I wake up to blindingly bright lights were the hell am I I thought to myself I try to reopen my eyes I immediately got a killer migraine I looked around everything was white. I looked down and saw my arm was in a brace, all the memories started flooding back suddenly I felt a surge of panic course thru my veins. My mom walks in with a frown and cup of coffee she realizes I'm up and her smile is bigger then I've seen in a long time
"Oh baby you awake you really gave us a scare there"
"Where's Eli?"
"Are you hungry you've been out for a while" she says after hesitating.
"Mother I'm fine but I do need one thing"
"What is it" she said eager to help in any way
"I need Eli now is he?"
"Look Clare this isn't the time we will have time to talk in a bit I'm going to go get the doctor"
"mother!" it was too late her mom hurried out avoiding giving Clare the heart wrenching new how could she tell her daughter her boyfriend is gone and not coming back Eli was the first boy to truly make Clare happy she couldn't possibly tell her.
"Ms Edwards lovely of you to join us that was some nasty accident you found yourself in wasn't it"
"Umm I don't really remember"
"That's common nothing to worry about if you need anything just tell your nurse her Gloria have a nice day I'll be back to check how your doing in the morning" the doctor said as he began to leave
"Wait doctor my boyfriend Elijah Goldsworthy, he was also there can you tell me what room he is in?" the doctor looked at my mother and she gave him a guilty look what is going on? I tried to say but when I opened my mouth nothing came out I was mute with fear were is Eli why will no one tell me is he that bad its all my fault I need to hear him I need him to hold me. Little did Clare Eli's days of doing anything of comforting her were over.
"I'll leave you two alone" the doctor said
"Look Clare sometimes things happen for reason no one knows of"
"Cut the crap what room is Eli in?"
"None"
"What well what hospital is he in we have to go see him"
"We can't" her mother began to sob the realization was starting to sink in for Clare but her brain couldn't wrap around what her mother was saying he could… no it's impossible
"Yes we can! Come on mom we have to go, we have to go!" Clare tried to get out of bed to grab her pants she fell straight to the floor her mother rushed over to help her up
"DON'T TOUCH ME! WERE'S ELI? I NEED ELI!"
"Clare honey I'm so sorry Clare looked into her mothers eyes tear rolling down her face uncontrollably
"no…he… he… no" she couldn't even talk right she could believe this it was all of her dumb fault she talked him into it how could she be so dumb she knew it wasn't safe and she didn't care now she has the biggest regret of the century on her shoulders
"I'm so sorry Clare"
By Monday everyone knew about the accident people dropped by to see if Clare was okay and every time she told her mom the same thing
"Tell them I'm not home" people would call her cell phone it got to the point were she threw it against the wall and then took a hammer to it because the one call she wanted would never come
Her mother forced her to go to school if it were up to her she would stay in her room forever she wore sweats she didn't care what anyone thought.
As soon as she stepped in the hall people started whispering and point as if she turned blind. She sighed and went to her locker
"Hey Clare I'm really sorry about what happen do you want to talk about it?" Jenna asked but Clare just shut her locker and went to class I walked in to English and felt the pain escalate seeing his empty seat right before my eyes fresh tears ran down my face.
I felt someone's hand on my shoulder it was Jenna, don't get me wrong I love Jenna but she brought too many memories [1] of all the good times between me, Eli, her, and k.c. would double date. When they all took me out for a surprise birthday surprise when we all spent the whole day at the mall but getting kicked out for being too loud I felt more tear and grabbed my books then ran out ignoring Ms. Dawes calls after me.
I ran and ran I had no idea were I was going but what I did know was I couldn't stop it began to rain how appropriate I still couldn't stop I just ran I collapsed on my front lawn crying yet again how can I survive in a place were I'm surrounded with nothing but painful memories I just can't do this I ran inside
"Mom! You home?" I yelled no reply good I thought it makes this easier I ran to my room and locked the door behind me afraid she'd come home early and catch me
I started grabbing all the clothes I could fit in my suit case and ran to my mother's room I grabbed my emergency credit card and went to her desk I wrote a quick note
"Dear mom,
I love you and dad I know you still love each other I think you should go after him I'm leaving I don't know were to but I can't stay her it's too much too many memories I need a fresh start I'm sorry to leave you like this I'm a coward I need him we will be together again but I don't know when
Love always Clare"
I grabbed my bag and ran out side I turned and said one last Farwell to this house on the way to the train station I saw an old couple walking holding hands I cried and ran the rest of the way I got on the train and never turned back heading towards nothing but misery and loneliness were my only comfort is running I wasn't running from someone or to someone I was just running
What did ya think? I hope it didn't suck too bad! The running thing really helps well in my case at my dads burial I couldn't take it so I ran I didn't have anywhere to go but I had to get out of there it's therapeutic to me [1] in my story K.C. and Clare never dated they were all best of friends well bye
~ally=)