Kyo, I love you." He said in between the kisses and tears. Kyo buried his face into Hitsugi's neck taking in the sweet smell and soft touch of his lover that he had been deprived of for the past year.

"I love you so much Hitsugi... Don't you dare leave me again!"

"I won't. I promise…."

* Retrograde amnesia: When you forget everything that has happened to you before you developed the amnesia. Usually caused by brain damage.

(Author's Note: I know…. The epilogue wasn't posted "soon"… I'm sorry, I've been busy! Anyway… I hope you enjoyed it and I hope it made up for chapter nine.

Thanks to everyone who has read this! Thanks to Katy for motivating me to finish! Thanks to my mom for buying me a new computer so I COULD finish! So Thank you to everyone who helped me get through this who thing!

It's 10 chapters. Exactly as I planned! I love that I finally finished. The ending worked out so beautifully too! Been working on it since April…

I hope everyone enjoyed it! Kinda sad now that this is all over but it's such a relief to be done.

Anyway, thanks again for reading or reviewing!)