Understanding Hurt

Chapter 11: Serena's Double, no, Triple Hurt

Serena's POV

It wasn't hard for me to just give up. I didn't have to fight with myself, to stay alive, anymore. Since he called me, those four nights ago, telling me he was leaving, with no goodbye, take care of yourself, or we will stay in touch, nothing was exactly the same.

No...that's a nice way of putting it. The reality is, it's more than 'nothing is exactly the same'. It's the fact that he came here and tried so hard to mend my broken heart, and break past the wall, that I was keeping up so strong, that let people actually help me. He wanted to be there for me, and to know that some really cares, was more than enough for me.

When he left, he left behind my heart, which he shattered more than it had been before. I see no reason for living. Seiya's too busy with work now these days, that he doesn't notice how much I'm hurting anymore.

I was curled up in my bed, nearly lifeless. My room is pitch black, even though my clock reads its noon. I don't feel hungry anymore. I really don't feel nothing anymore.

As I thought about this, my stomach started growling yelling at me to feed it. But I ignored my screaming stomach, and forced myself to sleep. There was a loud knock on my door, making me flinch from the ear piercing sound that filled my dark, quiet room.

I didn't answer the person on the other side of the door. Instead, I turned my limp body over and buried my head further into my pillow and pulled my covers further up my body until it touched by chin.

"Serena?" I heard Seiya say from the other side of the door. Man his voice seemed so loud! I moaned and pressed my hand to my forehead.

"Serena, you need to come out of your room. You haven't left it since Darien left."

Darien... The sound of his name made my stomach turn. I miss him so much. And Mina... Wow, I haven't thought about her in so long. Darien made me forget about her when he was around. It was nice. He always tried so hard to help me...and he did, every second. Even when he thought he didn't...he did.

Normal POV

Amara threw the strap of her bag over her shoulder. "You sure your going to be alright?"

"Yeah...yeah." Darien said looking up at Amara from his hands.

"If you need anything," She said as she opened the door. "Anything at all." Then she turned and looked at Darien. "I'm just a phone call away."

"Yeah, thank you Amara." He said smiling giving her a small sincere smile.

"Tell Serena I said hello. She seemed like a sweet girl."

"Um, maybe." He said looking back down at his hands.

"What do you mean 'Maybe'?" She asked as she adjusted the strap on her shoulder. "Isn't the reason you decided not to leave, was because of her?"

"Yeah she is..but I think it would be better if I stayed at a distance, and just...watch over her."

"Why would you want to stay at a distance, Darien? If you really like her, like you say you do, then that would be the stupidest thing you could do." She advised him.

"You don't understand." He said laughing once without humor. "Whenever I try to help her, she just pushes me away, or tries to hurt herself. All I'm doing is making things worse."

Amara paused for a brief moment as she studied Darien's face. "I'm not sure what your talking about...but if you claim to be making things worse, then why did you decide, last minute, to stay?"

He looked at her in deep thought with sadness in his eyes. "Because I love her and I need to keep her safe."